Okay, So- I Have Seen People Getting Bored/uninterested Of/in The Undertale Fandom And Dropping Out-

Help an audhd + disabled trans dude move out and get away from his violent unstable mother (please)

pre-tldr: i need help with funds for moving into a new place, my mom is very irresponsible, violent and irrational, constantly yelling/stomping, i feel very unsafe and uncomfortable, we have over 15 cats she refuses to get rid of and its a huge drain on my mental health. its filthy here and i NEED to get out. ok full post now

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Hi 👋 my name is Milo. I'm 19, american, transmasc, audhd, got severe chronic pain and no medication for any of it.

I currently live in an RV with my mom and have for around a year and a half after being homeless for about a year before that. We have a genuinely ABSURD number of cats (over 15 couped up in this tiny space), which is not only terrible for the cats, its terrible for my mental health, my moms, and is a huge drain on our funds. We can barely afford to take care of them and no matter how much I plead with her to take some of them to a shelter or do SOMETHING she refuses to, so that should start painting a picture of the type of person I'm dealing with here.

Her temper is incredibly, INCREDIBLY short. She's impossible to be around, refuses to improve, is physically violent to our general surroundings / herself / occasionally the cats. She has thrown things at me before. I generally dont feel safe or comfortable, and any time I try to broach the topic of moving out or getting her to stop any of the aforementioned behavior, she guilt trips me. Literally as I'm typing this she's been caterwauling, stomping and throwing things. What prompted this? No idea! This happens genuinely every single day. This is not an exaggeration. It's destroying my brain and I can't handle it anymore. This is going to sound particularly pitiful but I do have capital T Trauma related to someone breaking into our house when I was home and loud noises / stomping / yelling does make me INCREDIBLY anxious, and no matter how many times I tell her this she doesn't give a shit.

She does not want me leaving, won't let me learn how to drive and (whether intentionally or not) obstructs any attempts I make to function as an adult. I'm currently self-employed on commissions, but it's not a living wage or something I could make into one (and remain sane. or keep up with). I'm actively searching for a job and have applied to several (fingers crossed) (will update this post when I get one) and, ideally, will be moving in with a friend of mine sometime in the late summer, but I need help with funds for moving in/covering rent for a bit/etc.

Since I do take commissions, if you want one of those and want to help with funds that way, that'll be an avenue for giving me money. I won't have them open 24/7 just to make things more manageable, but that'll be an option some of the time at least. Ill add a link to an info post on that in this post when I do re-open them.

Otherwise, if you just wanna chip in (it would be VERY. VERY VERY VERY APPRECIATED):

Payp4l: millowo <- preferred

Venm0: miiilowo

GOAL: 0/4K

see this ^^^ ? thats my art im gonna have comms open soon ooh ahh HERES A BUNCH MORE TO LOOK AT IF YOURE INTERESTED BELOW THE CUT

terror bird

I’m making it a habit to say “drac u later” when I leave a room and “I’m backula” when I enter a room

Bro why does youtube take 9 FUCKING MINUTES to check for copyrighted things in a 30 SECONDS LONG VIDEO LIKE-

WHy are you wasting my time bro. Just. Why.

Uhh... silly gays Ig

and a slightly better version because I realized overlay exists

Also, just to scare y'all, I did the colors on two layers each, one layer being the shadows and the other being pretty much anything else

(I'll reblog this post with a bunch'a alts cuz I played around with layer modifications a bit)

Fking MS PAINT? LIKE HELLO? WHAT ARE YOU MADE OF? THIS IS FKING INCREDIBLE?

Ship in the fog

Thx for the tag :]

This quiz is bjutiful

Also

That's more true in every way than I would like to admit

@wr-n, @obsidianwolf36 would you like to try?

This uquiz really warmed my heart so I wanted to turn it into a tag game to hopefully spread the love.

how do strangers perceive you?

full of golden light the smell of soup cooking in the other room. golden hour sunlight peeking in through the windows. laughter that bounces against the walls and smiles you can't help but mirror. you're easy to approach. your best feature is probably your smile. you don't mind looking silly if it makes people laugh. you're not easily embarrassed. you're calm and you make people feel at ease. you're a good listener because you really really care what they have to say. people leave every interaction with you feeling just a little bit more loved. you're a kind soul, and people can see that. you mean so much more to people than you know.

tagging (no pressure) @wemadethishome @piraterefrigerator @babyhoneyheslt @niallermybabe @surrowndedbylights and anyone else who'd like to do it

Girl, I genuenly thought first that you were gonna say he's sleeping.

But on the other hand, Nightmare can take away negative emotions to use them, right (Or at least that's my headcanon, idk how you feel about that)? But he isn't taking away his negative feelings, because he enjoys it. And that could be one of the reasons why he wanted Killer to join him in the first place. He wanted to feel all that negativity stronger, he wanted to enjoy it more, so he came up with the solution that he brings the source, A.K.A. Killer closer to himself.

And so, Nightmare isn't letting Cross, Dust and Horror help him neither, because with their help his negativity source would get weaker in minutes.

i don't think we talk about when Killer isn't smirking or causing chaos.

Those dark moments he has alone in his room when he can't think of anything to do, or is too unwell to get up and do anything. Nothing can distract him from the horrors of his trauma.

Hatred having no outlet other than himself.