True Self - Part 3 (Final)
True Self - Part 3 (Final)
Fandom: BTS Pairing: Idol!Namjoon x Female Reader Genre: Fluff and Angst Warning: None I hope so... Word Count: 1k Words Note: Please bear it in mind that it’s totally fictional. I tried my best to include some of the aspects of Namjoon in here. Personally I think, Namjoon is one of the best men to ever exist. Wish I could do him justice.
Summary: When everything seemed like they’re falling apart, you figure out Namjoon’s true self, making you fall in love with him...
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 [Complete]
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We were finally having the vacation on our own as Namjoon had promised. I was relieved to be seemingly far away from the world, Namjoon by my side without anyone to interfere, relaxing peacefully after some stressful days.
I was sleeping better being cuddled up with Namjoon at night. Waking up next to him was the most comforting experience. Just watching him sleep with his mouth slightly open could make my day better.
I realized I was noticing his very small habits and I found them adorable. One of them, which I was absolutely in love with, was seeing him read. Every morning he would read for at least an hour and sometimes more. I would occasionally accompany him and read too. Sometimes I would sit beside and watch him read for hours.
We would go to art museums together and interpreted them in our own ways. Once we became so passionate about our views that we ended up having a heated discussion. But we made up at night when I bought him gummy bears.
We would watch dramas or movies together at night. Usually he would let me pick up my favorite movies to watch. Even there, we wouldn’t shut up about putting forward our theories and analyzing characters.
This creative and liberal way of thinking was something I appreciated the most in him. I was glad he didn’t think of me as crazy because I was always too obsessed over fictional worlds. Sometimes, I scared myself thinking that everything was a dream and one day I would wake up to find out that there was no existence of him and all of it were actually my imagination.
But we surely had our differences. Even though it might sound petty, a huge incident took place due to this. And it was hilarious.
Namjoon had planned to surprise me by taking me blindfolded to the seaside where there were a lot of crabs. And let me get this straight; he absolutely loved crabs while I absolutely hated them.
As soon as the blindfold was taken off, I was screaming and jumping as if my feet was on fire. Namjoon was too confused for a whole minute until he realized I was screaming in fear and not because I was excited to see them. Finally Namjoon had to give me a piggy ride from the seashore back to the hotel.
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We were sitting at the beach waiting for the sunset. I was a little upset since it was our last day of the vacation. I wasn't ready to go back just then.
"What are you thinking about, darling?" Namjoon asked as I rested my head on his shoulder.
"About how life is going to be like once we go back." I sighed.
He placed his hand on my head softly, caressing my hair, "you worry a little too much about the future."
"Can't help it." I shrugged my shoulder.
"I have a proposal to make." He sat straight facing me, "I want you to hear me out."
I nodded, letting him know that he had my full attention.
"I did a little thinking," He said, "not little, a lot of thinking actually."
"About what?"
"About us." He took my hands in his, "I will make it official."
"What?" My eyes were wide in shock.
"Yeah," He said rather calmly, "I know my fans. They will always support me. No matter what!"
I was silent, unable to believe what I was hearing. My heart was beating fast. I was afraid. Afraid because I feared I would lose him.
"Now, here's my real proposal." He squeezed my hands softly, "Will you come stay with me?"
"Are you sure about all these?" I asked.
"Of course, darling. It's about time we made our decisions for our sakes. I don't want to hide away anymore. Let's face it together."
I nodded again. "But I don't want to lose you." I couldn't hold it back.
"Why are you worried about losing me, darling?"
I shrugged my shoulders again. We remained silent for some time.
"Look!" He pointed at the sky, "The sun's setting already. So, shall we kiss, now?"
I laughed out at this. Then, he cupped my face in his huge hands and leaned to kiss me.
When he let go, I said, "Yes, I will stay with you."
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At first I was overwhelmed by all the attention from the media and my surrounding as well. My friends who were out of touch for a long time started to check on me, asking me all sorts of questions regarding Namjoon and other members.
But like Namjoon had said, I got used to it eventually. I started to receive lots of love from his fans too. They started to appreciate Namjoon’s decision and respected our privacy.
Now, I had moved to live with him on his house. It wasn’t very far away from mine. So that, my mother and sister would occasionally come to pay us a visit and I could go back too.
The wildest experience I had in my entire life was going to the tour with Namjoon. It was so exciting and exhausting at the same time. I got closer to the other members too. Seeing them from up close, I was really fascinated by the strong bond they share.
I saw the emotions that filled Namjoon up every time after a performance. He loved his fans very much and they meant a lot to him. I considered myself very lucky to get to know this side of him.
