I Just Hope There Are People Who Are Actually Enjoying Their Christmas

i can't fall asleep, but i can't stay awake and my body is so uncomfortable to be in

lay me down with the leaves and the moss. rest me by rotting wood with hidden mushrooms and beneath trees as tall as mountains. let the forest eat me alive.

feeling like people do not like me as much i as i think they do

i know if you don’t like yourself is manifests and blah blah blah

but it just kind of feels like my self hatred is a stab wound and i can’t stop the bleeding and everyone around me has to wipe up the blood and i just watch as it stains their clothes and it feels like i’m frozen

whatever i don’t know i’m sure it’s not nowhere near as deep as i’m making it

i just wish i wasn’t the one initiating almost everything in my relationships

I make myself fucking sick dude

I hate being in this body

Guyliner beauty segment featuring Pete Wentz, Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie

Having to think about things I’ve been avoiding should be illegal…

I don’t want to think about the love I’ve neglected lalalalalalalaalaaa

Sometimes, all we really need is to be heard without having to fight for it.

I brought up how I felt—disconnected, unsure, a little tired of carrying the weight of unspoken things. And for once, I wasn’t met with defensiveness or silence. I was met with understanding. With effort. With a gentle “let’s fix this.”

It reminded me that love shouldn’t feel like walking on eggshells. It shouldn’t leave you questioning your worth or your voice. Sometimes, the simplest conversations can feel like healing.

I’m learning that being heard without having to explain myself twice is a kind of love I didn’t know I needed. I don’t need perfect. I just need real.

dream about something else

losing appetite because you're sad is the worst feeling ever.

i say idgaf and then im still dreaming about my childhood best friend