Churchofnightmares - 〢❀Havoc❀〢—➤ ♰☠️🔪♰

Abuse has a goal behind it, and a lot of the time, it's about changing the victims behavior. If someone screams at you for not doing X activity, eventually you learn to do X activity. If someone hits you when you defy them, eventually you learn not to defy them. If someone abuses you frequently enough, and you begin to break down to their will... It is possible to reach a point where it may seem like you're not being abused anymore.

They don't yell anymore because you stay quiet and do what you're told. They don't threaten you anymore because you don't voice even the slightest disagreement or need. What used to be screaming fighting arguments have become lectures at your expense. They may even praise you for doing what they want you to. And all those mundane moments - breakfast, the rare kind act - stand out more. Your perception of the relationship skews even more. It's all normal now.

And it's still abuse. It's just reached its end goal - wearing you down so badly that they don't need to overtly abuse you anymore to get what they want. All they need to do is make a joke, or complain to guilt you, or tell you want to do/not to do, etc. etc. The fact that's all it takes now doesn't make what's happening to you less severe - if anything, it means you're in much, much more danger than you could realize.

It's abuse. It's horrific. It's just not obvious anymore... and that's terrifying. You deserve so, so much better. You deserve to truly be safe - not to have your wellbeing held behind fearful compliance. That's not safety. That's not love. That's abuse. It being psychological doesn't make it less dangerous.

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"This ___ is anti-Trump"

We hate him with all our being. Sorry for the sudden political jumpscare. But being an American is scary rn.

I love hearing about the vibes I give off cause I honestly have no idea

IM LAYGHING SO HARD I POSTED SOMETHING AND IT SAID YOU LIKED IT BEFORE IT EVEN SAID ITS UPLOADED YOURE ACTUALLY SUPERHUMAN LMAOAOOAO

BAHA that's hilarious, y'all I got tumblr superpowers now

“you’re a writer, can you explain your process?” yes. first, i panic. then i procrastinate. then, in a fit of productivity at 3 a.m., i create chaos.

Yeah that'd be great, it's such a simple thing but fuck it'd be nice

Y'all please- we don't bite

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

Bit of system rambles

Something that's, always kinda bothered me as a system is, how it feels like almost every other system we know just, magically has a great memory, like they sometimes have larger chunks of memory missing but, that's like, it, now please understand this absolutely isn't us fake claiming any of them

It's just, we struggle so much with memory, even without switching out we can barely remember what we've done,, 5 minutes ago, and it's like that all the time, for us it's not just those chunks of memory missing, it's fucking everything, what did we do an hour ago? I don't know, a few minutes ago? Whoooo knows? Not me, we struggle so much with our day to day memory it's fucking impossible. The body's family jokes and laughs about us having "on set dementia" because of how horrible it is, we're never trusted to remember things because we just can't, I hate how it feels like everyone but us has such,, limited issues with this