SOS, WHY DOES ALT ADAM IN VOL 5 LEAKS LOOKS SO GOOFY YET CUTE, I MEAN I WANNA SQUEEZE HIM SO TIGHT HE'S

"It's just a phase. You just haven't got enough activities!"

So 3 years of suicidal thoughts it's a joke for you? Are you REALLY SURE that I haven't got depression or other mental illness? Ok, then. We'll watch what my BRAIN CELLS will say on it.

(I really hope that my electroencephalography will show that I'm NOT OKAY. Maybe, some people and bots are right, that I may suffering from depression...)

I wanna create a bot, but idk which one, send requests, Ig

Sometimes it amuses me how if epileptic will have 6 seizures in one day, they will be hospitalised immediately and given treatment, while with dyskensias they just... Give the "Well, damn, but you're conscious during seizures." Yeah, I am, but why the fuck I had 6 in a row?? Sometimes, I think that tearing my ligament wouldn't be as hard as getting treatment, lol.

Why people can't just use it/its or they/them for me? Y'all think that you'll blow up, or what?

I don't understand why some people think that I need partner, fiancé and etc. Why just they don't get the fact that I don't need relationship, if I ever will wanna live with someone, I'd choose live with friends, but I guess that it's better to live alone in your own house.

Also the same story with pronouns, why when I use she/her everything's okay, but when I start to use they/them I just "trying to seek attention", or when people mispronounce you, and it's was done on purpose. Do they really think that my personality will change because of pronouns?

Some people are just: "we're tolerant! we would never bully or laugh at anyone!"

And then they see a disabled person, and start to laugh at them, or say "you're just pretending!" shit

I'm f#cked up.

I'm tired, I'm tired of everything. All my hobbies became a daily routine, and I don't feel anything towards them. My friends started to avoid me after my vents, and I completely understand this. I'm tired of school, and I haven't got any straight to just get up or change clothes after school. All I think about is s3lf-h@rm and how much I want to commit su!c!de. I feel like my life is trying to force me to do it. I feel like it'll happen. And I know that I will commit su!c!de.

I wanna comm!t su!c!de on my birthday. I'll be free. I'll get rid of the pain. And when I do it, everyone will be happy.

I'm sorry mom for being a bad daughter. I'm sorry for the bad grades, but now... You don't need to worry about them<3

19.03.2024.

I wish, when I commit suicide someone will write song about me, or become an example why you should give attention to your kid. Even few tribute groups will be enough.

I have Facebook acc, so maybe, one day I'll start livestream where I'll kms... But for now we'll just wait.

I wish I was hated in all my social media, so I could cut myself, not thinking about that someone is caring for me.