this was so cute! I love just the two of them talking and building it’s so relaxing, still haven’t gone out and build a lego set so this will do.
thank you again taking in my request when will i have more no clue, but I know that I can count on you to accomplish them perfectly 💕
🪻Lego Friday🪻
✨Pairing: non idol!Seonghwa x gn!reader ✨Prompt: Building a lego set with seonghwa I don’t have much of an idea around this one I just really wanna build a lego set and from watching seonghwa lego lives building with him just looks like so much fun. ✨Requested by @beabatiny🫶🏻 ✨Word Count: 0.9k ✨Genre: fluff ☀️Authors Note: Thank you for requesting this! It was fun writing and I hope you enjoy it🥰 also sorry this took me so long to write😭
"I wanna build legos."
It was announced to you as you were making some desserts for the two of you. Seonghwa was standing in the kitchen holding two enormous lego bags he had pulled out from somewhere whilst giving you the biggest puppy eyes.
"Do you want me to build legos with you?" You ask fighting back a chuckle at the way he was standing and pouting.
His little nod brought a smile to your face as you finished up the dessert.
"Then we will build legos together! Got any I can build? Nothing too complicated please!"
As you said that Seonghwa was already picking up the different lego sets he had, eager to find one you could work on.
"Baby Yoda? Or maybe some flowers?? Or both??" He holds two sets up for you showcasing one where you'd build baby Yoda or some flowers to have for display.
"Hmmm Yoda looks a bit easier, can I start with that one perhaps?"
"Yes!!!" He nods and then quickly hurries to the living room moving with urgency to move everything to the side so the two of you can build the legos together comfortably.
"Cutie." You say to yourself shaking your head with a little laugh before entering the living room with two cups of dessert and two spoons.
You sit down next to him looking curiously at what he's doing.
"Here! One baby Yoda box for you! I'll work on a darth vader one then!" He says happily while handing you your box.
"Thank you!" You say as you take the box and empty it on the floor in front of you.
The two of you sit in silence for a while sorting through the pieces before you remember something you wanted to share with him.
"Did I tell you what Wooyoung and Yeosang did yesterday when we went mini golfing?" You ask him as you start putting some of the pieces together.
"What did those two do this time?" He asks curious to know what your friends had done. Knowing that Wooyoung was involved it could mean anything from silly things like stealing a bite from someones ice cream to something more chaotic.
"Well they started arguing about the best way to push the ball in the hole and decided to make it a competition." You start telling him and Seonghwas boba eyes are focused on you.
"I'm sensing a but?" he says chuckling and you can't help but laugh and nod.
"Yeah, Yeosang did better and to try and distract him, Wooyoung decided to full on chomp on his shoulder." You show by imitating Woo's chomp on Yeosangs shoulder on Seonghwas shoulder without actually biting him.
His laugh ring through the apartment as he shakes his head at your friends antics.
"That sounds just like them to be honest." He says as he hands you the piece you're looking for whilst showing you where it should go.
"Yeah they truly can't be stopped. We almost got kicked out because of Wooyoungs loud chatter but we managed to get him to quiet down by promising we'd buy him food if he could be a bit quieter so we could play to the end."
The two of you sit and talk for hours, giggling about everything from the legos, to your friends, to things that has happened recently in your life whilst enjoying the dessert from time to time that you had prepared.
"Look! Isn't it cute once it's finished?" Seonghwa ask as he shows you the little Darth Vader figure hes put together and you look at him in surprise.
"How did you finish so quickly?! I'm still trying to figure out what I've done wrong." You say as you hold up your Yoda figure which looks a bit wonky due to you putting the wrong pieces together.
"Ahhh well I'm the pro aren't I? You'll learn quickly if you build legos more often." He says whilst moving closer to you, taking the lego from your hands and undoing what you had put together wrongly.
"Here, let's try again okay? This piece." He holds up a big piece and gives it to you "goes here okay? Whilst this one goes over there."
He helps guide you by pointing where certain pieces will go.
"Thanks Hwa, this is really calming you know." You mumble as you focus on setting up the last pieces of Yoda before showing it to him proudly.
"Ta-daaaa!" You show the lego piece off and he claps his hands excitedly for you.
"It looks great!"
"That's because I had such a great teacher!"
You two take a little break after that, sitting facing each other and chatting about anything and everything.
"I saw that they're playing Coraline again in the theaters for its 15th year anniversary. All nine of us should go and see it since we're nearing spooky season." Seonghwa says while rummaging through the rest of his unbuilt lego.
"It's in theaters?! All of us have to go! We should go dressed up as the characters! Wooyoung could be the talking cat!" You exclaim and Hwa looks excited at the idea of dressing up and going to see it.
"Yes!! I wanna be one of the old ladies with all the dogs." He lets you know.
"Hongjoong should dress as the other old lady then." You laugh and the night ends with you two planning who would be which character as you start on a new piece of lego, this time deciding to build it together while laughing at the idea of getting dressed to go to the movies.
the moment between hongjoong and reader about reader’s brother was really sweet, but I can’t help but be nervous for whatever seonghwa and dann (mainly seonghwa) have planned cause I know it’s going to involve mike and other secrets we may not know about reader yet.
I’m excited for the next part and keep up the great work! <3
Popular, Boy
☆04: The first surrender.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!reader
Genre: +18, slow burn, angst, smut, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 8,5k
Summary: Alliances and secrets simmer beneath the surface as relationships are tested. Whispers of a returning precense cast shadow over your carefully controlled world.
Amid growing tension, nothing is as it seems, and trust becomes a dangerous gamble.
Warnings: Cursing, emotional manipulation, power dynamics, fluff, SMUT (MDN!!) Virgin! Hongjoong, oral (f receiving) fingering, hair pulling, cum eating, use of pet names (good boy, baby, babe, pretty) suggestive.
Series masterlist
☆03 ☆05: The first fracture.
YN♡: I hope you enjoy your return to the losers’ club, ungrateful pet.
Those words feel like a slap in the face, but there's a part of him that can't deny the sting of guilt. Hongjoong had stood up to you, and now, he was being pushed away.
He feels conflicted, like he's torn between two sides of himself.
On one hand, you have everything he’s always wanted, popularity, control, power. On the other hand, he can’t help but feel a flicker of empathy for Dann, even if it’s not enough to overpower his desire to keep his place in your world.
The past three days have been agonizing for Hongjoong. Your cold text still lingered in his mind, your words cutting deeper than he expected.
He wasn’t sure what stung more: being labeled an 'ungrateful pet' or the realization that you had the power to decide his social fate.
In the hallways, the change was immediate and brutal. Your circle avoided him entirely, with Mindy, Wooyoung and the others offering smug smirks or outright ignoring his greetings.
The glances from the rest of the school stung even more, whispers of, 'Guess YN dumped her charity case,' followed him everywhere.
Hongjoong tried to go back to his old routine, hanging out with Yunho, Yeosang, Jongho and Dann in the library, but it wasn’t the same. The nerdy jokes and shared interests felt hollow, overshadowed by his embarrassment.
He couldn’t stop feeling like he’d failed… failed you, failed himself, and maybe even failed Dann.
“Joong, are you okay?” Dann’s voice pulls him from his thoughts during lunch.
Her gaze is soft but cautious. He knows she is trying to reconnect with him, but guilt twists in his stomach.
“Yeah, I’m fine,” He mumbles, shoving a forkful of food into his mouth to avoid saying more.
But Dann isn’t convinced. She has noticed how his shoulders slump when your table erupts into laughter or how his eyes flicker toward you every time you walk by, as if waiting for something.
Was he regretting standing up for her? She wondered, unsure whether to feel gratitude or guilt herself.
✮ ⋆
Brat woo: Party at my place tonight, babydoll!! We’re gonna get lit!!
You smirk as you read Wooyoung's text. Typical of Woo, his personality is always bright and comfy.
You bit your lip, twirling a strand of your perfectly styled hair as an idea formed in your mind.
YN: Invite Hongjoong, too.
The three dots appear almost immediately, followed by Woo’s response.
Brat oo: Babydoll, why would I invite him?
Brat woo: Isn’t he banned from your bad bitches club?
You laugh at his last message as you lean back against your plush chair, crossing one leg over the other. Your perfectly manicured nails taps the edge of your phone as you craft a reply.
YN: Yeah, but invite him.
YN: It would be fun, babe.
Brat woo: Fine. But you owe me a blowjob, doll.
You scoff rolling your eyes, and you prefer not to bother replying. You knew Wooyoung well enough to predict he’d follow through.
You lock your phone and you get up to head to your closet, it's time to look for something cute to wear tonight.
✮ ⋆
His first instinct was to assume it was a mistake. Jung Wooyoung wasn’t his friend. The last party held at his house was amazing and he treated him like they were friends for years, but it was only because he was with you... but not anymore.
Hongjoong read the message again, searching for some hidden sarcasm or trap.
J Wooyoung: Party at my place tonight, you must come.
Why would Wooyoung invite him?
Was this a chance to prove himself again? To get back into your orbit? The thought makes his chest tighten with both excitement and dread.
His phone buzzes with another text, this time from Dann.
Dann: Hey, wanna hang out tonight? We could watch that weird series you’ve been talking about.”
He hesitates, guilt creeping in. Spending time with Dann sounded comfortable, easy, even, but the allure of Jung’s party looms large in his mind. And then, an idea struck him.
He quickly types a reply.
Joong: Actually, wanna come with me to a party tonight?
Dann: What? A party? With whom?
Joong: Jung Wooyoung invited me.
Joong: It’s at his place. You should come.
His reply is almost casually, as if it weren’t a big deal. There is a pause before Dann’s next message comes through.
Dann: Joong, that sounds… weird. Why would Wooyoung invite you? And why are YOU inviting me?
Dann: I remind you that the last time I went to a party, everything went wrong!
Hongjoong frowns, his thumbs hovering over the keyboard. He didn't think that far ahead, but now that Dann brought it up, the invite does seem odd. Still, he can't let her skepticism damp his resolve.
Joong: Does it matter? It’s a party, Dann. It could be fun. We haven’t done anything like this in forever.”
Dann: I don’t know…
Joong: Come on!! It’ll be fine.
Joong: You’ll be with me the whole time.
Joong: If it sucks, we can leave.
Another pause, longer this time. Finally, her reply comes through.
Dann: Okay… I’ll go.
Dann: But if this turns into some kind of disaster, you owe me, Joong.
He let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding. He tosses his phone into the bed and starts rifling through his closet, searching for something that looks remotely party-appropriate.
This is it, he thought, half to reassure himself. This is my chance to prove I’m not just a nobody anymore.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The party is already in full swing when you step through the door, your entrance commanding attention as always.
Wooyoung is the first to greet you, slinging an arm over your shoulder in a casual, brotherly way.
“About time, babydoll.” He teases, steering you further into the house “You’ve got people asking for you already.”
You smirk, brushing a perfectly styled strand of hair from your face.
“Good. Let them wait. it builds anticipation.”
Your eyes scan the room, taking in the crowd of familiar faces. The thrum of music, the faint haze of smoke, and the sharp scent of expensive cologne feel like home. But tonight, it’s not the crowd you’re interested in.
“Did you do it?”
He glances at your sideways, catching the subtle edge in your voice “Yeah, I invited him. He is coming, right?” Woo asks casually, though there’s a glint of mischief in his tone.
You nod, lips curving into a sly smile “Of course he will. Thanks for the invite.”
“Anything for you, Queen Bee.” Woo chuckles, patting your shoulder before disappearing into the crowd.
You barely take two steps before Seonghwa appears in your path, leaning casually against the doorframe of the kitchen as if he’s been waiting.
“You really showed up.” He says, his tone teetering between disbelief and sarcasm.
“Obviously, miss out on this? Never.”
His sharp eyes rake over you, the casual air he projects cracking just slightly.
“So, you brought him here?”
You lift your chin, feigning innocence “Who?”
“You know who,” Hwa says, his voice dropping “The nerd.”
“Oh, him. He’s just part of the fun, but he is not coming with me today.”
“Fun,” Hwa repeats bitterly, stepping closer “That’s what you’re calling it?”
You don't back down “You’re awfully concerned for someone who’s supposed to be done with me.”
The jab hits, and Hwa’s jaw tightens “We’ve been through a lot, Clarke. I know how you operate, and this is reckless—even for you.”
“Reckless?” You scoff, taking a deliberate step toward him “Spare me the lecture, Seonghwa. If you’re so worried, maybe you should focus on your own vices. Or do you need me to remind you how much recklessness you’ve been indulging in lately?”
His eyes narrow, his jaw clenched “You always twist things around, don’t you?”
You tilt your head, a flicker of amusement dancing in your gaze “Only when necessary.”
The tension between them hums like a live wire, but before either can escalate further, you sigh and soften your tone.
“Look, Hwa, I get it. You’re mad because I’ve been spending time with Hongjoong. But you and I both know this—whatever this is—doesn’t have to be like this.”
Seonghwa’s perfect brows knit together, his posture relaxing just slightly “And what’s ‘this,’ YN? Because it feels like we’re always walking the same damn line.”
“Friends,” You say firmly, though your voice carries a hint of warmth “We’ve been friends forever, haven’t we? Almost more than friends, at times. I’m not throwing that away just because we’ve hit a rough patch.”
He studies you for a long moment, his expression unreadable. Finally, he exhales and runs a hand through his hair.
“Yeah, well, you’ve always been good at getting under my skin. Guess I should be used to it by now.”
You smile, a real one this time “You should. And for what it’s worth, I didn’t mean for things to get so tense between us. Truce?”
Hwa hesitates but eventually extends a hand, his lips quivering into a faint smirk-
“Truce. But don’t think I’m letting you off the hook completely.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” You say, shaking his hand briefly before pulling him into a quick hug.
As they pull apart, Wooyoung reappears, his grin as wide as ever “See? Told you it’s a party, not a courtroom.”
Both of you laugh, the tension finally dissipating. After all, you've been friends since you were kids, fighting over who got the best gifts or who got the most toys during Christmas.
Yes, maybe fights always were and will always be frequent, but the bond you created will always be there, whether as friends or as lovers. And no one can deny it.
✮ ⋆
The laughter still bubbles around you and friends as you relax on the plush couch in the middle of the buzzing party. The low hum of music blends with the chatter of your friends, creating the perfect backdrop for your carefree moment.
You perched elegantly with your cocktail in hand, tossing your hair back with a playful smirk.
“Remember when you told everyone I cried about losing that silly bet when we went to Meeru Island in the Maldives?” Mingi says, aiming a mock glare at Wooyoung.
He chuckles, shrugging. “You did cry, Mingi. Like, full-on wailing. I saved you from complete humiliation by telling everyone you were faking it.”
“You’re insufferable, Woo.” You lean forward to swat at him, but your grin betrays your amusement.
San joins you, plopping down on the armrest beside Seonghwa, his beer in hand.
“God, you two never change. Should we get you a reality show or something?”
Mingi rolls his eyes but laughs along, the tension from you and Hwa's little fight seemingly evaporating. It’s like old times again, your rhythm unshaken.
Then Woo’s gaze shifts toward the entrance, and his playful expression stiffens slightly.
“Uh… you told me to invite him, but I didn’t think he’d actually show up.”
You follow Wooyoung’s line of sight, your smile freezing as you spot Hongjoong stepping into the house. His attempts at looking casual—down to his carefully chosen shirt and forced grin—betray the nerves he’s clearly trying to hide.
But it’s not just him. Dann is with him, hovering awkwardly at his side.
Seonghwa notices too, his smirk turning razor-sharp “Well, if it isn’t the exile. You sure know how to pick your projects, Clarke.”
Your grip on the empty glass tightens ever so slightly before you recover, placing it calmly on the coffee table. You rise with an air of detachment, smoothing your short silk black dress.
“Don’t start, Hwa.”
Hwa leans back, watching you with an amused glint “I don’t need to. This show writes itself.”
Ignoring him, you stride toward the entrance, movements deliberate, your heels clicking against the polished floor.
Hongjoong’s face lights up with hope when he sees you approach, but you don't acknowledge it.
“Enjoying the party?” You ask coolly, your gaze sweeping over both Hongjoong and Dann.
“Uh, yeah,” He says, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly “Thanks for—”
“Wooyoung invited you,” You interrupt, your eyes flick to Dann, your lips curving into a smile that’s anything but friendly “Didn’t realize you’d be bringing… extras.”
Dann stiffens under your gaze “I just came because Joong—”
“I didn’t ask,” You cut her off smoothly. your focus shifts back to Hongjoong “Enjoy the party, and stay out of my way.”
Before Hongjoong can respond, you turn on your heel, heading back to the couch where all your friends are waiting, barely containing their laughter.
“That was subtle.” Mingi teases as you sit back down.
You pick up another drink and take a long sip, your face calm but your mind racing. You had ordered Jung to invite him, but seeing him here, with Dann of all people, scratches at your carefully curated control.
Seonghwa leans closer, his voice low “Trying to make him mad, huh? Gotta admit, it’s fun to watch.”
You don't reply, your gaze lingering on Kim as he and Dann hover near the edge of the room. The party continues to swirl around you, but the game you’re playing tonight is only just beginning.
“Let's go dance.”
And without waiting for an answer, you drag Seonghwa to the center of the dance floor.
✮ ⋆
The party pulses around Hongjoong, but all he can see is you. You were radiant, laughing as you danced with Seonghwa, your hand grazing his chest as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
Weren't you supposed to be on bad terms? He threatened you a few days ago and now you act as if none of that has happened.
Every glance, every touch, feels like a slap to Hongjoong’s face, and when your eyes meet his for a brief moment across the room, he knows it wasn’t accidental.
Dann stands beside him, trying to engage him in conversation or distract him with sarcastic comments about the crowd, but he barely responds.
His guilt over snapping at her earlier only adds to the storm brewing inside him.
As the night goes on, you and Seonghwa grow bolder. You dance closer, bodies pressing together in a way that feels almost taunting. Your hand trails lazily over Hwa’s chest as you throw a sly glance over your shoulder, directly at Hongjoong.
He can't take it anymore.
“I need a minute.” He mutters to Dann before walking away.
He finds you in the corner of the room, laughing at something Seonghwa had said. Your head tilts back, the sparkle in your eyes brighter than ever. You look utterly in control, utterly untouchable.
“YN.” Hongjoong says, his voice tight.
You turn to him, your expression cool and unimpressed “Hongjoong, enjoying the party?”
“I…” He hesitates, glancing at the tallest, who stands smirking at him like he knows exactly how pathetic he feels.
“Spit it out.” You cross your arms waiting for his next words.
Hongjoong swallows hard, his pride crumbling under the weight of your icy stare.
“I’m sorry.”
“For what?” You ask, feigning ignorance as you raise an eyebrow.
“For… for defending Dann.” He admits, the words tasting bitter on his tongue “I shouldn’t have done it. I wasn’t thinking. Please, YN. I didn’t mean to upset you.”
You tilt your head, a small smile playing on your lips “Is that so?”
“Please, YN. I’m sorry. I’ll do whatever you want to make it up to you.”
You raise an eyebrow. That phrase sounds kinda familiar. Your gaze sweeps over him with an air of detached amusement.
“Anything?”
“Yes.” He said, desperation dripping from every syllable.
“Prove it.”
He looks at you confused, unsure what you mean. But when you point at the floor with a slight nod, his heart sinks.
Here? Now?
The party is still bustling around them, and though the music is loud, he knows there are enough eyes on them to make this moment humiliating.
But the thought of losing your favor, of being cast back into obscurity, is unbearable.
Slowly, he sinks to his knees in front of you like the first time he did it. The weight of the action crushed the little pride he had left.
“I’m sorry,” His voice trembling as he looks up at you “Please, YN. Forgive me.”
Your lips curve into a slow smile, and you reach down, brushing your fingers along his jaw.
“Good boy.”
Without another word, you grab his hand and pull him to his feet. Ignoring the stares of the partygoers—and the way Seonghwa’s amuse chuckle follows them—You lead him through the crowd and up the stairs.
Hongjoong’s pulse races as you push open the door to an empty room, shutting it firmly behind you.
“YN, I—” He starts, but you silence him with a finger to his lips.
You step closer, a hand sliding up his chest before tangling in the collar of his shirt. Your lips hover just above his, teasing him, your breath warm against his skin.
“You want me to forgive you, don’t you?” You whisper against his lips.
“Yes…” He breathes, his voice shaking.
“Then show me how sorry you are.” You say as your lips finally crash into his.
The kiss is rough, demanding, leaving Hongjoong breathless as your hands roam over him.
You push him into the edge of the bed, your confidence unwavering as you climb into his lap.
“Make it up to me.” You murmur against his ear, your tone lace with both seduction and dominance.
The room remains shrouded in heavy silence, broken only by the sound of your ragged breathing and the soft rustling of fabric as your hands continue their work.
Hongjoong sits before you, his chest rising and falling rapidly, his eyes glazed with a mix of guilt, desire, and submission. He’s completely under your control, each deliberate movement you make reinforcing your hold over him.
You trail your nails lightly down his chest, exposed now as his shirt hangs loose from his shoulders.
“See, Joongie,” You purr, leaning in to press a lingering kiss to his neck “When you beg like that, it reminds me how much you want to be here… how much you need me.”
He shivers under your touch, his lips parting as if to speak, but no words come out. His mind is a haze, lost in you—your voice, your touch, the overwhelming weight of your presence.
He feels as if he’s drowning, yet he doesn’t want to come up for air.
Your lips return to his, capturing him in a kiss so intense it steals his breath. His hands caressing from your waist to your bare legs as you tug him closer, your hands tangling in his hair, ensuring there’s no escape.
Not that he wants one.
Your smirk deepens as you lean closer, your fingers curling under his chin to tilt his face up. Your dominance is unshakable, your presence commanding every ounce of his attention.
“On your knees.”
You order, carrying a weight that leaves no room for protest as you get off his lap to sit next to him on the bed.
Hongjoong’s breath hitches. His mind scrambles for a response, but the intensity of your gaze renders him silent. Swallowing hard, he glances around the empty room, then back at you, his cheeks already red when he sees you spread your legs.
He thinks he knows what you want him to do, and that makes him more nervous.
“YN, I don’t know—”
“Do you trust me or not?” You interrupt, fingers trailing down to his collar, tugging him forward “You said you’d do anything for me, didn’t you?”
Caught in your words and unwavering stare, Hongjoong nods hesitantly.
“I do.” He whispered.
“Then show me.”
Slowly, he slides down to his knees, the fabric of his jeans scraping lightly against the floor. His hands hover awkwardly at his sides, unsure of where they should go, as he looks up at you, his wide eyes fill with a mixture of anticipation and nerves.
He's never done this before. He's seen it in porn videos but still doesn't know exactly what to do.
Your fingers slip into his hair, touch firm but not rough, and you guide him closer with a slow, deliberate motion.
“I always tell you this. Relax, Hongjoong, I’ll take care of you.”
Your other hand moves to the hem of your dress, slipping it up just enough to expose the soft fabric of your black panties.
Hongjoong’s gaze drops instinctively, his breath catching in his throat as his pulse races.
“Focus, Joongie.” You tease, tugging lightly on his hair to draw his attention back to your face “Start slow. I want to feel how much you want my forgiveness.”
With shaky hands, he rests his palms on your soft thighs, his touch hesitant and careful, the cold of his rings making you shiver.
You guide him lower, your smirk never wavering as his lips brush against your thighs.
The warmth of your skin, the faint scent of your perfume, the weight of your hand in his hair—all of it consumes him.
His inexperience is obvious, but you don't mind. You encourage him with soft sighs and subtle movements, your hips tilting forward slightly as he grows bolder, leaving little bites on your inner thighs as his fingers play with the edge of your panties, sliding them down slowly.
He starts taking his time dishing out kisses and biting on both thighs, making you impatient.
You let out a whimper pulling his hair slightly “Hongjoong… hurry up and eat me out.”
For the first time in his life, Hongjoong feels confident enough to smile mockingly against your delicate skin.
You, begging him to touch you? He never imagined it.
Still holding his smile, he slides your panties all the way down to your ankles, and removes them eagerly, leaving on your pretty high heels.
When he returns to his starting position between your thighs, he can't avoid looking to your bare core, all glossy with slick. He bites his lip at the sight.
Did he provoke that?
“Joong...” You reproach again with a whine.
You really need him to do something on his own or you'll force him to sink into your folds right now. You've never felt so desperate before, so eager for someone to touch you.
Hongjoong smiles again, your whiney voice turning him on.
The dry humping in your car, the blowjob in the empty classroom, and all the little make outs can not compare to this. Your pussy inches from his face, your hand tugging his hair and your desperate form waiting for him to touch you.
Fuck, he can’t believe this is happening.
With the highest confidence ever, even though he keeps in mind that he does not know what he is doing, he leans towards your pussy, giving a long lick that makes both of you moan in pleasure.
His warm tongue explores every millimeter of your womanhood, you whine as Hongjoong swipe his tongue up and down your wet slit, taking all your slick on his mouth.
“Shit, you taste so good, baby.” He says without realizing his words, his mind already cloudy.
You open your mouth in surprise at his daring words, you swear you feel more arousal coming out of your cunt.
“Fuck, Hongjoong…” You tighten your grip on his hair, forcing him to sink his head further and he lets you do it gladly, smiling against you “Ah… f-fuck me with your tongue, babe.”
And he does, he leaves your swollen clit to play with his tongue rubbing around your entrance, making you whine desperately.
He snorts with fun when you pull his hair harder, he is loving the way you’re acting, all whiny and desperate for him.
Without making you wait any longer, he slowly introduces his long tongue in your core.
He moans when he hears you do it and starts moving his tongue in and out, your walls clenching on it, his nose rubbing your clit, and his hands squeezing your thighs, bringing you closer to his mouth.
You arch your back, squirming and moaning under his exquisite touch. You never imagined that a virgin nerd like him could eat pussy so well.
Fuck, you never imagined he'd ever do this to you.
“That’s it,” You whisper, voice breathy but firm “Just… just like that, Joong.”
Each sound you make spur him on, his nervousness slowly giving way to determination. He wants to please you, to prove that he is worthy of your forgiveness, even if he doesn't fully know what he is doing.
Your breathing quickening as you tilt your head back “Good boy…” You murmur, your words sending a shiver down his spine.
The tension in the air is electric, every movement charged with a mix of control and surrender.
As your soft moans grow louder, Hongjoong can't help but feel a sense of pride, his confidence building with each passing moment.
✮ ⋆
The music blared through the speakers, the heavy bass vibrating the walls of Wooyoung’s mansion. Dann squeezed through groups of laughing, dancing people, her eyes scanning the crowd.
She’d been looking for Hongjoong for what felt like forever.
She finally spots Jung Wooyoung leaning casually against the bar, a drink in hand, and his signature easygoing grin in place.
Relief washes over her as she approaches him. She has never interacted with him, but she must find Joong.
“Wooyoung,” She calls out, raising her voice above the music “Have you seen Hongjoong?”
Jung tilts his head, his expression is a grimace when he sees her. He's drunk but he doesn't remember inviting this loser to his party, much less knowing the grudge you have against her.
“Little Hongjoong?” He echoes, taking a slow sip from his drink “Yeah, he went upstairs. With babydoll.” At Dann's confused expression, he rolls his eyes “He is upstairs with YN.”
Dann’s stomach drops at his words, her brows knitting together.
“With YN?” She repeats, her voice tinged with disbelief.
Wooyoung nods, smirking “Yep. Upstairs. Why? You jealous or something?” His tone is teasing, but Dann doesn’t have the energy to respond.
She turns on her heel and heads for the stairs, her heart pounding with every step. As she climbs, the noise of the party grows muffled, replaced by the quieter sounds of her own breathing and the creak of the steps.
Her mind races with thoughts she doesn’t want to entertain.
Why would Hongjoong be with you? After everything, after all the tension between you?
She reaches the top of the stairs and pauses before she approaches the only door that is closed in the hallway. Something tells her that they are both in there.
Her hand hesitates on the doorknob, her heart hammering against her ribs. Slowly, she pushes it open, the hinges creaking softly.
Her breath catches in her throat at the sight before her.
There you are—You and Hongjoong. You’re laying on the big bed, moaning as your hands grip Hongjoong’s hair while he is between your legs.
Hongjoong’s shirt is half-unbuttoned, hanging loosely off his shoulders, and his hands grip your thighs tightly, pulling you closer.
Dann’s chest tightens as a sharp pang of betrayal and hurt courses through her. She stands frozen in the doorway, her fingers gripping the frame as she struggles to make sense of what she’s seeing.
Neither you nor Hongjoong notice her. You’re too consumed by each other. The intensity of Hongjoong’s movements speaks volumes, and he is clearly enjoying being there.
Your dominance is evident too, your control absolute, while Hongjoong seems lost, entirely under your spell.
Dann bites her lip, willing herself not to cry as she takes a shaky step back. The scene before her is a confirmation of every fear she’s tried to suppress.
She retreats into the hallway, her heart aching with every step.
Downstairs, the party rages on, oblivious to the turmoil in Dann’s chest.
✮ ⋆
“Joong… I’m close.” You announce closing your eyes shut and your whines get louder, the pleasure is too much to handle.
At your words, Hongjoong places his lips around your sensitive clit, sucking and pulling at it, and without you expecting it, he thrust two of his fingers into your narrow entrance, making you open your eyes and groan in surprise.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck…”
You quickly lift yourself up on your elbow to get a better view of him eating you like a starved man, It is certainly a spectacular sight.
His eyes closed in concentration, his warm mouth on your pussy and his fingers caressing the right places in your tight cunt.
Shit…. Is he really a virgin? Because this is the best oral sex you have ever received.
“L-look at me… look at me, baby.” You order him and he immediately obeys, looking at you with those doe eyes, those pretty doe eyes make a wave of pleasure run through your body “F-fuck… gonna cum, baby. K-keep going.” You moan again tilting your head back, your eyes rolling back “J-just like that…”
Damn, Hongjoong swears that this is the best view in the world, your mouth agape, eyes rolling back, you saying his name like a fucking mantra, this will undoubtedly be an image that will stay in his mind forever.
“Cum for me, pretty… cum on my mouth.”
He doesn't know where that sentence came from but he can't help it, the adrenaline of the moment has his mind clouded.
With those words, you lose it. Your strength leaves your body when the well-known pressure on your abdomen appears, your grip on his hair becomes stronger and your legs begin to tremble from immense pleasure, your orgasm explodes like never before, leaving you breathless.
He moans in satisfaction, the taste of your slick driving him crazy, he moves his tongue everywhere collecting every drop of your orgasm, just like you did that day with him.
“Ah… fuck, Joong!” You squirm under his movements, feeling the beginning of overstimulation “Hongjoong… ‘s too much, baby.”
With a last lick and a wet kiss on your clit, Hongjoong lifts his head with a light smile.
He’s pussy drunk right now and you smile, taking him by the cheeks and bringing him closer to you to kiss him.
His lips are swollen and his chin is soaked with your fluids, he looks messy, but you don't care. The kiss is full of something special this time, you don't know if it's gratitude, warmth or love. But you're definitely enjoying it too much.
“Did I do it right?” He murmurs against your lips and he smiles when you nod.
“That was amazing.” You pull him back, your breathing uneven, your eyes meet his with a satisfied gleam “Not bad for your first time.”
Hongjoong remain above you, his chest heaving as he tries to process what had just happened.
You run a hand through his messy hair, glancing down at him with a mix of amusement and approval.
“Let’s go back to the party.” You add, leaning down to press a quick, teasing kiss to his lips before pulling back.
And Hongjoong smiles satisfied, satisfied to have your forgiveness
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The hallway outside Wooyoung’s upstairs den is dimly lit, the faint bassline of the party vibrating through the walls.
Dann leans against the banister, her arms wrapped tightly around herself as if to shield her from the storm raging in her chest. Her mind replays the image of you with Hongjoong in that compromising position.
She blinks back the sting of tears, her breath hitching.
“Pathetic,” She whispers to herself, trying to steal her resolve.
But the pain lingers, twisting deeper with each passing second.
“You look like hell.” A voice cuts through her thoughts, sharp yet strangely casual.
Dann startles, her wide eyes locking onto Seonghwa as he saunters out of the shadows. His shirt is half-buttoned, his tie hanging loose around his neck.
He takes a slow drag from a cigarette, the embers glowing faintly in the dim light.
“What do you want?” Dann’s voice wavers, a mix of anger and embarrassment as she hastily wipes at her cheeks.
Seonghwa tilts his head, smirking “Relax, I just happened to notice you running out of there like the world’s ending.” He exhales a thin trail of smoke, his eyes narrowing with mock “Saw something you didn’t like?”
Dann glares at him but says nothing. The silence between them grows heavy, thick with unspoken truths.
“I’ll take that as a yes,” Hwa finally says, leaning casually against the banister “Let me guess… Hongjoong and YN, all over each other like she hadn't kicked him out a week ago because of your little show in the cafeteria?”
His tone drips with derision, his smirk deepening when Dann flinches.
“Why are you telling me this?” She snaps, her voice cracking slightly “You’re supposed to be her friend, aren’t you?”
Hwa chuckles, low and mirthless “Friendship’s a funny thing, don’t you think? Especially when it comes to someone like YN.” He flicks the cigarette away, watching the faint glow disappear into the darkness “You think she really cares about anyone but herself?”
Dann’s gaze falters, the weight of his words settling over her.
“Look,” Hwa says, his voice softening just enough to sound sincere, “I know what it’s like to be on the receiving end of YN’s little games. She’s been pulling this crap since we were kids, using people, discarding them when they’re no longer useful.”
Dann clenches her fists, her voice barely above a whisper.
