June Is My Month This Time Fr.

Reblog so I don't forget. ~🫶🏻

Strategies I use to…

Reconnect with myself˚◞♡ ⃗ *ೃ༄

Hiiii, here is a list of some things I do in order to reconnect with myself!

When I feel down, overwhelmed, mindless, or just not like my usual self, these activities are my saviours.

• Physical activity!!! - You know I had to put this one first, girl. Strength training, stretching, swimming, running, walking, dancing, playing sports, etc. Physical activity makes me feel amazing and gives me a total confidence boost, I’m just in my element.

• Meditation - Deep breathing, relaxing music, clear mind, I love it! I feel a deep sense of connection with myself and the universe when meditating. It’s also just a great reset if you’re in a negative mood, I feel totally cleansed afterwards.

• Pampering!!! - face massage, gua sha, long hot bath/shower, full body massage, cute treat/drink, ice roller, positive affirmations, comfy clothes, favourite movie, and so on.

• Get creative - Getting creative is a good way to express and connect with yourself. Doing something artsy always reminds me of when I was a kid, and writing is a great outlet for my creativity.

Drawing, writing, sculpting, painting, colouring, knitting, crocheting, etc.

• Journaling - I love journaling so much. It’s a good way to check-in with yourself, learn about yourself, and release your emotions. I feel a lot more in tune with myself afterwards.

I’ll write about : Things I am grateful for, my dreams and desires, goals I’m working towards, my favourite things about myself, my feelings, etc.

• Expressing myself - Often, the reason for me feeling disconnected with myself is because I’ve hidden or ignored my true feelings/thoughts/self. I mean obviously masking yourself makes you feel disconnected with yourself…

My strategy is to openly express myself confidently. I share my feelings and opinions, and I don’t try to hide who I am. I don’t care what people think of me, I will never be ashamed or embarrassed of my authentic self.

I miss when my wrists were tiny

Waiting for everyone else to go to sleep so you can chew and sp!t>>>>>

Hey guys,

I'm leaving Tumblr, at least for a couple of months, in an attempt to r3 c0 ver. I'll probably come back 20Ibs heavier crying about how I regret it, however my mental health is declining very rapidly, and 4n4 isn't making it any better so until I can get myself back in to a safe headspace, I will be leaving.

I love you all so much, and thank you all for giving me such a wonderful community to be apart of. Ilyasm! Y'all are some of the most amazing, sweetest angels I've ever met. You all were here for me when no one else was, and were the only people I could talk to about my w31ght struggles. Thx for everything, and for helping me lose 40Ibs. I hope every single one of you hit your UGW, r3c0v3r, or find whatever will bring you true inner happiness. Thx again sm. 💓💕

Real tho

Just got my collarb0n3s visible again. ✊🏻😭

Literally all I'm wearing for now on, are tops that show them off. I can't wait to get rid of my h1deous th1ghs next.

I will never shut up about how my mom said i didn't have an €D when I was f4t, even after she saw me eating baby food, going on extreme d13ts, and f4sting all the time. But once my w3ight started dropping off and I got sk1nnier than her, suddenly it's an issue. 😕

Not to mention she was bul1m1c when she was my age. Growing up with your mom competing with you is crazy.

I wish I had just opened Tumblr instead of b1ng1ng

controversial opinion: regular people should not force people with €ds to eat.

regular person = not a doctor

“that’s just your disordered brain talking” hear me out. what does it help? genuinely, what does forcing someone who has an extreme fear of food to eat help with? I’m primarily talking about 4n0rexia in this context but this applies to every €D.

“it’ll keep them alive a little while longer” no, it won’t. one meal will not reverse the long history of damage done to their body. best case scenario: they will never want to be around you again, they’ll go back to isolating themselves which will be detrimental to their mental health because the idea that ‘people = want me to get fat not better’ has been re-affirmed by you and they will not ask for help in the future. worst case scenario: they do the above AND you have guaranteed the fact that the minute they are back home they will try to get rid of it through exercise, l*xatives, p*rging, or long fasts which they likely would not have felt the need to compensate with if they hadn’t been forced to eat.

I know that for myself, and for other people with multiple types of €ds, that being around people when food isn’t involved or at least not the primary focus, while yes it does aid in our disorder because we aren’t eating, it also gives us the ability to engage in positive activities outside of our disorder. If someone is able to take steps to heal their mental health and create friend groups who don’t judge them but supports them, they’re more likely to recover, or at least form some better habits. Our disorders are exhausting. We need times that our disorder isn’t ruling over too.

“part of getting better is doing things that’s hard, that includes eating.” yes, this is true, but you are not a doctor. If a person is in a state where force feeding is required to keep them alive they need more than one meal forced down them. they need mental health support, support in general, and a doctor to oversee all of it. this strongly applies to ARFID and ORTHO as well but forcing sometime to eat their fear foods/foods they struggle with is NOT helpful.

Forced recovery, even in an institutional setting, with our without mental health support in addition to re-feeding, has been shown to be significantly ineffective compared to willing admittance.

This is not a fucking factory where you can pump a person full of food for a few weeks until they weight x-amount, give them no more help than a doctor who can’t be bothered to see their patients more than once a week in their own hospital and even then the time spent with someone and the questions asked are unhelpful for everyone, then drop them back off at home and expect them not to relapse even harder.

Some people do need outside help. Not everyone can/wants to/has the ability to recover by themselves, some will need a push from outside and in the moment it may feel like a loss of autonomy but it’s what they need. The grey line between thinking just eating and doing breathing exercises will fix them vs. structured support and patience in all aspects of a person’s life isn’t that grey.

All this being said, some people will not recover. No matter what you do, no matter how much you care, no matter how much help you give, not everyone gets better. Ultimately, recovery comes from within and it is only up to the individual if they want to recover. If someone has shown they have no intention of recovery and an understanding of the consequences, it should not be forced upon them. Bodily autonomy applies to more than just reproductive health.

AHHHHH

I'm donating plasma rn and the woman who took my vitals kept talking about how tiny my hands are and then they had to use the CHILDREN'S blood pressure cuff. I'm so happy rn.