What The Actual Fuck Is Going On

i wish i had a window seat with lots of pillows that i could sit in and drink tea and read books in and watch the rain in

05/04/20

19:07

If you find that person

Who doesn’t tell you what the right thing is to wear, is always happy to take you anywhere

Who doesn’t take their lows out on you remorselessly, and doesn’t take all of your lows so damn personally

If you find that person

Who can put up with all your crap, can always see right through and know you’re more than that

Doesn’t try to change you, force you to fit their mould

That’s something you should pursue, watch it turn to gold

And it will, I’m certain,

If you find that one person

Who will ask you how you’re doing, has nothing to prove and will hold your hand whenever they can see a storm brewing

Encourage, motivate, feed you when you’re tired and it’s late

Maybe love will be great

But that’s only if you find that person

School Mindset

how to get into the academia mindset and look forward to romanticizing school and studying, while making it more enjoyable

1) Spice up your uniform, by adding jewelry, perfume, hair accessories and keeping your uniform neat and tidy

2) Bring a book to school every day, even if you don’t read it, you can feel like rory gilmore :)

3) Choose your personality for the year, but don’t forget to be yourself at heart. You can be mysterious but also be yourself around the friends you make.

4) Study hard for tests, light a candle when doing so and write by the warm flickering glow.

5) Make a playlist for your journey to and from school, including your favorite music and some of the songs which set you up for the day.

6) Get up a little earlier (unless you are like me and physically can’t get up until you are at least 10 minutes behind schedule) to make sure you can spend time on your hair or makeup if that’s something you enjoy.

7) Try your best to be confident, and be friendly to people around you. At least be approachable as this will help you gain real popularity and not just the fake type.

8) Enjoy every moment and romanticize every detail in your day, from the rain on the windows of your school while you study in chemistry, or laughing with your friends over lunch.

9) Make an effort to switch up your study location, for example in a coffee shop, a park, or a library.

10) Enjoy yourself, because your education experience (although you learn throughout your life) doesn’t last forever. make the most of it while you can, and make memories that stay with you forever.

ps. don’t take yourself too seriously :)

Ways to deal with anxiety or panic/anxiety attacks a guide by yours truly, Kleo

Breathing

This may sound weird but proper breathing can be super helpful. Sometimes we aren't breathing the way we are supposed to due to anxiety.

you can focus on whichever gif feels right for you :)

2. The grounding method

This is what usually helps with panic attacks but can also help with anxiety attacks :)

take a deep breath and look around the place you're in.

Then either write,say it aloud or just in your head

5 things you can see

4 things you can feel/touch

3 things you can hear

2 things you can smell

1 thing you can taste

It helps distract your brain but if it doesn't work try playing a game or talk with your friends/family

3. Safe place (it would help if you had someone read it to you the 1st time or put it on google translate and it can say it to you)

If you're home lay down on your bed, if you're somewhere else sit comfortably on chair and close your eyes. Imagine you're not here anymore, you're somewhere where you feel safe and secure. What do you see? There are animals around, they love you and they care about you, you mean a lot to them. What kind of animals are around? There is a form of water there. What form is it? You're at peace there, nothing can hurt you. You feel happier. Someone says hello. Who is it? The wind is calming and sweet. Your favourite smell lingers in the air and you know that you will be okay. Stay there as long as you need.

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I hope this helps :) drink water and stay safe everyone ily<33

you know what my perfect gift would be? an annotated copy of your favourite book. i don’t just mean a couple of tabs, i mean annotated. i mean highlighted to the ends of the earth, pages black with scribbled annotations, entire pages underlined and captioned ‘THIS’. i want to see tear stains on the pages, corners bent from when you threw it across the room, spine broken because you were too absorbed in the story to care. i want paragraphs of you yelling at characters, i want your witty remarks and sarcastic comments, i want your little doodles in the margins. because then you’re not just giving me a book. you’re giving me a little piece of yourself, and i think that’s the best gift you could give.

i think the funniest and realist thing i’ve realized lately is how troubling idealization can be. every person is just… a person. the very people you want to impress or be apart of are just people. even if they seem wildly intimidating because of the way they look or because of their reputation, every one is just a person. human. as embarrassing, as remorseful and they are going through stages of growth just like you are. we only see what we want to see and then drown ourselves further in our own depression and we don’t have to.

I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

Autumn is Gilmore girls and coffee.

L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables

the most beautiful words in the english language

ineffable — indescribable, unspeakable

eudaemonia — the state of consummate happiness

sumptuous — extremely costly, luxurious, magnificent

nadir — the lowest point (of something abstract)

lassitude —tiredness, lack of energy

scintilla — a spark or a trace of something

aurora — the dawn

quintessential — perfectly typical or representative of a particular kind of person or thing

renaissance — revival

bodacious — remarkable, admirable

ebullience — the quality of excitement and enthusiasm