“But Hongjoong isn’t like that.”
Hwa raises an eyebrow, his smirk returning “You sure about that? He dropped you pretty fast for her, didn’t he?”
Her breath catches, the truth of his words cutting deeper than she wants to admit.
“But here’s the thing,” Hwa continues, stepping closer, his voice lowering conspiratorially “YN’s not untouchable. She’s got secrets, vulnerabilities… things she wouldn’t want getting out.”
Dann looks up at him, confusion and hesitation warring in her eyes.
“What are you saying?”
“I’m saying… if you really want to hit her where it hurts, I can help.”
The air between them crackles with tension. Dann hesitates, her instincts screaming at her to walk away.
But the memory of Hongjoong doing such a thing with you flashes through her mind again, the sting of betrayal fueling the embers of something darker.
“Why?” She asks cautiously, her voice steadier now.
Seonghwa’s grin widens, his eyes glinting with calculated charm
“Let’s just say I have my reasons. And besides…” He leans in closer, his voice dropping to a near whisper “Don’t you want to see her fall?”
Dann swallows hard, the weight of his proposition pressing down on her. Her mind races, torn between doubt and the growing need to fight back.
Finally, she nods, her voice quiet but firm.
“Okay. I’m in.”
Hwa straightens, satisfaction flashing across his face “Good. Stick with me, and we’ll make sure YN regrets every move she’s made.”
As he walks away, Dann stands frozen, the faint echo of his footsteps fading into the music downstairs.
For the first time that night, she feels something other than pain—something sharp and dangerous, simmering just beneath the surface.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The soft glow of the afternoon sun filters through the expansive windows of your house, casting a warm, golden hue over the sprawling living room.
You and Hongjoong sit cross-legged on the expensive carpet, a mess of images, glue sticks, and markers spread out between you. The project you’re working on is for the literature class—a visual timeline of key events in European history.
For once, you aren't delegating the work entirely to Hongjoong. Instead, you’re snipping pieces of paper with surprising focus, handing them over to him to paste onto the board.
“Here,” You say, holding up a carefully cut-out image of the Berlin Wall “Paste this next to the 1989 marker. And make it straight this time.”
Hongjoong smirks, taking the picture “Yes, pretty. Anything else you’d like me to do, Your Majesty?”
You roll your eyes but hide a smile “Just don’t mess it up. My grade’s on the line, too.”
You share a laugh, the recent nickname he loves to call you since that night at Wooyoung’s party makes you feel butterflies in your stomach.
Since that day, Hongjoong feels the ease between both of you—something he never thought possible just a few weeks ago. He doesn’t feel nervous or out of place anymore.
Being with you feels natural now, like he belongs here.
You lean back, brushing your hair over your shoulder, and look at him with a curious expression.
“You’re actually not bad at this. Who knew?”
He grins “Wow, high praise coming from you. Should I write this down?”
You smirk, tossing a crumpled piece of paper at him “Don’t push your luck, Kim.”
The banter continues, light and comfortable, until the sound of heels clicking on the marble floor interrupts them.
Your mother appears in the doorway, dressed immaculately as always, her gaze sweeping over the room.
“Oh! Hi, Hongjoong. Didn't know you were here.” Your mother greets him with a lovely smile
“Good afternoon, Mrs. Clarke.” He bows his head politely.
“How are you doing with that guys?” She says while looking curiously at your project.
“Great, we’re having fun.” Hongjoong answers with a sweet smile and your mother giggles gracefully.
From the first time your mother met him, she was delighted with the boy, saying how handsome and polite he was.
“Incredible. Sweetie?” Now she addresses you and you hum in response “I wanted to let you know your brother will be returning from Germany next week. He finished his program early.”
You freeze, your hands stilling on the paper you're cutting. For a moment, a flicker of something—fear?—crosses your face.
“Oh…” You say, voice strained despite her attempt at nonchalance “That’s… great.”
Your mother narrows her eyes slightly, as if detecting the unease.
“Yes. He’s looking forward to seeing you. I hope you’ll make him proud of how you’ve been handling things here.”
“I’m sure he’ll be thrilled.” You reply with a forced smile.
“Well, I'll let you continue with your work.” Your mother gives a curt nod before leaving the room.
Hongjoong glances at you, sensing the sudden shift in your mood.
“Mike?”
You exhale sharply, tossing the scissors aside “Yeah. My amazing brother. If he finds out I’ve been… well, less than perfect, he won’t hesitate to tell my parents.”
Hongjoong frowns “He sounds… intense.”
“You don’t know half of it.” You mutter, running a hand through your hair. For a moment, your confident exterior falters, revealing a hint of vulnerability.
Hongjoong reaches out, hesitating before placing a hand on yours.
“Hey, it’s okay. Whatever happens, you’ll handle it. You’re YN, remember? You always do.”
You look at him, your expression softening “You’re sweet, you know that?”
He shrugs, a blush creeping up his neck “Just for you, pretty.”
You lean in, your lips brushing his in a soft kiss.
“Let’s finish this project before my mother comes back and give you compliments just for existing”
Hongjooong chuckles, but he can’t shake the lingering thought of your brother. Whoever this guy is, he clearly has a hold over you—and that’s saying something.
Meanwhile, in the kitchen, Dann quietly tidies up remnants of her lunch, her movements mechanical. She hasn’t spoken to Hongjoong in days. He doesn’t even look at her anymore.
But she notices the change in you—the way you smile more, laugh more, when Hongjoong is around you.
And Dann can’t help but feel the ache in her chest grow sharper with each passing moment.
How much she wishes she was in your place, to be so close to Hongjoong.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The house buzzes with quiet anticipation, the staff moving about with heightened energy. Your mother, dressed in her usual pristine elegance, stands in the center of the room, her voice carrying an air of authority but still kind.
“I want everything perfect for my son’s return,” She announces, her tone leaving no room for error “The table arrangements, the food, the decor—everything must reflect our family’s standards. He’ll be here in three days, and this dinner must welcome him properly. The whole family will come, so the banquet should be for twenty-five people.”
Dann crouches in the corner of the hallway, hidden behind a large vase. She had come to deliver your paperwork but froze when she overheard the conversation.
Her heart pounds as she listens, her mind racing. YN’s brother… She wouldn't know that the Clarkes have two children if it weren't for some pictures hanging on the walls, in all this time she never heard anyone mention it, not even your parents.
She knows almost nothing about him, but the little mention that Seonghwa made one day left her intrigued.
Why does no one in the family talk about that guy?
The moment your mother leaves the room, Dann slips out and makes her way to the backyard, her hands clutching the papers tightly.
She unlocks her phone in hand and calls Seonghwa.
He’s been a constant presence in her life these past two weeks—not as a friend, but as a partner in their silent pact.
In these weeks, Hwa has treated Dann with a mix of indifference and amusement. He never misses an opportunity to remind her of their deal, yet he’s never outright cruel.
For him, she’s a tool—a means to an end. But for Dann, every interaction feels like walking a tightrope, unsure when his charm might twist into something sharper.
“Seonghwa,” she calls softly when he picks up.
“Hi, what’s the news?”
Dann hesitates before speaking “YN’s brother… He’s coming back in three days. Her mom is planning this big welcome dinner for him.”
“The golden boy, huh? Interesting.”
“Interesting?” Dann blurts out before she can stop herself.
“Of course, it is. Daddy’s favorite, perfect older brother who can do no wrong? He’s probably the only one who can knock YN off her pedestal.”
Dann frowns, clutching her hands nervously “Are you sure about this?”
“Don't be scared, Seo, I’ll take care of everything.”
Dann isn’t comforted by his nonchalance, but she knows better than to push. Seonghwa isn’t someone who worries; he plans, manipulates, and waits for the perfect moment to strike.
“Okay… bye.
Dann bites her lip, hanging up before walking back inside the house. But as she retreats, she can’t shake the feeling that she’s stepping deeper into a game she barely understands.
✮ ⋆
You lounge on the oversized velvet sofa in the living room, your legs tuck beneath you as you flip through the book Hongjoong recommended to you.
You’re not reading it—your eyes skim over the pages without absorbing a single word.
Around you, the house is abuzz with activity. Maids dust every surface, fluffing pillows to perfection.
A team of florists meticulously arranges extravagant bouquets in the foyer, filling the air with the overpowering scent of lilies and roses.
Your mother strides into the room, clipboard in hand, rattling off instructions.
“The table settings must be silver, not gold. And make sure the wine glasses are spotless—he deserves only the best.” Her voice drips with excitement.
You glance at the dining room, now transformed into a stage for the grand dinner. Crystal chandeliers gleam above the polished mahogany table, which is already set with fine china and embroidered napkins.
Everything is immaculate, screaming perfection—just like your brother.
Your father joins his wife, a rare smile softening his otherwise stern face “Finally, our son is coming back. Three years is far too long.” He places a hand on the woman's shoulder, his tone filled with pride “He’s the best of us.”
Your stomach twists. Their words sting in a way you don’t expect. It’s not that you hate Mike—not really. But the shadow he casts is suffocating, the impossibly high bar he sets that you’ll never reach.
The perfect son, the golden child who’s never made a misstep—or so everyone thinks.
Because you know better. You know the cracks hidden behind his flawless exterior. The things he’s done, the lines he’s crossed.
The way he’s used you to cover his tracks, forcing you to dirty your hands so his reputation could remain unscathed. The memory of his voice, cold and commanding, still echoes in your mind.
'You’ll do it, YN. You owe me.' And you always did because saying no was never an option.
Your parents know about his anger issues. They’ve seen his temper, the way his anger can spiral into violence.
They’ve heard the arguments, felt the weight of his wrath. But they ignore it, choosing instead to uphold the illusion of their perfect son.
You know they love you and love to spoil you, but you also know their disappointment runs deep.
To them, you’re the little child who always gets her way, who causes trouble without considering the consequences.
A loud clatter from the kitchen breaks her thoughts, and your mother whirls around.
“What was that? We can’t afford any mistakes!”
You watch your mother hurry away, and your heart sinks further. Mistakes.
That’s all you feel you are lately and a series of disappointments waiting to be uncovered. Your eyes drift to the grand staircase, and you imagine Mike descending it, his presence commanding the room, and your parents beaming with pride.
Your phone buzzes, pulling you from bad thoughts. It’s a text from Hongjoong, something sweet and simple about your project.
Joongie: We’re getting a 10, pretty.
Joongie: Promise!!
For a moment, you smile, but it quickly fades. Hongjoong is your escape, your distraction, but even he can’t erase the weight of your family’s expectations.
Sighing, you set the book down and lean back, closing your eyes. The house feels suffocating, filled with reminders of who you are supposed to be.
But this time, you won’t be caught off guard. If your brother’s return is inevitable, you’ll face him on your terms—even if it means confronting the secrets they both carry.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The school backyard is too quiet to be the last class, a gentle breeze rustling the leaves of the trees as students chatter in the distance.
You and Hongjoong sit on a bench, the space between them comfortable but heavy with unspoken thoughts.
You swing your legs lazily, your eyes looking at the horizon. Your usually confident demeanor seems a little more distant today, like your mind is elsewhere.
Hongjoong notices it instantly, and though he’s not the type to pry, he can’t help but ask.
"Hey, what's going on? You seem… off today."
You glance over at him, lips curling into a small smile, but it doesn’t quite reach your eyes.
“It’s nothing. Just stuff with my family.”
He raises an eyebrow, sensing that it’s more than just ‘stuff.’ He leans a little closer, his voice softer now.
“Your brother, right?”
You freeze at the mention of him, gaze flickering to the side, as though trying to avoid the thought altogether. Your fingers fidget with the hem of your jacket, and you sigh deeply.
"Yeah, he’s coming back today." You try to mask the vulnerability in your tone, but Hongjoong catches it anyway "After three years, my parents are so excited. You should see the house, Joong... everything has to be perfect."
Hongjoong watches you carefully, his expression thoughtful. He remembers when your mother told you about Mike’s return.
You had been visibly upset, though you masked it quickly, eager to avoid the conversation. He knows that you have spent your whole life living in your brother’s shadow, constantly compared to his perfection.
"I get it," He says softly, his voice steady "You’ve always felt like he’s the ‘golden child,’ right? The one your parents adore."
Your lips tighten, but you don't argue, just nod, glancing at him with a half-smile.
"It’s exhausting. He’s everything they ever wanted in a son. Business master. Perfect grades. Perfect manners. Perfect everything." You pause, a bitter edge creeping into your voice "It doesn’t matter how many times I get a perfect score or do everything right. It’s never enough."
Hongjoong nods, his hand resting on the back of the bench, his gaze still on you. He knows you hide a lot behind that confident exterior, but the cracks are starting to show now, and it makes him feel both protective and… uncertain.
"It sounds like a lot to deal with. But your parents love you. They just have high expectations, don’t they?"
Your gaze flickers briefly to him, but you don't meet his eyes. You bite your lip, as if debating whether to continue.
"They do, but sometimes it feels like it’s not enough." You shrug, trying to brush it off, but the weight of the words lingers in the air between them "Anyway, enough about that."
You shift in your seat, a new thought clearly forming.
“Hongjoong,” You say, voice softer now, almost vulnerable "I know I’ve been, uh… caught up with my family stuff lately. But would you… would you ever invite me to your place one day? Just, you know, to get away from all of this?"
He blinks in surprise, but the warmth of your request is clear. It’s not about the drama or the pressures you face at home. It’s just you wanting a break, wanting something simple.
A break from being the ‘perfect’ daughter, the one always judged against the golden child.
"Of course, pretty." He replies without hesitation "Whenever you want. You can always come over."
You look at him, eyes softer now, a real smile tugging at the corners of your lips.
"Thanks, that means more than you know."
You sit in silence for a moment, the weight of your words settling between you. Hongjoong’s heart races, unsure of what this means for their relationship but knowing one thing:
Being around you, seeing you like this—vulnerable, honest—it pulls him in deeper.
Finally, you break the silence again “Well, if I have to put up with my perfect brother for a while, at least I’ll have something to look forward to, right?”
He chuckles, the sound filling the quiet space between you “Exactly. And you know, I think the ‘perfect’ brother might need a little dose of reality. No one can be perfect all the time.”
You grin at that, your usual self-assuredness flickering back to life.
"Maybe.”
"Well, you’ve got me for anything. Always."
As you sit there, the rest of the world seems to fade away. Just for a moment, everything is okay.
And for now, that’s enough.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
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៚ Alone and aching for the connection that once felt so natural, you reluctantly turn to an unlikely companion: Pompidou, who listens to you pour out all the longing you’ve fought so hard to bury. While you grapple with the emptiness left by Hongjoong’s sudden withdrawal, he, too, finds himself lost, wrestling with the very feelings he’s tried to deny. Haunted by memories and choices he can’t quite reconcile, Hongjoong is caught between the familiarity of the past and the confusing reality of the present.
a/n: was supposed to upload this on the 27th cause that’s my birthday but i just can’t wait any longer 😅 keep an eye out for the littlest of details because nothing is as it seems in this chapter :P lmk what you guys think!
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First of all, I hate myself. Second of all, I hate myself. Oh, and did I already mention that I hate myself? I just don’t know what to do anymore! It feels like it’s been a whole decade ever since I last picked up a pen to scribble on this godforsaken journal… I wish I could just go back to the time I was writing the page behind the one I’m writing on right now and just cancel my flight to Paris. This is all so frustrating, you know? Fashion Week is nearing, and I am not prepared at all—no, not even a little. I’m supposed to be spending my hours inside the studio practicing runway walks and testing out facial expressions, but no! I’m way too afraid of crossing paths with Hongjoong to even think about the consequences of not taking my preparations seriously! And speaking of Hongjoong…
He’s driving me to the edge of my sanity. I don’t know what’s going on with him—okay, scratch that, I definitely do. I just don’t get why he’s acting so avoidant all of a sudden… I mean, like, okay, I would understand his unprovoked need for distance between us if we actually kissed that night, but we didn’t. The farthest step we were able to take was just him holding onto the sides of my face and me looking at his lips like I’m a starved dog looking at its first meal of the day before Wooyoung fortunately interrupted us—so why is he acting up?
He’s like one of those girls you’d befriend in highschool who’d show up on the hallways suddenly judging your entire soul on a random Wednesday, and I don’t like it. Seriously, what’s his problem? He made me accustomed to his usual sweet and caring persona, and all of a sudden, he wants to act like this? What have I done wrong? Wasn’t it literally him who initiated the… whatever I’m supposed to call what happened that night?
I’m just concerned, you know. It’s been two weeks, and yet he’s still avoiding me like I’m the plague. I haven’t been receiving any messages from him at all lately, either. Even Madame Dupont is asking me why she no longer sees the “small young handsome boy” waiting for me outside the apartment building while leaning against his car. Wooyoung’s been trying to persuade me into confirming his theory that Hongjoong and I are going through a lovers’ quarrel for three days now, too. And guess who’s the most troubled of them all? Seonghwa. He’s been doing his best to put us back into speaking terms for a while now, and I don’t know why—I swear I didn’t ask him to do that.
Everyone is worried. Everyone but him.
You know, this brings me back to that unrecognizable faceless guy I see in some of my blurry flashbacks. I remember him asking me how long I’ve been bottling up my emotions, and when I told him I’ve been doing so for pretty much my entire life, he told me to consider writing in a journal.
What does the unrecognizable dude have to do with Hongjoong and his unreadable behavior? Nothing.
I just noticed that it’s been a while since I last wrote a journal entry, and… it’s been a while since I last let my emotions unravel. I remember the words that came out of his mouth that day.
“When you can’t figure out what you’re feeling, or if you need to let it all out, the only thing you have to do is pull this out along with a pen, and from then on, you can start writing away. Let yourself get lost in your own world.”
You know what, in a way, I think he and Hongjoong actually have something in common. I know I can’t say much because I only have one memory of this guy, but he spoke with as much wisdom as Hongjoong does. Also… “let yourself get lost in your own world.” That’s honestly the most Hongjoong-ish advice someone could ever give, given how he himself gets lost in his own world of artistry, too.
I just wish he’d stop ignoring me. I can’t help but feel like this is all somehow my fault… Am I just hurting myself by expecting things to suddenly go back to the way they used to be?
As you closed your journal with a weary sigh, your eyes drifted to the dim glow of your bedside clock reading 2:37 a.m. The room was silent, save for the soft hum of distant traffic, yet you felt far from at peace. It was a night for sleep, yet your mind wouldn’t quiet; thoughts of Hongjoong twisted and turned within you, refusing to settle.
“Why does it feel like this?” you murmured, pressing your palms into your face, as if that could somehow soothe the ache in your chest. You longed for comfort, for answers, even for a brief respite from the confusion that had become your constant companion. “If only that faceless guy could telepathically whisper some words of wisdom to me right now…”
Two weeks had passed since you last shared any words with Hongjoong—two weeks where every glance, every passing moment, felt laced with an unspoken tension that only deepened the rift between you. It was all becoming painfully real, the shift so clear to everyone around you. But no one knew the truth—the moment you almost kissed, the silent proximity that had left you dizzy and wondering. Even Seonghwa, in his genuine concern, couldn’t know the pang of vulnerability that had filled that night, the fear and excitement mingling as you’d come closer than ever before.
Your mind flashed back to the other day when the ache of his absence had been sharpest. You passed by him in a hallway, hoping for a flicker of his usual warmth, his soft gaze that once reassured you of your place in his world. But he’d brushed past with such indifference—not even nodding to acknowledge your presence, a chill in his demeanor that left you hollow. And then he was gone, his footsteps echoing down the corridor, leaving you alone with a rising sense of loss.
Without thinking, you picked up your phone and opened your gallery. Photos of Hongjoong filled your screen, and your eyes drift over candid snapshots—some of you and Hongjoong working late in the studio, others of him laughing or looking thoughtful, moments caught by your camera that now feel like glimpses into another lifetime. There’s a picture of him outside your apartment building, waving you goodbye one evening. Another shot of him hunched over his desk in concentration, unaware that you’d snapped the photo from across the room. Then, there’s a particularly precious one of the two of you, taken in his office—which was likely Wooyoung’s doing.
As you scroll, an ache blossoms within you, spreading in slow, insistent waves that make your chest feel tight. You can feel the sting of tears welling up in your eyes, and it catches you off guard. Why now? Why does he, of all people, have this power over you? You swipe at the tears, frustrated by the sudden swell of emotion. It’s not supposed to be like this, you tell yourself. Hongjoong is supposed to be your friend, your mentor, the one person in Paris who helped you find your footing when everything felt foreign. But as the images blur beneath the glisten of unshed tears, you can’t help but wonder if that’s all he’ll ever be—someone whose warmth once felt like home, and whose absence now feels like a loss you’re not ready to face.
The soft scratching at your window pulls you abruptly from your thoughts. For a moment, you freeze, glancing back at the phone you’d just placed on your desk. Carefully, you grab your journal—a flimsy defense, maybe, but it’s better than nothing. Heart pounding just slightly, you step forward, inching closer to the window.
When you peek over, you’re met with a familiar sight: Pompidou, the resident stray cat who had made the apartment building his kingdom, sits with one paw pressed to the glass, his usual unamused expression aimed your way.
You exhale a breath you didn’t know you’d been holding, feeling the tension drain from your shoulders as you let out a soft laugh. Setting your journal on the bed, you reach over to open the window, letting him slip inside with practiced ease. He slinks past you with the air of someone who owns the place and makes himself right at home, hopping onto your bed and circling until he’s claimed his spot in the center.
You sit beside him, running a gentle hand over his soft fur. It’s strange how much you missed him. For the past few weeks, your room felt emptier without his occasional visits—without that extra little creature who just… understood you, in a way. And now, with Hongjoong’s absence haunting you, Pompidou couldn’t have come at a better time.
The thought hits you harder than you expect: here you are, at your lowest, relying on a cat for comfort simply because the one person you’re used to confiding in has become distant, almost like a stranger. The ache in your chest intensifies, and before you know it, you’re lying down next to him, resting your head on the bed and gazing at his calm, indifferent eyes. It feels silly, pathetic even, to be speaking your heart to a cat, but in this silence, with no one else to turn to, you let yourself unravel.
“Pompidou,” you whisper, voice barely holding steady, “I… I don’t know what I did wrong. Everything was fine, wasn’t it?” Your fingers tremble as they thread through his fur, a warmth grounding you in the midst of your unraveling. “I don’t know how we ended up here. He’s always been there for me, and now… it’s like he’s vanished. And I’m trying, I really am, but every time I reach out, it’s like he’s miles away.”
A sharp breath catches in your throat, and you look up at the ceiling, fighting against the tears stinging your eyes. “It’s probably all my fault,” you confess in a whisper that breaks. “Maybe I was too much, or maybe I should have… I don’t know, said something differently, done something better. Maybe I shouldn’t have invited him to eat dinner that night so that…” A bitter chuckle slips out as you squeeze your eyes shut. “It’s funny, you know. All my life, I’ve been terrified of being alone, of people walking out… and now here I am, trying to be okay with him pulling away like it’s nothing.”
Pompidou shifts slightly, his warm body pressing into your side, a small reminder that he’s there, and he’s not leaving. You let your hand drop to your chest, feeling the dull ache that’s settled there. “I just miss him, Pompidou. I miss the way he used to look at me like I mattered. Now, he can’t even look me in the eyes. And I don’t know why I’m clinging to that, why I’m hoping he’ll suddenly turn around and go back to being who he was.”
The silence swallows you for a moment. “Maybe it’s because, deep down, I’m still the same pathetic teenager from Arcadia Bay who’s scared that she doesn’t deserve anything better. That she’s always going to be left behind, and this… this is just proof.” Your voice falters, words thick with pain you can no longer hold back. “And if he leaves, then maybe it’s what I deserve.”
“Maybe I was the one who left him in an alternate reality, and this is the price I have to pay for it,” you joke, but it only feels like a pathetic attempt to make yourself feel better.
The pain is so sharp it almost feels physical, a hollow ache that makes every breath feel heavier than the last. You close your eyes, fighting against the helplessness clawing at your insides, but the words keep pouring out, jagged and raw, as though voicing them might lessen the weight—even if it’s only to a cat who can’t respond.
“Do you know what’s worse?” you whisper, fingers clutching the fabric of your shirt over your chest as if you could hold yourself together by sheer will. “It’s that I can’t even be mad at him. I want to be—believe me, I’ve tried. I tell myself he’s the one pulling away, that he’s the one who’s changed, but then I start wondering… what if I pushed him to this? What if I’m the reason he’s slipping through my fingers?”
A soft tremor runs through your hands, and you curl them into fists, teeth gritted as you force the tears back. “I keep thinking… maybe he’s right to distance himself. Maybe there’s something broken in me, something that just drives people away. And the worst part is, I keep wishing he’d come back, like I’d somehow be enough if I could just—”
Your voice catches, breaking into a whisper as you bury your face in your hands, barely holding in the sob that threatens to spill out. “I just don’t understand. He was my safe place, Pompidou. For the first time in so long, I actually felt like I mattered. He made me feel seen. And now… now I feel invisible all over again, like everything we shared was just temporary, like it didn’t mean anything.”
Pompidou shifts closer, his soft purr rumbling beneath your fingertips as you stroke his fur, a small solace in the middle of this storm.
“I try to convince myself that I’m fine, that I can go on without him,” you continue, voice cracking as the words spill out unchecked. “But the truth is, I’m terrified. I’m scared that if he leaves… if he’s really gone, I’ll be alone again, just like before. And I hate myself for feeling this way, for being so… so weak.”
The tears finally break free, slipping down your cheeks in a silent flood. “What does that say about me? That I’m so dependent on him, that I can’t even imagine my life without him? I thought I was stronger than this, that I’d learned how to stand on my own. But now… now it’s like I’m right back to that scared, lonely kid I used to be, clinging to anyone who shows me a hint of kindness.”
You pull your knees to your chest, holding yourself as tightly as you can, as if you could somehow shield yourself from the emptiness swallowing you whole. “I can’t stop thinking that maybe this is all I deserve. That maybe I’m meant to be alone. Maybe he’s finally seeing me for who I am, and he’s realizing I’m not worth it.”
Your shoulders shake as the sobs escape, quiet and raw, each one cutting through you like glass. Pompidou curls closer, his little face pressing against your arm, as though he understands in his own way. But his silent comfort only deepens the ache, a reminder that the person you need more than anything isn’t here, and you’re left holding yourself together with nothing but frayed threads of hope.
With a shuddering breath, you finally admit the fear you’ve been trying so hard to ignore. “What if he doesn’t come back, Pompidou? What if this is it? I don’t think… I don’t think I can handle losing him. Not like this.”
Your voice drops to a whisper, the words coming slow and soft as you gaze out the window, eyes unfocused. “I just… I miss him, Pompidou,” you murmur, fingers absently tracing patterns against the sheets.
“I miss all the little things that made it feel like he was a part of me, like he was woven into my days without me even realizing it. I miss the way he’d send me random sketches, the ones that made no sense but made me laugh anyway, like he was letting me in on his little worlds. I miss… I miss how he’d always have this ridiculous drink order for me every time we’d meet up at the café where we switched up our notebooks with one another before we met for the first time. It’s like he knew exactly what I’d need, even if I didn’t.”
The memories wash over you, and you can’t stop the warmth from pooling in your chest as you picture those moments. “I wish we could go back to that time when things were… simple. When I could sit beside him without feeling like the whole world was shifting under my feet. When he’d laugh and look at me like I was… like I was something special, you know?”
Your voice trembles, and you tighten your grip on the sheets. “And the thing is… it was just easy with him. He’d be there, always making me feel like nothing could go wrong as long as we were together. He’d be there with his quiet, comforting presence, and I could just… be. I didn’t have to pretend or put on some mask. It was like he could see right through me, and somehow, he didn’t care about all the mess he found.”
You take a deep breath, the words spilling out like a plea. “I just want to go back, Pompidou. Back to before everything felt so fragile, before that almost-kiss, before this… this distance. I wish I could reach out and take it all back. I’d give anything just to have things feel normal again.”
Pompidou tilts his head, eyes blinking up at you, and you can’t help but laugh, a soft, broken sound that catches in your throat. “I know it sounds silly, doesn’t it? I mean, how could I expect anything to be the same after that? But I can’t help it, Pompidou. I want to go back to when he’d smile at me like that, when I didn’t have to wonder if I was the one pushing him away.”
You close your eyes, feeling the weight of each memory anchor you down. “I miss his laugh. I miss his stupid jokes. I miss the way he’d lean closer when he talked about his dreams, his voice getting all serious like he could see every detail in his mind. And I miss… I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere, like I belonged with him. I miss how he’d look at me with this warmth, like I was enough, just as I was.”
The words come out like a broken whisper, a confession you’ve been holding inside for far too long. “I can’t stop missing him. I wish… I wish I could go back to that last night before everything shifted. Before the night we nearly kissed, before I even realized what I felt. I wish I could’ve just stayed there, in that moment, without letting any of it change.”
You hug your knees, curling up as the ache settles deeper, heavier. “But I can’t. And now it’s as if I’m left with pieces of him in everything around me, and I don’t know how to put myself back together without him.”
You pull yourself up, exhaling slowly, and walk over to your desk. The room feels quiet, still heavy with everything you’ve let out, yet somehow emptier too, as if releasing the words has left you hollow. With a shaky hand, you pick up your phone and make your way back to bed, curling up beside Pompidou, who has already claimed his spot against your pillow. Settling into the blankets, you scroll through your contacts, your thumb hovering over Hongjoong’s icon.
It’s just his initials next to a simple photo he once sent—a candid moment he probably forgot about, something so ordinary that it’s precious now. The way he looked when he didn’t realize anyone was watching: a slight smile, eyes softened by something he found funny, maybe even a bit endearing. The sight makes your chest tighten, and you let yourself scroll up, reading through old conversations like leafing through the pages of a treasured book.
Each message brings back flashes of shared laughter and late-night ramblings, little moments where time seemed to pause, and it was just the two of you—untouchable, safe. You linger on a message he sent on a rainy afternoon, a random joke he thought would cheer you up. Your lips curl into a faint smile, but it’s bittersweet. There was a time when it was so easy, so effortless, like breathing. He had a way of knowing exactly when you needed a reminder that he was there. But now, that comfort feels distant, unreachable.
A tear slips down your cheek again before you realize it, and you hastily swipe it away, but the sorrow wells up again, slipping past your guard. As if sensing your pain, Pompidou extends a soft paw, resting it gently below your eyes, and you feel his fur against your cheek, grounding you in a way that words can’t. His small gesture tugs a quiet, breathy laugh from you, despite the ache in your chest. It’s as if he’s trying to catch your sadness, pulling it away piece by piece, his wide eyes fixed on yours with an empathy you can almost feel.
You let your head fall, hugging Pompidou close, allowing yourself to finally surrender to the pain and let it wash over you without restraint. The loneliness, the longing, the hollow spaces Hongjoong’s absence has left in you—all of it spills out as you clutch the feline tightly, letting his warmth and steady breathing lull you into a fragile sense of comfort. The room seems to blur, softening around you as the weight of everything you’ve been holding back presses into you.
The tears come faster now, unstoppable, and your quiet sobs fill the silence, raw and unfiltered. It’s just you and Pompidou, and for a moment, it feels like you’re not truly alone. There, in the quiet solace of your room, you cling to that small comfort, letting yourself feel every ounce of longing, letting yourself miss him—fully, desperately, hopelessly.
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Meanwhile, Hongjoong stood in his office, the warm, nostalgic tones of “La Vie en Rose” playing softly from the record player behind him. His gaze fixed on the window, hands clasped tightly behind his back, and he fought to keep his emotions in check. Each note lingered in the air, pulling him deeper into the web of memories he was desperately trying to forget. This song, of all songs—he could still remember how it had been playing when the two of you had stood together in the flower shop, laughing over bouquets and trading light-hearted jokes as if the world beyond didn’t exist.
Part of him knew he could walk over and turn it off. The music was his to control, after all. And yet… he couldn’t bring himself to stop it. The melody was the last fragile thread that kept him tethered to you, a reminder of the warmth he felt in your presence, the comfort of knowing someone understood him.
The dim light from the city outside cast a soft glow over his office, illuminating the expanse of papers scattered across his desk, the outlines of unfinished sketches and hastily scrawled notes, all reminders of the whirlwind he’d buried himself in since he started pushing you away. Each corner of the room felt saturated with memories of you—and it was strange how a space that had once felt so alive now seemed hollow, absent of the warmth you’d brought into it.
He tried to focus on the skyline again, his eyes tracing the glittering lights of the city. It was an attempt to ground himself, to pull himself back from the turmoil inside him. But tonight, every bit of stillness he attempted felt false, every piece of composure barely hanging by a thread. All he could think about was you—the absence of your presence filling every empty space in his mind, as if refusing to be silenced.
He turned slowly from the window, allowing his gaze to wander over his desk. It was almost impossible to remember the last time he’d felt fully at ease in this room. The stacks of designs that had once held so much promise now felt like hollow accomplishments, each one only reminding him of the fire you’d helped him ignite. His eyes landed on a small pendant lying amidst the clutter. The flower encased inside had faded slightly, its once-vibrant petals softened by time. He picked it up, cradling it carefully in his hand, feeling a strange tenderness rise within him.
You’d given him that flower, pressing it into his hand with a shy smile as you murmured something about it bringing him luck. He could still recall the way your fingers had lingered against his, the brief but electric touch that had left him wondering if you felt it too. “For good luck,” you’d said, your eyes sparkling in that way they always did when you felt especially close to him.
