To Dream Of Souls In Flowers, To Dream Of Gentle Smiles.

For anyone that needs a reminder

Just because you’ve been struggling for so long, longer than people think you should be, that doesn’t mean you are faking it

Just because people don’t understand that there are good days and bad days, that doesn’t mean you are faking it.

Just because even you are doubting yourself and your body, that doesn’t mean you are faking it.

Just because you’ve been in pain for so long you don’t remember what life was like before pain, that doesn’t mean you are faking it

Just because there are days you feel like you don’t even need the cocktail of medicine you take every day and night, that doesn’t mean you are faking it.

Just because people with the same condition have worse symptoms than you, that doesn’t mean you are faking it.

Just because your symptoms are unpredictable, that doesn’t mean you are faking it.

YOU. ARE. NOT. FAKING. IT

YOU. ARE. NOT. AN. IMPOSTER 

p e r r y hkkgfdshk

I hate that chronic illnesses come with other chronic illnesses it’s like a buy one get one deal from hell

If you wish you were manic read this:

The consequences will be disastrous

You may lose your job/get bad grades

You will yell at people

You will lose friends/quarrel with family

The money you spend won't just reappear

You will neglect basic hygiene

Manic episodes physically hurt your brain

You will struggle with cognitive issues for a long time even after the episode passes

You can get imprisoned

After you come out of an episode you will be ashamed and guilty

It's not worth it

Fall in love with your stability

Mania can be good at first but you know what happens later

You can't stop a full blown episode

Psychosis

Paranoia

Narcissism

literally obsessed with the design of blobjects

People who are not afraid to text you 40 times in a row and don’t take it personally if you haven’t replied are literally the most valuable members of our society and should be recognized as such

Clarice Lispector, A Breath of Life

Wait wait wait hold up.

Do neurotypicals not automatically look for patterns?? How?? It's so automatic what

Like for example, there's a item of clothing with flowers printed on it. Do neurotypicals not immediately try and find where the pattern repeats?

I spent years trying to figure out what the pattern was in the tiles in my bathroom.

I stared at someone's leopard print blanket for a good 5 minutes to find duplicate spots.

I genuinely cannot imagine a world where your brain doesn't do that.

Ok yeah bye 👍