Me: *becomes An Alcoholic But In A Cute And Sexy Way*

I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P

I will never send a picture of myself on this blog ever but believe me when I assure you that I look unambiguously female in every way outside of the dumb thing between my legs, and that was kind of the case even before I started hrt. This kink has so many layers to me and one of the big ones is like… i haven’t really been male since before I started puberty??

I really am kind of done with this kink at this point. I’m still getting off to it I just think any genuine desire to be male is kind of gone at this point. All it took was me looking at some nude pics from before I shaved my head and really taking in like… yeah, that’s transition goals. I achieved it. I’d be an idiot to give that up.

So I am definitely going through with bottom surgery :)

It’s in 12 months!!!

My detrans note game is only at 22 notes and I already screwed myself over so much... for every two I'm not going to shave for a day. That's already 11 days of not shaving in addition to the 3 or 4 that I haven't done just up to this point. I started hrt really young so I don't get that much facial hair but I have distinctly noticed when going off hrt for a couple weeks at a time that I get new hair on my cheeks. At this rate I'm going to have a full beard. 😵‍💫

I've decided that March 30 counts as Day 1 of the start of the not shaving and not taking hrt goals.

I should be honest I’m starting to question how realistic it is for me to follow through on my detrans notes game, at least at the moment. I’m getting some doubts about all this. Knowing how this has gone for me in the past those doubts will probably go away again at some point but I definitely am not willing to change my pronouns to he/him on my public socials at the moment so that probably says something about how I feel about this. Regarding the no shaving one… I would feel bad not following through on that when so many people wanted me to. I will either keep not shaving until it becomes impractical and I need to shave, or I will escape my delusions of femininity and actually never shave again idk, we’ll see.

just took a break from sleeping for 16 hours to listen to kawaii future bass while doing your mom <3

your mother is such a bimbo that I asked for her number and she gave me her SSN, she’s a good role model for you <3

I love committing tax evasion!!! I have swiss bank accounts in over 7 states. I’m on Idaho’s most wanted list, they want me, but those hoes can’t farm my potatoes with a ten foot pole. <3

I’m so proud of you <3

I married your mom, do you know what that means? I’m your parent now. I know you thought we had something special, but that’s just going to bring a WACKY dynamic to thanksgiving. <3

I bought your mum a bowkay of roses and she cut her finger on the pedals, i licked up the blood and that’s how we got VAMPIRE DISEASE. Now we stay up all night monster mashing and sleep sunup to sundown. <3

I know I’m a few months younger than you but I am your parent and as the proprietor of a number of swiss bank accounts you are going to have to back off, ur mum is mine now and if you wanna slice of the pie you’re going to have to try again in your next life <3

Went to a New York Knickerbockers game at Madison Square Garden and that’s how I met your mother (she was the basketball) <3

Sorry you weren’t invited to the wedding, we only wanted to invite people making 7 figures or more and you didn’t make the cut. How many swiss bank accounts do you have again? 1? At most. Leave this to your elders sweaty <3

the slow march of time will consume (most of) us all. The year is now 2222. Humanity has been replaced with a complex system of pulleys and levers being operated by a single elderly man with a glass eye named Xebulorp. Of course your mom and I still have VAMPIRE DISEASE so we’re still kickin’ <3

Happy Mother’s Day!

Went through a whole arc about my facial hair today but in the end it is now gone :)

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

Slowly coming to understand that I'm a man after all. I wanted to be a girl when I was so young, so I became one, but something shifted in my head at some point. Something changed in me. Maybe it was my porn addiction worsening, realizing that I really only like girls and want to cum inside them, that made me start thinking like a guy. That sexual frustration has driven me. Over the past couple years I've become more and more male, and my detrans kink has become more and more of a detrans reality. It's still very sexually fueled. I want to become a man so I can cum deep inside hot cis women. I change more and more every week, and my dms are open for anyone that wants to encourage me.

Whats the most stalkery shit you secretly got off on during your time as a content creator

Well it was other people stalking me, and people were definitely very creepy towards me, even recently someone from back then found my insta and slid in my dms and tried to dom me. I told him I don’t really like guys but he insisted. There was a LOT of that in 2022.