Hongjoong swallowed, feeling a tightness in his chest as he held the pendant closer. How was it that something so small could carry the weight of so many memories? He closed his eyes, and the warmth of your smile flashed in his mind, as vivid as if you were standing beside him. But now, as he held the pendant, it felt heavier, like a tiny piece of the past he was terrified of losing forever.
In his mind, he slipped back to that night—the one that had started as an ordinary work session, yet had unraveled into something far more vulnerable. He could still feel the closeness of the room, the soft glow of the lamps casting long shadows as you both worked side by side, immersed in the quiet moment you shared.
You’d shared things that night that were never meant to leave the room. He could still hear your voice, low and hesitant, as you revealed the fears you held closest to your heart. “Being left alone,” you’d admitted, your words raw and unguarded. The truth of it had lingered between you, a quiet vulnerability that had shaken him more than he cared to admit.
When you turned the question back on him, he’d hesitated, feeling the weight of his own guarded secrets pressing against his chest. But in that quiet space, under the gentle glow of the lamp, he’d found himself opening up in ways he hadn’t allowed himself to in years. “Losing myself,” he’d whispered, his voice barely audible, but enough for you to hear. “That’s what I’m afraid of.”
Now, standing alone in his empty office, Hongjoong felt the irony of it all washing over him. He’d tried so hard to protect himself, to build walls so high that even you couldn’t reach them. But now, it felt as if he had developed a new fear bigger than losing himself—losing you.
A quiet knock on the door broke his reverie, and he tensed, slipping the pendant into his pocket as he turned. Wooyoung’s face appeared in the doorway, his expression unreadable as he took in the sight of Hongjoong standing alone, the haunting strains of La Vie en Rose still spinning softly from the record player across the room.
Wooyoung’s eyes flickered to the player, where the melody had been looping for what must have been the better part of an hour. “Still here?” he asked quietly, a hint of concern threading his tone.
Hongjoong forced a slight smile, his voice coming out rougher than he intended. “Couldn’t sleep.”
Wooyoung stepped further into the room, his gaze sharp as it settled on Hongjoong. “You know…” Wooyoung began, folding his arms as he leaned against the wall, “the world can see how miserable you are. Including her—especially her.”
Hongjoong stiffened, the forced nonchalance slipping from his face as he turned away, staring intently at the record player as if it held all the answers he was struggling to find. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he muttered, the words feeling hollow even to his own ears.
“Hongjoong,” Wooyoung’s tone softened, a hint of exasperation breaking through. “I know you. I know how much you care about her. And I know you’re running from something you can’t outrun. But you’re not fooling anyone by pretending it doesn’t matter.”
Hongjoong’s jaw tightened, his mind racing with all the reasons he’d built to keep you at a distance. Each one felt logical, safe, a way to protect himself from something he couldn’t quite name. But here, with Wooyoung standing there, watching him with that steady gaze, he felt every layer he’d built start to unravel.
“I’m not pretending,” he said quietly, barely audible above the music.
Wooyoung’s eyes narrowed, his tone turning softer, almost pleading. “Then what are you doing, Hongjoong? Because from where I’m standing, all I see is someone too scared to reach for what he really wants.”
Hongjoong’s heart twisted painfully, Wooyoung’s words hitting far too close to home. He felt the weight of everything he’d tried to suppress rising within him, a tidal wave of emotions he’d buried so deeply he’d convinced himself they were gone. But Wooyoung’s words had brought them to the surface, and now, there was no escaping them.
A silence stretched between them, and Hongjoong’s gaze fell to the floor. In that moment, he felt utterly vulnerable, as though Wooyoung could see right through him, could see the aching desire he’d tried so hard to deny. He didn’t have to say it—Wooyoung already knew.
Hongjoong’s fingers were still curled around the pendant in his pocket when Wooyoung let out a quiet sigh, crossing his arms and leaning back against the wall. “So,” Wooyoung began, breaking the silence, “are you really going to stand here, pretending everything’s fine?”
Hongjoong’s jaw clenched, his shoulders tensing. He wanted to brush off Wooyoung’s words, to deflect with some casual response that would keep the carefully built walls intact. But his mind was a battlefield, each memory of you cutting through his defenses like a blade.
“Everything is fine,” he replied tersely. He didn’t meet Wooyoung’s eyes, focusing instead on a spot just beyond his shoulder.
Wooyoung’s brows knitted together, clearly unconvinced. “Right. That’s why you’ve been playing her favorite song on loop for the last hour. That’s why you’ve been holed up in here, avoiding anything that reminds you of her.” He shook his head, his tone equal parts exasperation and worry. “Hongjoong, you’re not fooling me. I know you, and I know you’re running from something—from someone.”
Hongjoong let out a low, frustrated sigh, finally looking up at Wooyoung. “Wooyoung, just drop it, alright?” He forced a tense smile, attempting to sound dismissive. “This… whatever you think is going on, it’s all in your head. We were just friends.”
But Wooyoung didn’t budge. “Friends?” He let out a quiet laugh, but there was no humor in it, just the weight of disbelief. “You really want to go with that? Because the way you’re acting… it doesn’t look like you’re just missing a friend. You’re avoiding her like she’s a stranger, but then you’re here, playing her favorite song over and over, clutching onto that pendant like it’s the last piece of her you have.”
Hongjoong’s fingers instinctively tightened around the pendant, and he felt a pang of frustration rise within him. He didn’t want to admit that Wooyoung’s words struck too close to home. “I told you, it’s nothing like that,” he bit back, his tone sharper than intended. “You’re turning this into something it isn’t.”
Wooyoung’s eyes narrowed, his gaze not faltering. “Am I? Because from where I’m standing, you’re acting like a guy who’s desperately trying to convince himself of something he doesn’t even believe.”
“Wooyoung—”
“Hongjoong, you can’t keep lying to yourself.” Wooyoung’s tone softened, his voice carrying a gentleness that seemed to cut deeper than the words themselves. “Look, I don’t know what happened between you two, but I do know that you care about her. You’re not fooling anyone by pretending this distance is ‘better’ for either of you.”
Hongjoong’s patience began to fray, his frustration morphing into anger. He shot Wooyoung a glare, his voice rising. “It is better, Wooyoung. She… she deserves better. She doesn’t need to be pulled into whatever mess I am.” He paused, catching his breath, his anger mingling with something closer to desperation. “I’m not what’s best for her. And it’s better for the both of us if I keep my distance.”
Wooyoung’s expression shifted, his gaze hardening as he stepped closer, unwilling to let Hongjoong brush him off. “So, what? You think pushing her away, acting like she means nothing, is somehow good for her? You really think she’s better off without you?”
“Yes,” Hongjoong replied, his tone final, but the conviction in his voice was starting to waver.
Wooyoung gave him a long, scrutinizing look, and for a moment, the silence between them was thick with unspoken truths. Then, Wooyoung shook his head slowly. “You’re lying to yourself. And honestly? It’s pathetic, Hongjoong. I’ve never seen you like this before.”
The words hit Hongjoong like a slap, and a flash of anger surged within him, simmering beneath the surface. “You don’t know what you’re talking about,” he muttered, his voice low and strained. “I’m doing this for her, so just… stop.”
But Wooyoung wouldn’t relent. “You’re not doing this for her. You’re doing this because you’re afraid. Afraid to admit how much she means to you. Afraid of what might happen if you actually let her in. Whatever you’re afraid of, whatever you think is keeping you from being with her… maybe it’s worth rethinking. Because if you keep running like this, you’re going to lose her. And then what?”
Hongjoong felt his control slipping, the carefully constructed barriers he’d built starting to crack under the weight of Wooyoung’s words. He clenched his fists, his gaze dropping to the floor as he struggled to keep his voice steady. “This isn’t about fear.”
“Isn’t it?” Wooyoung’s voice softened, a hint of understanding breaking through the frustration. “Hongjoong… I get it. You’re scared of losing yourself. Of losing control. But she’s not the one who’s going to make that happen. You are, by doing this. By trying so hard to keep her out.”
Hongjoong stayed silent, his chest tightening as Wooyoung’s words began to sink in. He wanted to deny it, to push back with the same conviction he’d clung to for weeks, but he couldn’t. Because deep down, he knew there was truth in Wooyoung’s words.
Finally, Wooyoung let out a sigh, his tone softening even further. “Listen, man. I don’t know what almost happened, or why you’re so determined to stay away from her, but you have to ask yourself… is this really what you want?”
Hongjoong closed his eyes, his mind flashing back to that night in your apartment—the feeling of your hand brushing his, the way your gaze had lingered on him, the unspoken tension that had nearly pulled him into something he couldn’t name. He’d wanted so badly to close that distance, to feel your lips against his, to let go of the fear and doubt that had held him back. But just as he’d leaned closer, Wooyoung’s call had snapped him out of the moment, bringing him crashing back to reality.
“Do you even understand how much she’s hurting, Hongjoong?” And there it was again—the harshness in Wooyoung’s tone. “Seonghwa told me she’s tearing herself apart over this. She doesn’t eat right anymore, and she barely even sleeps. She spends her nights lying awake, staring at the ceiling, wondering where things went wrong, wondering if she’s the problem.”
The words landed like a punch to Hongjoong’s gut, leaving him breathless. Images of you flashed through his mind—moments when he’d caught glimpses of your smile faltering, your laughter quieting, the spark in your eyes dimming little by little. He’d told himself it was just his imagination, that you were fine. But Wooyoung’s words shattered that illusion entirely.
“She thinks she did something wrong, Hongjoong,” Wooyoung continued, his voice filled with barely contained anger. “She actually believes she’s the reason you’re running. Every time you disappear, every time you pull away, she thinks it’s because of something she did. And the worst part? She doesn’t even blame you. She blames herself.”
Hongjoong’s fists clenched at his sides, his nails digging into his palms as guilt clawed at him.
“Seonghwa told me she asked him if she was too much. Can you believe that?” Wooyoung’s voice cracked. “She actually thinks she’s too much for you. That she’s somehow burdening you, dragging you down. She’s convinced herself that if she were just… less, maybe you wouldn’t be running.”
Hongjoong’s breath hitched, a wave of nausea rolling over him as he realized the full extent of the pain he’d caused. You—who had always been so vibrant, so unapologetically yourself—were now questioning every part of who you were, trying to shrink yourself down to avoid scaring him away.
“She’s not even angry at you, Hongjoong,” Wooyoung said, his voice barely above a whisper now, each word a dagger aimed straight at Hongjoong’s heart. “She doesn’t hate you for this. She just… she thinks she’s not enough. Or that she’s too much. Either way, she’s convinced that she’s the problem.”
Hongjoong closed his eyes, his mind reeling. He could feel the anchor of your pain weighing down on him; He’d done this to you—turned you into a shadow of yourself, left you grappling with doubts and insecurities that weren’t yours to bear.
“You’ve been so busy hiding behind your own fears,” Wooyoung continued, “that you haven’t even stopped to consider what this is doing to her. You’re so terrified of being hurt again that you’re hurting her—over and over, every day, with every step you take away from her.”
Hongjoong opened his mouth to speak, to protest, but the words caught in his throat. What could he possibly say to justify this? How could he explain that he’d been running not to hurt you, but to protect himself? It sounded so selfish, so small in the face of everything you were going through.
“And you know what’s really twisted?” Wooyoung’s voice dropped, a bitter edge creeping into his tone. “She’d take you back in a heartbeat. Despite everything, she’d still look at you the same way she did before you started pushing her away. She’d still forgive you, still try to see the good in you, because that’s who she is. That’s how much she cares.”
Hongjoong felt something break inside him, a quiet, shattering realization that left him reeling. You would forgive him. He knew that. He could see it in his mind—the way you’d smile softly, the way your eyes would fill with understanding, even now. Even after everything, you’d welcome him back, arms open, heart exposed, waiting.
“She deserves better, Joong.” Wooyoung’s words were softer now, the anger replaced by a raw, unfiltered honesty. “She deserves someone who doesn’t make her question her worth. Someone who doesn’t make her feel like she’s somehow wrong just for being herself. And if you can’t be that for her… if you’re too wrapped up in your own fears to let her in… then you need to let her go.”
Hongjoong’s chest tightened, a hollow ache spreading through him as he struggled to process it all. He didn’t want to let you go. He couldn’t. But the thought of holding onto you only to keep hurting you, to keep dragging you through his own tangled web of insecurities and fears—it was unbearable.
“She’s barely holding up. She hides it well, but Seonghwa can see it. He told me how she sits alone for hours, just staring off into space, like she’s lost something she can’t find. She keeps her phone close, hoping maybe, just maybe, you’ll reach out. But every time you don’t... it breaks her a little more.”
Hongjoong’s chest tightened painfully, each word slicing through him like a blade. He could see it so clearly now, every painful moment he’d forced you through. How you must’ve waited for messages that never came, must’ve spent countless nights wondering where things had gone wrong. The thought of you sitting there, lost in your own pain, while he’d been so focused on his own fears, was more than he could bear.
“And don’t think she hasn’t tried to talk to you.” Wooyoung’s voice turned sharp, accusatory. “Seonghwa told me how many times she’s wanted to reach out, just to make sure you’re okay, just to see if you’d give her even a scrap of reassurance. But every time, she stops herself. She doesn’t want to bother you, doesn’t want to seem needy. She’s holding back everything she feels because she’s afraid it’ll push you further away.”
Wooyoung’s eyes softened slightly, but the fire of his conviction remained. “You need to understand, Hongjoong. This isn’t just about you anymore. It’s about her too. You’re hurting her, and if you don’t start realizing that, it’ll be too late. She’s going to break, and I don’t think she’ll come back from it.”
Hongjoong felt a cold wave of dread wash over him. The thought of you shattering into pieces because of his cowardice was unbearable. He wanted to argue, to defend himself, to say that he was doing this for you, for the both of you. But deep down, he knew it was a lie. He was only trying to shield himself from the fear of loss, the same fear that had haunted him since that girl from his past had walked away.
“I can’t… I can’t lose anyone again, Woo,” Hongjoong finally admitted, his voice cracking under the weight of his confession. “What if she sees me for who I really am? What if she realizes I’m not worth it?”
Wooyoung shook his head, frustration flashing across his features. “That’s where you’re wrong. She already sees you, and she loves you for all the parts you’re trying to hide. You think you’re protecting her by staying away, but you’re only pushing her further into despair.”
Hongjoong’s heart raced, a whirlwind of emotions colliding within him. “How do you know? How do you know she feels that way?”
“Because I’ve talked to Seonghwa, and he cares about her, Joong! He’s seen her cry over you. He told me she broke down one night, just sitting on the floor of her room, wondering why you were so distant. She kept saying she must’ve done something wrong. Do you want that for her? Do you want to be the reason she loses herself?”
The image of you curled up alone, tears streaming down your face while grappling with your worth, sliced through Hongjoong. The sheer guilt of it settled heavily in his chest, suffocating him. He had wanted to protect you, but in doing so, he had only hurt you more.
Hongjoong lingered in silence, the weight of his unspoken fears casting a shadow over the room. He could feel Wooyoung’s gaze on him, a
persistent pressure urging him to confront the thoughts he’d been too afraid to voice.
“What if…” The words caught in his throat, his voice strained with the vulnerability he couldn’t hide. “What if I take the next step, and she leaves? What if she ends up leaving just like—”
Wooyoung interrupted him by reaching forward, pressing his fingers gently but firmly to Hongjoong’s lips, shushing him with an authority that surprised them both. “I know what comes next, Hongjoong,” he murmured. “You don’t need to say it.”
Hongjoong stiffened, pulling back ever so slightly, a touch of annoyance flickering across his face. “You think it’s that simple?” he muttered, frustration bleeding into his voice. “You think it’s easy to just… forget?”
Wooyoung’s expression softened, though he held firm. “I think you’re holding onto something that’s long gone, Joong. And you’re letting it get in the way of something real.” He paused, leaning forward. “So what if the girl you loved back in middle school left you? You’re still letting her be the one who decides what happens now?”
Hongjoong’s mouth opened, then closed, his defenses crumbling under Wooyoung’s scrutiny. He could feel the words bubbling up, the excuses he’d used to justify his fears over and over, but this time, they didn’t come. The silence between them grew heavier, and he felt himself shrinking under Wooyoung’s eyes.
“It’s not about her,” Hongjoong finally managed, his voice a strained whisper. “It’s just… this was exactly how it started back then. The same moments, the same feelings, and then…” His voice broke, a haunted look creeping into his eyes as the memories clawed their way to the surface. “And then it all just fell apart the moment she left without a word.”
Wooyoung’s expression softened, his gaze filled with something close to sympathy, but there was no pity there, only an understanding forged through years of friendship. “Joong,” he said softly, leaning even closer as if he could bridge the distance that Hongjoong had placed between himself and everyone around him. “So what if some things feel familiar? They’re not the same person, are they? You’re not the same person, either.”
Hongjoong clenched his jaw, a flicker of anger sparking in his chest as he searched for a way to deflect, to deny the truth in Wooyoung’s words. “It’s… it’s not like that, Woo. You don’t get it.” His voice grew sharper, frustration edging his tone as he tried to hold onto the walls he’d built.
Wooyoung shook his head, a small, knowing smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Really? Because it doesn’t look that way to me.”
Hongjoong looked away, his gaze hardening as he stared at the floor. “It’s not that simple, okay? You don’t know what it’s like to… to risk everything and then lose it.”
Wooyoung sighed, running a hand through his hair. “Hongjoong, I may not know exactly what you went through, but I do know one thing: you’re letting something from the past dictate your future. And that’s not fair. Not to you, and definitely not to her.”
Hongjoong’s shoulders sagged, the fight draining out of him as he felt the weight of Wooyoung’s words settle over him. Part of him wanted to argue, to cling to the fears that had kept him guarded for so long, but another part—a part he’d buried deep—knew that Wooyoung was right.
“What if I let myself try?” His voice was barely above a whisper, his words laden with the weight of years of doubt and self-preservation. “What if… what if I take that risk, and she ends up leaving?”
Wooyoung’s gaze softened, and he leaned forward, resting a reassuring hand on Hongjoong’s shoulder. “Joong, if she’s really the person you believe she is… then maybe it’s a risk worth taking. Because people leave, yeah. They walk away. But the ones who matter, the ones who are meant to stay—they won’t go anywhere.”
“You’re saying I should just… trust that?” His voice wavered, the question more for himself than for Wooyoung, as if he needed to convince himself that he could still believe in something other than his own fears.
Wooyoung’s mouth curved into a gentle, understanding smile. “Yeah. Trust it. Don’t let something that’s already gone keep you from what could be right here, right now.”
“What if I let her in? What if I let her see the real me? What if it’s not enough?”
“Then you fight for her,” Wooyoung replied. “You show her every day that she’s enough. You fight for her instead of running away. You have to be brave enough to take the risk, Joong. And if she does leave, at least you’ll know you tried. You can’t live in the shadow of your past forever.”
“But what if she sees me as weak?” Hongjoong countered, bitterness lacing his tone. “What if she thinks I’m broken?”
“Then you show her that even broken pieces can fit together to make something beautiful,” Wooyoung shot back. “You’ve built this wall around yourself, but you’re just hurting the one person who’s tried to break through. You need to trust her. You need to let her help you. She wants to be there for you, but you have to meet her halfway.”
The truth of those words echoed painfully in Hongjoong’s mind. He had been running, terrified of the vulnerability that came with love, terrified of the chance that he could be left once more. But he could feel the edges of that fear beginning to fray under the weight of his guilt, unraveling with every word Wooyoung spoke.
“You can’t let the past dictate your present, Hongjoong,” Wooyoung said, his voice softer now, a mixture of empathy and frustration. “You can’t keep running away from what you feel. If you do, you’ll end up losing her, and it’ll be your fault.”
Hongjoong’s heart raced as he thought of you—how you had lit up his life in ways he never thought possible. How your laughter had become a soothing balm to his weary soul. He couldn’t keep ignoring the truth that was staring him in the face. The realization washed over him like a cold wave. “What am I supposed to do?” Hongjoong whispered.
“Fight for her, Joong. Show her that you’re not afraid. Be honest with her, and don’t let fear win this time.” Wooyoung leaned closer. “She deserves that much, at the very least. Fight for her—before it’s too late.”
“But what if it already is?”
🪞 — lividstar.
🐟 k - kids by current joys
🐟 o - odd reasons by donovan melero
🐟 i - it’s you by ateez
I can’t recommend much music, but hey it’s something
MOOT / TAG GAME !
mission— spell your real name / name you use on tumblr with songs you like >< ready, set, go !
m — my love, mine all mine (mitski)
i — i love you, i’m sorry (gracie abrams)
c — coraline (lyn lapid)
k — killshot (magdalena bay)
i — i know you (faye webster)
e — either way (ive)
tagging— @puma-riki @flwrstqr @liwinly @woniefication @lilificationn @stvrriki @okwonyo + anyone else who wants to join !
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wow, a chapter where reader’s life isn’t going horrible. This is going great, but we still gotta kill mike that man is public enemy #1 I don’t care how he can blow up in space or die to a snail touching and i’ll be happy.
amazing chapter, excited to see what comes next <3
Popular, Boy
☆12: The first warning.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, angst, slow burn, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 10k
Summary: Stepping back to your world and reclaiming your place with confidence and Hongjoong by your side, feeling that everything is better.
But some loyalties are bound by fear rather than choice.
Warnings: Cursing, manipulation, power dynamics, fluff.
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☆11 ☆13: The first bliss. Coming soon
The sharp click of your heels echoes through the quiet hallway as you make your way toward your father’s office. The Clarke mansion is always pristine, always silent in places where it shouldn’t be.
It’s suffocating.
You pause outside the heavy wooden door, exhaling before knocking twice.
“Come in.”
You push the door open, stepping inside. Your father is at his desk, flipping through documents, while your mother sits on one of the velvet chairs across from him, sipping tea as if she has no real business here.
Both of them glance up at you, but it’s your mother who smiles first.
“Well, this is a surprise. To what do we owe the pleasure, darling?”
Your father doesn’t say anything. He just watches, waiting. You clear your throat, keeping your tone even.
“I need a favor.”
Your mother’s eyes gleam with interest “A favor? That’s rare.” She sets her teacup down gently. “What is it?”
You don’t hesitate “It’s about Hongjoong.”
At that, your father raises a brow, finally giving you his full attention. Your mother, on the other hand, practically lights up.
“Oh, Hongjoong! I was beginning to think you weren’t talking to him anymore after—” She pauses, tilting her head, eyes sharp. “After that day.”
You knew this was coming. Of course she’d ask.Your fingers tighten slightly at your sides, but your voice remains composed.
“It was a misunderstanding. Everything’s fine between us now.”
Your mother hums in approval, looking far too pleased. “I knew you wouldn’t throw away something special over a little argument.”
Your father clears his throat, his tone clipped “If this is about that boy, get to the point.”
You nod “It’s not about him, exactly. It’s about his father.”
Both your parents exchange a glance.
You continue, “His father lost his job recently, and their family is struggling. I wanted to know if you could offer him something here. A driver, security—anything.”
Your mother leans back slightly, considering. “His father lost his job?” A small frown tugs at her lips, but it isn’t one of disapproval—it’s concern. “That’s terrible.”
Your father leans forward, resting his elbows on the desk. “What does he do?”
“He was a chauffeur,” You answer. “For a private company, but they let him go.”
Your father exhales, glancing down at the papers on his desk as if debating whether this conversation is worth his time.
“A driver, huh?”
Your mother places a hand on his arm, smiling “Well, we do need another personal driver, don’t we?”
Your father gives her a pointed look, but you know him. He isn’t against the idea—he’s just pretending to be.
“It wouldn’t be a bad thing,” The woman continues, smoothing out a nonexistent wrinkle on her dress. “The boy is respectful, intelligent. If he’s anything like his son, I’m sure his father would be a good addition.”
Your father exhales through his nose before looking at you “You really want this?”
“Yes.”
A long pause. Then—
“Fine.”
Your mother claps her hands together lightly “Wonderful.” She turns back to you, a knowing smile on her lips. “Tell Hongjoong his father can start next week.”
Relief washes over you, but you keep your expression composed. You lean against the edge of your father’s desk, tilting your head just slightly, letting your voice soften into that sweet, spoiled tone you know they can’t resist.
“Thank you, Daddy,” You say, drawing out the last word just enough to sound affectionate, not excessive.
Your father exhales, shaking his head as if he’s already regretting agreeing to this. But you don’t miss the way the tension in his shoulders loosens. He likes it when you act like his perfect little girl—like you adore him.
Your mother watches the interaction with amusement, sipping her tea. “You should’ve just started with that, sweetheart. You know your father can’t say no to you when you ask nicely.”
Your father gives her a flat look “That’s not true.”
“Oh, please.” She waves a delicate hand in the air. “You’ve been wrapped around her little finger since she could talk.”
You flash a smug little smile, but before you can say anything, your mother’s expression brightens.
“Oh! That reminds me.” She sets her teacup down and turns to you expectantly. “You should invite Hongjoong over for dinner one day.”
Your father grunts “What?”
Your mother raises an eyebrow “What, what? I like him. He’s polite, intelligent, and much better company than some of your other friends.” She pauses, pressing a manicured finger to her lips in thought. “And he’s quite handsome, isn’t he?”
You scoff, rolling your eyes “Okay, calm down.”
She chuckles “I’m just saying, I want to see him again. And this time, without all the party noise.”
Your father mutters under his breath, flipping a page in his documents “I still don’t like the idea of my daughter wasting time with some scholarship kid.”
You pout dramatically, leaning toward him “But, Daddy,” You drawl, “I like him.”
He sighs, rubbing his temple “I swear, you only do this to torture me.”
You smile sweetly “That’s not true! I only do it when I want something.”
Your mother laughs, shaking her head “So? Will you invite him?”
You shrug, pushing off the desk “I’ll think about it.”
But you both know you’ll do it.
As you turn to leave, your mother calls after you, “And tell him I said hello!”
You wave a hand without looking back, already dreading Hongjoong’s reaction when you tell him.
Because if he agrees to dinner, you just know your mother is going to love embarrassing you.
✮ ⋆
Hongjoong opens the door, eyebrows raising slightly when he sees you standing on his porch, dressed effortlessly chic like you don’t belong in this neighborhood.
It’s not the first time you’ve been here, but it’s rare enough that the sight of you standing outside his house still feels surreal.
"Pretty?" He leans against the doorframe, arms crossed, a hint of amusement playing at his lips. "Did I forget we had a date or something?"
You roll your eyes, stepping past him like you own the place "Please, nerd. If we had a date, you’d be waiting for me."
He huffs a laugh, closing the door behind you "So, what’s up?"
You spin on your heel, hands clasped in front of you like you’re about to drop the biggest news of the century.
"Well, I just came back from a very interesting conversation with my parents." He tenses slightly at the mention of them, but he doesn’t interrupt. "And guess what?" You tilt your head, smiling. "Your dad just got a job."
Hongjoong blinks "What?"
Before you can answer, his mother’s voice comes from the kitchen "Joong, who’s at the—" She pauses as she steps into the living room, eyes widening when she sees you. "Oh! YN, dear!"
You smile "Hi, Mrs. Kim."
His father enters the room next, looking surprised but polite "It’s nice to see you again, YN."
"You too, Mr. Kim," You reply warmly. "Actually, I came to tell you something." You glance at Hongjoong, then back to his father. "My dad just hired you as a personal driver."
A beat of silence. Then the woman clasps her hands together, eyes shining. "Oh, that’s wonderful news!" She turns to her husband, already fussing. "You see? Everything is working out. I told you things would get better."
The man, though visibly relieved, remains composed "This… this is really unexpected," He says carefully, looking at you. "Your father doesn’t know me, so why would he—"
"It was my idea," You cut in. "I told them about your situation, and they agreed."
Hongjoong’s parents exchange a glance, something unspoken passing between them. Gratitude. Maybe even a little disbelief.
Hongjoong stays quiet beside you, his eyes unreadable.
His mother sighs, then smiles at you warmly "YN, that was really kind of you."
You shrug, like it’s nothing, like you don’t actually care as much as you do "It’s the least I could do."
Mrs. Kim beams "Well, in that case, you must stay for dinner."
"Oh, I—"
"No buts," She says, already ushering you toward the dining table. "It’s our way of saying thank you."
You glance at Hongjoong, who just smirks, as if to say you brought this on yourself.
Fine. You’ll stay.
✮ ⋆
Dinner is surprisingly… nice. Warm. Unlike the silent, performative meals at the Clarke mansion, this table is filled with actual conversation.
Hongjoong’s father asks about school, his mother tells stories from work, and Hongjoong—well, he mostly watches you.
And under the table, his hand finds your thigh. You stiffen slightly at the unexpected touch, but when you glance at him, he’s focused on his plate like nothing’s happening.
His fingers, however, trace slow, lazy patterns against your skin, just under the hem of your skirt.
You shift slightly, your breath catching, but you don’t move his hand. His thumb presses lightly, and your nails dig into your fork.
Mrs. Kim suddenly laughs at something her husband says, then turns to you with a knowing look.
"YN, dear," She starts, voice full of something—something playful, something amused. "How long have you and my son been together?"
You nearly choke on your drink, Hongjoong finally looks up, biting back a smile.
"Excuse me?" You ask, feigning innocence.
His father smirks, shaking his head "You two think we don’t notice?" He nods toward his son. "You’ve been staring at her all night."
Hongjoong shrugs, far too casual "Can you blame me?"
You shoot him a look.
His mother giggles "And he’s been holding your hand under the table for the last ten minutes."
Oh.
You didn’t even realize. Somewhere between his teasing and the conversation, his hand had slipped into yours, fingers lazily intertwined.
Again, Hongjoong just smirks.
You clear your throat, quickly pulling your hand away "Anyway," You say, trying to steer the conversation anywhere else.
But his mother just hums, giving you both a knowing smile "Ah, young love."
Hongjoong leans in slightly, voice low enough for only you to hear "We could make it official, you know."
You gasp, eyes widening as you slap his arm lightly. "Hongjoong!"
His parents laugh at the interaction, clearly entertained, while Hongjoong just grins, absolutely unbothered.
“Oh, don’t act so surprised, pretty,” He teases, rubbing his arm dramatically like you actually hurt him.
You roll your eyes, ignoring the warmth creeping up your neck. Idiot.
After dinner, Mrs. Kim insists on making tea, despite Hongjoong’s grumbles that ‘YN probably only drinks champagne, Mom.’ You roll your eyes but accept the tea anyway, sitting at the kitchen counter as his parents clear the table.
Hongjoong stands beside you, arms crossed, leaning slightly against the counter. He’s relaxed, comfortable in his home, but his eyes flicker toward you every few seconds.
You tap your nails against your mug “Your mom likes me.”
He snorts “Understatement. She’s already planning our wedding.”
You scoff, taking a sip of tea “I’d be a great addition to your family, let’s be honest.”
He tilts his head, considering “You do have expensive taste. My mom would love the gifts you’d bring her.”
You nudge him with your elbow “Oh, shut up.”
He grins, but before he can say something else, his mother calls from the living room. “Joong, come help your father with something!”
Hongjoong exhales through his nose, standing up straight “Be right back.” He pauses before heading off, leaning down just slightly so only you can hear. “Don’t miss me too much, pretty.”
You roll your eyes, but he catches the way your lips twitch.
Once he’s gone, you’re left in the quiet of the kitchen, staring down at your tea. It’s strange being here. The warmth, the ease—nothing like the cold, calculated world you come from.
And you hate how much you like it.
A few minutes later, you’re checking your phone when you feel it—gentle fingers trailing down your back. You shiver, looking up just as Hongjoong settles behind you, his presence warm, solid.
“They’re in the living room,” He murmurs. “We have a few minutes alone.”
You raise an eyebrow “And?”
“And…” He steps closer, his hand resting lightly against your hip. “I want to be with you without my mom watching like she’s this close to planning our honeymoon.”
You smirk, but before you can retort, he dips down, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to the side of your neck.
Your breath catches. His lips ghost over your skin, slow, deliberate. His hands find your waist, fingers tightening ever so slightly.
You’re still sitting on the stool, and he’s standing between your legs, close enough that you can feel his warmth against you.
“Joong—”
“Shhh,” He murmurs, placing another kiss just beneath your jaw. “I just like being near you.”
Your heart stutters. For all the teasing, all the flirting, this moment is different. It’s soft. Unrushed. His fingers brush over the fabric of your skirt, trailing lazily along your thigh like he’s memorizing the feel of you.
You don’t stop him. Instead, you tilt your head slightly, giving him more access.
He hums in approval, lips brushing your pulse before finally pulling back just enough to look at you. His eyes are dark, but there’s something else in them—something real.
His thumb traces circles against your hip “You should come over more.”
You exhale a quiet laugh “Your mom would love that.”
“She would,” He agrees, smirking. “And maybe I would too.”
Your fingers find the collar of his sweater, tugging him closer until your lips are almost touching.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
And then he kisses you.
It’s slow, deliberate, nothing rushed or messy. Just the warmth of his lips, the way his fingers tighten against you, the quiet hum that vibrates against your mouth.
He’s holding back, you can tell. And maybe you like that.
Maybe you like all of it.
But before things can go any further, the sound of someone clearing their throat shatters the moment.
You both freeze.
Slowly, you turn your head—only to see Mrs. Kim standing in the doorway, arms crossed, one eyebrow raised.
Hongjoong immediately steps back, rubbing the back of his neck.
“Uh...”
She sighs, shaking her head “At least take her out on a proper date first, Kim Hongjoongl.”
You burst out laughing, while Hongjoong groans, burying his face in his hands.
