Oftentimes It Is The Only Thing That Helps Me Get Out Of Bed In The Morning

You know my blog doesn’t have a theme I get interested in random fandoms and post whatever shit comes to my mind

And I am very sorry guys

Sitting in front of my crush in a coffeeshop on a cold February evening while she was reading dressed in a long dusty pink dress is the epitome of desperate attraction I've felt so far

I think I lost the ability to form full sentences during this quarantine

i hate having to like…………….. articulate my ideas

myasiantv.ac we gotta talk

Where the fuck is my new The Judge from Hell episode

I can't believe people with a disney+ subscription can watch it and not me

Damn you capitalism

I am:

A line without a hook

Looking for:

A lady

Entering your Productive™ phase for exactly 24 minutes a day, if you miss it, you're screwed

Adding 3848037 new books to your list, never finishing any

Getting interested in something and then dropping it 2 hours later

Trying to organize a study group with your friends but your meetings turn into heated discussions about the futility of getting a degree

Putting off your hw to the next morning on the condition that you wake up earlier - you never do

Modern chaotic academia things:

(think dark academia minus the grace)

Coffee and cigarettes for breakfast

That hazy, grey sky, empty city feeling you only get when you're unwilling awake at 5:30 am

Being pulled aside by your teacher cos the last paper assignment you handed in smelt of weed

TEA AND COFFEE STAINS EVERYWHERE

Hurriedly doing your homework/coursework that's due in 30 minutes on the train to school

Experimenting with strange sleep patterns to see if it helps you study

Spending more time taking dark academia aesthetic photos than actually working on said academia

It is impossible to work without a podcast or lofi hip hop in the background

Or without listening to the accompaniment music to your favourite musical theatre songs

Buying and stockpiling ultra sour/spicy food to keep you awake

Being able to locate your nearest bizzaar shop with frightening accuracy and making after-school trips there

Believing more in your good luck charms and crystals than your actual ability for exams

W H I S K E Y

Memorising strange Latin phrases solely because they sound thought provoking when translated

Hyperfocusing on work at 1 am

Commuting around the city with either electronic or rock music BLARING in your headphones but listening to quiet podcasts when you're alone in your room

Blowing off your studies to go out with friends but taking a book because you feel guilty

An OBSESSION with succulents

Please stop buying succulents

Trying to rock the 'office chic blouse/dress shirt with black tie' look but it ends up looking so crumpled you ressemble an actual office worker at the end of their shift

Changing the settings on your phone to try and immerse yourself in your new language, failing spectacularly and having no idea how to change it back

The above but when your keyboard settings start glitching and your texts are punctuated by nonsense from another languらたの、

Every book you own has creased pages, most of which are your doing

Going on midnight walks to clear your mind but you're instead worried you're gonna get stabbed on said walk

Memeing with teachers to the point your relationship with them feels awkward and skewed

You are the mother of at least 50 smaller school children and you know about all their problems

And my favourite:

Procrastinating by learning how to elegantly draw a curve in calculus instead of doing your calculus homework

Feel free to continue the list - I'll come back and add more if I think of any new ones.

How many times do you actually have to tell your female friend that she is incredibly beautiful and that she is a little sunshine so she would take a hint you have a crush on her?

Some of you have never confused being in love for a very close friendship and honestly

It shows

Me: I don’t care about romance movies.

Also me, the moment To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before: P.S. I Still Love You was released:

J. K. Rowling : Dumbledore was ga-

Homophobic fans over 20 : sToP rUiNiNg OuR cHildHoOd!