What I Wrote Ten Weeks Ago In A Post, Here About How Sawyer Felt About Jack When They Were On The Island:

Three’s Always a Crowd

Okay, sorry if this is cruel baiting you with a seemingly regular update post, when this is actually to announce I'll be modifying my posting schedule. 🙈

I'm still incredibly in love with the story I'm writing, but my personal and professional circumstances have changed quite a bit since I started writing in January (good things for the most part!)

This gives me way less time to write, unfortunately, so I'm thinking of switching to updating every month at most. This will let me breathe in between chapters and not feel pressured to finish in a rush.

GIF of discombobulated Jack is actually Em when she opens her manuscript and realises how much she still has to edit.

The story itself is all mapped out, so be assured it will be coming out, it's just a matter of when. I want writing to keep being fun, and for that I need to release the pressure of bimonthly updates.

Thanks for everyone who's following this story, thanks for understanding, and hoping to bring you more good smut soon 🙏🏾

Em

THAT'S WHY I NEED THEM ALL TOGETHER STAT!!

whenever two are happy, one is miserable.

These two... Love them so much.

Good morning 🥴

Morning kisses with you ❦

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

Kate: Is there anyone here who’s actually straight?

Jack: *raises hand*

Sawyer: *puts Jack’s hand down*

no thoughts, just hanging out with Jack and putting make-up on him 🥰

my toxic trait to myself these days is uttering the words "I don't care" approximately 20 times a day while caring so much, so intensely, in fact, that I could easily throw up from it.

Please can someone with a bigger brain than mine analyse this shit, it's crazy.

I've always loved that John's sacrifice, while for the good of the Island, was pretty much only for Jack's sake.

You have to die to show how convinced you are of your beliefs and, in that, you'll make others believe.

I mean, it worked, but how tragic is that?

Following the honorable @lost-inanotherlife's lead, please can we talk about Jack and John's relationship at length? Once you start thinking about it, it just plagues your mind. they're so intricately linked, it makes me head hurt.

And you know what I find crazier after everything? It's that Jack never found out John was paralysed.

“So what’s the difference between a martyr and a prophet?”

Heyyy

Wanted to know some of your hcs about Jack and Sawyer, or other Lost characters uvu

Heyyyyy ! Thanks for the ask 💗

As you didn't specify NSFW or SFW, I'll keep it clean (I absolutely love NSFW but don't want to subject you to my filthy filthy brain if thats not what you had in mind haha).

I'm going to be shameless and link this to my upcoming story:

Here's my headcanon of the Jack/Sawyer/Kate relationship before the events of The End (my fic starts post-Island).

OK, LET'S YAP.

As any good polyamorous person will tell you, a triad is composed of four interpersonal relationships, three for each duo, and the relationship the three hold together.

Jack & Kate

It's nearly canon but the writers never went all in because they wanted to keep stirring the love triangle, even after Ajira 316 landed (still mad about that).

Jack's basically been in love with Kate since the moment he saw her (who can blame him???) but like the dense mf he sometimes is, he took him years to accept she loved him too, really.

Her wilder side was never something he felt the need to tame. He loves her for who she is but, most importantly:

Who she makes him wanna be.

(To be clear, Jack's already good. He just doesn't believe it).

Kate sees the good in Jack and while the show sometimes wrote her to be cold towards Jack when he was struggling (I'm thinking about the O6 era when Jack was relapsing), I feel like she was doing it mostly to protect herself. She never stopped loving Jack either and hoping he'd get over his demons so they could truly be together.

When Jack said "You didn't like the old me Kate" I am like YEA SHE DID SHE JUST HAD TO PROTECT HER HEART AND AARON'S 🥺

So these two are just made for each other but they have to get past their respective demons and be transparent about them with each other (something Jack hadn't learned before coming back to the Island).

Their last kiss in The End represents all of that.

Sawyer & Kate

Those two really are the ones that nearly made it, in my head. They had something real, and the phase of Kate in the barracks in S4 when she thought she might be pregnant cimented the idea that she had real feelings for him, while still holding feelings for Jack (these people are so poly 😅).

Sawyer also had feelings for her, that's actually just plain canon, but of course they faded when they got separated for three years.

Him being with Juliet actually taught him how to be in a mature transparent relationship.

And while during season 6, Sawyer's just mourning the whole time, I like to think that his past relationship prepared him to be open to love with Kate once they made it back and everything settled.

Jack & Sawyer

My head is filled with off Island canon for these two, but on Island it's pretty straightforward.

Jack, before leaving in S4, was always on alert when Sawyer was there because, even though he felt like they could have been friends, he never could read him.

Actually the warming up to him tragically starts a bit before the Oceanic 6 make it off. If James didn't have to jump from the helicopter, they would have been fast friends (then more I hope 🫣) after making it to the States.

Sawyer is definitely so smitten with Jack from the beginning, it's so evident I feel it's near canon 🤣 and, again, WHO could blame him? He just wants his doc to doctor him 🥵

However, it's not like he was openly thirsting for Jack. The pull he's felt towards him has always been out of his control and something he had a hard time apprehending.

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

ALSO: Did you know in the script notes of The End, we were supposed to get a huge hug between those two when they're saying goodbye on the Island? We got ROBBED!

Jack, Sawyer & Kate

This relationship has only been explored furtively in some of their minds, but none of them have actually considered it as something that could take place.

Kate thought about it once or twice after they first crashed because she's the one who actually toyed with feelings for both these men. So it was more like "Shit would be great if i didnt have to chose."

Good news Freckles, in my world, you don’t !

Sawyer has no experience with men but he always found them attractive. However he hasn't really let himself even imagine what could be so the perspective of the trio might have made one appearance or two in desperate fantasies, late at night on the beach, but that's it.

Jack has experimented with men in med school and liked it but because he's so consumed with Kate, he hasn't really looked at Sawyer that way. Also Jack's problem isn't the man part, it's the "gotta share" part. Jack's obviously not going to have an easy time with this, and that's why as of now he never contemplated it.

Yet everything could change...

Now shameless plug: I pick all of this up in the fanfic I'm posting this week ! Can't wait to share what's been invading my brain with the world 🤍

Ok sorry this is so long. I feel like writing about these guys makes me go crazy, I can't talk about Lost without going into long ramblings. If you made it through, here's your reward, a cute photo showing all of their chemistry, I cant deal.

I WANT THEM HAPPY AND THEY'LL BE HAPPY TOGETHER!

hum literally I've been living in the AU where Jack survives and I won't leave it. I just won't.

canon means nothing when I can shelter my blorbo and keep him alive through the power of archive of our own