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These is literally my favorite pics of you you‘re so beautiful like I want freckles now too 🌟❤️

I had some questions about modeling and acting that I wanted to dm you about if that‘s ok? And can I ask what ethnicity are you?

My freckles only appear in rare cases & disappear later on (idk if freckles caused by sun exposure count as natural freckles?). But thank you. I'm Native American. & you're free to dm me & ask whatever you want, that's fine. ☺️🖤

Hello. My name is Nica. I want to stay anon until I get comfortable and I‘m not good with new people. But my question is, how do you advise someone to deal with their depression? Do you know any remedies that help with chronic sadness? Or panic attacks? My life isn‘t where I want it to be atm, dealing with a lot of stuff and I don‘t have any friends to talk to or get help from. Sorry if I‘m bothering you in the morning I just saw that you‘re leaving tumblr and it triggered an attack and I feel like crying. You were the one blog I liked and how you helped people and now I don‘t have anybody :/

Omg. No, no, no, you're not bothering me at all, & you're not just going to wake up one day & my account is going to be deactivated. I'll tell you all when I'm leaving & chances are I still won't deactivate, just cause. I'm so, so sorry, I didn't mean to trigger you. It was just an idea I had. I used to have really bad panic attacks to a point were my muscles would hurt for days, I had to be taken in an ambulance & put on meds cause I had them daily for like a month. I wouldn't eat, I was constantly snapping on people & irritated. I turned into someone who isn't me. My family noticed the change & pointed it out & I snapped on them for that. It was that bad. And this was recent, this wasn't like 5 years ago, all this happened LAST year. So I know from experience how difficult & painful what you're going through right now can be.

Even though I still have anxiety sometimes, I learned how to stop the attacks from happening, I don't have them anymore. But before then my doctor wanted to put me in a psych ward, (yeah, he literally recommended that) & I took Xanax (& Zoloft for two days) for a while, then it stopped helping, so he wanted to increase my dose. And I didn't want to become an addict or dependent on meds (I personally don't believe in taking meds for mental illnesses), so one day I just decided "fuck it, I'm not taking anything anymore" & I realized in that moment that the decision I made scared me a fucking lot cause I wasn't going to have anything to run to, but ultimately it was going to help me. I had to hurt & pray A LOT before I got better. While I was going through it I felt so hopeless & lost & I started questioning my faith in God cause I didn't feel like anything was changing, I felt worse tbh. I remember one night I just completely gave up & I drove to my mom's house in the middle of the night cause I didn't know what else to do. We went for a walk & talked until the sun came up. I never call my parents when I'm going through something terrible, I always try to resolve my problems on my own, so if I call them it's serious. But with time I got better. And I'm happier. So I'm living proof that you CAN overcome your biggest demons. My advice to you would be to start slow, you won't get better overnight. It's going to take time & it's going to hurt - I won't lie to you, but you WILL prevail in the end. But for now, distract yourself, get on your phone & find a funny video. Give yourself time to breathe & realize you're safe. That feeling will pass & you'll be okay again. & if you ever need someone to talk to to help you calm down, come hop in my dm's & we can hang out until you feel better. You don't have to be alone. & you definitely don't have to suffer alone. I often get people who ask me for advice in handling depression, that's partially the reason I haven't left Tumblr. I wouldn't want to abandon anybody. I'm so sorry you're going through this, honey. I hope things get better for you. Literally if you need me to just stay here for you just to help you, I will. & if you need any more resources in dealing with anxiety/depression, dm me. I'm so sorry for triggering you. I'll choose my words more carefully next time. Bless your heart, I'll pray for you.

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Organizations:

National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH); 866-615-6464

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI); 800-950-NAMI (800-950-6264)

Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA); 240-485-1001

American Psychiatric Association; 800-357-7924

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Division of Mental Health (CDC); 800-CDC-INFO (800-232-4636)

American Psychological Association; 800-374-2721

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Coping, Advocacy, and Support:

Anxiety and Depression Association of America: Support Groups

The Anxiety Network: Help and Support

Anxiety Central: Forums

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Medications for Anxiety Disorders (talk to your doctor first):

Cymbalta (duloxetine)

Celexa (citalopram)

Zoloft (sertraline)

Anafranil (clomipramine)

Prozac (fluoxetine)

Paxil (paroxetine)

Xanax (alprazolam)

Klonopin (clonazepam)

BuSpar (buspirone)

Valium (diazepam)

Ativan (lorazepam)

Lexapro (escitalopram)

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Links:

https://www.counseling.org/knowledge-center/mental-health-resources/anxiety

https://adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad/resources

https://blog.thetransitionhouse.org/anxiety-help-and-resources-1

https://www.rtor.org/anxiety/

https://www.nami.org/About-Mental-Illness/Mental-Health-Conditions/Anxiety-Disorders

I H o p e Y o u ' r e O k a y

Silly question:

Are you bad at math?