✮ ⋆
After that awkward situation in the kitchen, you and Hongjoong make your way to his room, excusing yourselves with a vague, ‘We have things to do.’ His parents exchange a glance but don’t argue. If anything, they look downright amused.
His room is cleaner than you expected. Bookshelves filled with everything from fantasy novels to thick textbooks line the walls, and his desk is cluttered but organized.
As he digs through his drawers for fresh clothes, you skim over his bookshelf, fingers brushing over the spines until one catches your eye.
You plop onto his bed, flipping through the pages, completely lost in the book.
Then, the bathroom door clicks open.
You glance up—and immediately freeze.
Hongjoong stands in the doorway, fresh from the shower, steam still curling around him. His damp hair clings slightly to his forehead, droplets of water trailing down the sharp planes of his chest.
And the only thing he’s wearing? A towel.
Low on his hips.
Your throat runs dry.
He doesn’t notice at first—he’s too busy running a hand through his hair, sighing like he’s still processing everything that happened tonight. But then he looks at you, noticing your wide eyes, the way your fingers have frozen over the page.
His lips curve “Oh?” He leans against the doorframe, crossing his arms. “Something wrong, pretty?”
You snap the book shut. Hard.
“Why are you standing there like that?” You demand, clearing your throat, pretending that nothing about this is affecting you.
Hongjoong shrugs “It’s my room. Didn’t know I needed to be fully dressed to exist in it.”
You glare at him “You’re doing this on purpose.”
He tilts his head, looking far too pleased with himself “Doing what on purpose?”
Your jaw clenches. Fine. Two can play this game.
You set the book aside and stretch, tilting your head slightly, letting your gaze slowly trail down his torso.
Hongjoong’s smirk falters just a little. Then, as if completely unfazed, you lean back against his pillows, propping yourself up on your elbows.
“You know,” You say, feigning nonchalance, “For a nerd, you’re in surprisingly good shape.”
He blinks. Then—he laughs, shaking his head “Oh, that’s rich coming from you.”
You raise an eyebrow “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It means,” He steps closer, eyes darkening slightly, “That you are the biggest tease I’ve ever met.”
He’s right in front of you now, way too close, the scent of his shampoo still fresh. You can see the water droplets clinging to his collarbone, sliding down his skin, disappearing beneath the towel.
Your stomach flutters “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” You say, voice way too even.
Hongjoong hums, unconvinced. And then his fingers graze your knee. You jolt slightly, but before you can react, he slides his hand up, slow, teasing. Over your thigh, pushing your skirt up just barely, his fingertips ghosting over sensitive skin.
Your breath hitches.
He leans in, voice low, taunting “Tell me, pretty…” His lips hover near your ear. “If I am doing this on purpose… is it working?”
Your pulse pounds.
God, you hate him. But you also don’t.
And maybe that’s the real problem.
Before you can make the very reckless decision to grab him by the towel and end his teasing yourself, Hongjoong grins—the cockiest grin you’ve ever seen—and pulls away completely, stepping back toward his dresser like nothing just happened.
“I should get dressed,” He muses, voice far too casual. “We have places to be, remember?”
You stare at him. He’s so lucky you like him.
You exhale sharply, crossing your arms as he rummages through his drawer “You are the most annoying person I know.”
He tosses a shirt over his head, grinning “And yet, here you are.”
You throw a pillow at him.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
Fifteen minutes later, you arrive at the café, the glow from the streetlights casting long shadows through the clear glass windows. Your steps slow as your eyes land on her.
Jina.
She’s behind the counter, casually wiping a glass, completely unaware of what’s coming.
Your lips press into a thin line, irritation bubbling to the surface.
Hongjoong notices immediately, chuckling under his breath as he reaches out, fingers tilting your chin so your eyes meet his instead.
"Stop frowning, pretty. You’ll get wrinkles."
You scoff “Joong, that slut tried to mess with me and you. Don’t expect me to act all nice and sweet around her.”
His lips twitch with amusement, but instead of scolding you, he leans down and presses a slow, deliberate kiss to your lips.
"It’s okay, pretty. But please don’t punch her, or I’ll never bring you to a café again."
You roll your eyes “Whatever.”
Hongjoong sighs but laces his fingers through yours, leading you toward the entrance. The bell above the door jingles softly as you step inside, the warm scent of coffee and vanilla lingering in the air.
The second Jina hears the sound, she turns, already slipping into her customer-service smile.
"Welcome to—"
Her voice dies in her throat the moment she sees you.
You, standing next to him.
You, holding his hand like nothing had happened between you two.
A flicker of something—shock, unease—crosses her face before she quickly schools her expression.
Still, you catch it.
The hesitation.
The way she stiffens ever so slightly under your gaze.
She swallows, clearing her throat "Welcome to Café Aurora. How can I help you?"
Hongjoong doesn’t respond. Neither do you. Instead, he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a neatly folded envelope, placing it on the counter.
"It’s my resignation. Thank Mr. Choi on my behalf."
Jina flinches slightly at the soft thud of the envelope hitting the polished wood.
"What?" Her voice comes out quieter than she intends.
He doesn’t repeat himself. He simply watches her, expression unreadable. A heavy silence settles between the three of you, thick with tension.
Then, he speaks again—his tone even, but firm.
"Before we go, I want to ask you something, Jina." She tenses. "Where do you know Park Seonghwa from?"
For the first time, true panic flashes across her face.
Her breath catches. Her fingers tighten around the rag she’s holding, knuckles turning white.
You don’t miss the way her eyes flick toward you—just for a second—before she quickly looks away, pretending to focus on something across the room.
Like she’s debating whether or not to lie.
Like she’s wondering if you remember.
Your own brows furrow slightly. Why would she—And then it hits you.
The familiarity in her gaze. The way she seems to know you, not just Hongjoong.
You narrow your eyes “Why do I feel like I’ve seen you before?”
Jina’s jaw tightens, lips pressing into a firm line.
Hongjoong shifts slightly beside you, glancing between the two of you “Wait. You know her?”
You blink, memories stirring in the back of your mind, hazy but persistent. You have seen her before.
Not here.
Not as Hongjoong’s coworker.
But years ago.
At Seonghwa’s house.
Your stomach drops, realization crashes into you like a tidal wave. Jina wasn’t just some random girl working at this café.
She worked for Seonghwa’s family.
She had been there. During the years you “dated” Hwa, when you spent countless afternoons at his house. And yet, back then, you never really noticed her.
She was just another staff member, someone in the background, someone who blended into the luxury of the Park estate.
But the way Jina looks at you now—Like she remembers everything.
Like she knows exactly who you are.
Your throat tightens, and Hongjoong notices the change in your expression immediately.
“YN?”
Jina exhales slowly, fingers still gripping the rag in her hands. Then—finally—she speaks. "So, you really don’t remember, huh?"
You meet her gaze, heart pounding “Remember what?”
Jina lets out a quiet, humorless laugh, shaking her head “Figures.” She leans forward slightly, lowering her voice. “You used to be in his house all the time, but you never even looked at me, did you?”
Your fingers curl into fists “What the hell are you talking about?”
Jina tilts her head, eyes glinting “You really don’t know, do you?”
Hongjoong stiffens beside you “Know what?”
She pauses, studying you both.
"Are you sure Seonghwa wanted something serious with you back then?"
A sharp, hollow ache settles in your chest, the weight of Jina’s words pressing into you like a slow, creeping poison.
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Your voice is sharp, but there’s something beneath it—something raw.
Jina smirks, tapping her fingers against the counter, eyes flickering between you and Hongjoong.
“I mean exactly what I said. Are you sure Seonghwa ever really saw you as his?”
Hongjoong shifts beside you, his presence grounding you, but your pulse is hammering against your ribs.
“You’re lying.”
Jina raises a brow, clearly amused “Am I?”
Your jaw clenches. You want to ignore this. You want to roll your eyes, turn around, and walk out like none of this matters. Like he doesn’t matter. Like your past with Hwa was just that—past.
But something inside you twists.
You had liked him—really liked him. Back then, you had convinced yourself that the games you played with him meant something, that the tension, the lingering glances, the way he acted like you were the only girl in the room was real.
But if Jina’s words were true—if he had never really meant it, if you were just one of many—then what the hell had all of it been for?
Your stomach churns. Hongjoong, silent until now, finally steps in, his voice firm, protective.
“YN, we don’t have to listen to this.”
But you can’t move. You can’t breathe. Because the memories are flashing—the nights you waited for Seonghwa to call, the excuses he made, the moments that never quite added up.
Jina watches you, her smirk deepening “There it is.”
You snap your gaze back to hers, eyes burning “What do you want? Huh? What’s your goal here?”
Jina leans back, feigning innocence “I don’t want anything. I just think you deserve to know what kind of man Seonghwa really is.”
It shouldn’t hurt. Not anymore.
You have Hongjoong.
Hongjoong, who would never play with your feelings like that. Hongjoong, who looks at you like you’re the only girl in the world.
And suddenly, that’s enough.
The pain dulls.
You exhale, letting go of the sharp, bitter sting in your chest. You turn to him, and when your eyes meet, the warmth there is undeniable.
You have everything you need.
Seonghwa is just a name from your past. A mistake.
You look back at Jina, but this time, your lips curve—not into a smirk, not into anger, but into indifference.
“You know what, Jina?” You say smoothly, voice steady. “I don’t care.”
Jina blinks, her smirk faltering for the first time.
You step closer, tilting your head “You really thought this would break me?” A soft chuckle leaves your lips. “That’s pathetic.”
And with that, you turn to Hongjoong, grabbing his hand as you lace your fingers through his. His grip tightens, reassuring.
Without another word, you pull him toward the exit, leaving Jina behind.
Because for the first time, you realize—you’ve already won.
✮ ⋆
The low hum of the car engine fills the silence between you and Hongjoong as he drives through the dimly lit streets.
The city blurs past, neon lights reflecting against the windshield, but your mind is somewhere else—stuck in the past.
Hongjoong doesn’t say anything at first, but you can feel his eyes flicking toward you every few seconds, his fingers tightening around the steering wheel.
He can sense it—the shift in your mood, the way your shoulders are tense, the distant look in your eyes.
“You’re quiet,” He finally says, voice softer than usual.
You don’t answer right away. Instead, you sigh, shifting slightly in your seat.
“I’m just… thinking.”
Hongjoong hums in acknowledgment, giving you space to find the words. You exhale sharply, pressing your forehead against the window for a moment before turning to him.
“Did I ever tell you that I really liked Seonghwa?”
Hongjoong’s fingers twitch around the wheel, but he keeps his expression neutral.
“No, but I assumed it for the way you two used to act.” He says carefully.
A bitter chuckle leaves your lips “Well, I did. Or at least, I thought I did.” You shake your head, scoffing at yourself. “I was so sure that what we had was real. That if I played hard to get long enough, he’d actually make a move.”
He doesn’t interrupt, just listens.
Your fingers tighten into your lap “And now, to find out that he was screwing around with Jina the entire time…” You trail off, clenching your jaw. “I was an idiot.”
Hongjoong exhales, reaching over to take your hand in his. His thumb strokes slow, soothing circles against your skin.
“You weren’t an idiot,” He murmurs. “You just believed in someone who didn’t deserve it.”
Your chest tightens. You glance down at your joined hands, the warmth of his touch spreading through you, grounding you.
He continues, his voice gentle but firm “Seoghwa never deserved you. And if he had even half a brain, he would’ve known that.”
You look at him then, your lips parting slightly. There’s no jealousy in his voice. No smugness. Just certainty. Like he’s always known your worth—even when you didn’t.
For the first time since leaving the café, the ache in your chest softens.
You squeeze his hand “Thank you, Joongie.” You say quietly.
Hongjoong offers you a small smile before focusing back on the road.
“Are you going to confront him?” He asks.
You nod, your gaze sharpening “Oh, absolutely. He owes me an apology, and he’s going to give it.”
He chuckles “Remind me never to piss you off.”
You smirk, feeling lighter than before “Oh, you already did. You’re just lucky I forgave you.”
By the time you pull into the long driveway of your mansion, the tension between you and Hongjoong has shifted into something else entirely.
Something heavier.
The moment the car stops, silence settles between you—thick, charged.
Hongjoong shifts in his seat, eyes flickering to yours, dark and hungry “You’re staring,” He murmurs.
Your lips curl into a slow smirk “So are you.”
He swallows hard. You know what he’s thinking. You feel it—the weight of weeks spent apart, of lingering touches that never went far enough, of all the things left unsaid.
And now, alone in the dim glow of the car, it finally snaps.
You reach for him first, fingers curling into the fabric of his hoodie as you pull him in. Your lips crash against his, and the moment they do, he groans—low, needy, like he’s been starving for this.
Hongjoong kisses you like he’s making up for lost time—desperate, reckless, his hands sliding up your waist, gripping you tighter than he should.
You don’t care, you want it—want him.
A soft moan escapes you when his fingers slip beneath your dress, skimming along your thighs, his touch scorching against your skin.
“Fuck,” He breathes against your lips, his forehead pressing against yours, his breath ragged. “We should—go inside.”
You smirk, trailing your fingers down his chest, feeling his heartbeat hammer beneath your palm.
“You sure you can wait that long?”
His jaw clenches, his hands tightening around you, and before you know it, he’s pulling you into his lap, his seat pushed back just enough.
The moment you straddle him, he loses it.
His hands roam greedily, his lips devour yours, his breath hitching every time you grind against him.
But then—
The sudden flash of headlights approaching the driveway snaps you both back to reality.
You jolt, your eyes widening “Shit.”
Hongjoong curses, gripping your waist as you scramble off him, both of you breathless, flushed, aching. You adjust your skirt, and Hongjoong runs a hand through his hair, exhaling sharply.
“You’re a menace,” He mutters, voice hoarse.
You grin, fixing your lipstick in the rearview mirror “And you love it.”
He huffs a laugh, shaking his head “Yeah. I do.”
The moment you step out of the car, smoothing your dress and pretending you weren’t just grinding on your nerdy boy, you hear the hum of an approaching engine.
Hongjoong, still catching his breath, freezes beside you. His hair is a mess, his hoodie slightly disheveled—he looks guilty as hell. You turn your head just in time to see the sleek black car pulling into the driveway.
Your parents’ car, your heart drops.
He exhales sharply “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.”
You barely have time to compose yourself before the car door swings open and your mother steps out first, graceful as ever. Your father follows, adjusting his cufflinks, both completely unaware of what they just interrupted.
Yet.
“Sweetie!” Your mother’s voice is warm, delighted. “What a surprise to see you home early.”
Hongjoong tenses beside you, hands stuffed into his pockets, looking like a kid caught sneaking out past curfew.
You, on the other hand, recover instantly, flipping your hair over your shoulder and flashing a perfectly practiced smile.
“Hi.” You greet smoothly, stepping forward like nothing is out of the ordinary. “Didn’t expect you two back so soon. How was dinner?”
Your father eyes Hongjoong for a second longer than necessary before answering.
“Productive,” He says, his tone measured. “We met with investors—secured another deal.”
“Oh, how lovely.” You nod, your voice syrupy sweet, desperately hoping they won’t notice the faint smudge of lipstick on Hongjoong’s jaw.
But your mother’s sharp gaze flickers between the two of you, taking in every detail. The way Hongjoong won’t meet her eyes, the slight flush on his face, the way your dress looks just a little more wrinkled than before.
Then—realization dawns.
Her lips twitch “Oh, honey,” She hums, amused. “We didn’t… interrupt anything, did we?”
Hongjoong chokes. Actually chokes.
You blink, keeping your expression perfectly neutral “Of course not,” You lie effortlessly.
Your mother tilts her head, clearly not believing a single word.
Your father sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Darling, be discreet,” He mutters. “If you must do… this”—he waves a vague hand between you and Hongjoong—“At least have the decency to do it inside the house.”
Hongjoong turns bright red. his glasses covering the way his eyes shut with embarrassment.
You grin, looping your arm through his “Of course, Daddy. We’ll be very discreet.”
Your father groans. Your mother, meanwhile, just smirks, shaking her head.
“Hongjoong, dear,” She says smoothly, “Why don’t you come inside for a drink before you go?”
Hongjoong, still recovering, nods stiffly “Uh. Yeah. Sure.”
You pat his chest, whispering, “Relax, nerd. My mom likes you.”
He mutters under his breath “That’s not the one I’m worried about.”
And with that, you lead him inside—your parents following close behind, and your mother still very much amused.
The warmth of the mansion greets you as you step inside, but the atmosphere is anything but comfortable for Hongjoong.
Your mother glides in effortlessly, a small knowing smile still lingering on her lips, while your father sighs heavily, already loosening his tie like he doesn’t want to deal with this tonight.
Hongjoong, on the other hand?
He looks like he’d rather be anywhere else.
You squeeze his hand reassuringly as the four of you step into the lounge, where the dim glow of the chandelier casts soft shadows across the room.
Your mother gestures toward the leather sofas “Sit, sit,” She says, her voice almost teasing.
He hesitates. You don’t.
Dragging him along with you, you plop down elegantly on one of the couches, crossing your legs, exuding nothing but confidence. Hongjoong, stiff as a board, lowers himself beside you—looking very out of place.
Your father pours himself a drink, running a tired hand through his hair before turning to him.
“Whiskey?” He asks.
Hongjoong blinks “Uh—no, sir. I’m good.”
Your mother hums, sitting gracefully across from you both “You don’t have to be so formal, Hongjoong. We already know you and YN are… close.”
He shifts uncomfortably “Right.”
You smirk, tapping your fingers against your knee “You don’t have to traumatize him, Mom.”
Your mother chuckles, tilting her head “I think it’s adorable. You’re the first boy YN has ever brought home in a serious way.”
Hongjoong freezes.
Your father scoffs “Serious?” He sips his drink, unimpressed. “This is the same girl who threw a designer shoe at my head when I suggested she attend a dinner instead of going out with friends.”
Your mother ignores him “Hongjoong, sweetheart, how is your family?”
He blinks, snapping out of his existential crisis “Oh—uh, good. My dad had his first day today. Thank you again for the opportunity, Mr. Clarke.”
Your father nods, dismissive “He did well.”
Your mother, however, smiles warmly “It was YN’s idea.”
Mike turns to you. “I know,” he says softly. “I still don’t know how to thank you.”
You shrug, feigning nonchalance. “You don’t have to.”
But your mother? She notices everything—the way Hongjoong looks at you, the way your fingers twitch like you’re stopping yourself from reaching for his hand, the way he makes you soft.
Her smile deepens “Well,” She hums, placing her glass down. “Since we’re all so comfortable, why don’t you join us for dinner sometime soon, Hongjoong?”
He stiffens, you grin. Your father sighs, already regretting everything.
Hongjoong clears his throat “That’s… really generous, Mrs. Clarke.”
“Oh, please,” She waves him off. “Call me Catherine.”
Hongjoong visibly swallows “That’s… really generous, Catherine.”
Your father nearly chokes on his drink, you snicker under your breath.
Your mother just beams “Perfect. I’ll set something up soon.”
He nods, and just when he thinks the interrogation is over your mother’s eyes flicker between the two of you, her smirk returning.
“So,” She leans forward slightly, voice dangerously amused. “Where exactly were you two before we arrived?”
Hongjoong stops breathing.
Your father sighs into his whiskey “Jesus Christ, Catherine.”
You, completely unbothered, just smirk “Nowhere interesting.”
Your mother laughs, sipping her wine.
Hongjoong? He’s never been more stressed in his life.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The school hallways are alive with chatter as you step through the entrance, the silence parting for you like the sea parting for royalty.
It’s been three weeks since you last walked these halls. Three long weeks, spent hiding in the shadows of your own house, nursing wounds both physical and emotional.
But today, you're back.
Your heels click against the floor with each confident step, and you feel the eyes of the students on you—some of them staring in awe, some in jealousy, and others in pure admiration.
Whispers ripple through the crowd as you walk past them, and you can’t help but smirk. You know what they’re saying.
The Queen Bee has returned.
You walk with your head held high, shoulders squared, and a smile that borders on smug. Your friends are all there, surrounding you like the loyal subjects they are. Mindy and Wooyoung are by your side, smiling at the attention you're getting, the flashes of admiration in their eyes mirroring your own.
But even as you drink in the attention, there’s something in the air that you can’t ignore. The familiar pressure of someone’s gaze—the feeling of eyes on you from across the room.
You know who it is before you even see him.
Seonghwa.
You turn your head, catching sight of him standing near his locker, a faint smile playing on his lips as he watches you approach. He straightens as you get closer, the friendly expression in his eyes barely masking the sharpness beneath.
"Sweetheart," He says, his voice smooth, warm, and filled with an almost brotherly concern. "Where have you been? Haven't seen you around for a while. Everything okay?"
You smile, perfectly poised, the kind of smile that looks warm but never quite reaches your eyes.
“Seonghwa,” You greet, stopping just short of where he stands. “How sweet of you to notice.”
He chuckles, leaning against his locker with the kind of casual arrogance that once made your stomach flutter.
Now? It makes you sick.
“Of course I noticed,” He says smoothly, eyes flickering over your face, your stance—always analyzing, always calculating. “Three weeks is a long time to go without seeing you.”
Mindy and Wooyoung exchange glances behind you, but they say nothing. They know better than to interrupt.
You tilt your head, feigning curiosity “Did you miss me?”
Hwa smirks, and there it is—that infuriating, cocky confidence, the belief that you’ll always fall into his hands, just like you used to.
“I think the better question is,” He steps closer, voice lowering, “Did you miss me?”
You laugh, the sound light and dismissive, like the very thought is entertaining.
“Hwa,” You purr, tapping a manicured nail against your chin, “I’ve had… so much to think about these past few weeks.” Your gaze drags over him, slow, assessing—letting him think he still has a chance. “You wouldn’t believe the things I’ve learned.”
His smirk falters for half a second, but you see it.
You see everything.
You step closer, close enough that only he can hear you when you murmur, “You and I have so much to catch up on.”
Seonghwa studies you, trying to gauge if you’re being playful or if there’s something more dangerous beneath your words.
You don’t let him figure it out.
Instead, you brush past him, letting your perfume linger in the air between you, a lingering reminder that you are no longer the fool who once loved him blindly.
Mindy falls into step beside you, waiting until you’re out of earshot before whispering, “That was fucking terrifying.”
Wooyoung just whistles “Damn, babydoll. He’s gonna suffer.”
You smile.
He has no idea.
✮ ⋆
The cafeteria is alive with energy, students laughing, chatting, living in their own little worlds. But at your table? The air is thick, heavy with tension, the kind that turns heads and makes people pay attention.
You sit at your usual spot, sipping your drink as Mindy and Wooyoung throw teasing comments back and forth.
Across from you, San and Mingi lounge comfortably, more entertained than anything as Seonghwa takes his seat, acting as if he owns the space.
And he might have before.
Before he started working against you. Before he thought he could outplay you. Before you learned the truth.
Seonghwa leans forward, flashing you a smirk, his presence demanding your attention "So, baby—"
“Hey, pretty.”
The entire table shifts, your smirk grows before you even turn to look. Because you already know who that voice belongs to.
Hongjoong.
He slides into the seat beside you like he’s been doing it for years, like this is exactly where he belongs. And then—he does it. He leans in, presses a soft kiss to the corner of your lips, his hand resting against your thigh like it’s his right.
Seonghwa goes still.
Mindy bites her lip to keep from grinning. Wooyoung? He’s barely containing a laugh.
San and Mingi glance at each other, picking up on something dangerous.
But Seonghwa?
He’s frozen, staring at you and Hongjoong like the world just tilted off its axis.
“You’ve gotta be kidding me.” His voice is low, tight with something uglier than frustration.
You tilt your head, eyes dancing with amusement “Something wrong?”
Hwa’s jaw clenches “I thought…” He stops himself, recalculating, but the damage is already done. You see it in his eyes.
He thought he still had a chance.
And now? He doesn’t.
Hongjoong doesn’t even glance at him. He just shrugs, completely at ease “I think he thought we weren’t on good terms, pretty.”
Seonghwa’s eyes snap to him, burning with fury.
You smirk.
“Oh, Hwa,” Mindy sighs dramatically, flipping her hair over her shoulder. “You should’ve kept up with the gossip.”
Seonghwa stares at you, as if waiting for some kind of explanation, some confirmation that this is all a joke.
But you don’t give him one. Instead, you lean into Hongjoong’s touch, fingers grazing over his wrist in an intimate, deliberate move.
The weight of his glare is suffocating, burning into you and Hongjoong, but neither of you react. You just smile, the picture of ease, while Hongjoong—calm, collected, unbothered—takes a sip of his drink like this is just another normal day.
San and Mingi exchange a look, sensing the storm brewing, but Wooyoung and Mindy? They’re thriving in the chaos.
Seonghwa finally speaks, his voice tight, controlled, but just barely.
“So, what? You two just—got back together?” His fingers drum against the table, a nervous tick he can’t quite suppress.
You lean back, feigning surprise “Why wouldn’t we?”
His eyes darken, his lips part like he’s about to argue, but he stops himself. He’s realizing things, piecing together all the lies he swallowed as truth.
Mindy hums, propping her chin on her hand “Did you really think they broke up, Hwa?”
Seonghwa doesn’t look at her. He looks at you and you hold his gaze, refusing to be the first to break. He hated that about you—how you never wavered, never bent to his will.
His tongue clicks, irritation flashing across his face “It’s just funny, that’s all.” His smirk returns, but it’s weaker now, forced. “Considering the rumors.”
You feign innocence “Rumors?”
He leans in, dropping his voice so only you can hear “That this nerd was using you.”
Hongjoong tenses beside you.
You grin, slow and deliberate “Oh, that.”
Hwa’s smirk twitches. You place a hand on Hongjoong’s thigh, casual, effortless—a claim.
“If that were true,” You murmur, “Do you really think I’d still be with him?”
Seonghwa hates the way Hongjoong doesn’t even have to say anything. Hates the way you’re looking at him like he’s the one who’s pathetic.
His jaw tightens, and for a brief second, you can see it—the fury, the frustration, the realization that he played himself.
And then—he laughs. Shakes his head, leaning back, drumming his fingers on the table again, pretending this doesn’t bother him.
“Guess not,” He mutters, eyes flicking toward Wooyoung and Mindy. “Guess someone’s been feeding me bullshit.”
Mindy gasps dramatically, placing a hand on her chest “Oh no, Hwa. Were you misled?”
Wooyoung grins, wrapping an arm around her “Damn, man. That’s rough.”
Hwa’s eyes narrow. He knows.
He knows they set him up.
And when he looks at you one last time, you don’t have to say it out loud.
You played the game better.
And he lost.
For the first time, he has no control.
For the first time, you won.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The final bell rings, signaling the end of another school day. Students spill into the hallways, laughter and chatter filling the air as everyone heads off to do whatever rich, privileged, private-school kids do after class.
You glance at Hongjoong as you walk beside him, nudging his arm lightly.
“So, what’s the plan, nerd? Are you free?”
He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck “Actually… Yunho, Jongho, and Yeosang need me for something in the library.”
“You’re ditching me to do nerd things?”
He chuckles, shoving his hands in his pockets “Not ditching. I did say you could come.”
You stop walking, turning to him with a slow, dramatic smirk “You want me to do nerd stuff… with your nerd friends… nerd?”
Hongjoong grins “Basically.”
You scoff, crossing your arms “I should say no on principle.”
“But you won’t,” He counters easily, smug.
You narrow your eyes at him, then sigh in exaggerated defeat “Fine. I’ll grace you all with my presence. But if I get bored, I’m leaving.”
Hongjoong nudges your waist playfully “You won’t.”
You roll your eyes but let him lead the way.
The library is quiet, dimly lit by the late afternoon sun filtering through the tall, arched windows. Shelves of books stretch high, the scent of old paper and wood polish lingering in the air.
At a far table, three familiar faces sit, already setting up their things—Yunho, Jongho, and Yeosang. You and Hongjoong approach, and Yunho looks up first, his face brightening in surprise.
“Oh, hey, man. You actually brought her?”
Jongho smirks “I thought she’d be too busy shopping or making people cry.”
Hongjoong shrugs “She wanted to come.”
You snort, sliding into a chair “Let’s not lie to ourselves, Kim.”
Yeosang laughs, shaking his head before glancing toward the bookshelves “We should probably get started. Dann’s already here.”
“Wait—Dann’s here?” The moment Hongjoong says it, you stiffen too.
You turn your head slowly—too slowly—until your gaze locks onto her.
Dann.
She stands a few feet away, a book clutched tightly in her hands, her entire body tense.
Your presence here? She wasn’t expecting it.
You and Hongjoong sit down at the table, but there's an undeniable awkwardness that hangs in the air. Dann’s presence is almost suffocating—you can feel her gaze on you, but you pretend you don't notice.
Instead, you lean in toward Hongjoong, your hand finding its way to his thigh under the table.
His fingers graze your wrist as you smile at him, brushing your lips against his ear “Ready to work, nerd?” You murmur, your breath warm against his skin.
He smiles back, that familiar look of adoration in his eyes “Always, but first—”
He leans in and kisses you, slow and teasing, the kind of kiss that makes you feel like the world just stops for a moment.
You pull away just slightly, eyes meeting his “You really need to stop distracting me,” You tease.
Hongjoong grins, not one bit sorry “I can’t help it when you're so distracting.”
The others at the table shift uncomfortably, and you feel the heat of their awkward glances. Yunho, trying to break the tension, clears his throat loudly.
“So, Queen Bee, you gonna help us with this or what?”
You blink “How quaint.”
“Yeah, we're gonna need someone with that attitude to get through this,” Jongho jokes, nudging your shoulder playfully. “And since Joong’s clearly already distracted—”
You roll your eyes but don’t resist “Fine, fine. What are we doing?”
From the corner of your eye, you catch Dann standing slightly apart from the group, fidgeting with the book in her hands. She’s trying to act like she’s not watching, but you feel it—her stare, the weight of her presence, the discomfort written all over her face.
Hongjoong, oblivious to everything but you, leans in slightly “We’re creating study guides for other students. Wanna help?”
You scoff, crossing your arms “Study guides? I didn’t know school nerds were running that kind of operation.”
Jongho laughs, tilting his head at you “Really? I didn’t know you even knew about the study guides. I thought you just paid nerds to take your exams for you.”
Your jaw drops slightly in mock offense, but in reality, you find the comment hilarious.
“Excuse you,” You huff, flipping your hair dramatically. “I am more than a pretty face, you nerd.” You snatch a textbook from the stack in front of you. “Now, give me those fucking books.”
Hongjoong grins at you, shaking his head “See? She’s a fast learner.”
“I was always smart,” You correct, flipping open the book and pretending to scan the page.
“That’s up for debate,” Jongho quips.
“You better watch it,” You warn, smirking.
Yunho chuckles, nudging Dann, who still stands awkwardly on the sidelines “Come on, don’t just stand there. You’re supposed to be the real nerd here.”
Dann startles slightly, caught off guard “H-Huh?”
Yeosang shoots her a knowing look, his voice light but careful “Don’t act like you haven’t done this a million times before. You’re always the one fixing our answers.”
Jongho nods in agreement “Yeah, sit down, Dann.”
Dann hesitates, but the warmth in their voices, the familiarity, makes her shift awkwardly. “I—yeah.”
“You in?” Yeosang asks.
Her heart clenches. Because that’s the problem, isn’t it? She was never really in. Not the way you are.
Not the way she wanted to be.
But despite the sting, she forces a smile, nodding “Yeah. I’m in.”
She pretends it doesn’t hurt when she sees Hongjoong’s hand absently squeeze your thigh under the table.
She pretends that being included still means something.
Even if it’s too late.
——
As the study session progresses, the library fills with the quiet hum of flipping pages, hushed discussions, and the occasional laughter from your table.
You're flipping through one of the books, trying to make sense of the notes when Hongjoong leans closer, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
“You sure you’re not just pretending to read?” He murmurs.
You scoff, shoving his face away lightly “Shut up, nerd.”
Jongho snorts “That’s literally what we said—she just sits here to look smart.”
You glare at him, tossing a pencil in his direction “I will end you.”
Yeosang smirks, tapping his pen against his notebook “I mean, to be fair, YN, we are impressed. Usually, you’d be terrorizing the halls, not… doing actual schoolwork.”
Yunho grins “And she hasn’t threatened to quit yet. Growth.”
“Yet,” You emphasize, pointing your pen at him. “Don't get ahead of yourselves.”
Hongjoong chuckles, sliding an arm over the back of your chair, his fingers lightly grazing your shoulder.
“Nah, she’s too competitive to quit now. She’s gotta prove us all wrong.”
You huff but don’t deny it. Meanwhile, Dann barely hears the conversation.
She keeps her head down, scribbling mindlessly in the margins of her notebook, pretending to be focused. But in reality, she’s distracted—by the way Hongjoong leans into you, how effortlessly you fall into place among his friends.
She should be used to this feeling by now, but it still stings.
Yunho nudges her again, voice lighthearted “Dann, you good? You haven’t called me an idiot yet, and I know I’ve messed up at least three times.”
Dann blinks, forcing a weak chuckle “Oh—uh, yeah. Sorry. What were you saying?”
Yeosang tilts his head, studying her a little too carefully, but doesn’t press.
“Was just asking if I should format this section like the last one or break it into smaller parts,” Yunho says, handing her a sheet of notes.
She takes it with trembling fingers, trying to focus. But then—
Soft laughter.
She glances up just in time to see Hongjoong kissing your cheek, his hand resting way too comfortably on your lap.
Her stomach twists.
She did this.
She made a deal with Seonghwa. She fed Mike information. She helped spread rumors about you.
And for what?
To watch Hongjoong fall for someone else anyway? To watch you win again?
