Talking More On The Theme Of Delusion, Matakara Relies On It As An Escape From His Sensitive Emotional

Arajin observation notes so far:

- good reflexes? (dodging the trip in ep1)

- strong enough to hold up Matakara??

- is the punches to Matakara's kicks :3c

Kid was definitely serious about becoming strong back then 😂

fellas is it gay to only be known by the name that was given to you by your best homie buddy partner who "meant absolutely everything" to you or

two sides of the same stone: in defense of arajin as an mc & his parallels with matakara in bucchigiri?!

honestly, everytime i see someone say "matakara should've been the mc" in response to them not liking bucchigiri i kind of laugh because like. i really don't think it would've changed your mind. if matakara was actually the mc, people would've gotten mad that he still wants to reconnect with arajin because of the way arajin distances himself from him, or that he gets corrupted, or that zabu is the one who should've stepped in.

i think when people say that bucchigiri sucks because matakara forgave arajin, they fail to understand that arajin was matakara's first friend other than his brother. komao and zabu, while matakara's friends are not as close to him as arajin was (i.e. how they get matakara's favourite gyoza lunch from the convenience store, but arajin teaches matakara how to make gyoza.)

people dismiss arajin because he's an unlikeable, cowardly protagonist, but he and matakara are two sides of the same coin: matakara wants to become strong because he believes he is weak. everyone's left him. he wants to become strong, so he doesn't have to rely on anyone, because he doesn't want to burden them. he pushes the people who care about him away. the biggest hater arajin has IS himself. arajin runs away from his problems because he believes he is weak, so he doesn't try. he thinks he doesn't deserve (in this case) matakara's forgiveness, so he pushes him away because he doesn't believe in himself. he doesn he also doesn't reach out to the people who care about him, and pushes them away. both are flawed people who idealize and project onto others in order to cope: matakara with arajin, as a reminder of his past, and arajin with mahoro, as what an "ideal" and "normal" relationship should be like. and when the illusion is broken, they double down. and, in order to help matakara, arajin has to forgive himself in order to help others. does bucchigiri have flaws when it comes to writing? yes, absolutely. i think there are issues when it comes to pacing, i think certain characters could've been tied into the plot better thematically, and i think scenes could've been added to push the relationships and themes more. however, i want to stress: when you dismiss arajin as a character, you also dismiss matakara as a character as well, and the parallels between them. you ignore what makes their relationship, and in turn, their characters, by extension- the show- so interesting.

Buddy needs a break ;;m;;

da demons won 💥

Alright I'm throwing my own view on Arajin as a character since I've seen people shade him and dislike him. The annoying thing about him is that (as Senya said lol) he thinks with his other head too much. Clearly he has no luck with women and only with men, which isn't something he's overjoyed about. For that idk, I think its kind of cute that he wants to love someone, but at the same time its sad that he's just being used lol. But I'm not a fan of the pervert horny trope.

But I mostly want to focus on his whole "I don't want to fight" thing. Yes, he's a coward, there's nothing bad about that imo, but I think they're setting up character development for Arajin in regards of that, since it's a big thing holding him down. As kids, him and his best friend Matakara used to practice to become honki people, and it was really fun for them until the day when three older boys made fun of them. Matakara thought he could take them on, and Arajin was cowardly and probably knew 2 on 3 fight (with clear age differences) wasn't gonna end good. He tried backing off but Matakara went on and attacked anyways. Arajin ran off crying, and the picture of Matakara beat up on the ground stayed stuck in his head.

Nowadays, it's very clear that Arajin feels guilty. He feels guilty that he got Matakara to believe they were strong enough while practicing, to the point he took up 3 boys by himself. He feels guilty that he was too scared and cowardly to help Matakara, that he ran off and left him alone, even though Matakara looked up to him. Matakara said that Arajin is a really nice, strong guy who doesn't like to fight others, and he still believes that, he still looks up to him even 5 years later, he still thinks of him as a friend and holds his best friend stone closeby. He doesn't hold a grudge against Arajin. He isn't mad at him at all. It is Arajin whos still stuck in the past. This whole thing is something Arajin has to get over by himself.

Every time Arajin is around Matakara he remembers the past, so he tries to avoid him or brush him off, but Matakara still wants to be friends and doesnt seem to understand how guilty Arajin feels. ("Matakara didn't deserve to be treated this way", true, but I don't think Arajin thinks Matakara deserves it either... He definitely doesn't think Matakara is a bad guy or anything like that. He thinks him treating Matakara badly (avoiding him, not talking to him) would make Matakara give up on trying to be friends. Clearly, its too rough for Arajin to be near him. And the one sided feeling hurts Matakara in return.)

Matakara knows Arajin is avoiding him too and guessed why correctly; "Is it because of what happened?", "I'm stronger now", but Arajin is still holding that guilt. So for them to come to an understanding, both sides should WANT to talk it out. But its clear Arajin doesn't want to, at least not yet. His character arc isn't there yet, which makes everything a little frustrating since we are halfway through the anime and things are just now getting down.

I don't personally think Arajin is a mean person, he's a 16 year old guy who wants to get a gf and be romantic and all that, he doesn't wanna be in gangs or fight or anything. I think he's just insensitive towards Matakara because he has his own issues he doesn't want to deal with. Totally unfair to Matakara. But I want to believe Matakara when he said Arajin is a really nice guy. The dude looks completely smitten. It also kinda sucks that only time we saw Arajin interact with a friend was in a flashback. Nowadays, he has no friends. He avoids Matakara, doesn't really consider anyone else but Mahoro (lol) his friend, so all his relationships are currently one sided lol

new top tier yuri dynamic just dropped 👀

we're getting farther and farther apart

you're drifting farther and farther away i think of you all the time

no matter what i try

you're within reach,

but i can't grasp for you.

moon and stars