Namjoon always liked to work on his music alone. So, I would always let him be and didn’t bother him in any ways. But one day, he asked me to accompany him while he worked.
I said, “But I thought you like working alone.”
“Yeah,” he said, “But sometimes it gets a little lonely in there. I want you by my side for the new song I’m working on.”
“Why?” I asked, “Is it about me?”
“Don’t worry,” Namjoon smiled and said, “You’ll be the first to know.”
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“It’s so hot,” I said, breathing heavily, “Let’s go back.”
“C’mon,” Namjoon pouted, “A few more hours, please.”
“A few more hours?” I gasped, “I’m gonna pass out anytime now.”
Namjoon stopped his bike in front of a store. We both got down and went inside to get some cold drinks and ice creams. It was a rather hot summer day. Namjoon had planned to take me to a bike ride to nowhere since he took some time off work after a long time.
“Mint chocolate!” he exclaimed in disgust, “I can’t believe you like this flavor.”
“Thank God I tried it with Hobi,” I said sarcastically, “it’s my favorite one now.”
Namjoon rolled his eyes and said, “I hope our children don’t get your taste in foods.”
“What did you say?” I stopped licking my ice cream.
“You heard me.” He stood up, “Now let’s get moving.”
Once again we were back on the road. Namjoon riding aimlessly forward, speeding up by the time. I hugged him tighter from behind. The wind was rushing towards my face blowing my hair which were sticking out from the helmet. At that moment I had a sudden urge to say it to Namjoon.
“I love you.” I said.
“What?” he was shouting through the sound of the blowing wind, “Did you say something? I couldn’t hear you.”
“I said,” I screamed at the top of my lungs, “I LOVE YOU KIM NAMJOON.”
Yes. It was my first time confessing to him.
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Special 8 Photo-folio Masterlist
My Personal Masterlist
More Posts from Emerald-notes and Others
Bitter-Sweet
Fandom: BTS
Pairing: Jungkook x Female Reader
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I refused to get up from my bed. Or should I say, I was unable to do so. Because I was going through the worst period cramps this month. I am very pain sensitive. So whenever I had bad cramps, it always made me cry my eyes out.
"Aren't you going to have your breakfast, sweety?" My sister asked while gently patting my head over the blanket under which I had taken my refugee.
My phone rang and I whined in annoyance. My sister brought it to me and said, "C'mon! Your bunny's calling you."
I pulled my hand out of the blanket and took the phone in. My sister left to avoid hearing our cheesy conversation.
"So, no good morning for me today, love?" I could imagine the pout forming on Jungkook's lips.
"No!" I said shortly.
"Have my baby girl been crying?" The tone was a little bit alarmed.
"Yes!" I said again.
It didn't take too long for Jungkook to understand the matter. And nothing much was needed to be said. He was on my doorstep already.
Ding Dong!
"Look, who's here?" My sister called from the living room.
Despite the pain, I walked out of my bed, my blanket still wrapped around me. As soon as Jungkook saw my miserable state, he pulled me into a warm embrace and I sank into his huge muscular body.
"I've brought you dark chocolates, love." Jungkook whispered softly and kissed me on my ear.
Minutes later, we were squeezed in the couch, blanket covering the both of us, my head resting on Jungkook's chest, biting onto my chocolate every now and then, while Jungkook hummed on to an ost of 'The Goblin' being played on the TV.
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My Masterlist
Asa Butterfield and his co-stars.
Sleepy Cats
Fandom: BTS
Pairing: Min Yoongi × Female Reader
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"What are you doing here?" Yoongi asked eyeing the pillow and blanket on my hands, as I stood in front of his studio door.
"I can't sleep alone." I said.
Yoongi walked up to me and grabbed the pillow from my hands, "You can't sleep in here."
"Didn't you hear what I said?" I pouted, "Yoongi, I'm not going to sleep alone. Now, either you come to the bed with me or I sleep here on the couch while you work."
Yoongi sighed and nodded, "alright!"
I prepared my bed on his studio couch and lied down. Yoongi, putting on his headphones, went back to his work.
"How heartless!" I thought.
After what seemed like a tormenting hour of tossing and turning, I walked up and stood behind him long enough for him to notice me.
He pulled back his headphones, "What now?"
"Come lie with me till I sleep." I demanded.
"Please go back to the bed. I told you, didn't I? You can't sleep in here." He ignored me again and turned back to his screen.
I grabbed the Shooky plushie from his table and went back to the couch. Yoongi glanced back at me. I held Shooky tightly on my arms and closed my eyes shut forcefully.
"Make some space for me, please." I looked up and saw Yoongi standing beside me.
