- (chaos Rising)

BLADE RUNNER (1982) dir. Ridley Scott

okay so i just finished the first thrawn book right? and like all of it is making me feel insane and i am sure someone has pointed this out already but do you wanna know what makes me feel extra insane?

thrawn send eli away to protect him

like sure he also sends him away to help the chiss and so he could reach his full potential and bla bla but look - thrawn realizes very early that eli is a target as long as he's with him

and then that is proven over and over again throughout the book until it finally accumulates in this - pryce outright threatening thrawn right after she showed how incredibly ruthless she is

and then the very next scene is thrawn and eli talking about that very conversation, it's eli first acknowledging how dangerous pryce and the high command are and then confirming - even if he might not be fully aware himself - that he is loyal to thrawn not to the empire

which, let me remind you, comes after yularen just pointed a blaster at thrawn and accused him of treason

and i think that moment of eli pledging his allegiance to thrawn is the first time thrawn realizes both the depth of which he cares for eli and that he will be eli's downfall if he keeps him around

which then leads to him sending eli away to the chiss and this fucking devastating journal entry:

like for a moment i was confused bc it happend so fast without a goodbye, plus he offered it to nightswan first and it kinda felt like eli was just an afterthought but no oh fuck no

like nightswan thrawn would have send to help keep the chiss safe, to utilize his abilities to help them fight whatever enemies are lurking in the dark, but eli, oh no, thrawn never planned on sending eli away in the first place, not until he realized it was the only way he could keep him safe

and yeah eli will obv also be beneficial to the chiss, like ofc he will, he's smart as heck, but below all that is the simple fact that thrawn is doing all this empire shit to keep his people safe so even if the empire falls that is still the safest place for eli to be

and I'm just feeling very emo about that

Thrawn’s first time using Imperial technology.

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Illustration of a wonderful fanfiction, Vun’kebah by @foreverforty2

Definitely must-read story!  💙

I love him ! 💙

Showering Samakro (after his long shift with Thrawn)

@foreverforty2 - this is for you 🤭

canon and legends thrawn (designs from their respective comic adaptations )… imagine how the conversation between the two would go…

Rukh Reimagined … for my Thrawn fanfic “Facilitation” on AO3 … warning: extremely spicy … mind the tags

My second Thrawn Fanfiction is up! Complete!

Now with a fanart drawn by @blackmonitor !!!

I love your demon stories!!! More?

Sooo… there will be more, many more… BUT it’s going to be a years-long process… I have many Plans of what I intend to do with my future writing, but real life is a bitch.

In my brain there are written already seven installments of Rakul’s series; and part 1, “Kitsil”, the story of his parents, is 95% complete (and it is what I consider my best work to date). Technically “Rakul” on AO3 is part 4 of the series. I actually intend to put the first one and Rakul for sale as e-books onto smashwords.com, as that site allows “taboo” erotica… specifically non-con. I have discovered that mainstream ebook sites like Amazon do not allow noncon (although some authors put it there anyway and risk being banned), and even smashwords reserves the right to remove possibly too-offensive stories. I also need to paint the cover for Kitsil and format it as an ebook.

Rakul is about 90% written and I still need to finish that and Simshian as well. Simshian will be renamed and 3 to 4 more chapters added and I intend to put it onto Amazon Kindle Unlimited (KU) as a monster erotica novella (at which time it will be removed from AO3); and I also need to make the cover art for it still. After that, there will be a three novel trilogy about Rakul’s father that will go onto KU, and the 3 sequels following that are already in my mind (Simshian being essentially an excerpt from the last one in that sequence). It’s going to be a long-form smutty demon soap opera.

I also have several other loosely or unrelated monster romance stories planned that are set in the same world, many of which involve the demons, but those are going to be worked on much farther in the future. AND in the meantime, I intend to continue work on Rakul’s series for AO3. However, my real life is quite busy and high stress right now with family responsibilities, so all of these things I want to do are going to be a months-to-years long process. However, rest assured I am quite devoted to these demons, and I don’t see that changing. I’m quite determined to get these stories out, however long it takes, because I love these characters quite a lot now.

Thank you so much for the ask! Of course I’m super happy to talk about my characters and my upcoming novels and really gratified and flattered to know other people love them too !!!