Her grip on the pen tightens. But… it’s not jealousy that eats at her this time.
It’s guilt.
Because if she had just stayed out of it, if she hadn’t let her petty resentment and heartbreak drive her, maybe—just maybe—you wouldn’t have gotten hurt.
Maybe Mike wouldn’t have gone that far.
Maybe Hongjoong wouldn’t hate her if he knew.
But now, it’s too late.
She can’t undo what she’s done.
And soon, she’ll have no choice but to face it.
✮ ⋆
The library session lasts longer than expected. By the time you all wrap up, the school halls are mostly empty, bathed in the dim glow of the evening lights.
Hongjoong stretches beside you, cracking his neck "Alright, nerd squad, mission accomplished."
Jongho groans, rubbing his eyes "Barely. I swear, if one more person asks me to explain quadratic equations, I'm quitting school."
Yeosang chuckles, stuffing his papers into his bag "You'll survive. Probably."
"Yeah, yeah," Jongho mutters. Then he smirks. "Still can't believe YN actually helped."
"I told you," Hongjoong says proudly, pulling you close with an arm around your waist. "She's not just a pretty face."
"Obviously," You say, flipping your hair.
Yunho stretches, groaning "That’s enough brainpower for today."
Hongjoong grins "You sure? Thought nerd stuff was your hobby."
Linda scoffs, leaning into his side "Yeah, yeah, this was cute and all, but next time, I’m making you all do my homework instead."
Hongjoong chuckles, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. His fingers linger on your cheek for just a second longer than necessary, and the small gesture makes your heart flutter.
Across the table, Dann watches.
Everyone is grabbing their things, chatting casually about the day as they prepare to leave.
And then—
"You already know Hongjoong is using you, right?"
The words hang in the air, cutting through the lighthearted atmosphere like a blade.
Hongjoong freezes.
You do too.
Slowly, you turn your head, eyes locking onto Dann.
She looks like she immediately regrets it.
Yunho lets out a low whistle "Damn."
Yeosang glances between the three of you, eyebrows raised.
Jongho exhales sharply, his grip tightening around the strap of his backpack "What the hell did you just say?"
Dann’s mouth parts, but no words come out.
"I—"
"You know what?" Your voice is eerily calm, dangerously calm. "Let me make sure I heard you right." You tilt your head. "You think Joong is using me?"
Dann’s heart pounds, she didn’t mean to say it.
It just slipped.
She was so lost in her own thoughts, so lost in the pain of seeing you two together that the words just fell out.
But now it’s too late.
Hongjoong scoffs, running a hand down his face "That’s actually insane."
"You know what’s more insane?" You fold your arms. "The fact that you even thought that, Dann."
"I—" She tries again, her voice wavering. "I didn’t mean… It was just—"
"Just what?" Your voice is sharper now. "Something you just casually thought? Or did someone put that idea in your head?" Dann’s stomach drops. You let out a bitter chuckle. "Unbelievable."
Yunho and Jongho exchange glances, watching the scene unfold in tense silence.
Yeosang clears his throat "Uh, maybe we should—"
"No." Hongjoong shakes his head. "I wanna hear this." His voice lowers, but it’s sharp—cutting. "You really think that little of me?"
Dann panics.
"I didn’t— I mean, I don’t know!" She blurts out, shaking her head. "I just.. I heard—" She stops herself.
But it’s already too late.
Your expression doesn’t change, but the slightest flicker in your gaze tells Hongjoong everything. You know exactly what’s happening.
But you can’t let on, so you do what you do best.
You smirk "You heard what?" You ask smoothly, tilting your head. "Come on, Dann. Don’t get shy on me now."
Dann feels trapped. Every fiber in her being is screaming at her to fix this.
To lie.
To say anything to make it go away.
But she can’t.
She can only stand there, feeling the weight of her own betrayal crushing down on her.
Hongjoong exhales sharply, shaking his head "I really thought we were cool, Dann."
That makes it worse.
He doesn’t sound angry.
He sounds disappointed.
Dann swallows hard, staring at the floor "I… I should go."
Nobody stops her.
Not even Yunho, Jongho, or Yeosang.
She grabs her things and rushes out, leaving behind the suffocating tension she created.
The second she’s gone, Jongho exhales, shaking his head "What the fuck was that?"
"That was crazy."
Hongjoong is still staring at the door Dann disappeared through.
You touch his arm, voice soft "You okay?"
He looks down at you, searching your face for a moment before sighing "Yeah," He mutters. "I’m just— I don’t know. I was really hoping that she wasn't involved with Park and Mike."
You squeeze his hand, your voice steady "Well, she is."
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The dining room is bathed in warm, golden light, the soft clinking of silverware against fine china the only sound filling the space.
The Clarke family dinners are always a performance—elegance, poise, and surface-level pleasantries hiding the rot underneath.
You push your food around your plate, only half-listening as your mother hums approvingly, sipping her wine.
“Well,” She says, a pleased smile on her lips. “I must say, Hongjoong’s father has been a wonderful addition to the household staff.”
Your fork pauses midair.
Mike’s does too.
Your father nods in agreement, setting his glass down “Punctual, respectful, efficient—everything we could ask for. He’s handling the job well.”
You relax slightly, about to take a bite when Mike speaks.
“I’m sorry, but what?”
The room stiffens. You glance up just in time to catch his expression shift—from confusion to realization to rage.
Your mother, ever the graceful hostess, waves a hand delicately “Oh, we didn’t mention it, did we?” She chuckles lightly, as if it were a minor oversight. “YN came to us with the idea. Hongjoong’s father was out of work, so we hired him.”
Mike’s jaw tightens, his grip on his knife turns white-knuckled. You feel the tension roll off him in waves.
Your father—oblivious or simply uninterested in Mike’s growing fury—adds, “And truthfully, it was a great decision. The man is trustworthy. If he keeps it up, he might even stay with us long-term.”
Mike’s fork clatters against his plate. Your mother flinches.
“I see,” He says, voice icy. His gaze cuts straight through you. “And no one thought to tell me?”
“Didn’t seem necessary,” Your father replies simply.
Mike’s anger shifts, redirecting itself entirely onto you “Of course,” He mutters. “It was your idea.”
You meet his gaze, keeping your posture calm, collected, untouchable “Yes,” You say, taking a sip of your wine. “It was.”
He laughs, but there’s no humor in it “Unbelievable.”
Your mother sighs, setting down her fork “Mike, don’t start.”
“Don’t start?” Mike echoes, leaning back in his chair. “So, let me get this straight—you let her bring some random lower-class worker into our home, let him drive us around like some pet project, and I’m just supposed to accept it?”
“He’s not random,” You say, voice sharp. “He’s Hongjoong’s father.”
“Oh, right.” He scoffs, shaking his head. “Hongjoong.” His gaze darkens. “The same guy who’s using you?”
You hold a smile, he still believes it.
Mike leans forward, elbows resting on the table, his eyes glinting with something cruel. “What, did he guilt you into this? Make you feel bad for his pathetic little family?”
You set your wine glass down a little too hard.
Your mother tenses. “Mike—”
But you cut her off “You don’t know a damn thing about him.” Your voice is cold, final.
He smirks “Oh, but I do.” He tilts his head, eyes flickering with mock sympathy. “You just don’t want to hear it.”
“I don’t want to hear it,” You agree, voice like steel. “Because it’s bullshit.”
Mike’s smirk drops.
Your father sighs “Enough.”
But Mike isn’t finished “You can dress him up however you want, YN,” he sneers. “But at the end of the day? He’s just a pathetic loser clinging to your last name.”
Your hands curl into fists.
“And you,” He continues, voice lowering, “Are a complete idiot for falling for it.”
The air is thick with silence.
Your mother exhales, rubbing her temples “Mike, we’re eating.”
Your father levels him with a stare “Your attitude is getting out of hand.”
He laughs, pushing his plate away “Yeah? Well, so is hers.” He stands, chair scraping against the floor. “You can let yourself get used like a fucking idiot if you want,” He says, voice dripping with disgust. “Just don’t expect me to sit here and watch.”
He storms off, leaving the room in tense silence. Your parents exchange a tired look. You take another sip of wine, heartbeat hammering in your chest.
From the hallway, someone is listening.
Dann.
And her guilt grows.
✮ ⋆
The Clarke mansion is quiet, the weight of dinner’s tension still lingering in the air. The staff moves about their business in silence, avoiding eye contact, as if sensing that something dark is simmering beneath the surface.
Dann, however, isn’t moving.
She’s frozen just outside the dining room, her mind replaying everything she just overheard. The way Mike spat his words at you, the venom in his voice, the sheer hatred he had for her—all because she had helped someone he despised.
Because you had made a choice that wasn’t about him.
Dann swallows hard, guilt gnawing at her insides like a slow poison. She should feel relieved that you had fought back—that for once, someone had shut Mike down. But all she feels is fear.
Because if he could talk to his own sister like that, what was stopping him from turning on her?
The thought chills her. She should leave. She should go to her room and pretend none of this is her problem. But before she can move a hand grabs her wrist.
She whirls around, heart slamming against her ribs, only to come face to face with him.
Mike.
The air leaves her lungs. His grip isn’t tight—not yet—but it’s firm enough to send pure terror coursing through her veins.
“You,” He murmurs, his voice dangerously low. His eyes are sharp, scanning her face like she’s something rotten beneath his shoe.
Dann tries to pull away, but his fingers tighten, his hold turning bruising.
“M-Mike,” She stammers, forcing a nervous laugh. “What’s—what’s wrong?”
His lips curl into a cold smirk “You tell me.”
Dann swallows, willing herself to stay calm “I don’t—”
“Did you know?” His voice cuts through the air like a blade.
Dann stiffens “Know… what?”
Mike leans in, his breath hot against her skin. “About Hongjoong’s father working for my family.”
“I—”
His grip tightens “Don’t fucking lie to me, Dann.”
“I didn’t know!” She blurts out, panic creeping into her voice. “I swear, I—I had no idea—”
His jaw ticks. He’s not buying it “You’ve been avoiding me,” He murmurs, his tone almost thoughtful. “Ever since that night.”
Dann goes rigid.
That night.
The night he put his hands on you.
The night she realized just how much of a monster he truly was.
“I haven’t—”
His fingers suddenly clamp around her arm, and he pulls her forward, dragging her through the hallway. Dann yelps, stumbling after him, fear clawing at her throat.
“Where are we—?”
“Somewhere private,” He cuts her off smoothly.
Her stomach twists. The deeper into the house they go, the quieter it becomes. The staff is gone. There’s no one to see them. No one to stop him.
No one to help her.
Mike finally shoves open a door that leads to the back garden, a secluded area far from the main house. The night air is cold, but the way he looks at her sends a different kind of chill through her bones.
Dann stumbles back, chest heaving, trying to create space. “Mike, I—”
“You think I don’t see it?” He says, voice eerily calm. “You think I don’t know you’re hiding something from me?”
Dann shakes her head, heart pounding “I swear I didn’t know about it. I would have told you!”
And it was true, she didn't know about Hongjoong’s father working for your family. But Mike just stares at her. Studying her.
Then he laughs.
A low, quiet chuckle that makes her skin crawl.
“Look at you,” He murmurs. “Fucking shaking.”
Dann flinches.
Mike steps closer, towering over her “I don’t like when people keep secrets from me, Dann,” He murmurs, voice like poison.
Dann’s chest tightens.
This is it.
This is the moment.
She can keep playing his game. Keep letting him control her. Keep living in fear.
Or she can do what she should have done weeks ago.
Her fingers curl into fists. She lifts her head, her cheek still burning, and looks him dead in the eyes.
“You’re a fucking coward.”
Mike freezes.
Dann’s pulse roars in her ears. Her own words shock her. But once they’re out, she can’t stop.
“You think you’re so powerful,” She breathes, voice shaking but growing stronger. “You think everyone should be afraid of you. But deep down, you’re just pathetic.”
Mike’s jaw clenches. Dann forces herself to smile. It’s small, shaky, but it’s there.
And for the first time in weeks, she feels powerful. Because she can see it.
For just a fraction of a second, his smirk drops and before she can react—
His hand swings.
The impact is sharp, brutal. Dann’s head snaps to the side, a gasp catches in her throat. The sting spreads across her cheek like fire, her vision blurring from the sheer shock.
Her body locks up.
She can’t breathe.
She can’t move.
Dann’s heart is pounding so loudly it drowns out the quiet.
Mike’s handprint burns on her cheek, the sting radiating through her skull, but the real pain isn’t physical.
It’s the terror.
The realization that she pushed him too far. The garden is empty, secluded—the perfect place for a nightmare. And Mike?
He looks like he’s enjoying it.
His lips curve into a slow smirk as he watches her struggle to catch her breath, her fingers trembling at her sides.
‘You’re a fucking coward.’
The words still hang in the air, and Dann knows she’s signed her own death sentence.
Mike’s expression darkens. His posture stiffens. And then he laughs.
Low. Amused. Cruel.
“Do you even know who you’re talking to?” His voice is quiet, almost mocking.
Dann stays silent. She knows better than to answer. But he doesn’t need her to. He steps forward, closing the space between them, and she flinches instinctively.
His smirk widens “Cute. You think you’re brave now, don’t you?”
Dann swallows hard “I—”
“Shut up,” He cuts her off. The amusement vanishes, replaced with something far colder.
His gaze sweeps over her, calculating, dissecting—like he’s deciding exactly how to break her.
“I bet you think you have nothing to lose,” He murmurs. “That you can just walk away from this and be fine.”
Dann’s breathing falters.
That tone. That deadly calm.
It’s worse than when he’s yelling. Because when Mike speaks like this—he means it.
“I could ruin your mother in a second,” He continues, voice smooth, effortless. “She works for my family. She needs this job. And you?” His head tilts slightly. “You need her to keep it. To pay for your father’s hospital bills.”
Dann’s stomach twists violently.
He knows.
He knows.
“How did you—?” Her voice catches.
Mike chuckles “You think I don’t do my research?” His expression turns mocking. “Your poor, pitiful father, lying there in a hospital bed, while your mother slaves away to keep him alive. And you? You run around playing spy for me, all because you wanted some nerd to look your way.”
Dann feels sick. Her fingers curl into fists at her sides, nails digging into her palms.
“Leave them out of this,” She whispers.
“Oh? Now you care?” Mike exhales sharply, like he’s bored. “I mean, your mother’s getting old, isn’t she? I doubt she’d find another job if something were to… happen to her position.”
Dann’s lungs seize. And then, the final nail in the coffin.
“Oh, and your father?” Mike clicks his tongue. “A vegetable in a hospital bed, wasting away.” His tone is almost mocking. “How long has it been? Three years?”
Dann’s entire body locks up. Because he’s right.
Three years.
Three years of her mother breaking her back to keep him alive. Three years of Dann doing everything she could to ease the burden.
Three years of hoping. That maybe, one day, her father would wake up.
Mike’s voice cuts through the fog of her fear “I could make that bed disappear, you know.”
Dann stares at him, eyes wide.
“I mean, think about it.” He shrugs. “What’s the point of keeping someone around who isn’t even awake? The doctors must be tired of keeping him alive. And your mother? Imagine how relieved she’d be if she didn’t have to worry about hospital bills anymore.”
Dann’s breathing turns shallow. Her fingers dig into her skin so hard they might leave bruises. Mike leans back, watching her come undone.
Then he smiles “And as for you?” He leans in slightly, voice dropping to a whisper. “I can make sure you don’t even finish school.”
Dann’s heart drops, his smirk is gone now, his eyes cold and merciless.
“You think my family doesn’t have connections in the education system?” He scoffs. “All it takes is one phone call. One simple request. And suddenly, your scholarship? Gone. Your grades? Suspiciously altered. Your teachers? Unwilling to recommend you for any other school.”
Dann freezes, because he’s not bluffing. This isn’t an empty threat.
This is real.
Her entire future—her mother’s future—her father’s life—all hanging by a single thread. And Mike?
He’s holding the scissors.
“You don’t want that, do you? So, tell me, Dann.” His voice softens, but the cruelty behind it only makes it worse. “Are you still on my side?”
Dann’s lips part, but no words come out.
She should scream. She should fight back.
She should run.
But instead—She nods.
Because she has no choice.
Because she’s afraid.
Because her father’s life is hanging in the balance.
And because she’s not ready to lose everything.
Mike’s smirk returns “Good girl.”
And just like that—it’s over. He pats her cheek mockingly before stepping back.
“You know what to do.” His voice is smooth, assured, like he’s never once considered the possibility of her betraying him.
Because why would he?
She’s trapped.
Dann watches as he walks away, leaving her frozen in the garden, hands trembling, chest tight.
Her father, her mother, her entire life.
Mike owns all of it.
Tears blur her vision as she wraps her arms around herself, body wracked with silent shame.
She wants to do the right thing.
But survival?
It comes first
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៚ fluff, angst, fashion designer!hongjoong x model!reader (ft. personal assistant!seonghwa & photographer!wooyoung), slowburn, strangers to lovers, soulmates au if you squint, do french people actually say bonjour irl?
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៚ The night is electric, filled with fleeting glances, moments of tension, and unspoken words hanging in the air. You find yourself caught in a delicate dance between the past and the present, as old wounds resurface in the most unexpected ways. But just when you think you’ve built a wall strong enough to keep it all out, everything comes crashing down. Who can you trust when even your own heart feels like a stranger? Will you finally face what’s been lurking in the shadows, or will you keep running, hoping the past will stay buried? The answers are closer than you think—but are you ready to hear them?
a/n: the way you can tell this is a belated new yearʼs special... also peep the references hehe
tags: @beabatiny @babymbbatinygirl @vcutparis (ik youʼre not actually on my taglist but i wanted to add you here haha 😅)
Paris glowed as if it were at the very edge of heaven. Streets lined with twinkling fairy lights stretched endlessly, shimmering like stars brought down to earth. The chill of winter softened by the warmth of countless candles flickering in shop windows and the golden glimmer spilling out of bustling cafes. Children darted between the legs of laughing adults, their giggles carried on the crisp evening breeze. Couples strolled hand in hand, their faces illuminated by both the soft light of the decorations and the sheer joy of the season. Fireworks were being prepped along the Seine, their bright colors barely restrained, waiting for the stroke of midnight to explode into celebration.
Yet, amidst all this joy and revelry, there was a quiet heaviness—a void that neither the beauty of Paris nor the energy of the celebrations could fill.
You sat at the edge of your bed, the faint hum of the heater in your apartment the only sound breaking the silence. The festive cheer of the city below felt like a mockery of the hollow ache in your chest. The loneliness that clung to you was suffocating, made worse by the distance between you and Hongjoong. You tried not to think about him, but every laugh that slipped in through your window or every stray cat that crossed the street below brought him to mind. He was everywhere and nowhere all at once, his absence more palpable than any presence could ever be.
Seonghwa’s name suddenly flashed across the screen of your phone, pulling the anchor of your thoughts back to the shore. For a moment, you considered ignoring it altogether—you werenʼt in the mood to do anything at all today, anyway, let alone celebrate the upcoming year. But knowing him, he wouldn’t just leave it at one call—he’d keep trying until you answered. With a shaky breath, you swiped to accept.
“Hello?” Your voice came out quieter than you intended, and you cursed yourself for the way it wavered.
“Hey, I missed you!” Seonghwa’s voice was warm, almost too warm. “I was starting to think you’d forgotten about me.”
You forced a small laugh, but it sounded hollow even to your own ears. “As if I could. But… why the sudden phone call?”
There was a pause, brief but charged, before he spoke again. “We’re having a New Year’s Eve party here tonight—and you should definitely come!”
Your heart sank. Of course, he’d call about that. You already knew the agency’s New Year’s event was a big deal, but you hadn’t planned on going. The thought of being in the same room as Hongjoong, pretending everything was fine when it very clearly wasn’t, was almost unbearable.
“I don’t know, Seonghwa...” you began, but he cut you off.
“Listen,” he said gently, “you’ve been cooped up for too long. It’ll be good for you to get out, be around people.”
You bit your lip, your grip tightening on the phone. He didn’t understand. He couldn’t. Being around people wasn’t the problem. Hongjoong was the problem.
“I just don’t think it’s a good idea,” you said, hating how weak you sounded.
Seonghwa sighed, and you could picture him running a hand through his hair, the way he always did when he was trying to be patient. “Itʼs because of Hongjoong, isnʼt it?”
Your breath hitched, and the silence that followed was damning. Of course, he knew. He always knew.
“He’s not going to bother you,” Seonghwa said softly. “I’ll make sure of it. You can stick with me the whole night if you want. Hell, I’ll even block his line of sight if it’ll make you feel better.”
You couldn’t help but laugh at that, though it was brief and tinged with sadness. “I don’t think that’s physically possible, Seonghwa.” Your fingers tightened around the edge of your desk, your chest tightening. “And it’s not just that,” you admitted. “I don’t know if I can handle pretending to be okay. I feel like I’ll just ruin the mood.”
“Ruin the mood? Are you kidding?” Seonghwa’s laugh was light but not dismissive. “You’re the highlight of any room you walk into. Trust me, no one’s expecting you to put on a show. Just be there.”
Before you could respond, Wooyoung’s voice burst through the receiver. “Hey, I know this phone number!” he beamed before straight up snatching the phone from Seonghwa. “How come youʼre picking up Seonghwaʼs calls and not mine?”
Your eyebrow went up in confusion. “Youʼve been calling me?”
“No, but you should be able to telepathically sense my soul whenever I want you to call me.”
“Wooyoung, give me back my phone!”
“No way! She’s laughing now, thanks to me.”
Despite yourself, you smiled, warmth seeping into the cracks of your heart. “Well, hello to you too, Wooyoung.”
“Hey there,” Wooyoung greeted. “Now, listen up. You’re coming tonight. No arguments. We’re saving you a seat and everything. And you know what? If you cross paths with Hongjoong and things get weird, just yell my name, and I’ll come running. Deal?”
Your smile faltered at the mention of Hongjoong yet again, but Wooyoung didn’t give you a chance to dwell on it. “I mean it,” he continued. “You’ve been MIA, and honestly, we miss you. So, get dressed, look stunning, and show up. That’s an order.”
“Wooyoung,” Seonghwa scolded lightly, “let her decide on her own.”
“Nope,” Wooyoung countered. “She’s coming. End of discussion.”
You wanted to go. You really did. But the thought of walking into that office, of seeing Hongjoong and pretending like everything was fine... It felt impossible. The wound between you wasn’t just fresh—it was still bleeding, raw and unhealed.
What if he ignored you again? What if he didn’t?
That was the cruelest part. You didn’t know what was worse—his cold indifference or the possibility that he’d look at you with anything resembling regret.
Your thumb hovered over the screen, contemplating an excuse to end the call. It wasn’t that you didn’t trust Seonghwa. You knew he’d keep his word, stay by your side, shield you from whatever awkwardness might arise. But it wasn’t enough.
Because no matter how much you wanted to deny it, this wasn’t just about Hongjoong avoiding you. It was about the hollow ache in your chest, the way your mind kept replaying that almost-kiss, that devastating moment when he stepped away.
You hated how much you missed him. How much you still cared, despite everything.
But maybe you were being selfish. Maybe you needed to stop wallowing in your own misery and try to move on. Maybe—
“Still there?” Seonghwa’s voice broke through your thoughts, soft but insistent.
“Uh… yeah. Sorry.”
“You don’t have to decide right now,” he said, and you could hear the sincerity in his tone. “Just think about it, okay? I really think it’ll do you some good. And if it gets too overwhelming, I’ll take you home myself. No questions asked.”
“Okay,” you said quietly, though you weren’t sure you meant it.
“Promise you’ll think about it?”
“Promise.”
“Good,” Seonghwa said, and you could almost hear the smile in his voice. “And hey, Wooyoung wants to say something to you.”
Wooyoung’s voice came back, loud and chipper. “If you don’t come, I’m eating all the desserts. Every single one. You’ve been warned—mind you, half of these are your favorites!”
You laughed, a genuine one this time. “Noted.”
Meanwhile, at the office, Hongjoong found himself standing beside a table, his hands busy arranging patterned fabrics, though his thoughts were anything but focused on the task at hand. Wooyoung’s voice carried across the room, loud enough to be heard by everyone nearby, including him, making Hongjoong look up in mild surprise, only to see him and Seonghwa engaged in a phone call.
As soon as a laugh echoed faintly through the air from the other line, Hongjoong’s entire world seemed to grind to a halt. It wasn’t even loud—just a soft, almost timid sound—but it hit him like a hurricane.
That laugh.
It was yours.
There was no mistaking it, even after the days of silence that stretched between you like a vast ocean. His hands froze, the patterned cloth he’d been meticulously arranging slipping from his grasp as his breath caught in his throat.
It was ridiculous, really. He’d heard your laugh countless times before, in moments both mundane and extraordinary. But now? Now it felt like a lifeline, a fleeting tether to something he’d been desperately trying to push away yet couldn’t help but crave.
God, how long had it been since he’d heard it? Days? Weeks? It felt like a lifetime. And to think, he’d spent all that time convincing himself that distance was the right thing to do, that staying away from you would somehow make things easier for both of you. What a joke. He wasn’t sure what hurt more—the hollow ache of missing you or the self-inflicted wounds of his own stubbornness.
As your voice murmured something indistinct on the other end of Seonghwa’s phone, Hongjoong felt the sharp sting of longing cut through him like glass. He wanted to hear it more clearly, to hold onto every word, every inflection, as if they could somehow fill the empty spaces you’d left behind. And damn it, he wanted to be the reason you were laughing. Not Wooyoung, not Seonghwa—him. He wanted to be the one who could coax that sound from you, the one you’d turn to when the world felt too heavy or too bright.
For a fleeting, irrational moment, he wanted to march across the room, grab Seonghwa’s phone, and press it to his ear. He wanted to say your name, hear how you’d respond, even if it was with confusion or anger. But he didn’t move. He couldn’t.
What good would it do? What could he possibly say to you that would make up for everything? For the cold shoulders, the deliberate avoidance, the way he’d pulled away just when things had begun to shift between you two? He was a goddamn hypocrite, and he knew it. He hated himself for it.
Because the truth was, he didn’t want to keep you at arm’s length. Not even a little. Every fiber of his being screamed against the distance he’d forced between you, begged him to close it, to reach out, to pull you back into the space he’d so selfishly carved out for you in his life. But then that ugly, insidious voice in his head would creep back in, reminding him why he’d done it in the first place.
What could he offer you? He was a man with flaws, with baggage he wishes not to let you carry. And you... you deserved more than he could give.
So he kept his distance, even though it killed him. Even though he could feel the cracks widening in the carefully constructed wall he’d built around himself. He told himself it was for your own good, that he was protecting you, even as the lie twisted like a knife in his gut. He didn’t believe it anymore—not really. But admitting that would mean admitting how badly he’d messed up, and he wasn’t sure he had the strength for that.
Hearing you laugh again, even from afar, was both a balm and a wound. It reminded him of everything he was missing, everything he’d willingly let slip through his fingers. He wanted to fix it, to fix everything, but the fear of making things worse kept him rooted in place.
The voice of another employee of his—Yunho, broke through the fog in his mind, pulling him back to the present. “Hongjoong? You okay?”
He nodded stiffly, forcing a tight-lipped smile. “Yeah. Just... tired.”
But as Yunho turned back to his task, Hongjoong’s gaze lingered on Seonghwa. He watched as his friend smiled faintly, clearly amused by something you’d said. And for just a moment, the ache in Hongjoong’s chest flared into something sharper—something dangerously close to jealousy.
He shook his head, forcing the thought away. This was his choice, wasn’t it? He’d made his bed. Now he had to lie in it, no matter how much it hurt.
The call ended with Wooyoung’s playful taunts still echoing in your mind, the warmth and humor of his voice a stark contrast to the silence that quickly reclaimed your apartment. You lowered your phone, letting it rest loosely in your hand as your gaze wandered to the window. Outside, the city lights twinkled in celebration of the approaching New Year, but their brightness felt muted, distant. The faint hum of life beyond the glass only highlighted the silence around you, the stillness wrapping itself around your shoulders like a heavy, unwelcome shawl.
You leaned against the window frame, staring out at the faint reflections of your own eyes in the glass. How long has it been since you let yourself enjoy anything? Since you’d laughed without reservation, without that ache trailing behind it? Days? Weeks? The timeline blurred in your mind, consumed by the fog of isolation.
It wasn’t just the absence of Hongjoong that weighed on you, though his presence—or lack thereof—was an unshakable specter. It was the guilt of shutting out Seonghwa and Wooyoung, the two people who had always been there for you, unwavering and unrelenting in their support. They didn’t deserve your cold shoulder, yet you had given it to them anyway, consumed by your inability to process your own emotions.
But even that guilt paled in comparison to the ache you felt for Hongjoong.
You missed him. There was no denying it, no point in pretending otherwise. You missed his laugh, his rare but heartwarming compliments, the way he’d tilt his head when he was deep in thought. The void he left in your life felt insurmountable, and yet you had no idea how to bridge it. Every attempt at reconciliation seemed doomed from the start, the tension between you so thick it felt almost tangible.
What if I go and ruin everything? The thought sliced through you like a blade, sharp and unyielding. Would your presence at the party make things worse? Would it sour his mood, dampen his excitement for the New Year?
But then, Seonghwa’s voice came back to you, his gentle encouragement echoing in your mind. He was right—you couldn’t keep doing this to yourself. You couldn’t keep hiding away, letting the world pass you by while you drowned in your own sorrow.
With a sigh, you pushed away from the window and headed toward your closet. Each step felt like an act of defiance against the part of you that wanted to stay buried under the covers, but you forced yourself forward. You weren’t going for Hongjoong, you told yourself firmly. You were going for Seonghwa and Wooyoung. For yourself.
As you scanned your closet, fingers brushing over the fabric of your clothes, you tried to suppress the part of you that hoped—prayed—that Hongjoong might notice you. That he might see you, really see you, and understand just how much you missed him.
But that was just wishful thinking, wasn’t it?
Before you could dwell on it further, you grabbed an outfit and set it aside, picking up your phone to send a quick message.
I’ll be there.
Thank you for the encouragement :)
Tell Wooyoung we’ll be competing on who can eat the largest amount of food by the end of the party!
The response came almost instantly.
knew you would cave in lol
this is woo btw
and don’t be too confident, i won’t even give you a chance to win >:)
A small smile tugged at your lips as you read the message. You set your phone down, grabbed your outfit, and headed to the bathroom. Tonight, you weren’t going to let the weight of the past hold you back.
But deep down, you couldn’t deny the truth.
You wanted to see him. Even if it was from a distance.
—
The clatter of chairs and tables echoed through the expansive room as Hongjoong stood at the center of the chaos, his sharp eyes tracking every movement. Employees walked around, fixing decorations, adjusting lights, and arranging catering setups. The air was filled with the subtle hum of excitement, yet he felt oddly detached from it all. He issued instructions left and right, his voice professional and commanding, but beneath his composed exterior, his thoughts churned relentlessly.
The memory of Seonghwa’s phone call from earlier kept replaying in his mind, an endless loop of voices and laughter that wasn’t meant for him to hear. He had caught snippets of Wooyoung’s playful banter, the sound of your distant chuckle, faint but unmistakable. He’d wondered if they were trying to convince you to come to the party. He prayed they were. The idea of you not being there made his chest feel hollow.
He tried to focus on the present, on the tasks at hand, but his mind stubbornly returned to you. Were you debating whether or not to show up? The last time you spoke, things were left unresolved, painful and raw. He knew you had every right to avoid him. Hell, if he were in your shoes, he wouldn’t blame you for staying as far away as possible. But selfishly, he wanted to see you.
No, he needed to see you.
His stomach twisted at the thought of you deciding not to come. He couldn’t bear it. He imagined what you might wear tonight, how effortlessly stunning you’d look, and the ache in his heart deepened. If things had been different—if he hadn’t been such an absolute asshole—he would’ve spent the evening showering you with compliments, unable to hold back the admiration he always felt when you were near.
But he’d ruined that.
The guilt gnawed at him, almost unbearable in its intensity. He sighed heavily, running a hand through his hair. Were you going to take the bus? He hated the thought of you braving the crowded streets alone on a night like this. A part of him toyed with the idea of showing up at your apartment unannounced, offering to drive you himself. But he dismissed the thought almost immediately. You hated him—he was certain of it. The last thing he wanted was to make things worse.
Still, the worry lingered. He had no idea if you were okay, if you’d even decided to leave your apartment.
“Hyung, do you mind? You’re in the way,” a sharp voice interrupted his spiraling thoughts. Hongjoong turned to see Wooyoung, sleeves rolled up as he adjusted the trays of pastries on the table. The younger man’s expression was irritated, though that was nothing new.
“Hey, wait—”
Wooyoung turned with an exasperated look, his brows furrowing as his eyes landed on Hongjoong. “What now?” he asked flatly. “I’m busy, you know.”
“Please,” Hongjoong began, his tone unusually soft, almost pleading. “Just hear me out.”
Wooyoung raised an eyebrow, skepticism written all over his face. “This better be worth my time. What is it?”
Hongjoong swallowed hard, his throat feeling dry. “I wanted to apologize,” he said quietly. “For that day. For how I acted. I was out of line, and I feel fucking horrible about it. I shouldn’t have taken my frustrations out on you, and I know everything I said was unjustifiable. I understand your behavior towards me, and I—”
Wooyoung studied him for a long moment, his expression unreadable. Finally, he sighed and shrugged. “I didn’t really mind your attitude that day. You were being a jerk, yeah, but I’ve dealt with worse. What really bothered me then, though, was the way you were treating her.”
