Me Planning Out My Story: This Will Be So Straightforward And Easy!

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Me: *on tumblr, minding my business*

My next chapter, sitting unfinished:

the thing about disability is it really does sometimes boil down to "wow i wish i could do that" and then you can't. and it sucks.

Writer’s Blessing from Get Your Words Out on Dreamwidth. I bestow it upon thee. Go and be weird.

But consider this...

Mr. Brightfalls

Somebody that I used to kick

Viva la radioactive titanium

Weird ass mash ups that shouldn’t work but do are my favourite

A shining example of what Christianity should be. Maybe if all Christians were like this more people would like us

cardiologist backstreet boys: Ain't nothin but a heartache

medieval backstreet boys: you are… my friar

do you think insight can be gained about an author from the stories they write?

no. authors are like squids and can only be understood through spirited but ultimately futile combat

Oof.

When I was a (unmedicated, undiagnosed ADHD) kid, like, under 12, my room was a mess all the time. Not shocking.

I struggled keeping it clean.

I struggled getting it clean.

I would sincerely put in quite a bit of effort and be really proud of the progress I made. Then one of my parents would come check and see how I was doing.

"Well, you've still got a long way to go."

That sentence. I was like, 11 when my parents were saying that to me. It was crushing. All my pride and satisfaction with my work was completely gone. All my effort was worthless to them. All they saw what everything I didn't do.

At the age of ELEVEN, I knew that wasn't right. That wasn't fair. I swore to myself I would never invalidate someone's work like that.

Now, at 30, I catch myself thinking 'I cleaned up, but my apartment is still so messy.' and I flashback to standing in my bedroom as a child, hearing those fucking words from my parents.

'No. I wouldn't invalidate someone else's work. I'm not going to invalidate my own. I did good. I made progress.' and I'll list the things that I DID get done to myself.

You deserve credit for all the progress you make.

You deserve credit for all the work you do.

It doesn't matter how much work you have left.

What you accomplish, no matter how small, counts. Even when what you accomplished was taking a day to rest and recharge and give yourself a break.

Never let anyone invalidate your work. Not even you.