Queen Scarlet Before The Scar

The X-Files  | 1x03 “Squeeze”  (1993)  

i'm always into the brian jonestown massacre, but when i'm really into them is when i'm reminded of why i love them so much. how literally no other band in the world could ever mean as much to me as they do ... bc at the end of the day, bjm makes me feel things no other band does. how they inspired me to create my favorite oc ever ( looking at you knox ) and create a sprawling story from that, one i adore. the soundtrack to my life. will forever shout them out because where would i even be today without them!! so many people i've met through them, so much lore added to my life bc of bjm. little lost media searches and random people i love on youtube because of their music ( looking at you, mr. bjm man ). smth about saying they're my fav band just feels right. and i can also flex my special edition dvd of dig! because yes, i am a dvd hoarder. overall just had to spew this out because i'm back on their shit and, tbh, missed this fun little part of my life <3

I love it when an artist puts out a concept album and the concept is that they had a mental breakdown

“is this character good or bad” “is this ship unproblematic or not” “is this arc deserving of redemption or not” girl…

actually so sad that there are no analyses on jerma dollhouse …. aside from the 2 on youtube i saw but they talk more about the general themes of the story / bringing theater to twitch in a creative and successful way. haven’t seen anything on the characters and i’m kinda starved for that rn! i think i’m too stupid to try my hand at an analysis, but a character study on jerma or emilia or even someone like jebediah would be so fun methinks. whether that would be ignoring chat’s involvement in the whole thing or making it a part of the analysis … would be fun to throw that out the window though and treat the characters ( mainly jerma ) as their own people who act on things themselves rather than being told or forced to. like why is jerma so flirty. is this learned behavior? a defense mechanism?? why is he like that??? it puts him in the most awkward, uncomfortable situations and i wanna know WHY !! again shoving chat to the back of my mind here, just pretending jerma has complete self-control and acts on his own whims … why does he act like that.

obviously i’m taking this stream / story way too seriously but i don’t care it’s what i do!! treating comedy and crack as seriously as possible is what i find the most fun in life. and jerma’s story here is a mixture of hilarious and tragic, something i desperately want to analyze, but again, not sure if i necessarily have the capabilities to. though there would be certain things i’d want to comment on, such as : jerma and emilia’s relationship, dying and escaping death ( then ruining your life by adding on some extra years ), jerma’s friendships and interactions with others, and the crushing weight jerma always seems to carry on his shoulders while hiding it all from the world at the very same time. just a few things i really enjoyed during the stream and would love to talk about if possible. hell, maybe i will sometime, if i can actually get my act together and analyze these characters, plots, and themes. not saying it’ll all be correct or canon, but it would be fun! bringing a bit of reality in.

anyway there’s some of my thoughts on jerma dollhouse and how much it already means to me …

reading all of this umbrella academy s4 hate and criticism is so surreal … what happened to this show.. s1 stays one of my fav seasons of a show of all time but it got this bad ??? really?? i watched most of s2 and did NOT vibe so stopped watching long ago. now i just want to know wtf happened

personal space? idk her: [64/?]

foaming at the mouth over patrick jane. actually i will never be normal about this character, he's become my new mulder, my new ethan .... truly the last time i felt this way watching a tv show was in 2017 !!! when i watched the x-files for the first time!! i've gotten attached to patrick so quickly it's insane. he won me over in .2 seconds, there is nothing unlikeable about this man i fear. through all his flaws and all his mistakes he STILL manages to be endearing. god i love him.

If its more than one of these, vote the one that was strongest and/or lasted the longest.

I wanted to be a marine illustrator !! Like for textbooks n stuff

Person of Interest (2011-2016) || 3x12 - Aletheia