I can see the good and the bad in people.
Red and blue are what I see. Throughout my life, people have come in many different shades of purple.
We all have the capacity for good and bad within us. Our shades of purple depend on whether we choose to listen more to the angel or to the demon on our shoulders.
But there are those that have no angel at all.
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I can see the good and the bad in people. I've had this ability since I was a young girl. It appears to me as an aura around the person, emanating from their heart space. Red and blue are what I see. Red for bad, blue for good. Simple stuff. Though human beings are not that simple. Red and blue mixed make purple. Throughout my life, people have come in many different shades of purple. We all have the capacity to do good or bad. Our shades of purple depend on whether we listen to the angel on our shoulders or the demon. But there are those that have no angel at all.
One instance was in a church, of all places. An acquaintance of mine invited me to a Sunday mass at her community's church. She was very braggadocios with her invitation, telling me all about the beauty of the building and the status of her community. She was the kind of woman who cared too much about how she looked and what people thought about her. All the while, she judged others for those same insecurities. She was a little on the red side of purple. Just a little. I didn't think too much of it. She wasn't bad, just superficial. So I said yes.
When I walked into the church that Sunday, I was immediately on guard. There was a worrying amount of red-violet people walking around. They smiled their false smiles and spoke their false well wishes to each other. One of them came up to me, a woman. She was decked all in red. Red dress, red lips, red fingernails and toenails, and an almost red aura. She looked me up and down as she walked over. It was slight and quick, but I saw her nose wrinkle and the corners of her lips turned down. I suppose she wasn't a fan of my hand-me-down cotton dress on my plain brown flats. Her wide smile snapped back into place, and she greeted me with a high voice, speaking loudly enough for others to hear. She was apparently one of the ushers. I told her I was invited by an acquaintance and asked if I could be seated with her. Apparently not.
“Oh, newcomers sit at the back, sweetie,” she said, showing me to one of the pews in a dark corner of the church. I was the only one sitting there, which was strange for such a large church.
The building itself was quite grand. It really was as beautiful as I was told. It had tall ceilings with Victorian-esque chandeliers and large, colourful stained glass windows that lined the walls. They depicted in grand detail The Passion of Christ. Statues of St. Mary, Jesus Christ, and various Angels and saints painted in gold and jewel tones stood tall near the altar. The altar itself looked more like a performance stage. I could see stage lights all around. the priest's chair looked more like a throne, tall, wide and covered in rich purple velvet and what looked like precious gems. Very pretty, but unnecessary. I sat there uncomfortably, taking in the church and watching the people, seeing very few of a blue hue.
My final straw was when the priest came in with all the altar servers and lectures. As we all stood for their entrance, I noticed how everyone was placed. All the people grew redder the closer to the altar they were. Then I saw the priest at the end of the procession. Decked out in his white robes, he glowed a deep, blood red, brighter than I'd ever seen and I was immediately filled with dread and horror. I didn't care how it looked, I got up and power-walked down the aisle. I ran when I heard someone call out. I refused to stay in the same space as someone so vile as to have the aura of blood.
The acquaintance and I are no longer familiar.
Another instance happened when I was a teenager and thankfully, it was just in passing. My friends and I were at the mall, just hanging out. Those were our ‘window shopping’ days, when we had nothing but lint in our pockets, having spent all our allowances as soon as we got them. I'm a lot better at managing my money these days. We sat in the food court, nibbling on the sandwiches that we brought from home. we were people watching, well boy watching to be more accurate. Ooo-ing and Aah-ing over boys and men that were too old for us.
My friend, Sharon had pointed him out to us, her eyes wide with awe. The other girls were no better, openly staring at him with gaping mouths. It was obvious why. He was beautiful in an etheric way. He was tall and slim with dark brown skin that contrasted with his pure white afro hair. He wore it in a loose ponytail at the base of his neck. He wore all white. White short-sleeved button-up shirt, white trousers, and white sneakers with not a speck of dirt on them. He was looking down at a little black book he held in one hand as he walked by. His other hand gently grazed his sharp jawline. That drew our attention to his strong nose, plump lips and the long, dark lashes that framed his eyes.
“Oh my gosh, he looks like an anime boy!” my friend, Ali whisper-squealed.
The others chimed in with their agreement. I was watching his back as he left our sight with a sinking feeling in my stomach. Because that was the first time I'd ever seen a person glowing so red. his aura was the colour of rubies and it beamed out of him in tentacle-like rays, like a red sun.
“That one's your pick huh, Cici?” Sharon teased, elbowing me out of my trance. I force the giggle I'm trying to ignore the roiling in my stomach. I prayed to never see that boy again.
I have seen and met people that were fully blue. All of them were babies and small children, pure souls untouched by the darkness of the world. They start to become tinged with red by the time they're about ten years old. Children can be cruel, after all. I have yet to meet a blue adult. They don't exist. By the time we’ve reached that age, we’ve seen, experienced and done too much to not be tinged with red. This doesn't mean that I haven't met any good people. There are many good people walking this earth, contrary to popular belief. They come in different shades of violet and blue-violet. I'm glad to say that I see them daily among the reds.
Today, though, I ran into someone. Well, it’s more like they ran into me. They came barreling into me out of nowhere from among the crowd. I'm a small woman, so I went flying, hitting the ground hard. Thankfully, I had nothing to spill. My tailbone wasn't too happy though.
