March absolutely sucked. Praying for an angelic Ana April.
(Wishing you all one as well)
72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.
I feel so gross, I need to cleanse myself somehow.
developed ana so i could finally be in control of something n do well at it only to lose control of yet another aspect of my life and suck at restricting
Ik I might sound crazy but I want my mom to worry. I want her to feel bad for not realizing the pain I was going through, how bad I’ve been getting. I want her to know that every time she ever said something about me being a bad person it didn’t just affect her, but me too. She thinks that it’s all about her because of her addiction, but I want her to know that she isn’t the only one with problems. She is always going on about her stuff, how much her recovery has changed her, don’t get me wrong I’m really proud of her but it’s like since she has recovered she hates me sm, like whenever she was drinking she would tell me how much she loved me, how special I was, but now that she’s been recovered she can’t even speak without saying something remotely rude about my existence. I want to be the girl she thought I was. I think that If I get bad enough she will start to worry and maybe care again? Idk I’m crazy but whoever made it this far, thanks for listening.
Nothing infuriates me more than a menu not having c4lori3s
TV SHOW/MOVIE TH1NSPØ (•‿•)
Tv Shows:
1000lb Best Friends
My 600lb Life
Family by the Ton
Nana
Movies:
Bring It On
Thin Documentary
To The Bone
Girl, Interrupted
Heathers
Jennifer’s Body
✰ BONUS YOUTUBE OPTIONS ✰
Amberlynn Reid compilations
Fat acceptance compilation (cringe)
Supersized vs Superskinny
(Lemme know if you have more options!!)
nothing excites me more than watching the scale go down
I hate everything right now. It feels like my body was made to hold fat. I can’t lose anything anymore. I’m literally so done.
I’ve fasted today and I feel like I’m winning.
I’m going to go on a five day fast. The longest I’ve ever done is 48 hours which I know is nothing but I struggle with fasting. Wish me luck! I will post how much I lose by the end.