Hongjoong flinched at the mention of you, guilt hitting him like a tidal wave.
“So, if we go by my logic,” Wooyoung continued, crossing his arms, “since you’re still acting like a bastard towards her, I’m still mad at you.”
Hongjoong nodded, his voice barely above a whisper. “I know. You’re right.”
Wooyoung’s gaze softened slightly, though his tone remained firm. “So, what’s the catch, then? What do you want from me?”
“I just…” Hongjoong hesitated, glancing away. “Is she coming tonight?”
Wooyoung blinked, clearly taken aback. He narrowed his eyes suspiciously. “Why do you care?”
Hongjoong exhaled slowly, struggling to find the right words. “Because…” He paused, his shoulders slumping. “Because I need to know. If she’s here, I—”
“You’ll stay away from her,” Wooyoung cut in sharply, his voice cold. “I’m not letting you ruin her night. She doesn’t deserve that.”
Hongjoong nodded without hesitation. “I understand.”
Wooyoung studied him for a moment before his expression softened just a fraction. “If my guess on what youʼre so worried about is correct—Seonghwa will be picking her up. She won’t have to worry about the bus or anything like that.”
Relief flooded Hongjoong’s features. “Thank you.”
As he turned to leave, Wooyoung grabbed his arm, stopping him in his tracks. “Listen to me, hyung,” he said, his voice low but firm. “This is your only chance to fix things with her. If you screw this up, you’re going to lose her forever. Do you understand?”
Hongjoong’s chest tightened as he nodded. “Yeah.”
“Good,” Wooyoung said, releasing his arm. “Don’t waste it.”
—
You stood in front of the mirror, your reflection staring back at you with an intensity that made your stomach churn. The sleek fabric of your outfit hugged your beautiful form in all the right places, the color complementing your complexion perfectly. Your hair fell just the way you wanted it to, framing your face delicately. Yet, no matter how much you adjusted the hem of your dress or smoothed down nonexistent creases, you couldn’t shake the feeling that something was off.
Your hands nervously fidgeted at your sides before moving to smooth your hair again. “Does this even look good?” you muttered under your breath, biting your lip. The anxious energy buzzing inside you was unusual—normally, you weren’t the type to obsess over your appearance. You had a certain confidence about these things, but tonight felt different.
You turned to the side, checking the outfit from another angle, then turned back to face the mirror. Why were you so worked up over this? It wasn’t like you were trying to impress anyone. But the longer you stood there, the more the answer lingered just below the surface, teasing you with its obviousness.
Deep down, you knew.
Hongjoong.
You shook your head at yourself, scolding the foolishness brewing in your heart. Why did you care so much about what he might think? Why were you secretly hoping he’d notice you? You let out a humorless laugh, pressing your fingers against the cool surface of the vanity. You didn’t even know if you wanted him to approach you tonight. The memory of your last interaction was still fresh, a wound that hadn’t fully scabbed over.
But some small, ridiculous part of you hoped—prayed—that maybe, just maybe, things could be different tonight. That maybe he’d look at you the way he used to, with that spark of admiration in his eyes. Maybe he’d find the courage to talk to you, to apologize properly, to explain why he’d hurt you the way he did. Maybe he’d—
Your thoughts were interrupted by the buzz of your phone on the countertop. The screen lit up with Seonghwa’s name and a message that read:
I’m outside.
Walking to the window, you peered outside and saw him leaning casually against his car. When his eyes caught yours, he grinned and waved enthusiastically, his free hand raised high above his head. The sight of his childlike excitement made you chuckle softly, and you returned the wave.
Grabbing your purse, you cast one last glance at the mirror, adjusting your earrings before slipping on your heels. As you made your way out the door, you kept telling yourself to stop overthinking. Tonight wasn’t about Hongjoong—it couldn’t be. This was your chance to let go of everything, if only for a few hours.
Inside the elevator, you leaned against the wall, staring blankly at the buttons as the floors ticked by. When the elevator stopped on the third floor, Madame Dupont stepped in, her sharp eyes immediately lighting up when she saw you.
“My dear!” she exclaimed, her voice warm with surprise. “Look at you! You look stunning.”
Her genuine excitement brought a shy smile to your lips. “Bonsoir, Madame Dupont,” you greeted, inclining your head politely.
“What’s the occasion? You don’t usually dress up like this,” she teased, though her tone carried more curiosity than mockery.
You hesitated for a moment, shifting your weight. “My friends invited me to a New Year’s party. I thought… maybe it’s time I went out and let myself breathe a little.”
Her expression softened, her wrinkled eyes glimmering with something akin to pride. “That’s wonderful to hear, my dear. You deserve it, truly.” Before you could say anything else, she pulled you into a brief but firm hug, her perfume—sweet and floral—wrapping around you like a blanket.
When the elevator doors opened on the ground floor, she squeezed your hand gently. “Have fun tonight,” she said with a smile. “You’ve earned it.”
You nodded, touched by her words. “Merci, Madame Dupont. I’ll try.”
The cool night air greeted you as you stepped outside. Seonghwa was quick to spot you, his entire face lighting up as he waved like an overexcited child. “There she is!” he called out, his voice laced with exaggerated enthusiasm.
You laughed, walking toward him. “You didn’t have to make it that obvious that you missed me, you know.”
“Oh, but I did,” he said with a grin as he opened the passenger door for you. “It’s been far too long since we hung out properly.”
You slid into the car, murmuring a soft “thank you” as you adjusted your dress. But as you settled in, the familiar setting triggered a memory you weren’t prepared for—the last time you were in Hongjoong’s car. You remembered the way he’d glanced at you during that drive, how the silence between you had been heavy but not uncomfortable. How things had been… easier.
The smile you’d been wearing faltered slightly. You really missed him.
But tonight wasn’t about him. You couldn’t let it be.
Seonghwa slipped into the driver’s seat and immediately noticed the change in your demeanor. Though he didn’t say anything, his brows furrowed slightly in concern. “So,” he began, steering the conversation away from whatever was on your mind, “you’ve missed a lot lately.”
“Oh?” you asked, forcing your focus back to him.
“Yeah,” he said, his tone turning light and teasing. “You missed Wooyoung accidentally sending a mass email to the wrong group. He meant to send it to the marketing team, but instead, the IT department got a very detailed report about catering options.”
You chuckled softly. “Let me guess—he blamed it on the system?”
“Of course he did. And don’t even get me started on Mingi and his latest prank. He replaced all of Yeosang’s post-it notes with ones that had motivational quotes in Comic Sans.”
You couldn’t help but laugh at the image. “Sounds like I’ve missed quite a bit of chaos.”
“Oh, you have,” Seonghwa agreed with a grin. But as the conversation lulled, your curiosity got the better of you. “What about Hongjoong?” you asked hesitantly.
Seonghwa’s expression softened, a knowing look crossing his features. “He’s… different lately,” he admitted after a pause. “Not as talkative as he used to be. He’s professional, sure, but there’s something missing. He’s not himself.”
Worry gnawed at you, but Seonghwa reached over to pat your arm reassuringly. “Don’t think about it too much tonight, okay? Let’s just focus on having fun.”
You nodded, though his words did little to ease the tightness in your chest. You wished it were that easy. You truly did.
—
Hongjoong’s fingers curled around the edge of the sink, his reflection staring back at him with a mixture of frustration and nervousness. The soft hum of the fluorescent lights above buzzed faintly, matching the unsettled rhythm of his thoughts. His hair refused to cooperate, each strand mocking his futile attempts to tame it. He combed his fingers through the dark locks for what felt like the hundredth time, letting out a low growl of irritation.
“Why now?” he muttered under his breath, narrowing his eyes at the rebellious strands. Of all nights, it had to be this one where he couldn’t look as put-together as he wanted.
But deep down, he knew it wasn’t just about the hair. No amount of fixing or adjusting could cover up the restlessness gnawing at his chest. Tonight was different. Tonight, you were here.
The thought made his stomach twist in an uncomfortable knot. His gaze flickered down to his hands, knuckles white against the sink’s edge.
“Why do you care so much?” he asked himself, the question lingering in the air like a stubborn shadow. He already knew the answer—he just didn’t want to say it out loud.
You hadn’t spoken in weeks, not properly. Not since the argument that had left things hanging in the air, unresolved and heavy. And yet, here he was, fussing over his appearance like a teenager before their first dance.
It was foolish, wishful even, but a part of him hoped that tonight… maybe things would be different. Maybe your eyes would find his across the room. Maybe you’d exchange even just a glance.
The muffled sound of Wooyoung’s voice drifted through the door, jolting him out of his thoughts.
“You’re finally here!”
His body stiffened.
You were here.
“Shit,” he hissed, running a hand over his face before straightening his posture. He took one last look in the mirror, smoothing out the creases in his blazer. It wasn’t perfect, but it would have to do.
The moment he stepped out of the bathroom, the atmosphere shifted. The harsh fluorescent lights dimmed, replaced by the soft glow of multi-colored LEDs that washed over the venue in a dreamlike haze. Music played faintly in the background, mingling with the hum of conversations and the occasional burst of laughter.
But Hongjoong wasn’t focused on any of that. His eyes darted through the crowd, scanning the sea of faces for one in particular.
Before he could spot you, the stage lights flickered on, illuminating the small platform he had set up in the center of the room. Seonghwa stood there, microphone in hand, his presence commanding attention as he greeted the crowd.
“Good evening, everyone!” Seonghwa’s voice was warm and inviting, drawing cheers and applause from the guests. “Thank you all for coming tonight to celebrate not just the end of the year, but also the incredible milestones we’ve achieved together. It’s an honor to have so many talented and inspiring individuals gathered here.”
The applause swelled, and Seonghwa smiled, pausing for effect before continuing. “Now, I won’t keep you from enjoying the night, but before we get started, I’d like to call up someone very important to say a few words—our host, the man behind it all… Kim Hongjoong!”
The room erupted into cheers as Seonghwa gestured toward him, and Hongjoong felt a surge of anxiety spike through his chest. He wasn’t one to get stage fright, but the thought of speaking while you were out there, somewhere in the crowd, made his throat tighten.
He forced a small smile as he stepped onto the stage, his usual confidence faltering under the weight of his own thoughts.
“Thank you, Seonghwa,” he began, his voice steady but lacking its usual vibrancy. “And thank you all for being here tonight. This year has been nothing short of extraordinary, and it’s all thanks to the hard work and dedication of everyone in this room.”
His words were genuine, heartfelt, but as he continued, his eyes couldn’t stop flickering across the crowd, searching. He tried to keep his composure, but the way his gaze kept shifting didn’t go unnoticed by a few observant guests.
“Tonight is not just about reflecting on our successes but also about looking forward to the future. I hope this evening will serve as a reminder of the creativity, passion, and drive that brought us all together. Let’s welcome the new year with open arms and make it even better than the last.”
The applause was loud, appreciative, but Hongjoong barely heard it. His eyes finally landed on you.
And you were looking back at him.
For a moment, everything else seemed to blur—time, sound, the crowd around you both. His heart stuttered in his chest, and his grip on the microphone tightened.
“I…” He paused, clearing his throat to steady himself. “I hope you all have fun tonight. Thank you.”
The crowd cheered again as he stepped off the stage, but the moment had already left him shaken. Across the room, Wooyoung nudged your shoulder gently. “Hey, you okay?”
You blinked, startled out of your thoughts, and turned to him with a faint smile. “Yeah, I’m fine.”
Wooyoung didn’t look convinced. “Are you sure? You kind of zoned out there for a second.”
You hesitated, your eyes flickering toward the stage where Hongjoong had stood moments ago. “It’s just… there are so many high-profile people here. I feel like I don’t belong.”
“Bullshit,” Wooyoung said bluntly, earning a surprised laugh from you. “Sorry for the language, but yeah, that’s total bullshit. You belong here just as much as anyone else.”
“You’re just saying that.”
“I’m not.” He crossed his arms, giving you a pointed look. “Look around. People are literally noticing you left and right. You’re the star tonight.”
Before you could respond, a nearby conversation caught your attention.
“Who’s that stunning mademoiselle over there?” a woman whispered, her gaze fixed on you.
“She’s one of Mr. Kimʼs newest models,” her assistant replied, earning a smile of approval from the woman.
Wooyoung grinned triumphantly. “See? I told you.”
You shook your head, trying to suppress a smile. “You’re reaching, Woo.”
Before he could argue further, someone from across the room called out his name, and you turned to see a tall man waving enthusiastically.
“Soobin!” Wooyoung called back, his face lighting up.
You nudged him gently. “Go say hi.”
Wooyoung hesitated, glancing back at you. “Are you sure? My priority tonight is—”
“I’ll be fine,” you reassured him. “Go. Catch up with your friend.”
It took a little more convincing, but eventually, Wooyoung relented, leaving you alone in the crowd, telling you to stay safe before heading towards the other corner of the room. And as much as you hated to admit it, you wanted the chance to see Hongjoong—keeping Wooyoung around would lower your chances. You weren’t sure what you’d say or do, but the pull was undeniable.
The music swelled, filling the air with a hauntingly beautiful melody that sent shivers cascading down your spine. You recognized the song instantly—Ma Meilleure Ennemie.
Its delicate notes carried a tension that mirrored the one steadily growing in your chest. Each rise and fall of the rhythm felt like it was echoing the flutter of your heartbeat, unstable and erratic.
The lights dimmed and flickered in sync with the music, casting shifting hues of red, blue, and purple over the crowd. The once vibrant room was now a kaleidoscope of moving silhouettes, their faces obscured by the moody lighting and the fog created by the haze machine. You moved cautiously through the throng of people, your heels clicking softly against the polished floor.
With every step, you felt smaller. The towering presence of high-profile figures, their laughter and animated conversations, created an invisible barrier that was difficult to breach. These were people who belonged here—artists, designers, and models who were not only established but celebrated. They mingled with ease, their confidence palpable, while you felt like an imposter wandering through a world you didn’t quite belong to.
You clenched your fingers around the fabric of your dress, the smooth satin offering little comfort against the gnawing self-doubt creeping into your thoughts.
“Excusez-moi.”
A deep voice startled you, and you turned to see an elegantly dressed man with salt-and-pepper hair and a sharp, tailored suit. He looked every bit the part of a veteran in the fashion industry.
“You are one of Monsieur Kim’s models, no?” he asked, his French accent rolling off his tongue smoothly.
You forced a polite smile, nodding. “Yes, I am.”
“Ah,” he said, his smile warm but scrutinizing, his eyes scanning you as if evaluating your worth. “I thought so. You have a certain... presence. Unique.”
His words, though intended as a compliment, made your skin prickle with unease. You managed to thank him before he moved on, but the encounter left you feeling even more out of place.
As you continued walking, more people stopped you. Some were kind, their words of admiration genuine, but others were probing, their questions sharp and loaded.
“How long have you been modeling?”
“Which agency represents you?”
“Do you think you’re prepared for a career this demanding?”
The last question lingered in your mind long after the conversation ended, gnawing at the cracks in your composure. Am I prepared?
Someone brushes past you, stepping on your foot in the process. You hissed in pain, stumbling back and clutching your arm to steady yourself.
“Apologies!” the person called out over their shoulder, but their apology was lost in the sea of voices and music.
You backed away further, retreating to the edges of the room where the lights weren’t as harsh, and the crowd wasn’t as suffocating. The thrum of conversations and laughter seemed louder now, drowning out the melody of the song that once comforted you.
Your breathing grew shallow, the edges of your vision narrowing as anxiety took root. Your hands trembled slightly as you pressed one against your chest, trying to ground yourself.
Maybe you shouldn’t have sent Wooyoung off…
The thought barely formed in your mind before you decided to leave the crowd altogether. You turned, intending to slip away unnoticed, when a warm hand closed gently around your forearm.
“Wait—”
The touch was familiar, so much so that your heart skipped a beat. You didn’t need to turn to know who it was.
It was Hongjoong.
Slowly, you turned to face him, and the sight that greeted you nearly knocked the air from your lungs.
Even under the shifting, dim lights, he looked strikingly handsome. His dark hair, though slightly tousled, framed his sharp features perfectly. The tailored blazer he wore fit him impeccably, accentuating his slim build and exuding an understated elegance. But it wasn’t just his appearance—it was the way he held himself, a quiet intensity in his gaze that felt almost magnetic.
He was slightly out of breath, his chest rising and falling as if he’d been rushing. You couldn’t help but wonder—had he been searching for you? The idea made your heart clench with conflicting emotions.
“I…” You opened your mouth, but the words didn’t come. You had hoped to catch a glimpse of him tonight, to admire him from a distance and leave it at that. But now, with him standing this close, your resolve crumbled.
Hongjoong’s grip on your arm loosened, but his hand lingered as if afraid you might vanish if he let go completely. “Please,” he said softly, his voice almost drowned out by the music and chatter around you. “Can we talk? Just for a moment.”
You hesitated, glancing around at the crowd before meeting his gaze again. “Hongjoong, I don’t think this is the time or place—”
“Then tell me when,” he interrupted, his voice firm but laced with urgency. “Tell me where, and I’ll be there. Just… don’t push me away like this. Please. I’m begging you.” His hand tightened ever so slightly on your arm, his desperation evident in the way his brows furrowed, his lips pressing into a thin line as if to hold back words that might spill out too quickly.
Your hesitation deepened, your heart warring against your mind. This is a mistake. He’s a mistake. But… why does it hurt to see him like this?
“I donʼt…” you began, your voice faltering as your resolve threatened to give way.
“I know I’ve hurt you,” he continued, his voice trembling with emotion. “I know I’ve failed you in ways I can’t even begin to explain. But if you walk away now, if you don’t let me fix this—” His voice broke, and he exhaled shakily, dragging a hand through his hair. “I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. Don’t let this end here. Just one conversation. That’s all I’m asking for.”
You bit your lip, your chest tightening at the rawness of his plea. You wanted to say no, to walk away and preserve the fragile walls you’d built around yourself. But the sincerity in his eyes, the cracks in his usually composed demeanor, made it impossible.
This is dangerous, you thought, your mind screaming at you to pull away. But your heart had already decided.
You sighed, nodding slowly. “Fine,” you whispered, the single word barely audible over the noise around you. Relief washed over his face, and for a moment, you hated how much it softened something inside you.
The moment Hongjoong’s hand tightened around your arm and he led you toward the nearest exit, your feet faltered. Panic mixed with confusion, and you instinctively pulled back, halting him in his tracks.
He turned to face you, a flicker of concern flashing in his eyes as he noticed your resistance. His brows knit together, and his lips parted to question you, but you spoke first.
“Hongjoong,” you began, your voice a mixture of firm and hesitant, “you have guests. This is your event. You can’t just leave them here like this. What if they notice you’re gone? What if it leaves a bitter taste in their mouths? They’re—”
“I don’t give a damn about what they think,” he interrupted, his tone sharp yet desperate. His voice cracked ever so slightly, and it was enough to make you pause. “To hell with it if they think I’m irresponsible. I don’t care if they’re disappointed, or if they whisper behind my back. All I care about is you—just you. I need you to talk to me tonight—that’s all that matters. So, please…”
The intensity in his gaze, the way his voice broke on the word please, made your chest tighten painfully. You sighed, defeated by his resolve but unwilling to make this easy for him.
When he reached for your arm again, you took a step back, hiding it behind you as you shook your head. “You don’t have to drag me with you,” you said, your tone cold but your heart racing. “I have two feet that function perfectly fine, you know.”
For a moment, his face fell—hurt flashed across his features so quickly it was almost imperceptible, but you saw it. And as much as it made guilt twist in your stomach, you knew you had every right to set boundaries. After all, he had been the one to build the fire between the two of you, only to extinguish it when you were most vulnerable.
Still, he nodded, accepting your terms without argument. A couple of minutes later, you found yourself stepping into his office on the highest floor of the building.
The room was dimly lit, the faint glow of the city lights seeping in through the large floor-to-ceiling windows. Papers were scattered across his desk, some even littering the floor. It wasn’t dirty, but it wasn’t the meticulously organized space you remembered from your last visit. The disarray was a stark contrast to the Hongjoong you knew—or thought you knew.
He closed the door behind him, the soft click echoing in the silence. For a moment, neither of you spoke. The tension in the room was palpable, thick enough to suffocate.
“I know,” he began, his voice low and rough, “that I’ve been a mess. That I’ve been unfair to you.” He turned toward you, his hands twitching at his sides as if he wasn’t sure what to do with them. “I’m not going to stand here and pretend like I haven’t made mistakes. I have. I’ve made so many mistakes.”
You crossed your arms over your chest, leaning against the desk to steady yourself. “Then why?” you asked, your voice sharper than you intended. “Why did you do it? Why did you build this thing between us only to tear it apart?”
Hongjoong’s shoulders sagged, and he ran a hand through his hair, his frustration evident. “Because I was scared,” he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. “That night… at your doorstep… I almost kissed you. I wanted to. God, I wanted to. But I was standing at the edge of a cliff, and I wasn’t sure if I was ready to fall.”His words sent a sharp pang through your chest. “So you weren’t scared to fall when you were dancing with me at the flower shop?” you demanded, your voice trembling. “When you’d look at me like I was the only person in the world? When you kept lighting the fire between us? You weren’t scared to do all of that, but the moment we almost kissed, suddenly you’re scared?”
He flinched at your words, and for a brief moment, you saw the guilt etched into his features.
“I was scared of what it meant,” he confessed, his voice rising slightly in desperation. “I was terrified, because I didn’t know what would happen if I let myself fall for you. I thought if I stayed away, I’d be sparing you—”
“Sparing me?” you interrupted, your voice rising as tears stung your eyes. “Sparing me from what, Hongjoong? From feeling like I was nothing to you? From crying myself to sleep because the one person I trusted to stay decided to leave? You weren’t sparing me. You were sparing yourself.”
“I know,” he said, his voice cracking under the weight of his confession. “I know, and I hate myself for it. But I couldn’t—”
“Couldn’t what?” you snapped, your chest heaving as the floodgates burst. “Couldn’t handle the thought of being vulnerable? Couldn’t deal with the possibility of getting hurt? Newsflash, Hongjoong: you hurt me. You left me to deal with everything on my own while you ran away. What are you so scared of?”
“I’ve spent so much of my life building walls, focusing on my work, convincing myself that I didn’t need anyone. But you…” He took a shaky step toward you. “You made me want more. And it terrified me.”
“That doesn’t make it better,” you snapped, your voice cracking as tears burned at the corners of your eyes. “Do you have any idea how much you hurt me? You pulled me in, Hongjoong. You made me believe in something I didn’t think I could have. And then you pushed me away like I was nothing.”
He winced, his head hanging low. “I know,” he said softly. “I know I was an asshole. I know I shouldn’t have waited this long to talk to you. But—”
“It’s not too late,” you cut him off, your voice quieter but no less firm. “It’s just that you could’ve done this sooner. You had every chance to speak to me, and you didn’t. Why only now?”
He stepped closer, his eyes searching yours for a sign of forgiveness. “Because I’ve realized that I can’t keep running from this. From you. I don’t care how long it takes or how hard it is—I’ll do whatever it takes to fix this. To fix us. Just tell me how, and I’ll do it. Please…”
His voice broke, and the raw emotion in it shattered the last of your defenses. All the pain, resentment, and longing you had bottled up came rushing to the surface.
“You don’t get to just say that and expect everything to be okay!” you cried, your voice rising as tears spilled down your cheeks. “Do you know how many nights I stayed up thinking about you? About what I did wrong—and why I wasn’t enough?”
Hongjoong reached for you, pulling you into his arms despite your attempts to push him away. You pounded your fists weakly against his chest, but he didn’t let go. His hands cradled the back of your head, his lips pressing softly against your temple as you sobbed into his shoulder.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered, his voice breaking. “I’m so, so sorry. You were always enough. More than enough. This is on me. All of it.”
Your fists stilled against his chest, and you let out a choked sob, clinging to him as all the anger and frustration poured out of you.
He held you tighter, his presence grounding you even as your emotions threatened to drown you. And in that moment, you realized that as much as you wanted to hate him, as much as you wanted to push him away—you couldn’t. Not entirely.
The silence between you stretched thin, taut like a wire ready to snap. Hongjoong’s arms remained firmly around you, his hands gently gripping your arms as if afraid you might slip away. His gaze bore into you, raw and pleading, but you couldn’t look at him without feeling the sting of all the nights you cried over his absence.
“I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness,” he began, his voice hoarse as though the words clawed their way out of him. “But I’m here now, and I’m begging you. Just—please, let me fix this. Let me fix us. I’ll do whatever it takes.”
You pulled back slightly, enough to meet his eyes, and the sight of him broke your heart all over again. His eyes were glassy, brimmed with tears he was clearly fighting to hold back. The vulnerability in his expression was a stark contrast to the confident, composed man you thought you knew.
“And what if it’s not enough?” you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. “What if no matter how hard you try, it won’t erase the pain you’ve caused? Do you even realize what you did to me, Hongjoong?”
“I do,” he said quickly, embracing you even tighter as though afraid you’d vanish if he let go. “I know I broke you. I know I left you alone when you needed me most. And I’ll never forgive myself for that. But I swear, I’ll never make that mistake again. Just tell me how to fix this—tell me what to do, and I’ll do it.”
You shook your head, a bitter laugh escaping your lips. “You say that now, but what about when things get hard again? Will you run away then too? Will you leave me to pick up the pieces while you figure out how to handle your emotions?”
“No,” he said firmly, his voice rising with desperation. “I won’t. I know I’ve been a coward, and I know I don’t deserve your trust, but I’ll earn it back. I’ll prove to you that I’m not the same person who hurt you. I… Iʼll admit I really thought placing a wall between us was the solution. I thought I was doing the right thing. But I was wrong. So fucking wrong. I’ve spent every single day regretting it, hating myself for the pain I caused you. And I’m here now because I can’t keep living like this—I can’t keep living without you, goddamnit.His words hit you like a tidal wave, threatening to pull you under. You wanted to believe him, to let yourself fall into the safety of his arms, but the scars he left on your heart made it impossible to trust him fully.
Still, you wanted to.
“I hate you, you know,” you said, your voice trembling as the words spilled out like shards of glass. Each one was sharp, cutting through the silence, through the air that seemed too thick to breathe. Tears ran down your cheeks in an unrelenting stream, and you didn’t bother to wipe them away. Your fists clenched at your sides, the tremor in them betraying the rawness of your emotions.
“I hate how you left me in the middle of a path I was unfamiliar with,” you continued, your tone rising with every syllable. “I hate how much of a coward you are. I hate how you made me believe there was something between us, only for you to act like there wasn’t. I hate how you kept me wondering why I wasn’t enough for you to stay.”
Your voice cracked on the last word, and you felt yourself breaking all over again, like a dam collapsing under the weight of too much pressure.
“But…” You paused, choking on the lump in your throat. “But mostly, I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.”
The admission hung in the air, a fragile truth that seemed to silence everything around you. And as the words left your lips, you let your arms find their way around his figure, clinging to him with a desperation that mirrored the ache your heart felt.
You buried your face in his chest, your tears soaking into the fabric of his shirt. His arms came around you almost instinctively, holding you tightly as though afraid you might slip away if he loosened his grip even slightly. The faint, familiar scent of him—the one you’d tried so hard to forget—engulfed you, pulling you deeper into the spiral of emotions you’d fought to keep at bay.
You idiot, you thought to yourself, you absolute fool.
You had come here tonight to forget him, to push the memories of him into a corner of your mind you could lock away forever. Yet here you were, sobbing into his chest like the heartache of the past weeks hadn’t been enough. You hated how much you’d missed him, how much you still craved the safety of his arms even after everything he’d put you through.
Hongjoong held you close, his own chest tightening with every sob that wracked your body. He rested his cheek against the crown of your head, his breath hitching as he tried to steady himself. How could he have done this to you?
The sight of you like this—so fragile, so broken—was a knife to his heart. And knowing he was the one who had caused this pain made the guilt nearly unbearable. He’d spent weeks convincing himself that pushing you away was the right thing to do, that he was protecting himself, protecting you. But standing here now, with you trembling in his arms, he realized how horribly wrong he’d been.
The fears that had haunted him for so long—the fear of being abandoned again, of opening his heart only to have it shattered—no longer mattered. Because nothing, no ghost from his past, no amount of uncertainty, was more important than you.
He didnʼt care anymore. He didnʼt care about anything but you.
He closed his eyes, his lips pressing softly against your temple. “I’m so sorry,” he whispered, his voice breaking. “For everything. For hurting you, for being a coward. I’m so sorry, and I’ll spend the rest of my life making it up to you if you’ll let me.”
You sniffled, lifting your head slightly from his chest. His hands moved instinctively, one cupping your face while the other rested on your waist, steadying you. His thumb brushed away the tear tracks on your cheek, and when you finally met his gaze, the raw vulnerability in his eyes made your breath catch.
Hongjoong looked at you like you were the only thing in the world that mattered, his own tears threatening to spill over. He opened his mouth as if to say something, but no words came out. He didn’t need to speak; the emotions in his eyes said everything.
And against your better judgment, against every ounce of self-preservation you’d tried to cling to, you found yourself leaning in.
The moment your lips met, it was as though the world outside ceased to exist. The kiss was slow but full of urgency, a culmination of every unspoken word, every suppressed feeling, every moment of longing that had built up between you.
Fireworks exploded in the distance, the sound echoing through the air as the clock struck twelve.
The kiss was not rushed, nor was it perfect; it was trembling, raw, and unpolished. It was the kind of kiss that could only come from a place of deep yearning, a place where words had failed and only touch could suffice.
Hongjoong’s lips were soft against yours, moving with an unspoken gentleness that contradicted the storm of emotions swirling between you. It wasn’t about passion or desire—it was about connection, about pouring every unsaid word and buried feeling into this single, fragile moment. His touch was tentative at first, like he was afraid you might pull away, but when you didn’t, he kissed you deeper, his hands steadying you as if to anchor you both.
The world around you seemed to dissolve into nothingness. The distant sound of fireworks faded into a muffled hum, the sharp chill of the night forgotten. All that remained was the warmth of his lips and the way your heart thundered in your chest, not from nerves but from the overwhelming sensation of being wholly, undeniably seen.
His hand cupped your cheek with a reverence that made you feel like you were something sacred, something he was terrified of breaking yet couldn’t bear to let go of. His thumb brushed against your skin, a subtle, tender movement that spoke volumes more than words ever could.
For the first time in weeks, the ache in your chest began to ease, replaced by a bittersweet warmth that spread through your entire being. The kiss wasn’t just an apology; it was a confession, a plea, a promise. It carried every moment you’d spent apart, every sleepless night, every tear you’d shed. It was as though he was trying to stitch back together every broken piece of your heart, not with grand gestures but with the simplicity of his presence and the sincerity in his touch.
And you kissed him back just as softly, your movements hesitant but full of meaning. It wasn’t forgiveness—not yet—but it was a surrender. A quiet acknowledgement that no matter how much he had hurt you, no matter how hard you had tried to let him go, he was still there, embedded in every corner of your heart.
You could feel his tears against your skin, hot and unrelenting, as they mixed with your own. Yet, he didn’t pull away; he stayed, pressing closer as though afraid that even a breath of space might shatter this fragile moment. His lips trembled against yours, betraying his vulnerability, his desperation, his overwhelming relief.
It was soft, painfully so, like the brush of a feather or the first tentative notes of a love song. And yet, it carried the weight of everything—the pain, the longing, the fear, and the undeniable truth that no matter how broken the two of you had been, you were still standing here, together, trying.
When you finally pulled back, your foreheads nearly pressed together, both of you breathing heavily, as though the kiss had stolen every ounce of air from your lungs. His eyes met yours, glistening with unshed tears, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you saw him—truly saw him. Not the man who had hurt you, not the coward who had run away, but the boy you had once fallen for, the boy who was still fighting to be worthy of you.
Coming to terms with what just happened, your cheeks flushed, and it seems he still noticed it despite the dim, ambient surroundings engulfing both of you, given the way he smiled.
And in that moment, as the bright hues of fireworks lit up the sky, you realized something: this wasn’t an ending. It wasn’t even a beginning. It was a moment suspended in time, a fragile, imperfect truce between two hearts that refused to let go of each other, no matter how much they had tried.
🎞️ — lividstar.
I need someone to hug reader i’m so serious
Pairing: heir!Song Mingi x heir!Reader AU: non-idol | arranged marriage | enemies to lovers Genre: angst, humor, fluff in future chapters Summary: After a life-altering car accident, Mingi is given one final shot at redemption—reborn as a fuzzy little puppy. To earn a second chance at life, he must complete three tasks or risk being doomed to the afterlife forever. Word Count: 5.7K Warnings: a little angst, mental health care, hints of child abduction, mentions of death, mentions of infidelity
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You paced around your bedroom, restless energy driving each step as the anticipation of your upcoming therapy session settled over you. The faint glow of the laptop screen illuminated the room, the app open and waiting. The timer ticked down with an almost menacing rhythm as you adjusted the laptop, twisting it slightly left, then right, before stepping back to assess the angle.
Tired eyes stared back at you, dulled by sleepless nights, and the lines on your face seemed deeper, etched by the weight of too many burdens. No amount of hydrating could fix this.
The laptop chimed, signaling the start of the session. With a heavy sigh, you clicked "Join." The screen flickered, and soon the familiar face of your therapist, Jungah, came into view.
“Y/N! How are you?”
You hesitated, your eyes darting to the floor for a moment. “I’m...well, a lot has happened since our last session.”
Jungah nodded gently, her expression softening as she leaned in, resting her chin in the palm of her hand. “Tell me more,” she encouraged.
“Mingi was in an accident,” you said, the words feeling heavier as they left your mouth. “He’s…in a coma right now.”
