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DanandPhilCrafts + Fucked Up Queer Devotion + Christian Homophobia: An Essay

We’ve all been talking about the willingness of Dan and Phil to perform the ritual, we’ve all been talking about the intimacy of carving out your lover’s heart, but I have not heard anyone talk about the fucked up side of Dan and Phil’s (fictional) relationship with each other, and with Him, so here goes.

On the craft channel, Dan and Phil act overwhelmingly positive, like satanic children’s show hosts, but this is clearly a farce. We see them drop their smiles quite a few times during the crafting- most notably in Glitter Faces when Dan’s craft turns out wrong, and when Phil cuts Dan’s hand. “Don’t cry, craft” is directed towards the audience, but it seems Dan and Phil are following their own advice. Cults, after all, prey on vulnerable people. While they do seem scared of doing the ritual, and their involvement with Him, they are, however, definitely willing. In

The blood on Dan after he kills Phil is interesting; The handprint on his shirt isn’t a sign of a struggle, but rather Phil just grabbing his shirt- that’s pretty intimate, honestly. The blood on his face could’ve been caused by a bunch of things: blood splatter he wiped at? wiping at his face (eyes?) with a bloody hand? or Phil holding his face? (I like the third option) The blood on his nose might totally have been accidental, and just a thing that happened, but it could also be an allusion to the cat whiskers, in the spirit of bringing things back to the beginning and whatnot.

After the ritual is complete, there’s the obvious tarot symbolism. @freckliedan has a great post about this, but I’ve got more to add, so bear with me. Yes, Dan and Phil are framed as the lovers, but that’s not all. While the sexual deviance associated with the devil card has clear connections to queerness, it’s main association is usually unhealthy relationships and dependence. We also see Phil always giving Dan the directions, implying some kind of power unbalance. Applied to Dan and Phil’s (fictional) relationship, we’re told that it’s just not as healthy as their real relationship. These characters, while obviously in love and super devoted to each other, are not in a healthy relationship.

Furthering the unhealthy relationship idea is when Phil calls Dan “Sampson”. In the Bible or whatever (I’m not Christian sue me) Sampson topples these pillars, killing both himself and his enemies, which has a clear parallel to Dan’s stacked ingredients falling over, but the use of “folly” is interesting, and suggests a further connection. Sampson had married a prostitute, and she sold him out, basically, leading to his enslavement and later death. In this story, this is the clearest and most obvious act of folly by Sampson: marrying someone who he shouldn’t have, someone who it was taboo for him to be with. Connected to Dan and Phil, it suggests that their relationship is dangerous due to the social taboo, but it’s also implied that Phil will betray Dan.

Speaking of unhealthy relationships, that’s sure what they’ve got with Him! Leading up to the ritual, Dan and Phil are shown to be scared of Him, even though they call Him their friend. Dan’s head shake when Phil says “crafting has improved my life in numerous ways” is very telling. At the end, Dan’s shoulders tense at His first footstep, however, when He actually touches Dan, he doesn’t seem scared at all- forgive me for this next point, but from the way he kinda leans into the touch and tilts his head back, it seems more like he’s going for “turned on” rather than “scared”.

“Okay, cool” you say, “but what does it mean?” Well, Dan and Phil’s relationship in this series is not just about homoerotic undertones- this is an allegory for toxic queer sexual relationships. Why would they make something about toxic relationships when they’re in a healthy relationship? With the toxicity, and the power imbalances, and the satanism, Dan and Phil’s (fictional) relationship is a representation of Christian fears of queerness, and the supposed immoral/corrupting/anti-Christian effects of being in a queer relationship. The fear Dan and Phil show throughout the series is representative of internalized homophobia. They’re scared to align themselves with Him because it means accepting their own queerness. Dan shows more fear than Phil throughout the series (like after his glitter face turns out to be a pentacle) which parallels his real world internalized homophobia that he’s experienced. By holding hands with the devil (or baphomet?) standing behind them, Dan and Phil have embodied every conservative fear about queerness, but have come out on top. Through their YouTube channel, we get to do the same.

im in love with him and that's my proudest character flaw

what a guy

In my NaruMitsu feels so I felt like posting a snippet/sneak peek as to what my next nrmts fic on AO3 is gonna be :D hopefully this'll be done during June?? anyway the preview is in the read more section ! i hope anyone who wants to check it out will enjoy

“I don’t think the artist did it.” Phoenix comments, giving validity to Miles’ judgement of mostly quiet.

“That’s lovely, Phoenix.” Miles mutters through gritted teeth, squinting at the bright screen. “However, you’re not on this case, and this process will be much easier for me if she did.”

“What happened to starting to fight for the truth, huh?” Phoenix prods, half provocation and half genuine curiosity.

Miles peers over the screen at Phoenix, the harsh light from the computer emphasizing the shadows underneath his eyes and cheekbones. “The only existing evidence implicates the artist, and I’m responsible for finding the final nail in her coffin. Your gut instinct doesn’t insinuate absolute truth.”

“Has it ever been wrong?” Phoenix’s brows raise, and Miles’ eye twitches at just how genuine he is. There’s no hint of a challenge in Phoenix’s words, there’s no icy stare or self-righteous smirk. He’s just warm and open and honest and kind, and Miles isn’t sure how to react. He settles for dropping his head in his hands with a groan, thick bangs falling over his fingers.

already posted her on tiktok but i wanted to share here !! mahiru koizumi cosplay :D my best girl

Thinking some thoughts about Matt at this fine hour of the afternoon.

- boy division by my chemical romance

- castles crumbling by taylor swift ft hayley williams

- just the concept of matt engarde with a navel piercing

- the multitude of reasons why he tries so hard to hide his scars (his body is the one thing he's got going for him and now he's screwed it up, the false promise of hollywood glitz and glamour has betrayed him)

- constant nightmares of his own body being puppeteered on a stage and he's tied down to a first row seat

I need to get over my writers block and make more Matt content dammit

Can we all pause and take a moment to appreciate this Barcha duo.

Love me guys who make random silly noises like them

i think enrida/juangarde should be more popular but i also fear that their dynamic and characters will get bastardized and woobified so maybe I Am Content with only having like 5 people on this earth care about the boyfriends

no one knows matt engarde more than i do. he is me. i am him. we are the same. i am aware that is not a good thing.

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