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Hi !

I’m looking for very graphic fics of Neil killing and torturing Nathan if you can find any

Thank you !!

Neil kills Nathan here with varying degrees of violence and gore. Some fics don’t draw out Nathan’s death to the degree you want, but I think you will still find satisfaction. -A

Also see:

‘Die Free or Die a Failure’ and ‘Night is the Raven, Day is the Fox’ here (on hiatus)

‘what it takes to survive’ here

‘Neil Josten’s Vendetta,’ ‘You Don't Even Know Me (It's Only A Feeling),’ and ‘The Nameless Monster’ (also below) here

‘Shinigami’* and ‘Shake My Tomb’ here (*abandoned, see author’s note on chapter 3)

‘tokyo drifting’ here

‘Bad News From A Bad Friend’ here

‘lucid prayers’ here

‘The Real Folk Blues’ here

‘Sent to Drain’ here

‘Desperate and Broken (The Sound of a Fight)’ here

‘Iron and Ember’ here

Andrew kills Nathan:

‘Comeback’ here

‘Martyrs, Monsters, and Madness’ here (updated)

‘Andrew Joseph’ here

‘The Martyr Card’ here

‘It seems you've set it running free’ here

‘running with the wolves’ here

‘Armies’ here

Red Right Hand by hazey_sloths [Rated T (we say M), 11392 Words, Incomplete, Updated July 2019]

Nathaniel Wesninski has been trained to follow in his father's footsteps as the next Butcher of Baltimore. When leadership changes hands, Ichirou Moriyama orders a clean house and forces Nathaniel to help him. In the weeks that follow, it is discovered that Riko Moriyama's pet has run away to Palmetto State University.

When Nathaniel is sent to investiage what happened, he thinks he's just being sent to collect Kevin Day. He doesn't realize he'll have to deal with Kevin's guard dog.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: torture, tw: murder, tw: canonical character death

Appendages by autisticandrewminyard [Rated M, 37496 Words, Complete, 2017]

Nathaniel Wesninski grapples with his life as the heir to a criminal empire, as the vice captain to the Edgar Allan Ravens, and as the person he wants to be seen as.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: murder, tw: canonical character death, tw: drug use, tw: alcohol, tw: nonconsensual drug use, tw: implied/referenced abuse

Shrike by Leteel6 [Rated E, 13870 Words, Complete, 2021]

Neil never ends up going back to Baltimore. Instead, his father comes to Palmetto.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: dissociation, tw: gun violence, tw: knife violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: referenced animal torture, tw: murder, tw: corpse desecration, tw: canonical character death

The Nameless Monster by kanekicure [Rated M, 108199 Words, Complete, 2020]

Part 1 of the The Nameless series, part 2 here

Nathaniel Wesninski wants nothing more than to see his father dead and buried. But when his father promises him the title of The Butcher, Nathaniel quickly realizes that his destiny of following in his father's footsteps is closer than ever before.

So of course, when he gets forced to go undercover for the Baltimore police, he start's seeing what living could truly be.

tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: violence, tw: ptsd, tw: murder, tw: canonical character death

WIPs to watch

The Moriyama's Dog by JellyTits_Hoe [Rated E, 22655 Words, Incomplete, Updated August 2021]

Nathaniel can’t move a muscle and he doesn't even know if he would if he could. He’s in such a petrified state that he could barely even hear his father's words. All he can hear and feel is his heart beating in his chest. Lola giggles so loud Nathaniel knows she did it so he could hear her loud and clear. The screaming stopped a while ago. Nathaniel can’t really point out when. Perhaps it was when he started to go numb all over.

In which Nathaniel Wesninski never escaped and instead became Ichirou Moriyama's personal dog.

tw: dark, tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: referenced gang rape, tw: graphic torture, tw: maiming, tw: murder, tw: gun violence, tw: trained killer dogs, tw: knife violence, tw: abuse, tw: child abuse, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: depression, tw: hallucinations, tw: homophobia, tw: drugs

Retribution by hausofcloud [Rated M, 11023 Words, Incomplete, Updated Jan 2022]

Exploring the "what if" after Mary's death. Instead of continuing on to Arizona, Nathaniel makes his way back to Stuart and in his grief, trains to exact his revenge on Nathan and his inner circle.

tw: graphic depiction of violence, tw: canonical character death, tw: nonconsensual drug use, tw: knife violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: murder, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced child abuse

in consequence by sheskyripa [Not Rated, 3383 Words, Incomplete, Updated Jan 2021]

Part 2 of the in secret series, part 1 here

Ichirou gave Nathaniel a choice: become the new Butcher or continue play Exy. He chooses Exy, but for that, he has to eliminate his father.

Or Andrew and Nathaniel plan Nathan's death

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: internalized homophobia

Fractures by JayJFox [Rated M, 15902 Words, Incomplete, Updated May 2021]

Neil never planned to break Andrew's heart.

But Nathan Wesninski is alive and breathing down their necks, and Neil will do anything to keep Andrew safe from him even if it means pushing him away.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: blood, tw: abuse, tw: alcohol abuse, tw: urge to self harm

trivial questions about a triple murder (with answers) by Leocante [Rated T, 20690 Words, Incomplete, Updated Jan 2022]

Nathan Wesninsky was dead. And so was Lola Malcolm. Romero Malcolm. They were all dead, their bodies scattered over the floors tainted with blood, with the prospect of peace. Baltimore could start healing.

Nathan Wesninsky was dead, but his killer was smiling, and Andrew couldn't shake off the feeling that it wasn't the end of anything. The city thrived off crime, and the crime itself was so much bigger than a triple murder. So much more important in the bright white of the interrogation room.

The killer was smiling. Andrew sat into a chair across him.

Cameras stayed off.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: murder, tw: homophobia

Art

butcher neil moodboard by @shiggyduster

Neil with knives art by @emry-stars

a butcher neil doodle art by @xeyoaa

Nathan moodboard by @murder-nerd-nina-blog

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