[Day 30]: TANUKI JOEL TANUKI JOEL TANUKI JOEL-

Should i start posting multifandom stuff?

Idk I've always hyperfixated on one fandom REALLY hard for like 1-3 yrs (warrior cats -> mha -> danganronpa -> dsmp/osmp -> qsmp -> hermitcraft?)

But idk currently my brain isn't like violently latching onto any fandoms and making my entire identity revolve around it. Hermitcraft is cool n all but no matter how hard i try, my hyperfixation on it isn't as strong as i want it to be :<

So i though i might like, branch out a bit? Imma prob still mainly post hermitcraft, but i might occasionally mention dungeon meshi, saiki k, bbc merlin and some other stuff! (more in the tags)

!!!IF YOU GUYS WATCH ANY OF THESE, LEMME KNOW!!! or if you have any suggestions for other mcyts / animes / video games that i might find cool :D

REMINDER TO VOTE!!!

also, rb for bigger sample size? I guess? Idk if that applies in this case woehwke but rbs are always appreciated!

Im gona participate in artfight this year!

I've got a bunch of old OCs (one of which im gona post later today :3) that i wanna redraw/redesign for artfight, help me choose the order!

(OLD) ART OF THEM BELOW!

Sb!Clay (oc that i made for the silverblood SMP)

He's a revolutionary with a superiority & savior complex. He joins a cult in hopes of getting the power he needs to overthrow a corrupt government / religious institution, but ends up becoming much worse than them as he slowly spirals and looses himself. Aka, someone who should have stayed a warrior instead of trying to be a ruler/leader.

Kai (oc that i made for a dnd one shot)

He's a thief who's kind of a dick bc he will literally just leave ppl behind, steal shit, cause chaos and do other bad things and not care. He just likes adventuring and having fun, doesn't rly care about the consequences it has for other people.

Sabrina (oc i came up w/ in the middle of class)

Apocalypse survivor with anxiety, pathetic wet rag energy, and most importantly: a gun.

Happy :)

Aneth isn't on here bc I CANT FUCKING FIND ANY ART OF HER. but shes like... A goat lion human hybrid??? Idk how to explain her

Evil Xisuma:

Submitted for: Hermitcraft

Headcanons: Transmasc Demi-boy, he/they

Propaganda: Canonically uses he/they

“Their voice is deepened by a voice changer, even though they wear the same helmet as Xisuma, which could hint at them purposefully adding a voice changer in order to have a deeper voice.”

“Evil Xisuma bites you if you misgender them (They also bite you if you properly gender them) (They bite).”

“THEY'RE SO NON GENDER CONFORMING CODED.”

“We have he/they on canon for a reason, a very evil transgender swag reason 🏳️‍⚧”

TibbyCaps:

Submitted for: Artimators SMP

Headcanons: Transmasc, he/him

Propaganda: Transmasc irl

“[The submitter is] here for Tibby and Tibby only please make him win. He's literally trans and also really cool.”

“PLEASE, IF HE WINS AGAINST XB [the submitter] WILL COSPLAY HIM.”

“His shield in Artimators is a trans flag!”

“Vote Tibbycaps, [the submitter is] going insane, because, yes, not only he is irl trans. But how does everyone miss that he just is trans??? [They] don't even know how to describe it. Like, he just feels so trans. As a person. The gender is strong with him. Even if he were cis he'd still be trans. Does that make sense? Like. Augggg [they don’t know] how to actually. Put this into words. [They] can't handle this, Tibby is the best, most transest, he deserves to win this!!”

“Tibby is the awesomest!! Vote for Tibby, his art is so, so cool and awesome!! Also he's the transiest trans to ever. Trans. And that's coming from a trans person >:3”

“Tibby isn't a trans man, he's the man that transed up. Or trans that manned up. Either way, vote Tibbycaps.”

