" What Made You So Afraid Of People Getting Too Close?"

I was born with reds and violets tattooed on my stomach, shards of glass in my eyes and scars on my back. I never really knew how to talk in a velvety voice or hold flowers in my hands without crushing them in the process. The love introduced to me isn't the kind of love that'd wish you sweet dreams. The love I've known brought me nightmares with me crying, laughing at my fallen tooth on the carpet.

So please be patient with me. I'm still learning not to destroy the things I love.

---H.Asteid🍁

" You gave me no other choice but to be strong."

-H.Asteid

You're the winter that will never warm up to me

And the autumn that will never fall for me.

-H.Asteid

"Trust me on this. After a millisecond in the middle of the highway or free falling in midair or after kicking the chair or when your lungs are already filled with water, only then will you realize that death isn't what you wanted, that you just want to be genuinely happy again. But it would be too late. It would all be too late."

-H.Asteid

" And my biggest mistake was loving you more than I could ever love myself."

-H.Asteid

“You can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.”

— Stephen King

"Go and wander my love

See the world and reach your dreams

Because if we're really meant to be,

God will ALWAYS gravitate you back to me."

-H.Asteid

" I was more attracted to him than he was to me.

And it really scared me.

-H.Asteid

"I'm scared." Looking up at the night sky, trying not to fall apart.

I felt him scoot closer to me.

"Scared of what?"

I hesitated for a moment.

" I... I'm scared of the thought that this might be the last time I'll be making coffee for my Dad, the last time I'll iron and fold his clothes. I'm scared of the thought of his heart breaking when I'm not here anymore.

I'm so scared that I feel like I won't be able to witness the sun shine again, that today might be my last day."

I said looking down at my shaking hands, suddenly ashamed of my revelation.

But his next words gave my heart a sense of something foreign...Hope.

" You're scared.

Isn't that enough reason to stay?"

-H.Asteid