Me After Eating A Fatass Porkchop For Dinner With My Bare Hands

me when. i have friends who make me feel loved and appreciated 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁 yyayyayaa

happiness - alan’s answers

long winded ramble abt how I PERSONALLY started getting better and becoming happier overall

i was so focused on my sadness and negative emotions that they consumed me, became all that i was. i was dead set on romanticizing it. collecting negative pins on pinterest, interacting with negative blogs on here, wallowing and forcing myself to ensure that not a day went by that i wasn’t feeling horrible. i was stuck in this idea that without my sadness, i was boring and lacked a worthwhile personality. but that’s just not true. life is about perspective, a lot of the time. nothing about my external situation has changed. but my mindset has, which is why i am so happy and content now. i wake up and play happy music instead of sad. i purposefully do things that i know will benefit me instead of digging myself deeper into a hole. getting better isn’t something that’s just handed to you, you have to choose it and work at it. i deleted every pro-negative emotion thing on my phone. i filtered my social media so none of the content i used to interact with shows up. if you reach out to happiness, it will reach back. i started learning to love myself because i am the only one who knows how wonderful i am. other people’s opinion of you becomes inconsequential when you are sound in yourself. reframing your viewpoint on the world is the cure. it’s a work in progress but it genuinely works. i stopped looking at life like it had a set deadline and instead started living life like i matter, because i do. if you go into a day pursuing joy it’s likely you’ll find it. also, before i used to be so focused on the big picture, seeing every situation as black and white. but it’s not like that. each day has so many little things to look forward to and you can be the joy you so desperately want to see in the world. compliment someone’s outfit! wave at the sun!! do whatever it is that you know will support your healing. it’s not linear and it never will be, but romanticizing my horrible traits gets me nowhere. why would i stay stuck in my ways when i can choose to improve? it’s a simple answer for me, i’ll choose my wellbeing in every situation nowadays

i changed my insta pronouns to they/them im too scared to do anything else :/

how to tell my friends i’m not a girl. and lowkey prefer they/them. without sounding like i just timetraveled from 2020. cuz like nothing would change besides the pronouns cuz im content w everything else. GGGRRRR RAGGSGS GRRR AHSD SLAMS HEAD INTO WALL

i feel like some of them will hate me idk… like ew lol look at this FAGGOT FREAK

pulling all nighters for no reason is so fun like bitch the only person available to talk to rn is the moon and you also aren’t doing anything productive wtf is the point?? i mean at least i’ll be up early to get all cunty for school so yay (?)

how it feels knowing i have to go to school chopped tmrw so that getting ready for prom feels 100% more cunt 🥀🥀

having my goofy ahh dad make me grilled cheese bc this guy just kinda does what i say

should not have drank before prom im buzzed and horribly aware of how horrible im interacting w everybody

saw this fuckass sign and was fully ready to believe it said “stop the sigma” until my dumbass reread it

i’ll never regret letting people know i love them even if they don’t love me back. this world is just so full of hate.. why would i contribute to it? our generation is just so full of wanna be nonchalant people and it’s just so lame.. like

i hate this faggot ass bitch on my bus who uses a rolling backpack like she’s never done anything to me personally but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WE’RE GOING TO SCHOOL NOT THE AIRPORT??? JTS A SUITCASE AND IT TAKES UP A WHOLE SEAT ON ITS OWN LIKE WHAT. ALL YOU NEED FOR CLASS IS UR CHROMEBOOK??? WHAT DO U HAVE JN THERE