“I am so sorry, miss!” said a male voice.
I looked up at the man. he was holding out a hand to me with an apologetic look on his face. And he was still talking, probably still apologizing, but I couldn't help but stare. He was an average-looking man, his appearance a bit dishevelled. He had a mess of brown curls atop his head and a face dotted with small red pimples. He was in need of a shave, with a five o’clock shadow going across his face and down the underside of his chin. He had nice teeth though. They were straight and clean and so were his short nails. He wore a slightly oversized t-shirt and jeans and smelled faintly of fabric softener. A battered grey messenger bag hung off his shoulder.
His appearance was not what stalled me. It was his aura. his bright blue-like-the-sky aura.
In the midst of my shock, I didn't remember taking his hand and him pulling me up to stand. I came back to the present as he awkwardly patted me on the shoulder, still apologizing and then off he went, once again almost running through the crowd of people. I watched him go, his blue aura shining bright amongst the sea of purple. I looked on until I could no longer see him.
I gripped the strap of my shoulder bag tightly. I looked around at the violets and blue violets at the red violets and darker. I was worried. For the first time in my life, my sight failed me. A blue adult does not exist. I stand by that. I glanced back in the direction the man went.
So how do I explain him?
Women were NOT put on this earth to serve men, get married as soon as they turn 18 and pop out a hundred and one babies before 25.
Women were put on this earth to serve GOD and glorify him in everything that they do. Marriage and motherhood is one way, not the way.
Hello! Just wanted to ask what you think about the idea in the fandom that Shang might be bisexual because he was in love with Ping before he knew Ping was actually Mulan?
It’s silly, and stupid. It’s the product of people mistaking any kind of “positive reaction” for “romantic love.”
Shang is impressed that Ping can fight well, especially since he’s the one working toward that goal—having trainees who can fight better than he found them—and people think that pleased/impressed facial expression must mean he was in love with a man.
Shang is glad at least someone is on his side, based on his own merit, not just base on his parentage—and he happens so be glad enough to show a tiny half smile over one shoulder—so people think that tiny half smile means he’s in love with a man.
Shang’s life is saved by Ping, who breaks the rules, breaks ranks, and disobeys a direct order—the complete polar opposite of discipline-focused-character Shang—and so he shows concern when Ping collapses—so people think that concern must mean he was in love with a man.
There are many and varied shades to human emotion. It is not “totally impassive” OR “wildly in love.” A smile doesn’t mean one character is in love with another. Joking together doesn’t mean one character is in love with another. Concern when one character is injured does not mean one character is in love with another. Growing up together and remaining close through hardships does not mean one character is in love with another. Bickering doesn’t mean one character is in love with another.
Romantic love is a conscious choice that might get its inception from an involuntary moment of attraction. But everything else about it has a beginning moment, and that beginning moment is when Character A consciously thinks, “what if me and Character B got together romantically?” Shang does not have that moment until he’s on the steps of the Emperor’s palace. He has a changed perspective, he has admiration, he even has camaraderie, but he does not have “what if me and Mulan got together romantically?” until after the fight is over and it’s time to evaluate who they are to each other.
People have a desperate desire to make every positive or barely-kind interaction between two people be the utmost peak of all affection, instantly, and it’s sad. It shows either an obsession with sexual desire or a desperation to see “romantic love, which is the Peak of All Interactions” in everything.
Daily Doodles- Day 42- 28/05/24
She looks like a ghost girl with this soft blue coloured pencil I use, so let's just go with that! 👻👻👻
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Daily Doodles- Day 122- 15/08/24
Cloud haired girl!
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Daily Doodles- Day 147- 09/09/24
Another nature cluster doodle! I plan to make some of these for sticker art!
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Daily Doodles- Day 101- 28/07/24
Another attempt at drawing an OC of mine 😅 He's cute, but he's not the vibe.
I obviously need to look back on some old art.
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This was part of my final assignment for the writing course I took in 2022.
The project was a book framework where we did a basic outline for a story. We had to outline a whole book, from the copyright page to acknowledgements and all.
It was quite helpful actually! I would have never thought to do something like that in the planning stages.
This was for my potential novel-length story called 'Reluctant Jamette'. It's about a young woman unwillingly given these demonic powers around the same time her part of the country is being attacked by these spirits called jumbies.
She and a sort of friend are trying to figure out how to get rid of the powers and end up uncovering their sinister origins.
WhOooOOOoOoOo!
Read the summary of my potential story below:
‘Shrouded in black and clownish adornment
Her new normal she found abhorrent
Pulled away from her mundane life
She is forced to battle with demons that were not hers to fight’
Jumbies, mischievous and malevolent spirits have been plaguing East Trinidad for months and Twenty-three-year-old Tamika Ramsahai was the one chosen by a mysterious power to unwillingly defend against their attacks.
Not interested in protecting a public that scorns her at every turn, Tamika’s goal is to find a way to get rid of the powers once and for all.
Through battling jumbies that carry cryptic messages and her co-worker who knows a little too much about her situation for her own good, Tamika starts to realise that these powers may have a darker intent behind them.
Daily Doodles- Day 182- 18/10/24
This week was a rough one and I was tired, so I just did a simple doodle of a girl with her hair blowing in the wind.
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