I Wish I Could Be A Cloud, Floating Freely In The Sky, Painting Beauty On Mountains, Crying When My Heart's

Happy to announce that since I am not longer running on fight or flight I can do fun things with magic which no longer just include small morning and night routines! For on the agenda is revenge.🌷🫂🪄🦋🩵🎉🩷🫶🤌✨💫🪐🔥☀️🌦️

“Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.”

— Coco Chanel

“(…) for many a long day loneliness will sit over our roofs with brooding wings.”

— Bram Stoker, from Dracula

“I found the darkness comforting.”

— Louise Glück, from Faithful And Virtuous Night in “Faithful And Virtuous Night”

“The thing you are most afraid to write. Write that.”

— Nayyirah Waheed

“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.” - Jodi Picoult, My Sister’s Keeper

“I would paint a portrait which would bring the tears, had I canvass for it, and the scene should be - solitude, and the figures - solitude - and the lights and shades, each a solitude. I could fill a chamber with landscapes so lone, men should pause and weep there; then haste grateful home, for a loved one left.”

— Emily Dickinson, from To Susan Gilbert, 27 November-3 December 1854 in “Letters Of Emily Dickinson”

Feeling a little lost at the moment. I haven't been able to communicate for the longest time. I am very used to being by myself and not letting anyone in. But lately, I feel too lonely, like life is too monotonous without the hustle and bustle of people around. I want to connect with people, especially be able to talk to my existing friends itself. I know they won't be able to understand how I feel or relate to my problems and so I have kept it all to myself. In this way, I have become boring with absolutely nothing to say. I wonder how I should break out of this dullness in my life. Any tips on how to start?