Doodles!!!

the problem with getting better at writing is all the passion of all my old products is getting choked to death by the fact that i can’t bear to reread the segments i wrote as a fifteen year old jackass. but i also refuse to rewrite the 40-60k words that constitute the entire gxddamn half-baked plot.

he’s finally earned that last little box… go completion status… go….

read @octolingo-writes most recent fanfic ( Something There That Wasn't There Before ) with these two and it sent me back into my spiral, so i did some pose practice with them <3 one of the only ships that has grasped my attention WAUAGHhhh, go read it

references from pinterest used below the cut vvvv

THIS THIS THIS. we are giving u all our mental illnessess. open ur mind to the possibility:

scythebelts.

since scythebelts is gaining more popularity (as in ive seen like 3 other ppl talking abt it, which is a huge improvement from when it was just in @jamieycomplainey 's and I's dms) i think everyone needs to know of my favorite au of them, which is the goth/country au

weve gone through many iterations of how it happens, from goth vel and country boy sylnan, to the occasional what if sylnan was a goth and vel was country, theres a lot of backstory that is trapped in our dms which axel would be able to explain better but i think the idea of this needs to exist in peoples minds

more diaryposts because gxd is dead and this is my internet

i think maybe i am not afraid of love. i am afraid of the way i learned it. i am not afraid of parenthood- i want to be a father more than anything. i am afraid of the way i learned it. i am not afraid of boys. i am afraid of the way i learned to be one, to love one.

i spend my pocket money on liquor and show tickets and inhalants. i do not cut my hair. i wear ridiculous outfits and watch dirty movies i was not allowed to as a child. i am alive, alive, alive. i am living. i do not have to be liked. i do not have to be good. i do my best to be kind. it is enough.

i think he is good enough. i think i am good enough.

maybe it’ll all be good enough.

maybe it won’t be and i’ll be thirty. maybe is not enough. you cannot build a life on a maybe. you cannot rule beyond reasonable doubt when working with a maybe. you have to sit with it, and let it decide. a maybe is only a maybe for a time. sooner or later, it becomes a choice. a choice is good enough to build on, to carve into a life, to forge into a future.

what is enough is my gentleness. gentleness and goodness are two brothers, cut of the same cloth, but one of them is a god and one of them is a man. i am a boy. i am becoming a man. i have to make myself reach for the man, not the god. there is no sin in gentleness. i do not need godhood. this, here, now, is enough. gentleness is enough.

cat post:

gxd? iw

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well that was cool! here’s the author. she’s been with us for about two weeks and she likes biting

it hurts so much, to be in touch–so i'd rather not

i love bra’ad so much because in all the dnd i’ve played/watched/etc no character has ever captured gay panic so effectively.

while we’re talking about Charlie’s propensity for gay roleplay, here’s one of my favorite Br’aad moments.

the angst is here homos. go get y’all’s juice