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The Silence Within
Sometimes I have to force myself to smile, or speak when all I want to do is be expressionless and quiet. My natural inclination is to take everything in and process it, while remaining stoic. Sometimes it's painful to have expression.
Our waiter said...
to me and my fiancé, who is blind in one eye, and partially blind in the other eye, as he saw me leading my man to the table. My man was holding onto my elbow, which FYI, is a good way to lead blind people because then they can feel every movement you make a couple seconds before they have to make the same movement, ie, steps.
Waiter: Oh, it's so nice of you to lead him. You're a good person. Me: This is my fiancé. Waiter: Oh, I thought you were helping him. Me: I am, because he can't see that well. (I look over at my man, and he has this smile on his face, as if to say, "this guy,") Waiter: I guess you only need one menu then. Me: Yep, one menu would be great, but he already knows what he wants, like usual. (My man is a creature of habit) Waiter: Where are you from? Me: I'm from Columbus, Ohio. Waiter: No, where are you really from? Me: Well, I was born in New York Waiter: No, no, where are you really from? Are you American? Me: (sigh) I'm Chinese American Waiter: So you're from China. Me: (I look over at my man, and he's trying so hard not to laugh) No, but my parents are. (Before our waiter can ask) Yes, I speak Chinese. Waiter: Good, good, enjoy your dinner. My man: Well, that was awkward Me: the most awful 3 minute conversation ever. ~~~~~
I know that some people don't know better, but from the way that the waiter was speaking was like he couldn't believe my man wasn't retarded and eating from a straw the way he looked at him with pity. Please, though my man may be legally blind, he is so much more aware than me. He protects me, he makes me walk away from traffic, so if a car comes barreling over, it'll hit him before it hits me. He helps teach a woman's self defense class at OSU.
He allows women to pepper spray, punch, and kick him, and doesn't mind when the women giggle as he writhes in pain. He'd rather he get hurt than them. He also carries a gun on him, wherever the law allows him. He teaches Conceal and Carry classes.
He's very skilled at shooting, and that's where he met many of his friends. They are extremely loyal and great towards him. They trust him, and vice versa. Yes, he is legally blind, but he also has sight. It's all very confusing, and it's a story for another time.
It just really bothers me when people take one look at him, and that look of fear or pity show up. I don't think I'll ever get used to it. Eventually I will, but not now.
He watched her from the lily pad, falling ever in love. He was invisible to her, his powers enveloping and protecting him from her, or her from him. He ached to touch her, to feel her, to make her want him the same he wanted her. He called her to his world, screaming. She looked toward the water, her hair blowing in the whistling wind.
I’m really taken by these caps lol… I’ve actually been thinking about them recently because the title “God, I’m tired” really makes itself felt here when both Eve and Villanelle close their eyes while lying side by side on the bed. Sure, in doing so both of them sharpen these very naive edges around their actions, saturated with the fact that Eve means to “kill” Villanelle whereas Villanelle is out to “watch” her, but there is something about how readily they still share that space - however small it may be - and have these sincere moments. I mean… these caps look peaceful out of context, despite Villanelle holding a gun.
They actually just might as well be because even when Eve’s reserved, “Yes,” to Villanelle’s, “You’ve found me,” sounds nebulously raging… she still manages to simply laugh when Villanelle praises her, “Well done”. And the fact that Villanelle, in return, has to do the same (ever caught her quick breathy chuckle? It’s short and yall should hear it). It’s such a specific response to that realization. It’s paltable, genuine and cocky and Eve can’t help herself but sink into it. What a brilliant choice to underscore their love language tbh.
I go to nature to be soothed and healed, and to have my senses put in order. -John Burroughs
Hoping my wedding pictures look as cool as her.
How to Wear Flowers in Your Hair
You’ll look as fresh as a daisy.
By Rian.
I’m off the grid
I’m basically off the grid. Aside from Twitter, Facebook, tumblr, instagram, my 5 email addresses, my online banking, my car, my house, my marriage license, credit cards, and my online persona of, “that darn Asian,” the government can’t find me.
My soul at the moment