“Oh Y/N, I’m so sorry to hear that. I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now! How are you holding up?”
You nodded, the lump in your throat making it hard to respond. “I’m pretty overwhelmed. I got a dog though, which is great. But everything about the situation just feels so…complicated,” you admitted, your voice dropping slightly.
“Part of me feels like I should be…devastated. And I am, in a way. I think just because we’ve always had such a difficult relationship.”
“It’s okay to feel all of those things. There’s no ‘right’ way to process something like this. What’s been the hardest part for you?”
You hesitated, your fingers tracing patterns on the edge of your desk as your thoughts churned.
“Probably the fact that it reminds me of when Hongjoong was in the hospital. During his battle with cancer.”
“Right, and we talked about that in our first session. What kind of feelings does this bring up for you?”
You swallowed hard, the words clawing their way out of you.
“Guilt. I can’t believe I was in class when it happened,” you began, your voice already trembling. Your voice cracked, and you gripped the edge of the desk tightly. Your breath hitched, and you shook your head as tears pricked at the corners of your eyes.
“I should have been there,” you said, the words spilling out in a rush, your voice rising with emotion. “I should’ve skipped class, stayed by his side, done something. I thought I had more time, and then—then I didn’t.”
A single tear slipped down your cheek, and you quickly wiped it away, frustration bubbling beneath the surface.
“He died alone. Alone. And I wasn’t there to tell him I loved him one last time, to hold his hand, to let him know he wasn’t alone.”
You pressed your palm against your chest, as if trying to steady the ache threatening to consume you.
“And now, with Mingi,” you continued, your words tumbling out in a rush. “We’ve never been close. But the thought of leaving him alone, of him waking up, o-or dying and not having anyone there, makes it feel like it’s happening all over again.”
Your voice broke completely, and a sob tore from your throat. You buried your face in your hands, fingers clutching at your temples as though trying to contain the flood of emotions pouring out.
Mingi’s head shot up, his ears twitching as the sound of your broken sobs filled the room. Panic flashed in his eyes, and he scrambled to his feet, the urgency of your pain pulling him forward. He stumbled slightly, his small paws skidding on the floor in his haste, but he didn’t stop until he was in your lap.
With all the force his tiny body could muster, he pressed against you, nudging your hands, pawing at your chest—anything to pull you back from the edge. His movements were frantic, almost desperate, as if he could piece you back together with his touch.
No, no, no, don't cry.
“Why does this keep happening to me?” you choked out. You curled in on yourself, arms wrapping around your middle as if to contain the grief threatening to consume you whole.
Mingi had never seen you like this. The weight of it crushed him—heavier than any argument you’d ever had, sharper than the harshest words exchanged in anger.
He’d known about Hongjoong’s death in a detached, matter-of-fact way—something that had happened before your lives became entangled. But until now, it hadn’t occurred to him how deeply that loss had scarred you, how it marred your heart.
You weren’t just the person he’d been forced to marry, the one he’d spent so much energy resenting and clashing with. You were a whole person—someone who had loved, lost, and carried burdens he hadn’t even noticed.
“Y/N,” Jungah said softly, “take a deep breath with me. Just one. In through your nose...and out through your mouth.”
You tried to follow her lead, managing a shaky inhale, then exhaling in a stuttering gasp, fresh tears spilling down as you followed the motions.
“It’s not your fault,” Jungah said. “None of this is your fault—not Hongjoong’s passing, and not Mingi’s accident. You loved Hongjoong, and you’re doing everything you can for Mingi now. That’s what matters.”
“That’s the problem,” you said, your voice trembling. “I shouldn’t be the only one. His parents—” Your words caught, a wave of anger rising in your throat, hot and bitter, cutting you off mid-sentence.
“They wouldn’t even take turns staying with him at the hospital! I asked. But his mom brushed me off like it was nothing, like their son lying there broken didn’t matter.”
Jungah’s face softened with understanding, but you could see the anger flicker in her eyes. “That’s not on you, either. They’re the ones failing him, not you.”
“I just…I just can’t stand the thought of him being alone. Even after everything he’s done, after all the hurt—he doesn’t deserve that. No one does.”
Mingi’s heart clenched—not with guilt, but with a profound, almost overwhelming sense of gratitude. You were angry, hurt, and exhausted, yet you still stood up for him. You still wanted to be there for him, even after all the ways he’d hurt you, you stayed.
It struck him then–he had spent so much time fighting against your world, your pain, but had never truly tried to understand it.
“You’re right to be angry. They should be there for him, but they’re not, and that’s their shame to bear. You, on the other hand, have gone above and beyond. You’ve stayed. You’ve cared. And that says so much more about who you are.”
“I’m so tired,” you admitted. "I don’t even know if I’m doing this because I care or because I’m afraid of looking like a terrible person. I just want to do the right thing, but I don’t know what that is anymore.”
“Y/N,” she said gently, “it sounds like you’re carrying a lot and putting everyone else’s needs before your own. You know, it’s okay to prioritize yourself.”
“I know, I know.” You ran a shaky hand through your hair, “I don’t know what that looks like for me right now. I think I just care too much about people who’d never do the same for me. I feel…pathetic, honestly.”
“I hear you,” Jungah said softly. “You’ve been through a lot, and it’s natural to question where you stand, especially when you give so much of yourself to others and don’t always get it back.”
Your gaze drifted down to Maro, his soft brown eyes watching you intently. As if sensing your turmoil, he nudged his head against your hand. You offered him a weak smile, gently scratching behind his ears.
“But I need you to hear this, Y/N. You’re showing compassion, and there’s incredible strength in that. You’re standing up for someone who needs your care and your support, someone who may not even realize how much they need you right now.”
“Taking care of yourself isn’t a betrayal of those qualities, it’s a part of them. You deserve the same care you give to everyone else. You’re worthy of that, Y/N. You need to remember that.”
Jungah smiled softly as your therapy session came to a close. “We’ll keep working through this, step by step. For now, just think about what self-care might look like for you. You’ve been through so much, Y/N. Give yourself the grace you so readily give to others.”
“Thank you,” you sniffled, wiping at your eyes.
With a shaky exhale, you gave her a small, grateful wave before reaching out to end the call. The screen went dark, and the silence of the room rushed in to fill the space where her voice had been.
For a moment, you just sat there, staring at the blank screen of your laptop. The tears welled up again, but this time they came slower, quieter, as if you were finally too tired to hold them back. You let out a long, trembling sigh before looking down at Maro, who was watching you intensely.
You wrapped your arms around him, pulling him close as he nestled into your chest. “I’m sorry,” you murmured into his fur, your voice barely audible.
You didn’t even know exactly what you were apologizing for—maybe for being angry, for feeling conflicted, for not having all the answers. But Mingi didn’t flinch or pull away. Instead, he nuzzled closer, his way of silently telling you he understood, that he saw the pain you were carrying.
He could feel it all—the storm raging inside you. The guilt, the exhaustion, the anger. He was someone who had hurt you, who had failed you in ways he couldn’t begin to measure. Yet here you were, holding him as if he was still worth fighting for.
You were fighting—for him, for yourself, for the hope that things could be different. And though he didn’t know if he deserved it, Mingi silently willed you to keep going. Somehow, in the stillness, he realized something…you were his reason to fight, too.
⋆
The café was quiet when you arrived, the gentle hum of conversations and the clinking of silverware blending into a soft, comforting din. Near the window, Mrs. Kim sat in the warm glow of sunlight, quietly leafing through a stack of sheet music while humming along to the notes.
“Y/N!” she greeted, her face lighting up as she caught sight of you. Rising from her seat, she pulled you into a gentle hug, her familiar warmth easing the lingering tension in your shoulders. Her gaze dropped, and her expression softened when she noticed the small figure nestled at your feet.
“And who is this?” The corners of her mouth lifted into a smile.
“This is Maro,” you replied, scooping him up into your arms. His ears perked up at the sound of his name, his curious eyes darting toward Mrs. Kim.
“I hope it’s okay that I brought him along.”
Mrs. Kim chuckled, her hand already reaching out toward him. “Of course it’s okay,” she said warmly, her fingers brushing against his soft fur as she gently scratched behind his ears. Maro leaned into her touch, his fluffy tail wagging slightly.
“It’s nice to have some extra company.”
You sat down, and Maro settled under the table as the server came by to take your order. Hongjoong’s mother watched you for a moment, her gaze warm but thoughtful, as if she was piecing something together.
“You seem…tired,” she noted softly.
You let out a dry chuckle, brushing a hand through your hair. “When you’re married to the most narcissistic family on the planet, it kind of comes with the territory,” you replied with a wry smile, the humor in your words unable to mask the weariness behind them.
Mingi let out a quiet huff, his ears flicking back as he gave you a sidelong glance from his position under the table. His frown was subtle but noticeable, a clear sign that he didn’t entirely agree with your assessment of his family—even if he couldn’t voice his objections.
“Marriage can be… complicated,” she said gently, lifting her mug to her lips, “but it’s in those challenges that we often discover who we really are.”
Mrs. Kim folded her hands over the sheet music, her gaze warm yet thoughtful. “It’s also about finding ways to grow together. It’s often the small, quiet decisions to stay and try that matter most, even when it feels impossible.”
She paused before adding, “I know the Songs can be…intense. But people like that are mirrors. They reflect parts of yourself—your strengths, weaknesses, and fears. Facing those reflections isn’t easy, but it can lead to unexpected growth.”
“I just wish it didn’t feel like a constant fight. Like I’m always proving something—to them, to myself, to Mingi.”
“Proving yourself is exhausting. But maybe, without realizing it, you’re showing them how to fight for something worth keeping.” Mrs. Kim’s voice was gentle, her words lingering in the air before she added, almost as an afterthought, “Oh, before I forget…”
She slid the stack of sheet music into your hands, your breath caught as you scanned the pages, immediately recognizing Hongjoong’s handwriting—the chaotic, unruly script that mirrored the way his mind danced through ideas, always just a little ahead of itself.
“Jazz?” you murmured, a small, bittersweet smile tugging at your lips.
“Just a few of his hundreds of compositions he’d written over the years,” she explained, her own smile touched with sadness. “I thought…you might want to have them.”
You ran your fingers lightly over the pages, the notes and markings so distinctly him—bold, inventive, and just a touch wild. The ache in your chest swelled, but it was softened by the warmth of the memory.
“Thank you,” you said softly, your voice thick with emotion. “This means a lot.”
“He always wanted his music to be shared, to bring people joy. I think he’d be happy knowing you have these.”
Under the table, Mingi pawed at Mrs. Kim’s leg. It was a small, almost instinctive gesture, as if even in his canine form, he wanted to ease the weight of her sadness. Mrs. Kim’s gaze softened as she glanced down at him.
Mingi studied her closely, sensing the deep sadness she carried beneath her calm demeanor. It was an enduring grief for her son, one that seemed to seep into every word she spoke and every careful action she took. Yet, she never let it consume her. Instead, she channeled it into wisdom, offering others a sense of peace and understanding.
He couldn’t help but wonder if his own mother would ever be capable of finding those same emotions.
“You’re a sweet one, aren’t you?” she murmured, her voice low, almost as though she were speaking to herself.
“Thank you for keeping me company, dear.”
Mingi tilted his head, his small tail wagging slightly as he considered her words. People often avoided what they didn’t understand or couldn’t fix. And yet, here he was, a tiny puppy, silently promising her he wouldn’t be one of those people—at least, not today.
“Excuse me? Have you seen my daughter?”
The frantic question cut through the murmur of the busy street. Mrs. Kim and Mingi turned in unison, her hand still resting on the leash as her gaze landed on the source of the voice. You looked up from adjusting your coat just in time to catch the woman’s anxious expression as she stopped abruptly, her chest rising and falling with shallow breaths.
“I-I’m sorry,” she stammered, “My daughter, Yena, she’s...she’s gone! She was right beside me just a moment ago, and now I can’t find her. She’s five, wearing a pink jacket and yellow rain boots?”
Mrs. Kim’s eyes softened immediately, her expression one of concern. “Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that. We haven’t seen her, but we’ll keep an eye out for her.” She turned to you for confirmation, and you nodded, already scanning the area.
“Thank you, thank you,” she said, though her gaze was already shifting, searching the busy street.
“I turned around for a second and the next thing I knew, she’s gone!”
“No, don’t blame yourself,” Mrs. Kim said gently, her voice steady and soothing. “Children are naturally curious. Let’s focus on finding her now. Have you called the authorities?”
The woman nodded quickly, her hands trembling as she fumbled to show a picture of her daughter on her phone.
“Yes. This is her,” she said, holding her phone out for you to see.
Pictured was a bright-eyed little girl, with round cheeks, grinning widely as she clutched a stuffed rabbit nearly as big as she was.
“Where did you last see her?” you asked, already forming a mental map of the area.
“Just over there,” the woman said, her hand shaking as she pointed toward the park entrance.
“We were sitting by the benches under the oak tree, and I turned to grab her water bottle from my bag…” Her voice wavered, and she paused, her breaths growing shallow and erratic as the memory clearly consumed her.
“It’s okay,” you interjected gently, your tone steady and reassuring. You leaned in slightly, meeting her panicked gaze.
“You’ve done the right thing by calling for help. We’ll keep an eye out for her and report anything we find to the authorities.”
The woman nodded shakily, clutching her phone as if it were a lifeline. “Thank you,” she whispered, her voice trembling under the weight of her fear.
You gave her a reassuring smile, though the heaviness in your chest lingered.
With a quick nod, you and Mrs. Kim turned to make your way toward the park, leaving Yena’s mother behind to continue her frantic search.
“How unfortunate,” Mrs. Kim sighed after a moment, breaking the silence. She shook her head, her expression clouded with sympathy.
“I can’t imagine what that woman is going through. Losing sight of your child, even for a second...it’s a nightmare no parent should ever have to endure.”
Mingi gave a small huff, his nose twitching as he sniffed the air. His steps quickened slightly, and you had to tighten your grip on the leash to keep him from pulling too far ahead.
She’s around here somewhere, his instincts told him as he sniffed the air again. Something about the situation—the mother’s panic and the child’s vulnerability, tugged at a deep place in his heart. It didn’t matter that he didn’t know Yena, she was small, defenseless, and alone. That was enough for Mingi to feel protective.
He remembered the times he’d been alone, in places where no one called his name or came looking for him. But Yena wouldn’t feel that loneliness, not if Mingi could help it. She needed someone, and he was determined to be that someone.
Whatever loneliness he’d known in his own life, he wouldn’t let a lost little girl feel it. Not while he could do something about it.
Mingi sniffed the air again, his movements growing more urgent. His ears twitched, his muscles tensed, and his posture shifted, radiating a focused energy that caught your attention. You noticed his change immediately, the way he stopped sniffing idly and started searching with intent.
“Maro?” Your grip on the leash tightened instinctively as he stepped forward, his nose brushing the ground before lifting to sniff the air again.
Mingi hesitated for a moment, his body rigid, as though confirming something only he could sense. Then, without warning, he surged forward, the leash pulling taut in your hands.
“Maro, wait!” you called, trying to hold him back, but his determination overpowered your grip. With a quick twist of his body, Mingi wriggled free of his harness. The loop fell to the ground with a soft thud, and in a flash, he was off.
“No!” you shouted, panic rising in your chest. You took off after him, your heart pounding as his barking grew louder, guiding you toward his destination.
He darted through the park, weaving between trees and darting past startled spectators, as though he were following a trail only he could detect. You struggled to keep up, adrenaline driving your steps as you sprinted after him.
"Go away!" Yena cried, her voice breaking as she snatched her arm away from the strange woman. Her wide, tear-filled eyes darted around the clearing, searching for an escape.
"I'm not a stranger," the woman said, her tone syrupy but strained, a smile tugging uncomfortably at the corners of her lips.
"I’m your mommy’s friend."
"My mommy said never to go with strangers!”
The woman crouched slightly, her smile tight and unnatural as her patience began to wear thin.
“I told you, I’m not a stranger,” she said, her voice growing sharper. Her eyes glinted with something cold as she glanced around the clearing.
“You’ll be in trouble if you don’t listen to me, little girl. Do you want that?”
Before the woman could reach for her again, furious barking erupted from the trees. Mingi charged into the clearing, positioning himself between the girl and the woman, his growls low and menacing.
“Shoo!” she snapped, waving her hand at him as though he were a mere nuisance. “Get out of here, you little pest!”
But Mingi didn’t flinch. His growls deepened, his stance lowering as if ready to lunge if she dared to come closer. His determination seemed to fill the air, daring her to make a move.
“A puppy!” Yena gasped, her tears momentarily forgotten as she crouched slightly behind him.
“Maro!” you called, your voice sharp. He turned briefly, his tail wagging slightly at the sound of your voice, but he quickly refocused on the woman, his growls resuming.
The woman’s gaze darted between you and the dog, her jaw tightening. For a fleeting moment, her eyes locked with yours, and recognition flashed in her expression—a flicker of something dark and calculated. Her lips curled into a sneer before she turned and bolted, disappearing into the trees with a speed that left you stunned.
Mingi barked after her once, but then turned his attention back to Yena. Rising onto his hind legs, he nudged her gently as if urging her to sit. Once she did, he hopped into her lap without hesitation, his warm, furry body pressing against hers like a shield.
Yena gasped softly at the contact, her small hands instinctively clutching at his soft fur. She buried her fingers into his coat, the warmth and comfort he provided allowing her sobs to finally break free.
“Oh my god, Yena!” you gasped, dropping to your knees beside her. Your hands hovered for a moment, unsure whether to touch her or give her space. “Are you okay?”
Yena peeked up at you, her tear-streaked face still pressed against Mingi’s side.
“The bad lady’s gone?” she whispered, her voice fragile.
“She’s gone,” you assured her. You reached out, brushing a strand of her disheveled hair away from her face.
“Maro made sure of it. He scared her away.”
“He’s a good puppy,” she murmured shakily, her voice barely above a whisper. Her fingers stroked his back, and though her movements were timid, they carried a quiet gratitude.
Your hands fumbled for your phone, the adrenaline making your fingers clumsy. You swiped at the screen, barely managing to bring up Mrs. Kim’s number. Pressing the call button, you held the phone to your ear, your eyes scanning the tree line as if to ensure the woman wouldn’t reappear.
The phone rang once, then twice, before Mrs. Kim’s voice came through, steady but laced with worry.
“Did you find her?” she asked, her words hurried.
“Yes,” you said quickly, glancing down at Yena, who was still clutching Maro. “She’s here. She’s safe, but…” You hesitated, swallowing hard before continuing.
“Call the cops. I’ll stay here with her until they arrive.”
⋆
The faint sound of hurried footsteps reached your ears, and when you glanced toward the path, you saw Mrs. Kim, Yena’s mother, and two officers running toward you.
“Yena!” she called, her voice cracking as she rushed forward.
“Mommy!” Yena cried, scrambling to her feet, still clutching Mingi. She stumbled toward her mother, who dropped to her knees and wrapped her arms around her daughter tightly. Yena buried her face in her mother’s shoulder, fresh tears spilling down her cheeks.
“Thank you,” she said, her voice thick with emotion. “Thank you so much. I don’t know what I would have done if—” Her voice broke, and she hugged Yena even tighter.
“I don’t know how I can ever repay you!” she continued.
You shook your head gently, offering her a warm, reassuring smile. “There’s no need,” you said, your voice calm but earnest. “I’m just glad I was here to help. That’s all that matters.”
Mingi barked softly, as if echoing your sentiments. His tail wagged as he sat back at your feet, looking every bit the proud protector he was. Yena pulled back slightly from her mother’s embrace, wiping at her eyes with one hand while the other reached down to pet Mingi.
“The puppy saved me,” she said softly, her voice still shaky but filled with awe. “He scared the bad lady away.”
You crouched down to Mingi’s level, scratching behind his ears. “He’s the real hero here,” you said, glancing up at Mrs. Kim with a small smile.
“He knew something was wrong before I did.”
Mingi let out a happy huff, rolling onto his back to expose his belly, practically inviting Yena to join in the celebration. The little girl giggled through her tears, her small hands eagerly scratching his side.
Yena’s mother knelt beside her, her trembling hand reaching out hesitantly. Her fingers brushed over Mingi’s soft fur, and her lips quivered with emotion.
“Thank you,” she whispered again, her voice cracking as she looked back at Yena. “Thank you both.”
“Ms…?” one of the officers interrupted gently, his notebook in hand.
“Choi,” you said, standing to face him. “Um, I’m Choi Y/N.”
“Do you mind providing a witness statement?”
“Of course,” you replied, taking a steadying breath. “I was walking my dog when I saw a woman with Yena,” you began.
“The woman claimed she was a friend of the mother, but something about her seemed…off. She got increasingly aggressive when Yena didn’t cooperate.”
The officer nodded, scribbling rapidly in his notepad. “Can you describe the woman?”
“She looked like she was her forties,” you said, replaying the scene in your mind. “Dark hair, pulled back tightly. She was wearing a black jacket and purple pants and seemed disheveled. When I caught up to Maro, she froze like a deer in the headlights and bolted into the trees.”
“Did you see which direction she ran?”
You nodded, pointing toward the dense tree line a few yards away. “That way. She moved fast, like she knew exactly where she was going.”
The officer glanced in the direction you indicated, then back at his notes with a heavy sigh.
“We’ll search the area and alert nearby units to be on the lookout for someone matching her description. In the meantime, thank you for stepping in. Your dog’s instincts likely saved this little girl.”
As the officers wrapped up their investigation, you crouched down one last time to Yena’s level. Her wide eyes were still a little red from crying, but there was a sparkle of hope in them now.
“You were so brave today. And you know what? Maro thinks you’re a hero, too.”
Yena’s lips curled into a shy smile as she reached out to pet his head. He leaned into her touch, his tail wagging lazily.
“Can I play with him again sometime?”
“Anytime,” you promised. “You just let your mom know, and we’ll make it happen.”
With a final wave, you gave Mrs. Kim a quick hug, murmuring your thanks before sheepishly retrieving the sheet music you had almost forgotten. Clutching it tightly, you turned to leave, Mingi falling into step beside you.
The walk home was quieter now, the crisp night air carrying the faint rustle of leaves. Mingi trotted happily at your side, his leash loose, as if he understood the weight of the moment but chose not to linger on it. Instead, his steady presence offered you a quiet comfort, grounding you in the stillness of the night.
When you reached the penthouse, you slipped off your shoes, hung up Mingi’s leash, and set the sheet music on the music shelf.
“Well, today was something else,” you muttered, rubbing the back of your neck as you flopped onto the couch.
Before you could settle in, Mingi hopped up beside you, his fluffy tail wagging in a lazy rhythm. Without hesitation, he settled into your lap as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
You chuckled softly, your fingers finding their way behind his ears, scratching gently in a spot you knew he loved.
“We make a pretty great team, huh?”
You leaned back into the cushions, your hand slipping from behind his ears to run through the soft fur along his back. Each stroke seemed to soothe not just him, but you as well.
“You’re amazing, you know that?” you murmured after a moment, your voice quieter now.
“I don’t know what I’d do without you.”
Mingi shifted slightly, resting his head against your chest as his eyes fluttered shut, lulled by the rhythm of your heartbeat. Accepting this new form hadn’t been easy; it challenged everything he thought he knew about himself.
But moments like this, with your hand threading gently through his fur and your voice brimming with affection, chipped away at his doubts. The walls he had so carefully constructed around his heart crumbled, leaving him exposed to a truth he could no longer deny: the feelings growing within him, his feelings for you.
Mingi surrendered to the quiet realization that he no longer wanted to run from you or from the parts of himself he couldn’t face. You had shown him something he thought he’d lost; a capacity for care, compassion, and even love.
And he wanted to show you that could become something more.
But his peace was short-lived as your phone blared to life, interrupting his nap. Jiwoo’s name lit up the screen, and with a tired sigh, you swiped to answer, already bracing yourself for her shenanigans.
That annoying woman!
“Y/N!” Jiwoo’s voice was bright and full of excitement. “I’ve found it. The place. It’s in Prague, and it’s everything you’ve been looking for—charming, historic, and in a perfect location!”
“Prague is a little far, don’t you think?”
“Exactly!” Jiwoo exclaimed, as if you’d just proved her point. “Far enough to get away from all these assholes!”
You chuckled softly, your fingers absentmindedly carding through Maro’s fur. He stirred slightly, letting out a soft sigh as he snuggled deeper against your chest. Jiwoo’s energy was infectious, even when you weren’t entirely on board with her ideas.
“Speaking of assholes,” she said, her tone dropping, “have you heard about Ahri?”
Your stomach dropped at the mention of her name. “What about her?”
“So,” she started, drawing out the word, “Sara saw her the other night at The Z. And she wasn’t alone. She was looking way too cozy with that model guy. What’s his name? Mingyu or something. It’s kind of creepy that he and Mingi have similar sounding names.”
Mingi’s relationship with Ahri had always been a sore spot, a constant reminder that you had no place in his life. But hearing this made you feel something you couldn’t quite place—vindicated? Sad? Angry? Maybe all three.
“And get this—when Sara asked her about Mingi, she brushed it off. Like she wasn’t walking around a few weeks ago looking pretty banged up herself. I mean, can you believe it? While he’s in a coma?”
“Their relationship doesn’t concern me,” you replied, but your words felt hollow.
“Not your business?” Jiwoo scoffed. “It’s disgusting, Y/N. I know you and Mingi have a complicated relationship–I get it. but he doesn’t deserve that. No one does. She’s out here living her best life while he’s fighting for his.”
Her outrage echoed your own feelings, but instead of comfort, it only heightened the discomfort twisting in your chest. Each mention of Ahri reminded you that this moment, where you were pouring your heart into caring for him, staying by his side when no one else would, was nothing more than a spell cast by some higher being.
Once the spell was broken, you'd return to your separate lives despite being bound to one another.
“Anyway,” Jiwoo said, sensing your silence, “that’s just more reason to take the leap. Leave all this drama behind and protect your peace. Start over. You might actually find love too!”
You let out a dry laugh, though it wasn’t the least bit genuine. “Yeah, right. Love.”
The words tasted bitter on your tongue, and the thought of it, of someone loving you in the way you needed, in the way you’d always hoped felt almost impossible.
“I mean, if Czech men aren’t your thing, I know Park Seong—”
“My food’s here, bye!” you blurted out abruptly, cutting her off before she could finish her sentence.
You rested your head back against the couch and closed your eyes for a moment, shifting Maro against you, his small body fitting so easily into the curve of your side.
Who needs husbands when you have a dog? You couldn’t help but smile at the thought. Maro, with his unwavering loyalty and comforting little form, was all you needed right now. He didn’t ask anything of you—just your love and care in return. A love that came without expectations, without demands for answers or explanations.
With him, you could simply be.
Outside the towering penthouse, a figure lingered in the shadows, her frail frame swallowed by a dark jacket. Her fists were clenched tightly at her sides, knuckles stark white, and her shoulders trembled with each shallow, uneven breath. Then, without a sound, she slipped into the darkness, leaving no trace behind.
But the chill that lingered in the air suggested she wouldn’t be gone for long.
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ARE YOU READY TO FUCKING DIE, MIKE? IT’S REVENGE TIME BABY! HAHAHAHA I’VE BEEN WAITIN' FOR THIS ONE TURN IT UP!
Popular, Boy
☆11: The first truth.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, slow burn, angst, drama, love triangle.
wc: 7,5k
Summary: Apologies are given, but not in the way they should be. Old wounds linger, new alliances form, and the first steps towards something bigger are set in motion.
But as the tension rise, one thing becomes clear... this game is only just beginning.
Warnings: Cursing, power dynamics, manipulation, slight physical violence.
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☆10 ☆12: The first warning. Coming soon.
The staff stands in a rigid line in the grand hall of the Clarke mansion, their hands clasped in front of them, their gazes lowered but attentive.
The tension in the air is palpable, thick and unspoken. The echoes of last night’s violence still linger in the minds of every person standing there.
Dann’s mother shifts uncomfortably beside her daughter, her fingers tightening around the hem of her apron.
Dann, for once, isn’t fidgeting, isn’t sneaking glances at her phone or zoning out. She’s watching, truly watching, in a way she never has before.
Mike stands before them, dressed sharply as ever, exuding the effortless charm and authority that has always made people trust him despite the cruelty that lurks beneath.
His parents flank him—his father’s expression serious, his mother’s carefully curated into something that resembles concern.
“First of all,” Mike begins, his voice smooth, practiced, “I want to personally apologize for what you all witnessed days ago.” He pauses, his eyes scanning the crowd as if searching for sincerity within himself.
“My behavior was… unacceptable. I let my emotions get the best of me, and I regret that it happened in front of all of you.”
His mother nods approvingly beside him. His father remains impassive.
“It was a private family matter,” He continues, “And I assure you, YN and I have already spoken. She has forgiven me, and we are moving forward as a family.”
Dann’s stomach twists.
Liar. He hasn’t spoken to you. No one has.
“She understands, as I hope you all do, that moments of anger don’t define us,” Mike adds, his lips pressing into something that resembles a remorseful smile. “I’m not proud of how I acted, but I promise it will never happen again.”
There’s silence. Heavy. Expectant.
The staff doesn’t react, but they don’t need to—this isn’t about them believing Mike. This is about them accepting what they are being told to believe.
His father steps forward now, clearing his throat “We deeply appreciate all the work you do for this household. Your loyalty does not go unnoticed, and we want to express our gratitude for your discretion regarding the incident.”
A butler steps in, carrying a sleek tray, and within seconds, small black boxes are placed into the hands of each staff member.
Dann stares at the one in her mother’s hands.
It’s sickening. The Clarke family’s cycle of silence and bribery in its purest form.
Her mother hesitates, looking around nervously before murmuring, “Sir, this isn’t necessary…”
Your mother offers a practiced smile “Of course it is. You all work so hard, and we insist.”
Dann’s mother swallows, clutching the box tightly. Around them, the other staff members murmur quiet thanks, some with forced smiles, others merely nodding, understanding there is no choice in this.
Dann glances up at Mike, who catches her staring. He smirks just slightly, eyes gleaming with something dangerous, something knowing.
And for the first time, the weight of what she’s been a part of settles like a stone in her stomach. She lowers her gaze before anyone sees the regret forming there.
Because it’s too late for regrets now.
✮ ⋆
You’re quieter than usual, but it isn’t something peaceful. It’s the kind of silence that lingers after something terrible has happened, the kind that no one dares to break.
You sit on your soft bed, your body aching, the faint pressure of Mike’s hands still lingering on your throat. The dim lighting casts long shadows, and the scent of expensive perfume does little to soothe the heaviness in the air.
Your parents stand before you, poised as ever, their expressions carefully composed—concern etched into their faces just enough to seem believable, but not enough to be real.
Your father speaks first, his voice low and measured “Darling, what happened… was unfortunate.”
Unfortunate.
That’s the word they use when something inconvenient happens. When an investment fails, when a business deal doesn’t go through, when their son nearly strangles their daughter in front of an entire household.
Your mother sighs, sitting beside you, reaching out to grab your hand “You know how Mike gets. He has always struggled with controlling his emotions.”
Your lips curl bitterly “So that makes it okay?”
Your father narrows his eyes slightly, but his tone remains calm “No one is saying that. But you must understand, people like us don’t air our dirty laundry for the world to see. This is a family matter, and it must remain that way.”
You scoff, shifting in your bed despite the pain that flares up in your ribs “So you want me to pretend it didn’t happen? To protect him?”
“We are protecting you, sweetie.”
You let out a short, humorless laugh “Right. Because you care so much.”
Your mother sighs again, as if you are the one being difficult “Sweetheart, the world is cruel. You know that. Do you really want people gossiping about this? Do you want to ruin Mike’s future over a misunderstanding?”
Your fingers tighten around the fabric of the blankets “Misunderstanding?” Your voice is sharp, disbelief laced in every syllable. “He punched me. He choked me. In front of everyone. What exactly was misunderstood?”
Your father’s expression darkens, the mask of concern slipping just a fraction.
“Lower your voice.”
You bite your tongue, swallowing down the fury bubbling inside you. Your mother smooths your hair back, her tone soothing yet distant.
“Sweetie, we know you’re upset. But we also know that you’re strong. This family needs you to be composed, to move forward. And Mike… he regrets his actions.”
Your body goes rigid at the blatant lie. Mike never regrets anything.
Your father clears his throat, as if the conversation is now settled “We thought you might like this.”
A sleek black box is placed in your lap, the brand embossed in gold. Expensive. Extravagant.
Meaningless.
You don't even need to open it to know what it is.
Another gift.
Another bandage for wounds they refuse to acknowledge. you lift your gaze, meeting their expectant eyes. They wait for gratitude, for acceptance.
So you do. You smile, it’s slow, and void of warmth.
“Thank you,” You say, voice as smooth as silk, fingers brushing over the box as if you actually care.
They relax, satisfied. And in that moment, you make a silent vow.
You won’t forget. You won’t forgive.
And you sure as hell won’t let this go.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
During the week, Wooyoung hadn’t a real plan when he walked into the café, just the vague idea of seeing if the girl from the picture was really there.
The bell jingles softly as he steps inside, and he takes a casual glance around, pretending to look at the menu.
And then he sees them.
Little Hongjoong and that girl.
Hongjoong is sitting at one of the corner tables, wearing a simple work apron, speaking to the girl from the photo. She laughs at something he says before walking away to take another order.
Wooyoung narrows his eyes and strides over to Hongjoong’s table, plopping into the chair across from him.
“The fuck are you doing here?” Woo asks bluntly.