“Vote Tibbycaps!!!! He's [the submitter’s] favorite youtuber and he is so cool and awesome :D He's so trans the energy just. Exudes off of him. Like you can't hear him talk for more than five seconds without going "Yea that guys trans" /pos. Go watch Tibbycaps if you wanna see for yourself. Sub to Tibby”

“Tibbycaps is so trans he could be like "I'm the trans fairy, fairy of the trans," and [the submitter would] be like “Yes Tibby, you're so right Tibby. Vote Tibbycaps.”

“Tibbycaps is the bestttttt, vote Tibbycaps! Hes:

-trans, like so trans

-autism (boy autism (<-/ref))

-such a good artist!!

-fucking HILARIOUS

-makes such good videos

-has good vibes all around

-[the submitter’s] comfort streamer”

Chat, ya'll hungry?

They always are ;^;

“You shouldn’t self-ID as ADHD/autistic, you’re turning a very real mental condition into a trend” Ok then stop saying delulu. Stop speculating on which cluster C personality disorder the criminals you hear about on the news have. Stop saying “schizoposting” and “acoustic” and “is it restarted?” Stop using “psycopath” and “sociopath” as catch-all ways of calling someone a bad person. Stop saying “the intrusive thoughts won” when you bleach your hair and then turn your nose up at people who suffer from very real, very scary urges of physical/sexual violence. Stop saying “I’m so OCD” as a way of calling yourself neat. Stop treating BPD/ASPD/Bipolar as inherently abusive. Stop saying “OP I am living in your walls” without tagging for unreality. Stop diagnosing complete strangers you’ve never met on r/AITA with NPD.

You first. If you don’t want our disabilities to be treated like trends then stop belittling and minimising them. I’ll NEVER judge a person for trying find labels for their symptoms when an apathetic, racist, sexist, ableist healthcare system refuses to. But I will absolutely judge a hypocrite. Which a lot of you are

100% agree dude

I feel like after a life on the streets and as a spy, hes gotten really really really good at hiding anxiety, mh issues, panic, etc.

Like. If someone held a gun to ur head, ud panic, but Cyphers prob been in situations where panicking could end deadly. I think more fics need to portray him as dissociated as fuck, bc hiding away has been natural for him for so long, he doesn't even do it consciously anymore.

Like, its gotten to a point where even in the quiet privacy of his own room, Cypher automatically hides all signs of panic, anxiety, grief, etc. Just bc its become natural atp. I feel like hed be a bit in denial/unaware of his emotions, or would simply try to ignore them yk

i like to think that he did it before Nora and she helped him unlearn it. But after she died, it got worse than ever before, both purposefully out of fear and partially on accident bc yk trauma of ur wife dying and shit

Also! Agree on the fics point. Yall write whatever ya want, ooc fics can be great and i love to read a "Cypher has a public mental breakdown" fic from time to time, bc its fun, idc if it feels ooc! Fics r for ur own self indulgence first and foremost!

My biggest fear is falling for the fanonised version of characters that I don’t see the in depth personalities they have anymore

Cypher’s mental state is such an easy thing to get wrong it’s hard to find fics that characterise it right, or at least in my opinion

That’s not to say I think all ooc fics are bad! No! What’s the point of fanfics if you don’t make your lil guys do shit they aren’t supposed to??

But back on topic, I think Cypher’s grief is another thing that’s handled so broadly from fic to fic

Sometimes he doesn’t seem to be weighed by it at all, sometimes it causes him to fear things and drown in self loathing because of it, sometimes he’s so mentally separated from his trauma that ‘Cypher’ and ‘Amir’ are two wholly different people. It’s interesting to see how sensitive or insensitive they make Cypher himself with this

Is there a right way to portray it? Honestly hard to say, but there are fics that I read that instead of feeling right they just don’t feel wrong— Y’know what I mean???

