Me All Day Every Day 

i keep having nightmares where he comes back and finds me and hurts me and no one tries to help me

my crush just sent me a very sweet and supportive voice message

i think it’s the healthiest crush i’ve ever had

am happy

one of my classmates figured out what i did yesterday and she texted me this morning to know how i was doing and she spent the day giving me supportive looks, not pitiful ones and i'm truly grateful

Pls

me: *sad at 3am*

'[crush's name] replied to your story'

me: am happy 🥺

currently in a room with both my crushes and i think my heart's gonna stop or something

so much pressure but so much happiness at the same timeeeeee

James: Who ate my leftovers?!

Sirius: Who ate my brother’s ass?

James, blushing: ...Okay. *Leaves quickly*

i just realized that this sounded creepy as if i was just standing there and staring at them or something 

but hum i’m actually friends with both of them so i basically have random conversations with them and at the same time my heart goes awwww these eyes and i lose focus

also i don’t think they know each other

that’s it

currently in a room with both my crushes and i think my heart's gonna stop or something

so much pressure but so much happiness at the same timeeeeee

thinking about the day someone will actually read my tumblr and find out it's about them-

i'll be so embarrassed and ashamed

my life’s literally falling apart

i’m giving up on everything and everyone, i’m isolating myself and barely answering the few dms i get, i spend my time avoiding my ‘friends’, my crush still ignores me in the hallways, my coping mechanisms stopped working and my autodestructive behaviors are back

the only kind thing i received in days is a text from my crush cheering me up

idk how to describe the life i’m ‘living’ but i definitely didn’t sign up for this