We were squeezed in the little space of the couch. I rested my head on his chest while he slowly caressed my hair. Hearing his heartbeat was really soothing.
"Don't stress yourself too much." Yoongi whispered in my ears.
I let out a chuckle, "Look, who's giving me advise about relaxing!"
Yoongi smiled and pulled me into a tighter embrace, "Now close your eyes and go to sleep."
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My Masterlist
Review of “Me Before You” by Jojo Moyes
Genre: Contemporary/Romance
Rating: 3/5
Summary: A very simple working class woman, Louisa Clark loses her best job in a café when the owner suddenly shuts it down. Louisa finds no other alternative but to work as a caretaker of a paralyzed man named Will Traynor.
Personal Opinion: This book is written in a very simple language; but bears a deep meaning. It was heartwarming as well as heartbreaking. Moyes presented a very critical issue the right way.
Romantic books are not my favourites; but this one has a very unique story. So, I gave it a go and wasn't disappointed.
Quote: "You can only actually help someone who wants to be helped."
𝕰𝖉𝖌𝖆𝖗 𝕬𝖑𝖑𝖆𝖓 𝕻𝖔𝖊 - 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕭𝖑𝖆𝖈𝖐 𝕮𝖆t
𝕴𝖑𝖑𝖚𝖘𝖙𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖇𝖞 𝕱𝖗𝖊𝖉𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖈𝖐 𝕾𝖎𝖒𝖕𝖘𝖔𝖓 𝕮𝖔𝖇𝖚𝖗𝖓 (1902)
World Expo 2030 Busan Korea Concert
It was my first time streaming a live concert. And the experience was something I'll never forget.
I had been planning to watch it live; making my to do list for the day where I spared enough time so that I can easily enjoy it without any disturbance.
I woke up from my nap one hour ahead for I couldn't sleep. I can't tell if it was because of my sickness or over excitement. However, I turned on my laptop first, then decided to go for the TV to have a better experience.
The concert began, sending chills all over my body. The stadium, the lights, the fireworks, thousands of Army's scream and the Army bombs glittering like stars. It was such a sight. No wonder it gave me goosebumps.
The music started (played by live band), confirming that it was one of my favorites of all time, both for the coreo and the song itself, 'Mic Drop'. They looked dashing in their bold outfits, dancing away passionately. And I was like, "Woah! Calm down! Save your energies for God's sake. There's still a lot more to go."
Then came the most anticipated song I'd been dying to watch them perform live, 'Run BTS'. Oh God! It was so good. As much as I could watch, the fresh coreo of it was promising. But unfortunately, my mother kept bringing me works to do and I couldn't concentrate on it wholly.
As soon as the next song, 'Run', started to play, we all know what happened. The Weverse app crashed, making me want to scream at the screen.
But the most annoying part was when I had to go out for an urgent work. All that time, I kept wondering what songs I had been missing. And as soon as I came back, I turned on the TV again and waited for a while.
Loosing my hope, as the app hadn't been fixed yet, I came here to my safe haven, to rant about my misery. Thanks to whoever posted a link for another website. So, I was able to get back to it again.
Namjoon was singing. "Why can't I recall what song it is?" I thought when my elder sister swore in exasperation, "Damn!" It was her favorite one, 'Boy With Luv' and it was also ending.
The network went off once again and came back after a while. "Ooh, when I look in the mirror..." Jimin sang. So, I had missed half of 'Butter' already.
That was the reality of it. I was worried about my internet connection failing me again and again. But it stayed stable afterwards. And I was grateful for it.
'Ma City', 'Dope', 'Fire', 'Idol'; was sang one by one. I saw them and my heart filled with admiration. How hard they worked! I could see they were sweating like crazy. Then, there was Jimin. Something was clearly wrong with him. He looked as if it pained him to deliver those performances. But he had given his voice to us. He had given his best.
It was time for 'Epilogue: Young Forever'. I stopped abruptly in the middle of the conversation with my sister, when I heard Namjoon. I felt as if my heart had sunk into my stomach. 'Young Forever' automatically came out of my mouth in a whisper. My eyes got wet for some unknown emotion I was feeling. I pretended to look for the phone to avoid my sister's attention. The Armys' started to sing as soon as the boys stopped. And I joined them too; "Forever, we are young."
Immediately, they started to perform 'For Youth'. And I was glad they didn't spare any time for us, Armys, to burst into tears. For I didn't know how I would have explained to my sisters why I was acting like a child.
'Spring Day' started after a short break. It was a good take to start the song from inside the train. Me and my sister started to cut jokes on how Jin almost looked at the camera and how the other members were trying really hard not to. For some reason, we found it quite hilarious. And I was relieved to see Jimin coming back to his cheerful self and smiling occasionally at unreasonable times.