In my analysis of him, he’s clearly still not past Nora and his family (I have thoughts about the possible world they’re alive but that’s for a different post). I know grief doesn’t go away, not his type at least, but it does get easier with time. This leads me to believe that Cypher’s wife hasn’t been dead for too many years at this point— I’ve always imagined Cypher having been part of current day protocol for a couple of years after getting himself together, so I want to say she hasn’t been dead for over 10 years yet.

I think that Cypher, or rather, Amir was a lover. Like heart and soul he loved. It’s not that uncommon of a belief that when someone dies, the person their spouse was dies with them. Is this the case with Cypher? I think he believes that.

I think Cypher believes the man Amir was is long dead. But I also think he’s wrong. I think that for as much as he is a cruel man with all he has said and done, he is still a lover. Why else would seeing Bind make him so angry? It’s because he still loves it.

Amir may be dead to him, but ‘he’s’ still alive. Which person does that ‘he’ belong to? I don’t think that matters.

Whether Cypher is (still?) depressed, or only silently grieving, or maybe even healing, he’s alive. No matter his state I believe he knows his family wants him to continue living. He can’t break a final promise to them.

My only wish is for fanfic writers to not write him like some shaken up teenager because he is in fact a grown ass man that has lived through the streets and wouldn’t break down the same way normal people would. I’d imagine he’s much more gruff than that.

Related, there’s a single action that was portrayed in a fic I saw about him that feels very not wrong. In it he’s sitting at a bar with the other agents all celebrating a well done mission. In it he is being consumed by paranoia. Does his breathing spike? Does he sweat? Does he feel like throwing up? No. Instead, he simply drums his fingers and disguises the anxiety as boredom.

Because that’s what he does.

He hides.

OHHH TY SM!! THAT'S SO COOL!? the lil snail is so cuteeee :D

Yo Secret Santa delivery for @ghostyclay!

Take a Gem with her lil pink snail :D

Everytime ppl start liking/rb old art of mine again i get a lil jumpscared, cause it's like "whats tha- WOAH! Wait i completely forgot i made that..."

Memory issues + poor object permanence will do that to u wkdjakdj

[Day 18]: joehills

FINALLY! Ive been waiting for a reason to show off my joe design >:D i present to you: jhost controlling his juppet! Hope u guys like it, imma go back to working on the next art rq :3

Tubbo_:

Submitted for: Dream SMP

Headcanons: Demi-boy, he/they

Propaganda: None submitted

Technoblade:

Submitted for: Dream SMP

Headcanons: Agender, he/him

Propaganda: “Techno is responsible for So Much of [the submitter’s] gender, no joke.”

“THAT MAN SCREAMS AGENDER ALONG WITH APAGENDER AND ALSO SCREAMING I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU THINK AND NOT CARING FLUCTUATING HIS MASCULINITY AND FEMININITY NO MATTER THE PRESENTATIOn!!”

“Look, Techno is the most trans ever- like how do compete with a Pig that is drawn as a anthropomorphic boar, an anime girl, and just a dude. How can anyone compete with that?”

Evil Xisuma:

Submitted for: Hermitcraft

Headcanons: Transmasc Demi-boy, he/they

Propaganda: Canonically uses he/they

Once again,

EVERYONE VOTE EVIL X AND IF YOU DO ILL DRAW YOU AN ART REQUEST!!!! GOGOGO MAKE THEM WIN AGAIN!!!! THEY SHALL NOT BE DEFEATED!!!!

Raddles:

Submitted for: Server not specified

Headcanons: Identity not specified, pronouns not specified

Propaganda: “​​She is transgender and bisexual irl.”

“Catgirls shall prevail.” - Rad Raddles herself

Evil Xisuma:

Submitted for: Hermitcraft

Headcanons: Transmasc Demi-boy, he/they

Propaganda: Canonically uses he/they

“Their voice is deepened by a voice changer, even though they wear the same helmet as Xisuma, which could hint at them purposefully adding a voice changer in order to have a deeper voice.”

“Evil Xisuma bites you if you misgender them (They also bite you if you properly gender them) (They bite).”