Lion Dancers Practicing Out Of Costume

For years I would look at posts and questionnaires about neurodivergence that takes about being so focused on something that you forgot to eat and be like, "Couldn't be me. Being hungry is so uncomfortable! Your stomach is growling and cramping? How do you ignore that?"

Then someone informed me that neurotypical people have a whole bunch of "hungry" sensations before they get to that point.....

Sometimes I think about my FNAF art from 2015, and how my mum literally printed and taped it to the house's front door. They were so bad, but I was stupidly fond of wishing my old awful fnaf oc goodbye at the door every time I left

and for the love of Gd please reblog, I did not tag this with queer tags because it would be selectively biased

accommodations

knowing something to be true and feeling like something is true should logically be things that always go hand in hand together, but frustratingly enough feelings aren’t things ruled by logic and so this doesn’t always happen. one of these things that I can’t achieve any kind balance between is me knowing that I deserve accommodations and me feeling like I absolutely do not deserve them.

it’s just that when you have been taught your entire life that if you have the ability to do something on your own, you do not deserve any help making it easier to achieve, it becomes very hard to let go of that lesson even when you know it wasn’t factual. it’s too deeply hammered into you that only the helpless deserve help, so if you can do anything without help you’re obviously not helpless and obviously don’t ever deserve help.

but I now know this to be wrong

and as for what I know to be true is that there is no point in suffering.

there is no merit to taking a perilous road to reach a place you could have reached with another path that won’t force you to pay the toll with anguish.

exhausting yourself to the point of not even being able to appreciate the view of the mountain you climbed is pointless. 

pain is not a virtue. 

not only the mythical helpless but everybody deserves and needs help sometimes. you needing help more than the majority needs it isn’t a moral failing. 

always giving everything 101% of your best is not the rent you pay for being alive. 

living is hard enough without disabilities and illnesses, you shouldn’t make it harder on yourself by not grabbing onto infrequent given opportunities (and unjustly infrequent might I add!) to level the playing field.

I feel wholeheartedly that you deserve accommodations for your disabilities and illnesses be they mental or physical or what have you. I'm looking forward to day I feel wholeheartedly that I deserve them to.

but for now knowing is enough.

Blocking someone annoying isn’t easy for a soft boiled egg man like me but it’s still doable. Unfollowing someone amusing who reblogs 1 insufferable post every 2 weeks tho? Way too fucking difficult. So I’ve developed a strategy that’s so stupid it actually works: Roleplaying as a yugioh antagonist.

You were being mean with neither whimsy or compassion on my dash? I whisper “Blue eyes white dra/go/ fuck yourself” [unfollowed]

Bad hot take? “Get banished to the shadow realm!” [blocked]

Fanart for Malevolent, which currently is my favourite audio drama ever <333 The brain worms it gave me are insane, how can a podcast be so good ! ! !

You do not have the right to touch someone's disability aid without asking, whether that aid be a wheelchair or an AAC device.

"It's just a tablet, though." No, it is not. It is my voice. Touching or moving my device without my permission is like touching my mouth without permission, it's weird, gross, invasive, and rude. Stop.

Pushing someone's wheelchair without permission is like picking them up and moving them out of the way eithout permission, its weird, invasive, gross, and weird. Stop.