My damn internet kept going up and down again. So, the last things, I could watch were them, talking and greeting the Armys goodbyes. I hope it was not a goodbye forever. Also, my last thought was, "Shit! I've missed 'Yet to Come'."
To sum up the experience, I can say one word with full of honesty, 'Love'. I was in love with them. And I hope I will continue to love them till the end.
Also, I am grateful to both of my sisters who had been there with me in this. At first, reluctant to join me, my elder sister eventually gave in her idea of studying for the test. I mean, why not? And for my little one, I can't even express in words just how much happy it made me every time she sang along with the boys. But I missed my cousin, the eldest of the pack, throughout the live.
As soon as it ended, I was feeling a huge emptiness inside me. "Well, post concert depression is a real thing, love." one of my tumblr friends said to me and I think it's 100% accurate.
Do you ever feel like you’re about to cry? There is no specific reason. You just simply stare at the ceiling and the tears roll down your eyes.
Thanks. I needed it rn...
You can do the thing. You got this.
Movies Recommendations on the Basis of Genre
I am a huge movie-addict. Here are some of my favourite movies from different genres.
1. Fantasy:
Mirror Mirror (2012)
Snow White’s Retelling
Mild Comedy
Maleficent (2014)
Sleeping Beauty’s Retelling
From the Villain’s Point of View
An Amazing Plot Twist
2. Action:
Suicide Squad (2016)
Supervillain Protagonist
Govt. assembles prisoners to save the world
Variety of characters
3. Horror:
The Babadook (2014)
Unlike any other horror movies
A single mother’s struggle to raise a troubled son
Deals with grief
Crimson Peak (2015)
Start as a simple ghost story
Girl marries a man with secrets
Mind blowing plot twist
Complicated romance
4. Drama:
The Words (2012)
Writer steals the story of another
Heartbreaking
More
Mr. Church (2016)
Black cook joins the family of a little girl and her dying mother
Funny as well as heartbreaking
Best to watch with family
5. Biography:
The Theory of Everything (2014)
Stephen Hawking’s Life from College to his Later Life
Struggles with Paralysis
A heart touching romance
A story of never giving up
Hacksaw Ridge (2016)
A man swore to never touch a weapon joins the war as a medic
Religious
Violence of war
Beautiful Boy (2018)
A father’s struggle with his meth-addict son
Shows life is beautiful
Amazing portrayal of Father-son relation
6. Historical Fiction:
The Book Thief (2013)
An orphan lives with her new foster parents who shelters a Jew secretly during the Second World War
Beauty of words
A heartbreaking story
In the Heart of the Sea (2015)
The real story that inspired the Great Novel ‘Moby Dick’
Struggles to survive in extreme hard situation
7. Romance:
Anna Karenina (2012)
A woman tries to break from her cold marriage to be with her new found love
A woman’s life being doomed by Society’s Criticism
Explores different kinds of love
Breathe (2017)
After contracting polio, a man confined to bed finds new ways to live his life to the fullest with the support of his wife
A real story
Shows life is worth living
8. Comedy:
Green Book (2018)
A world-class black pianist bonds with a white driver over a trip
Talks about racism
Shazam! (2019)
A teenager finds superpower by turning into an adult
Family drama-comedy
A very sweet foster family
9. Psychological Thriller:
Shutter Island (2010)
A U.S. Marshal investigates the disappearance of a patient from an asylum in an island
Crazy plot twist
The Devil All the Time (2020)
A world full of ignorance, blind faith, sin and delusion
Question of what is right and what is wrong
10. Sci Fi:
Arrival (2016)
A linguist tries to understand the language of aliens
Shows the power of language
11. Animation:
Inside Out (2015)
A young girl’s mind is mostly controlled by Joy other than different emotions
Importance of all emotions
Life from childhood to teenage
Coco (2017)
A boy who is desperate to prove his musical talent finds himself in the land of dead
Emotional
Amazing family relations
Onward (2020)
A journey of two brothers to resurrect their dead father for one single day
Adventurous
A heart warming brothers relation
12. Mystery:
The Limehouse Golem (2017)
A series of murder in the Victorian London
A woman’s struggle to fulfill her dreams
Gripping story
Crooked house (2017)
A detective tries to solve the murder of his former lover’s grandfather
Agatha Christie’s most twisting story
A dark family
A sweet romance
13. Musical:
Les Misérables (2012)
A former prisoner takes an orphan in his care
French Revolution
Heartbreaking stories of multiple characters
The Greatest Showman (2017)
The story of the man who invented circus
Many characters
A story of hard work and success
Sweet romance stories
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