Yeah The Ed Is Gonna Work This Time. No I Don't Have Any Proof But Just Trust Me Bro.

My personal goal 🩷⭐️

my bf just hugged me and asked why i felt so thin…best thing i’ve heard

i wanna do something so unhealthy and irresponsible

I ate wayyyy too much yesterday…. Even with my nausea and food aversion. Ridiculous. Like wtf. Even when I am physically sick I still eat too much. I want to cry.

Whenever my boyfriend jokes about like being the best or anything like positive. I just go with it. Like heck, yeah, you’re the best! There is nobody better than you. I love him so much.

“– I did crave attention, but I refused to humiliate myself by asking for it.” 

Ottessa Moshfegh, My Year of Rest and Relaxation

When he thinks u dont want him going through your phone bc ur cheating but you just dont want him to find your edblr

Reminder for future me:

Binging will NOT make you happy and will NOT fix anything. Binging will bring so many tears and nausea and bloating and the food won't even taste good because you shove it down your throat too fast.

I feel like shit right now after yesterdays binge and you do NOT want to feel this way. You DON'T want to binge.

And remember that a binge won't ruin anything. You just have to push through afterward. Remember future me, remember how long I had to fast and how the lax cramps felt in addition to the guilt

YOU DO NOT WANT TO BINGE

I don’t know how to deal with all of this grief in my body

I wish I genuinely didn’t like food. But I love it so much.