No, I'm actually really good at math, to my own surprise.

I have always hated numbers until they had to be incorporated into my business (pricing, costs, investments, income, salaries, etc). Maybe that's why I'm good at math after all.

Would you like to be friends? 😁😄😃

Ha ha...no.

Because you see, most people aren't going to put the same amount of effort in that I do...and that is the biggest form of rejection to me. The worst kind, actually. Friends let you down, or people you trust betray you and steal your secret chocolate recipes, why should I want them? Besides, The Buckets, Hatter and Edward are my dearest friends. I have no more tolerance for others. Maybe you should ask Edward, he told me that it gets lonely up in that stuffy castle sometimes, and unfortunately I can't visit often. He lives quite the distance and my factory is demanding.

😂

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~Welcome to my blog~

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Cozy Vibes, Rainy Vibes

Sleep Vibes, Autumn & Winter Vibes

Poetry

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Hello. You look like a attractive actor I used to watch in a horror film series... he played a murderous spirit that hum a eerie song that lured children into the woods and he killed them there because their parents didn’t pay him for his work when he was a alive and then he killed the town people because the city burned him alive for fake witchcraft accusations... my Dad made me stop watching it because the underground scene was giving me nightmares... are you friends with a producer named nauci / naucey ?

Hi. 👋☺️ *Nancy, yeah. I am. It was based on the Salem witch trials & the legend of Pied Piper, with darker imagery. I've heard people say it gave them nightmares or triggered their anxiety. It's funny you brought up the catacombs cause we had to redo a murder scene down there a few times because a lot of the cast & crew thought the crying was "too real", thinking the kids were being hurt for real. This gif actually reminds me a lot of the kids being lured into the forest before the murders.

❄️💋❗BIG ANNOUNCEMENT❗💋🎄

@winslowat3am and I are partnering up for our first ever seasonal giveaway on Tumblr! We want to do something fun for the holidays because we know times have been hard and some people need some cheering up, so we're bringing the holidays to you guys! 🎄🎁❄️☃️ Starting today, the Thanksgiving giveaway is open from now until Friday 10:00am PST. We will be giving away 2 mystery boxes filled with new clothes from top brands, gift cards, miscellaneous, and other surprises!

🎁 HOW TO ENTER 🎁:

1 reblog = 1 entry. You can reblog this post multiple times but please don't spam your followers. Likes do not count as entries.

You don't have to be following my or his blog - but new followers are always welcome!

Winners will be selected randomly and announced after the competition is closed. I and Winslow will contact the winners we pick via private message. In addition we will be asking for the winners' fav aesthetic(s) and sizing info to match the items we choose with their body type, preferences and style as best as we can. I will be selecting a winner and @winslowat3am will be choosing the other. Winners will have 3 days to claim their prizes, otherwise we'll pick new winners.

SUPER IMPORTANT: PLEASE ALREADY HAVE A PO BOX ACTIVE THAT CAN RECEIVE MAIL AS WE WILL NOT BE MAILING THE BOXES TO HOME ADDRESSES. ALSO DO NOT PUBLICLY POST YOUR ADDRESS! WE WANT TO KEEP EVERYONE SAFE. Please give 1-2 weeks to receive your mail. We ship internationally so all are welcome to enter the giveaway.

Sidenote: If you're having a "something went screwy" error popping up where your messages are supposed to be, please email tumblr support so that they can fix it for you before you enter the giveaway because we will be contacting the winners by message! If you have any further questions please feel free to contact myself or Winslow.

I'm so excited to be able to be involved in this collab! Good luck to all who enter!! Xoxo 🎁🎁🎁

- Rose

For every bad person you meet there's a good one, whenever you start to lose faith in humanity, remember that.

~ Personal Thoughts

The fourteenth century Manor House in Chipping Campden, now a five-star hotel with a Michelin starred restaurant. (@_dpc_photography IG)

“October is about rainy days with a cup of your favorite tea and your laptop, curled up on the couch in a big blanket writing about everything.”

— Philippa A. Madsen (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)