@sunandwhiskey

Amazing

It's amazing how you go through your life meeting people loving some friends and acquaintances. For me it was always easy everyone liked me but love wise i suck. I always have just settled for who ever was available this ended up getting me married for 14 years to a straight up bitch but I stayed till she cheated then it was over. Then ended up with a woman with two kids which I feel in love with. It was great I know had a family off drugs and settled down. But she couldn't stay clean and two weeks after we separated she overdosed. I fell off the wagon again and decided just to stay single and do what ever I wanted and who. Then a girl showed up who had been over with a friend once before. She was amazing she would come hang out in my shop and talk about everything under the sun. Then it started I was falling for her and hard but one problem she was married. Then one night it happened I was actually scared of her I knew she would break me but I couldn't resist it felt so right. Then a few days later her husband kicked her out. God I was so happy to see her and I moved her right in. This was around 19 months ago. Which have been the greatest and happiest of my life. Then around 3 months ago it started to unravel because I was pushing for her to get divorced which didn't go as I thought it would. We split up I had never felt so much pain and hurt but luckily I got her back and her divorce is in the works. I don't know what will become of us I'm still madly in love with her but I'm not so sure she still fills the same I'm hoping it's just her bring nervous about leaving that life and starting a new chapter with me. I fill in my heart she's the one and has been we where just late meeting. The one thing im 100% about is she's the one I want to grow old with and I hope and pray that she fills the same way.

“Expectation is the mother of all frustration.”

— Antonio Banderas

Remember

I remember you racing to my house after you dropped your kids off at school know you race from our house to pick them up and take them.God I miss those days we where so in love or at least I was and I believe you where too. I'm so sorry things didn't turn out right but I figured as much nothing ever goes my way and that's why I was the way I was when we meet. See after so many years of everything going bad you just give up and stay numb. Sorry for getting you to stay even though it was the best year of my life. But I also know it caused alot of hurt for you and I'm sorry for that. I love you and always will. You was my light in a world without sun. But it's time to stop the games go home to your perfect world

@sunandwhiskey

Why is it so hard to find someone who will love you and cherish you? Is there really such a thing as true love anymore? How can someone say they love you when they lie to you? Why is it if you forgive someone for the things they have done to you like lie and be deceiving they think the trust should just be instantly returned? These are just a few questions for the day feel free to answer. And for you J.C. I always loved you and still do but when you walk out our door today it's all on you and you will never walk through it again no matter how much I love you. True Story

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

“As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.”

— Haruki Murakami

“The easiest lies to tell are the ones you want to be true.”

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Holly Black