May 2024

First time I wore a binder!! Eventhough it is just a way to small sport bra it works very well. It hurt but it was okay because I looked like a guy!

here is a life hack for throwing up: sniffing isopropyl alcohol (like an alcohol swab or basic bathroom alcohol) often works to prevent vomiting when you are about to barf and do not want to. anxiety nausea, need to keep pills down, motion sickness etc. i learned this in the ICU and it really works, a nurse ripped open an alcohol swab under my nose and suddenly i wasn't about to throw up anymore. it's research supported too!

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New project finished! (sort of)

I’ve been wanting to make a book nook for ages but couldn’t decide what to make until I watched a video on the backrooms and was reminded of liminal space art especially the pools which are clearly my favourite XD

It needs more resin to raise the water level up higher but that’s going to take a while to arrive so I’m considering it done for now. I’m pretty happy with it for a first try.

and very, very often, self care is not plants and ice rollers and fluffy blankets of peace.

it’s standing over your kitchen sink and crying while doing the dishes because you just want to go back to bed but the dishes need done. and you don’t know why you’re crying but you're trusting you need it. and you aren’t listening to the music that pulls you into a spiral; you’re listening to some cheerful shit your friend sent you. it’s getting up and staring at your fridge and closing your eyes and then cooking yourself food even though you hate it and it’s miserable. because you know that you’d cook for your friend, and you are trying to befriend yourself. it’s dragging yourself into the shower because you know you’ll feel better afterwards. it’s doing mundane tasks with patience, cursing under your breath, trying desperately to give yourself grace. grace is the beginning of care. care is the beginning of love.

we think it’s supposed to be peace and yet the most powerful self care moments are when we hate everything but especially ourselves. and life does not feel worth the loving. to look into that pain and yet choose to care for yourself in however many pieces you are — that is care. love. grace. trust. belief. it hurts because it’s love where there was no love before. it heals because it believes there will be love, one day, soon.

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I am all of the days That you choose to ignore You are all I need

(All I Need - Radiohead)

SHORTLAND STREET ― 29th July 2024

i need y'all to know that french colonialism is as grave if not worse as the british colonialism