Hongjoong startled, then sighs when he realizes who it is “Woo? What are you—”
“No, no, don’t ‘Woo’ me,” He cuts him off, crossing his arms “Why are you here? And why the fuck is there a picture of you hugging that girl going around?”
Hongjoong rubs the back of his neck, looking exhausted “I work here, and what do you mean a picture of me is going around?”
Wooyoung blinks “...Excuse me?”
“I work here,” He repeats, voice quieter “I didn’t want anyone to know.”
Woo stares at him, then lets out a short, disbelieving laugh “Are you kidding me? You’ve been acting weird as hell, blowing YN off, and it turns out you’ve just been—what? Making lattes?”
Hongjoong exhales “My dad lost his job. I needed to help out. I didn’t tell YN because… I didn’t want her to think less of me.”
Wooyoung runs a hand down his face “Little Hongjoong…. Seriously?”
He avoids his gaze.
Shaking his head, Wooyoung pulls out his phone “Yeah, well, I’m telling her.”
Hongjoong’s eyes widens “Wooyoung, don’t—”
“Too late.” Wooyoung hits send a quick message to you, then smirks “She deserves to know the truth. And you need to stop being a dumbass.”
He groans, slumping in his seat “I hate you.”
Wooyoung just grins “You will love me after this, Joong.”
✮ ⋆
The soft glow of the screen illuminates your face as you lay in bed, your thumb hovering over the keyboard.
It has been a long, exhausting week—one filled with endless frustration, whispered conspiracies between Mindy and Wooyoung, and the dull ache of bruises that still hadn’t fully faded.
And then there, there is the message you were waiting for.
Brat Woo: Babydoll.
Brat Woo: False alarm, little Hongjoong is clean, and that slut works in that cafe, Hongjoong does too.
Bratty Woo: You should talk to him.
You have been fuming, pacing, and second-guessing yourself over and over.
But now, with Woo’s confirmation that the girl in the picture is nothing more than a coworker and that Hongjoong has been working in secret, your anger has simmered down to something else—something more dangerous.
Doubt.
Had you misjudged him? Had you let your paranoia and pain push you into believing the worst?
But then again, why had he kept all of this from you? Why hadn’t he shown up to your date? Why was he so distant after everything you had been through?
Taking a deep breath, you type Hongjoong a quick message.
YN♡: We need to talk.
The message is sent instantly, and you don't have to wait long for Hongjoong to arrive at your home.
✮ ⋆
Hongjoong stands at the front gates of your house, his heart hammering in his chest. The towering mansion, which once felt like an unattainable dream, now looms over him with an unfamiliar, suffocating presence.
The moment the gates open, he strides inside, his breath heavy with anticipation.
A maid opens the door, offering him a polite smile "Welcome, Miss YN is waiting for you in her room."
He barely nods before hurrying past her, his pulse quickening with every step. It’s been a week—a week without seeing you, without hearing your voice.
A week of torment, uncertainty, and the gnawing ache of missing you.
When he reaches your door, he hesitates for just a second before knocking "YN… it’s me, Hongjoong."
A beat of silence. Then, a quiet but firm, “Come in.”
He pushes the door open, and there you are.
Sitting at the edge of the bed, arms crossed, your gaze unreadable. But his eyes immediately drop to the bruises—faint marks on your throat, a cut on your lower lip, a fading bruise on your cheek.
His stomach twists.
"What happened to you, pretty?"
His voice is sharp with concern as he steps forward, instinctively reaching for you, but you tilt your chin up defiantly, stopping him in his tracks.
"Explain yourself first," You say coolly, eyes locking onto his "Depending on your answers, I’ll decide if I even want to keep listening to you."
He clenches his jaw, hands curling into fists at his sides "YN—"
"No," You cut him off "You ignored me for weeks. You left me sitting alone at that restaurant like a fool. You ghosted me after we fucked. And then…" You pull out your phone, swipe through it, and hold up the screen in his face "Seonghwa sent me this."
Hongjoong frowns at the image—a picture of him and Jina at the café, her arms wrapped around him in what looks like an intimate moment. His brows furrow.
The fuck? Is this the picture Wooyoung mentioned?
"Wait—what? When was this taken?"
You scoff, lowering your phone "So you don’t even know."
"No, I don’t—”
“Seonghwa sent it to me the same day as our date. Funny, huh?” Your bitter laugh stings more than a slap "You ditched me for this slut? Really, Kim?"
Hongjoong exhales slowly, his mind racing to piece things together. And then it clicks.
That night. The last-minute call. The way time slipped through his fingers.
“Pretty, it’s not what you think.”
You arch a brow in mock amusement “No?”
“No,” He says firmly, stepping closer, his voice steady despite the storm inside him “Let me explain from the beginning.”
He sits beside you, carefully, as if afraid you’ll push him away.
“That night, when we… When we slept together, I went home and found out my dad lost his job. Without his income, my family will struggle. So I did what I had to do—I found a part-time job at a café. That’s why I kept telling you I was busy after school.”
You stare at him, your expression unreadable. Then, you scoff, shaking your head.
“What a fucking joke.” His stomach sinks “So, you’re telling me that stupid rumor was false?”
“Completely.”
"And why didn't you tell me?" You snap, hitting his arm "I could have helped, and tell my parents to give your father a job or something! None of this drama would have happened!"
Hongjoong lets you hit him, knowing he deserves it "I know, but I didn’t want to burden you. You already had enough going on with Mike."
“You’re an idiot, Hongjoong! I thought the worst!” Another smack lands on his arm, and he barely flinches.
"I didn’t show up to our date because Jina called me at the last minute. She said it was something urgent, and it wouldn’t take long. But when I finally checked the time, I realized you were already gone.” He swallows hard “I meant to explain. But I was a coward—I didn’t know how.”
You study him, your gaze softening just a fraction “And the picture?”
He exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair “I don’t know. But I swear, there’s nothing between me and Jina. She’s just my coworker.”
Silence stretches between you, thick and suffocating. Then, Hongjoong reaches for your hand hesitantly, voice softening.
"Pretty, please believe me. I never wanted this to happen."
You let out a slow exhale, your shoulders slumping "Fine. But I still have a lot of questions."
Hongjoong nods, relief washing over him. Then, his gaze darkens as he looks at your bruises again. He gently cups your cheek, his thumb ghosting over the cut on your lip.
"Now… tell me what happened to you."
You hesitate. Then, in a quiet voice, you tell him.
“Mike.”
He stiffens, his grip tightening ever so slightly “Mike? Why?”
You swallow, looking away "It’s not the first time. He’s always had a problem controlling his anger. Whenever we argued, or I did something he didn’t like, he used to slap me. But this time… it was different. Since he came back, he’s been making my life hell, and I don’t know why."
Hongjoong inhales sharply, his hands clenching into fists "Why didn’t you tell me?" His voice is tight, laced with something dark—rage, guilt, protectiveness.
"Because he scares me," You whisper. This is the first time you admit being scared of Mike.
You look… small, fragile.
Broken.
Hongjoong doesn’t think. He just moves. He pulls you into his arms, holding you close, pressing his chin to the top of your head.
“I’m so sorry, pretty,” He murmurs, his heart aching at the quiet, shuddering breaths against his chest.
You stay like that for a long moment, wrapped in silence, until you speak again.
"He’s been acting weird. Like, he knows things that are private among my friends.”
“What do you mean?”
You pull back slightly “I don't know why, but he suddenly knew about you and our relationship, also the night I went to the club, someone sent Mike a video of me smoking.”
Hongjoong frowns “Someone recorded you?”
You nod “But only my close friends were there. Wooyoung and Mindy would never do something like that. That leaves Seonghwa, San, Mingi, and Samantha.”
He exhales sharply “Seonghwa. It has to be him.”
“But we made a truce. We’ve been friends since we were kids.”
Hongjoong shakes his head “I don’t trust him, pretty.”
You hesitate, thinking “But even if he recorded it… how did Mike get it? They know each other because of our families, but they’re not close.”
Silence. Until one name suddenly clicks into place.
“…Dann.”
Hongjoong frowns “Why her?”
You straighten, your mind racing “Mindy told me that Seonghwa talked with her at the party, something that is really rare. Also Dann gave you the wrong address, and maybe—maybe she even started the rumor about us at school.”
The realization settles between you like a ticking bomb.
“We need to find out the truth.”
You nod, determination hardening your features “We do. Also, I can ask my dad If he has a job for your dad, I don't want you to work in that cafeteria with that bitch.”
Hongjoong chuckles “Fine, thank you, pretty.”
And with that, your heart feels more at ease knowing the truth, knowing that he is with you.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
It had been two weeks since the day Mike had left bruises on your skin, and the sick feeling of helplessness in your gut.
It’s been two weeks since you went to school, refusing to let everyone see you in that state.
As always, your parents refused to acknowledge the real issue.
You sit in your room, staring at the velvet box fanned out on your desk. It’s always the same cycle.
You would get hurt, and your parents would throw money at the problem, expecting you to accept it with gratitude.
Maybe you would have, once upon a time. But not anymore. Not after everything.
You aren’t going to let them buy your silence this time. If they think a luxurious car would make you forget that their golden son had left marks on your skin, they are dead wrong.
If anything, this is the perfect opportunity.
You’re going to take their gift, but instead of numbing yourself in paradise, you would use it to take the first step in exposing Mike for what he really is.
Bringing him down from his pedestal is’t going to be easy. Your parents are blind to his flaws, and the rest of the world worships him. But you have something they don’t.
You have the truth, and you have Hanhah.
Your fingers brush against your phone as you pull up a text conversation. It 's one of many. Over these four years, you had kept in touch with Hannah, sending her money every month to help with the baby.
A baby that Mike had abandoned, a baby who would be turning four soon.
You scroll through the latest messages, lingering on a photo Hannah had sent a few days ago. A little girl with big, round eyes and wisps of dark hair smiled up at the camera, completely oblivious to the world she had been born into.
The sight of her made your chest tighten.
You can feel it in your bones—this is the way to finally shatter Mike’s perfect image. Your parents can’t ignore this. They wouldn’t be able to excuse him once they knew the truth.
But you need to be smart. If you are going to do this, you can’t do it alone.
That’s where Hongjoong, Mindy, and Wooyoung came in.
You grab your phone and fire off a quick message to the group chat you have with them.
YN♡: Meet me at the cafe tonight. No excuses.
You know they would come. They always do. And once they are here, you would tell them everything.
And about Seonghwa and Dann—because you have a feeling that whatever is going on with Mike, those two aren’t far behind.
By the time it is over, you would make sure Mike’s untouchable image is nothing but dust.
✮ ⋆
“You want to tell your parents about Hannah?” Mindy finally says, her brows furrowed “Are you sure about this, babe?”
“I have to,” You respond, voice steady “I can’t let him keep getting away with everything.”
Wooyoung lets out a low whistle “And how exactly are you planning to do that? I mean, your parents are obsessed with Mike. Even if you show them proof, they might cover it up.”
You exhale sharply, already expecting this “That’s why I need more than just the truth—I need to make it so public they can’t ignore it.”
Mindy tilts her head “When are you planning to tell them?”
“If Seonghwa and Dann are involved in this, I need to deal with them first… Then with Mike.”
“You really think they’re working with Mike?” Wooyoung asks.
“It makes too much sense. Mike knew things he had no way of knowing. The video of me smoking, the rumors about Joong, the fake address Dann gave him… someone was feeding him information.”
Mindy taps a manicured finger against her knee “So what’s the plan?”
You lean forward “First, I’ll talk to Hannah. Maybe ask her for a DNA test or something that will make my parents believe me.” You meet Hongjoong’s gaze “You will come with me.”
“Me? I don't even know who she is.”
“You don't need to know her, I just need some support.”
He hesitates for a moment before nodding “Okay.”
You then turn to Wooyoung and Mindy “As for you two… I need you to say something false about me and Joong, make sure Seonghwa listens. Only like that can we know if Hwa and Dann are working with Mike.”
Woo grins, cracking his knuckles “You want dirt? I’ll get you dirt, babydoll.”
Mindy smirks “Oh, this is going to be fun.”
You lean back, exhaling. The plan is in motion. Now, all they have to do is execute it perfectly.
The night air is crisp as you step out of the café, your mind already racing with what needs to be done next. The plan is fragile—it has to be executed perfectly, or everything could backfire.
Hongjoong walks beside you, hands shoved into his jacket pockets, his gaze flickering toward you every few seconds.
“Are you sure you want me there?” He asks. “I mean… Hannah might not even want to see me.”
You inhale deeply, steadying yourself “She won’t care about you, Joong. She’ll care about what I have to say.”
He doesn’t argue, but you can tell he’s uneasy. Maybe it’s because he still doesn’t know everything.
“We’re meeting her tomorrow,” You continue. “She doesn’t know why yet, but she agreed.”
He nods, but you can feel the tension radiating off of him. He wants to ask more. Maybe about this woman, maybe about what you have in mind.
But you don’t give him the chance. Because right now, there’s something more pressing.
Wooyoung and Mindy walk a few steps ahead, already whispering between themselves, likely crafting the perfect lie to spread.
They need to bait Seonghwa. It has to be something good—something that hurts.
“So what should we say?” Mindy asks, glancing back at you. “Something mild or something explosive?”
“Explosive,” You say without hesitation. “Something that makes me look weak. Hwa will eat it up.”
Wooyoung grins “How about we say that you and little Hongjoong broke up?”
Hongjoong tenses beside you. You glance at him but don’t react “Not enough… We need something that will make Hwa really want Mike to know.”
Mindy taps her chin, pretending to think. “How about this—Hongjoong is using you to get popularity and status, you know about it but you’re still with him, done.”
Hongjoong exhales sharply through his nose “That’s messed up.”
“That’s perfect,” You correct.
Mindy shrugs “If we’re going to do this, we might as well make it believable.”
“Just make sure Seonghwa hears it, and if you can, make sure to see if he interacts with Dann.” You remind them. “If it gets back to Mike too quickly, he and Dann will be suspicious.”
Wooyoung throws an arm around Mindy’s shoulders “Oh, don’t worry, babydoll. By the time we’re done, Seonghwa will be begging Dann to tell Mike.”
The four of you reach the parking lot, where your cars are waiting. For a moment, you let the night sink in, let the weight of what you’re about to do settle on your shoulders.
This is it.
The first move.
Tomorrow, you will see Hannah.
Tomorrow, everything will change.
✮ ⋆ ˚。𖦹 ⋆。°✩
The drive to Hannah’s apartment is quiet.
Hongjoong grips the steering wheel, eyes flickering toward you every so often, but he doesn’t speak.
You know he has questions—a lot of them—but you aren’t ready to answer.
Not yet.
The known streets fade the further you go, the streets narrowing, the polished luxury of your world giving way to something simpler, something real.
The buildings are smaller, older, stacked closely together. There’s no security at the entrance, no valet, no extravagance. Just a plain apartment complex with rusted railings and dimly lit hallways.
Hongjoong pulls into a spot and cuts the engine. He exhales, rubbing a hand over your thigh.
“Are you sure about this?”
You don’t hesitate “Yes.”
He studies you for a moment, like he’s trying to see past the walls you’ve built. Then, with a slow nod, he pushes open his door.
Holding hands, you two walk towards the little building. The stairs creak beneath your heels as you ascend to the third floor. Apartment 3B.
You don’t knock right away. Your fingers hover over the door for a second too long.
He notices “Pretty?”
Before you can second-guess yourself, you knock. A few moments later, the door swings open.
Hannah stands there, barefoot, dressed in simple lounge clothes. No makeup, no carefully styled hair, just Hana.
She blinks in surprise when she sees Hongjoong beside you, but her expression quickly hardens.
“You brought company,” She says flatly.
You exhale “Can we come in?”
Hannah hesitates. Then, without a word, she steps aside.
The apartment is small but warm. Lived in. A couch with a few toys scattered around, a tiny dining table with an open laptop, the faint scent of baby powder and vanilla lingering in the air.
And then—
“Auntie!”
A small blur of motion comes rushing toward you. Tiny arms wrap around your legs, a little giggle filling the space.
Hongjoong freezes beside you.
You crouch down, smoothing a hand over the little girl’s soft, dark curls “Hi, baby.”
She beams at you, big round eyes shining with pure joy “Did you bring me a present?”
Your chest tightens “I’ll bring one next time, I promise.”
She giggles again, then turns her attention to Hongjoong, tilting her head curiously.
“Who’s that?”
Joong is pale, not believing what he is seeing.
You stand, brushing imaginary dust from your clothes “This is my friend, Hongjoong.”
The little girl stares at him for a moment, “Do you like cookies?”
He blinks “Uh… yeah?”
The little girl grins “Then you can stay.”
And with that, she toddles off toward the couch, already forgetting about him.
Hanhah watches the whole exchange with guarded eyes “You didn’t tell him, did you?” She finally says.
Hongjoong shifts beside you, eyes darting between the two of you “Tell me what?”
You inhale sharply, turning to face him fully. “Joong… this is Hanhah’s daughter.”
His brows furrow “Okay…?”
You swallow, your voice steady but heavy “She’s Mike’s daughter.”
The words drop like a bomb in the small apartment.
Hongjoong’s entire body goes stiff. His eyes widen, darting back to the little girl, who is now occupied with a stuffed bear on the couch. Slowly, like he’s trying to piece together a puzzle that shouldn’t exist, he turns back to you.
“YN,” He says carefully, voice lower now, “What the hell are you talking about?”
You clench your jaw “Exactly what I said.”
Hannah crosses her arms, looking at him like she’s daring him to say something stupid.
“You didn’t think Mike was actually perfect, did you?”
Hongjoong swallows hard, his Adam’s apple bobbing “He—he has a kid?”
“With me,” Hanhah confirms. “And he threatened to ruin my life if I ever told anyone.”
He shakes his head, running a hand through his hair “Jesus Christ, pretty.”
You shift closer to him, lowering your voice “Now do you see why I need to do this?”
Joong exhales sharply, glancing at the little girl again. His expression shifts, something unreadable flickering across his face. And then, he nods.
“I’m in,” He says. “Whatever you need, I’m in.”
For the first time that night, you breathe a little easier.
Because this is just the beginning.
✮ ⋆
The air feels heavy with unspoken words as you and Hongjoong sit at the small, worn-out table across from Hannah.
The little girl, still distracted by her stuffed bear, giggles every now and then, blissfully unaware of the storm brewing in the room.
Hongjoong, still processing, doesn’t look at you, but he holds your hand in his. His eyes are fixed on the little girl, his mind likely racing with questions.
"You’re telling me Mike doesn’t know she’s alive?" He asks, his voice barely above a whisper, the disbelief in it palpable.
Hannah’s gaze darkens "No. He thinks I had an abortion. That’s what he told me to do. He threatened me, said if I didn’t… he’d ruin my life. He was so sure of it. He made me believe it was the only option." Her voice cracks slightly, but she steadies herself.
“But I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t end her life just because Mike didn’t want the world to know about her."
The words land like a punch, and Hongjoong recoils slightly, the reality of the situation sinking in.
"That’s why you’ve been—" He gestures vaguely toward her daughter, still oblivious to the weight of their conversation. "You’ve been keeping her a secret all these years?"
She nods, her face hardening as she looks down at her daughter "I’ve had to. For her safety. For my sanity. I couldn't risk Mike finding out she was alive. Not after everything he said." She pauses, her fingers brushing over the baby’s small hand. “I’ve kept in contact with YN, because… because someone had to know the truth.”
You feel a pang of guilt in your chest, the weight of what you’ve been hiding from everyone—the truth that no one, especially Mike, could ever learn.
You’ve helped her for years, sending money for the baby, but the lies have built walls between you and your family.
It was always supposed to stay secret. But now, you need to bring it all into the light. And you need to do it carefully.
You turn to Hongjoong, your voice low “Mike doesn’t know she’s alive. And he can’t. He will never find out, not from me. And I’ve never let anyone get close to her… until now.”
His eyes flicker with understanding, the pieces finally coming together "So... we’re not just exposing Mike’s secrets, we’re exposing his lies too."
You nod, the weight of the plan growing heavier “Exactly.”
Hannah sits in silence for a moment, as if weighing something in her mind.
“I know this is going to be dangerous for all of us. I’ve lived in fear of Mike finding out. But I can’t hide anymore. This girl deserves to know the truth.”
You exhale, your heart racing “I won’t let him keep his image. Not anymore.”
“Okay,” Hongjoong says finally, his voice steady. “But you know this is going to take more than just telling your parents, right? We need evidence. Something undeniable.”
You nod again “That’s why we need a DNA test. Hannah, you’re going to have to agree to it. It’s the only way we can prove it. If we can show them she is his, there’s no way they’ll be able to cover it up.”
She hesitates, you see the fear flash across her face “If I do this... will it be enough? Will your parents believe it?”
“I hope so,” You say firmly. “And once they know—once we have that proof—they’ll have no choice but to acknowledge him for who he really is. No more pretending.”
Hongjoong watches you for a beat, his eyes softening just slightly “We’ll do this together. But we have to be careful. One wrong move and it’s over.”
Hannah stands up, wiping her palms on her pants, clearly anxious but resolved.
“Okay. I’ll do it. For her. For her future.”
The little girl looks up at the three of you, her big, innocent eyes wide.
“Are we gonna tell Daddy soon?”
Your breath catches in your throat. The innocence in her voice makes everything feel so much heavier.
“We’ll tell him when the time is right,” You say, forcing a smile. “When he’s ready to hear it.”
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While you and Hongjoon talk with Hannah, Mindy and Wooyoung sit casually in the school cafeteria, their voices just loud enough to be overheard.
Woo, always the playful one, dramatically leans in closer to Mindy, whispering just loud enough for nearby ears to catch pieces of their conversation.
“You heard about Hongjoong, right?” Wooyoung says, shaking his head with exaggerated concern. “Babydoll’s been buying him stuff. Like, a lot of stuff.”
Mindy gasps, playing along “No way. So the rumors are true? He’s just using her?”
Woo sighs, rubbing his temples “I don’t want to believe it, but even YN’s starting to realize it. She told me she’s thinking about ending things. She’s just waiting for the right moment.”
Seonghwa, sitting at a nearby table with other students, doesn’t react outwardly, but Mindy catches the way his fingers still over his phone.
She knows he’s listening. Mindy lowers her voice just a bit, making it seem like she doesn’t want to be overheard.
“That’s not all. Hongjoong’s been acting super secretive. I heard he’s meeting up with someone outside of school. A girl.”
Wooyoung raises an eyebrow “A girl? Who?”
Mindy shrugs, keeping it vague “I don’t know yet, but I’m sure it’s not YN.”
A beat of silence. Then Seonghwa stands, casually stretching before walking off—phone in hand.
Mindy and Wooyoung exchange a look. Hook, line, and sinker.
If Seonghwa really is working with Dann, it won’t be long before this ‘information’ reaches Mike.
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Dann moves through the crowded hallway, her arms wrapped tightly around her books as she heads toward the library.
She’s been keeping her head down lately, avoiding unnecessary conversations—especially with Mike and Seonghwa.
After what happened to you, after seeing Mike’s violence firsthand, something in her feels wrong.
Maybe this has gone too far.
But Seonghwa doesn’t give her a choice.
“Dann.”
His voice cuts through the noise, smooth and controlled, but she knows him well enough to hear the edge beneath it. She stops mid-step, squeezing her eyes shut for a brief second before turning around.
Seonghwa leans casually against the lockers, arms crossed, looking her up and down with that usual amused smirk. But there’s something else in his expression—something sharp.
“We need to talk.”
Dann swallows “I have class.”
“It can wait.” He pushes off the lockers and steps closer, lowering his voice. “I heard something you’re gonna love.”
She forces herself to look bored “I doubt that.”
Hwa chuckles, shaking his head “You really should be more curious, Dann. You and I both know Mike would want to hear this.”
Her stomach twists “I don’t—”
“The nerd is using YN.”
Dann freezes. Seonghwa watches her carefully, letting the words settle in before continuing.
“Wooyoung and Mindy said it. Apparently, Hongjoong’s only with her for popularity. And get this—she knows it. She’s staying with him anyway.”
Dann shifts uncomfortably, gripping her books tighter “So what? That’s their problem, not ours.”
Hwa’s smirk fades slightly “Are you forgetting who you’re working with? Mike needs to know this.”
Dann glances around, her pulse quickening “Maybe… maybe we shouldn’t get involved in this one.”
His eyes narrow, and just like that, his amusement vanishes. He steps closer, his voice dropping to a whisper.
“What’s wrong with you lately?”
“Nothing,” She lies, shifting her weight.
“You’re acting differently.”
“I just think—” She hesitates, wetting her lips. “I think Mike has enough reasons to hate her already. He doesn’t need this one either.”
Seonghwa scoffs, shaking his head “Of course he does. What’s better than proving she’s pathetic? That she’s weak?” He tilts his head, watching her carefully. “Unless you don’t want to be useful to him anymore?”
Dann clenches her jaw. She feels cornered, the guilt pressing down on her chest.
YN doesn’t deserve this.
But Seonghwa is watching her like a predator, waiting for any sign of weakness. If she refuses, he’ll start asking questions—questions that might lead back to her hesitations, her guilt. If Mike finds out she’s doubting him…
She exhales shakily, looking down at her shoes “Fine,” she mutters. “I’ll tell him.”
His smirk returns instantly “Good girl.”
She doesn’t move right away. Every fiber of her being screams at her to walk away, to stop this before it goes any further.
But she doesn’t.
Instead, she pulls out her phone, her fingers trembling as she types a message to him.
Dann: We need to talk. It’s about YN and Hongjoong.
As she presses send, she feels sick.
She doesn’t notice the two figures watching from down the hall.
Wooyoung leans lazily against the lockers, arms crossed, his grin widening. “Babydoll was right.”
Mindy hums, inspecting her nails. “Honestly, I knew it since the day I saw her talking with Hwa at the party.”
Woo chuckles. “Well, he did what we needed him to do.”
Mindy smirks, flicking her gaze toward Dann “Now lets see if Dann tells Mike.”
Because once Mike hears this, things will really start falling apart.
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The evening air is cool against your skin as you push open the balcony doors of your bedroom, stepping outside with a quiet sigh.
The city lights stretch far into the distance, twinkling against the dark sky.
Everything feels too much—Hannah, the baby, the truth you’re about to reveal. It’s all starting to feel real.
But then, there’s him.
Hongjoong stands a few feet away, leaning against the railing, his gaze distant. He’s been quiet since you got home, like he’s still trying to piece everything together.
You step beside him, resting your arms on the railing "You’re thinking too much," You murmur.
He huffs out a small laugh, shaking his head "Can you blame me?"
You tilt your head, watching him "What’s on your mind?"
He exhales, running a hand through his hair. "Hannah, the baby, Mike. You." He glances at you then, something unreadable in his expression. "This is a lot, pretty. I just… I don’t want you to go through this alone."
You blink at him, caught off guard.
He’s serious.
"You really mean that?" You ask softly.
Hongjoong turns fully toward you, his brows drawing together. "Of course I do. I—" He hesitates, like the words are caught in his throat. Then, with a deep breath, he presses on. "I care about you, YN. More than you think."
Your heart does something strange—tightens, twists, then swells. You don’t know what to say. No one has ever said that to you, not like this.
Not like they meant it.
So, instead of words, you step closer, your hands reaching out on instinct.
He doesn’t move as you slip your arms around his waist, pressing your forehead against his shoulder.
He’s warm, steady, safe.
For a second, he’s frozen. Then, slowly, his arms come around you too, holding you just as tightly.
"You don’t have to do anything for me," You whisper. "Just… stay with me."
Hongjoong rests his chin on top of your head, his voice quiet but firm.
"I’m not going anywhere."
And for the first time in a long time, you believe it.
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Your room is dimly lit, the golden glow from your bedside lamp casting soft shadows on the walls.
The silence is peaceful, interrupted only by the faint sound of pages flipping as Hongjoong sits on your bed, pretending to read a book but really just stealing glances at you.
You’re laying next to him, your head resting in his lap while you scroll over your social media.
He is about to say something when a sharp knock.
No. Not a knock. A demand interrupts him.
You freeze, and Hongjoong’s muscles tense. Then the door swings open without waiting for permission.
Mike steps inside, composed as ever, but there’s something in his eyes—something sharp, something dangerous.
You meet his gaze, already standing from your comfortable position.
"What the hell are you—"
"You’re pathetic," He cuts you off smoothly "And predictable." His gaze flickers to Hongjoong, and he lets out a small, humorless chuckle "I should have known he’d be here."
"What do you want, Mike?"
"You really are desperate, aren’t you?" His voice is low, full of quiet venom "So desperate for someone to want you that you’re letting this nerd use you. And what’s worse?" He tilts his head, lips curving into something cruel "You fucking know it."
You smile when you hear that. It was them.
"And where did you get that brilliant theory? Park Seonghwa?" A pause "Or Dann?"
Something flickers in Mike’s eyes. Park Seonghwa? What does Seonghwa have to do with this?
You scoff "Of course. You must be proud—controlling people like puppets, just like you always do."
Mike steps closer "And you’re any different?" His voice lowers "You lie to yourself every day, pretending you’re not just as pathetic as the rest of them. But deep down, you know the truth."
"You want to talk about truth?" Your heart pounds as you take a step forward, voice daring, reckless "What about Hannah then?"
The moment the name Hannah leaves your lips, the air in the room shifts. Mike stiffens, his entire body going rigid. The usual arrogance in his expression wavers—just for a second, but it’s there.
A crack. A weakness.
You see it, Hongjoong sees it.
And then, Mike moves.
The slap comes fast, too fast.
The sound of it rings through the room, a sickening crack as his palm connects with your cheek, whipping your head to the side.
The sting is instant, burning hot, your skin already throbbing. You gasp, stumbling back, your vision blurring for a split second.
But before you can process the pain—before you can even react—Hongjoong is already moving.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" The anger in his voice is like nothing you’ve ever heard before.
Hongjoong shoves Mike back, his entire body coiled with fury. The sharp contrast between his usual calm demeanor and the pure rage in his eyes is enough to make even Mike falter.
"You don’t get to do that," Hongjoong seethes, standing between you and your brother, fists clenched so tightly his knuckles are white. "Not to her. Not to anyone."
Mike’s lips curl, his composure snapping back into place, but there’s an unmistakable flicker of irritation—maybe even surprise—at Hongjoong’s audacity.
"And what exactly do you think you’re doing?" Mike taunts, brushing off the shove like it was nothing. "You think you can protect her?" He scoffs. "You think she needs you?"
Hongjoong doesn’t flinch "She doesn’t need me," He admits, voice steady. "But I’m still here. And I won’t fucking stand by while you hurt her."
There’s something raw, undeniable in his words. You blink, still dazed from the slap, your hand hovering near your stinging cheek. Hongjoong turns slightly, eyes softening when they land on you.
"Are you okay, pretty?" His voice is lower now, gentle.
Something inside you twists.
Mike clicks his tongue in disgust "Pathetic," He mutters.
Hongjoong’s jaw clenches "Get the fuck out."
For the first time, Mike hesitates.
Hongjoong’s not just some quiet, desperate nerd anymore. He’s furious. Unshakable. And for once, Mike doesn’t have complete control over the situation.
"You’re making a mistake, nerd." Mike finally says, his voice cold, but there’s something else there too—annoyance, maybe even unease.
"Get. Out," Hongjoong repeats, this time his voice lower, quieter—but somehow deadlier.
Mike holds his gaze for a long moment before scoffing and turning toward the door. But before he leaves, he glances at you one last time.
"You think you’re playing some clever game, but you have no idea what you’re doing," He murmurs. "You’ll regret this, YN."
With that, he walks out, slamming the door behind him. The room is suffocatingly silent in the aftermath.
Hongjoong exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair as he turns back to you. His fingers twitch, like he wants to reach for you but isn’t sure if he should.
"Pretty—"
"I’m fine," You cut him off, voice tight.
But you’re not fine.
You’re shaking. Your cheek burns. Your heart is racing. And then, without thinking, you step forward and wrap your arms around Hongjoong.
He melts immediately into the embrace, his arms coming around you protectively.
"I’ve got you," He murmurs into your hair. "I’m right here."
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I love this so much! Another thought I had is him secretly buying takeout and pretending he cooked it just to impress reader
hey, I saw your event and I’m curious about yours thoughts on prompt one: "when he is in your kitchen cooking something for you" for jongseob
cause even though in their most recent video where they cooked food for chuseok jongseob can’t cook and he knows this, but he was so proud of what he made.
I feel like he would still try to make something edible for his s/o.
HIII!! omgg i remember you from the piwon ask w seob. I SAW THAT VIDEO TOO, AND I LAUGHED SO HARD DJASJDAN.
"ofc i know how to cook it, i did it a million times!" cit jongseob. probably lying, like maybe it's something he saw on a youtube video and he tried it once in his life</3. but he would lie just to be able to cook something for you!!! using your kitchen. partially because it brings him a sense of family, and partially because he genuinely has no tools in his apartment... and i feel he would choose something simple to cook but still would follow a video (but he would never admit it) or would call the other members for advice. i also picture him coming to you more than one time showing you his progress, ALL of his progress. like: "i'm about to turn on the oven" or "here i put some salt now, does not it look delicious huh?" while u just stare at him nodding and just grateful to see how happy he looks while cooking for you. and while he waits for the food to cook in the oven, he starts to distract himself with humming some of his favorite rap songs. and he would only be able to stop after smelling the faint smell of burning invading the kitchen! "it's a little overcooked, but otherwise I'm sure it would have come out delicious." he would tell you proudly after putting something barely edible on your plate (ʃᵕ̩̩ ᵕ̩̩)
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