My Faaaaaaavorite Thing That Garak Calls Julian In The Lovely Meadow Of Fics For Them Is "Impertinent

Do not doubt my power

[thank you @greggslife for knowing me, knowing I would know this, and for also recognising it]

I love the Star Trek fandom because everyone has their own little niche. like I love J7 and tos, but i love coming onto someone else's blog and seeing its only ent and ds9. or they only post about miles O'Brien. Or are diehard supporters of tas and also specifically majel barret characters. it feels like going to buffet seeing everyone all sit down together with their random assortment of favorite foods

Thinking about "Inquisition", and how this:

[Image description: Text from a script that reads 'With that, Sisko turns and walks out. Bashir stares after him with a leaden feeling his stomach. After a beat, he turns and hammers a fist into the cell wall.]

turns into this:

[Image description: A gif of a clip from the show. It shows a containment cell on Deep Space Nine, the force field activated. Julian Bashir stands despondently in the cell, leaning against the back wall. He slides down the wall to sit on the ground and brings his hands to his head.]

and what that says about Bashir's response to the situation and his mindset and feeling of anger (or lack thereof) and how Alexander Siddig (and/or the episode's director) interpreted that.

I might try and put some of those thoughts into words later, but at this moment my brain is not cooperating.

🥺

Garashir be like: what if I forgave you for all your crimes that arent mine to forgive, my crimes arent even my own anyway?

What if you didn't think the crime of my existence abominable?

What if we were Angels cast down by our fathers, sheltered by foreign gods, defending lands we could never call home?

What if i didn't know how to be good? What if i didn't even know how to be myself?

What if i thought myself fundamentally unloveable? What if I loved you anyway?

What if it didn't matter? What if you were my only constant? What if I couldn't have you so i rebuilt my world in your image?

What if my arms remember the shape of you when all i am is rotted away?

And here we see baby Julian definitely not checking out the weirdly forward alien Miles just brought past the infirmary:

Look at him! The way he does a little double take. The look of wonder in his eyes. The surrepititious down-up glance as Tosk walks away :3

i really do want to see what the alpha quadrant yelp reviews for quark's bar are like. do they fuck with him. does he get 100% negative reviews from bajorans for working for cardassians

Sorry I acted romantic and delusional again, you can kill me if you want

I didn’t know I couldn’t reblog posts with a video lol so i have to do the context again, but heres a video of my dog Pearl who passed 3 days ago. She loved to watch ds9 with me and got SO stressed when she thought I didn’t realise it was on? Here she is Pleading to be allowed on my lap, because the possibility of missing out on quark made her experience levels of anxiety that could only be recreated in a lab

Oh. Okay. At one point the studio literally forbade Siddig and Andy from talking about Garak and Bashir gay stuff. Wow.

(from an old and dated and uhhhhh pretty insulting and homophobic 1998 article about fanfic - https://www.metroactive.com/papers/metro/05.07.98/tv-9818.html)

Like duh, it was the 90s, it seems obvious this must have happened and I heard the rumour, and I know this article must be infamous, but damn - seeing that confirmed? Wow.

Lol at Sid and Andy winning all the time. And thank you to Sid and Andy for persisting anyways. ❤️

GARASHIR in LOWER DECKS 5.09 “Fissure Quest”