Autism Acceptance Month: Autistic Headcanons

I've only ever seen this post in screen shots so im not sure who posted this originally on this fine ass site but i need to talk about it

Story time

As a young girl I as introduced to Star Wars by my uncle he loves Star Wars more than me and that saying something. He even LOVES the prequels... Which I admire him for.

Anyway I was brought up by my mum and dad on your traditional disney princess story i.e. Girl must find man to solve her problems and to be happy. Bless my mum she always tried to tell me that that I didnt have to do that but was like "whaaattt but cinderella had to find a prince so must I!" But heres the thing I never wanted to be the princess i wanted to be the one who did the saving but i felt like i couldnt because thats not what girls do.

Then!

Then I watch the original star wars trilogy for the first time my mind was blown (yeah yeah the bikini was a low point) BUT Here was a woman who was also a princess who was sassy could shoot a fucking gun and out talk most of the empire without trying. I found my first role model who i could truly relate to AND aspire to be like.

As i grew up misogyny became a thing i was acutely aware of (fucking high school bull shit) but i kept going back to my role model my princess and resisting the idea that i was a second class citizen just because I had boobs. I delved in the the interviews with Carrie Fisher and i grew to love her more than her character! She was a real person who told people to fuck off and did what she wanted. I love her so much

When she died it hit me hard, dispite never knowing or meeting me in person she had helped shaped me in to the woman I'm proud to be today. And now she's just not around anymore.

So when people say stuff about Star Wars in a negative way it hurts because it shaped a big part of who i am today. I'm just saying this so y'all know George Lucas did this by accident he didn't intend for Leia to be a bad ass woman Carrie Fisher acted her that way, so its not a perfect example of women in film. But sometimes you have to take what you can get. That is why star wars is my favourite films of all time forget the lightsabers and the cool bad guys in masks. It inspired an 8yr old me to love myself all because of one woman

Carrie Fisher you are an amazing woman and I love you and I'm sad you are gone

I will leave you with my favourite quote of hers that one day i will probably get a tattoo of

"Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What important is the action. You don't have to wait to be confident. Just do it, eventually the confidence will follow"

Now you’ve read all my ramblings please enjoy this thing I made

Leaf-nosed Bat ⋆ 𖥔 ݁ ˖

My new goal in life is to be refered as a.k.a. the "special interest" - Lady and also having an alliteration as my name

Me and my sister have actually been bonding over the whole late/undiagnosed ADHD thing, and ever since I brought up to her that maybe she should get tested too, she's been spotting all sorts of Holy Shit How Did Nobody Notice signs about both of us. After finding out about stimulant resistance/paradoxal reaction, she pointed out that would explain why she's been hooked on coke (the drink, not the snorty stuff) and how I started my unfathomable coffee habit so early.

I started drinking a whole pot of coffee every day since I was like 10. I'd come home from school and brew myself a pot of coffee. I wasn't secretive about it and I was unaware that adults literally did not know that I was doing it, because by the time my parents got home from work in the evening, the whole pot would be gone.

The thing with ADHD is about a chemical imbalance in the brains, below average amounts of the kind of reward chemicals that prompt you to do anything. That's why procrastinating until last-minute panic is a regular habit - the task itself isn't just boring, it's intolerably tedious all the way until the adrenaline from the deadline panic boosts the brain to function on a - well, functional - level.

A lot of undiagnosed ADHD people unconsciously self-medicate with caffeine. I'm not a chemist, but as a mild stimulant, the caffeine gives you a boost that helps balance out the brain. Not as much as actually being medicated, but it's still better than nothing.

I didn't do it on purpose because it would "help me focus" on anything important or constructive - I didn't do my homework unprompted, not once, ever, since I was like 15 - but considering that nobody noticed a 10-year-old drinking a whole goddamn pot of coffee in the span of 4-5 hours every single day, one could conclude that it wasn't making me noticeably hyperactive.

I didn't drink coffee because I wanted a specific effect, though. As far as I was concerned I was drinking it because I liked it. And the reason why I started the habit in the first place was because at the time, I was reading a shit ton of Garfield comics for some reason and that orange cat managed to convince me that drinking a shit ton of coffee every day is cool. Anyway, the moral of the story is

Wednesday is aspec💜💚

sure sex is cool but have you ever thought about vampires so hard you got dizzy

Things that make me (autistic and goth) a vampire:

Sun? No, thank you. Instant kill.

Counting everything. Please don't throw rice at me.

Invite me directly. "You're always invited". No, I have to stand at your door and you have to say "Come in", else I can't physically enter.

Did someone eat garlic like 5 days ago? I can tell.

You don't want to be informed for three hours about the different sounds bats make?

Black cloths. Everything else is too overstimulating.

Very formal and rigid way of speaking and behaving, almost like a dark lord in 1894.

"I've recently started this hobby... wait, this was a decade ago?"

Festive gingerbread bats! With a link to the official Gothic Charm School recipe!