I Almost Forgot Terezi Wasnt Blind Anymore

[S] COLLIDE: FRAYMOTIFS

it just keeps happening

dead vriska yes

please read today’s upd8

okay so i’m super duper into this upd8??? like it was sad but i think it was incredibly important to dave and dirk’s development and gave us a really good look at how these boys work, and heres some of the main points. warning for major spoilers i guess??

hussie directly addressing bro’s abuse towards dave

dave explaining and showing how bro’s abuse affects him now (ie how dave doesn’t like to fight or be in danger, how he feels about heroism, and how he apologized for initiating physical contact with dirk)

how much dave is seriously NOT over bro at all, and how much living in that household for 13 years affected him

how even if lil cal was to blame for bro’s behavior, it was still shitty and inexcusable regardless of the amount of influence on bro

dave talking about how the other beta kids never really understood how bad it was for dave, and how dave wished he would’ve had someone who actually cared for him

dirk knowing that he was toxic and shitty towards jake, and understanding that he seriously needs to step off and leave jake alone now (”It’s not any one thing. I think I was just a completely toxic element in his life from day one. “

dirk acknowledging that he is someone who could turn into another bro if he doesn’t watch his shit

dirk using bro’s bad actions to try and make himself a better person

basically this upd8 was just??? so so good and really, really important for bro apologists and dirkjake shippers to see

there is so much things i want to say about the whole upd8 but this last scene.

dave apologizing repeatedly and saying “this is fucked up”

dirk about to say something but immediately switch to supporting dave

i am currently drowning in feels

my favorite lines in the upd8 today

THATS WHAT ARADIA WAS DOING

tAVROS DANCING, bECAUSE  vRISKA,

yOU, gOT, oWNED,

I’m trying to figure out why I like Davepetasprite so much.

Part of it is the juiced-up wish fulfillment of it all, which feels like a very deliberate gesture - DPS look like someone’s OC because they are a perfected being, the Very Thing You Want, as filtered through the native symbol language of MSPA.  Forget that Hope nonsense: this is what an angel looks like in comic sans.

It’s also the end of Dave’s arc, in the way that Jasprosesprite is the end of Rose’s.  The Strider/Lalonde problem is anhedonia.   A situation in which Dave is able to delight in himself - surely that’s the major problem of his character solved, right?  And it couldn’t happen to the “real” Dave, because that kind of solution doesn’t happen to real people.  You don’t wake up one day and decide that you love yourself.  Magic is required.

So the squared sprites are projections of what Dave and Rose wanted to be, really.  Ultraconfident sexually aggressive tentacle cat princess and empathetic androgynous never-alone mindmeld hyperfurry?  Are you kidding me?  Sign my terrified middle-school self up.  If this were really a video game and these kids genuinely gained all the levels, these are what the results would be: the highest selves of 13-year-old trauma victims.  Not god tiers, but gods. And, as gods, they are peripheral - they have to be, right?  The mortals are over there weeping and hugging and smothering themselves with pillows, but the trade-off is they get to have the real relationships and learn the real lessons and live the real lives. Original Dave and Original Rose get to live without pain.

There are always these gears turning in Homestuck under all the bullshit, and that’s what I’m here for.  The Bad Man has this insane propensity for getting me to feel genuine feelings about the impossible and the impossibly stupid.

Ta-Da I finished the beta kids!!!!!! maybe i should line them up next?

John[x] Rose[x] Dave[x]