I Had A Dream About Someone Saying "hey Your Wings Need Preening" And It Was So Random, The Wings I Had

Currently missing the god i served in my original form. It basically gave me a home, It gave me a purpose without ever making me feel pressured to do anything to earn Its love

Sometimes I like going on pinterest and looking up all kinds of divine-like beings/images, because seeing those who look like It gives me comfort 💔

This was basically what It looked like or at least how i remember It. Most of the other pictures that truly resembled It were AI, so these are some of the most accurate pics, and they give me SO MUCH nostalgia. I feel like I'm currently not doing enough to respect It as It deserves, so I'll probably post about It more often from now on

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⤷ live footage of me flying away from my responsibilities

Well I started seeing myself as a angel like you suggested, and now I feel better with your reassuring post!! I am excited to see further in my journey as a angelic being and finally not just a boring human whose only last purpose is dying :3 (not making fun of y’all humans, i still love some and a lot are cute and nice)

And I have a question, just out of curiosity because I love seeing winged other kin talk about their phantom wings like idk something is just so whimsical that you feel this.. How does IT generally feels ? When you lay on your back in your bed or simply leaning against a wall, does you sometimes accidentally feels them?

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Ooh I never thought about describing that, but sensing my wings is one of the things that make me the happiest!!

Basically, for me, my body isn't made of flesh and bone - I describe myself as a "being of light" 99% of the time. I remember my wings being feathered in "shape", but they also feel very, very light. I have at least a pair of "traditional" wings on my back, but the ones that are most noticeable are the ones under my "arms" - I don't really know how to explain it, sometimes I have trouble recalling how they actually look like. My real form has two arm-like limbs, and wings that are an extention of them. They aren't big compared to the ones on my back; they're just there.

They are one with my body - I'm aware that they're there, and they aren't numb, but there's no muscle or tissue to them. They feel warm, though.

If I ever start feeling them while I'm lying on my back, they don't really hurt or anything - but it's uncomfortable because they take up too much space, so that's why falling asleep become pretty hard lol. If they brush against something like a wall, I noticed it kind of tickles. And as for when i sit down, it's not really a problem, I can just tuck them in and they dont really get sore at all.

Generally speaking, they don't add any extra weight on my body.. but the ones under my arm can feel uncomfortable and weird, and even when they don't, they still get in the way a lot for obvious reasons. But I ignore that!!! Species euphoria >>>>> not being able to rest my arm on a table, am I right?

This is where I post from btw

Yeah so I've been wondering whether or not I'm conceptkin for about a year now, it's been bothering me but I kind of brushed it off, yet now I'm 98% sure I'm conceptkin. I just have to figure out what concept I am exactly, because there's so many that come to mind, but it's all a bit of a blur 😭😭

My nature as an angel has always been abstract, but I just feel that there is way more to that. I am an angel, I am a being of light, but I'm also a concept that's very related to my angehood... or maybe my angelhood is related to that concept???

"Odd" things I get species dysphoria from (that you truly could never judge unless you're experiencing them) as an angelkin

- Hunger. It's one of those feelings that simply aren't supposed to belong to me, because I know for sure that back home, we just... didn't eat, you know?? I do not try to suppress it, & it doesn't give me a bad relationship with food; I love food, actually. But sometimes it feels a bit demoralizing.

- Sunburns - even the slightest, least noticeable ones. I'm a radiant being who embodies light.. yet the sunlight is burning me? Hello??

- Having to Google things or learn about them at school. It's not about learning how to cook, how to bake or tie my shoes, because those are human things; but not knowing everything about the stars, the universe and its past and future? It feels so wrong, because my gods have worked really hard to create me and teach me things. I like to imagine that all I learn about science or history or philosophy is just a memory being "brought back" to me.

- Tight clothing. I don't wear most tight things because of their textures which give me BAD sensory issues (I'm autistic), but I also avoid them because they take away the sense of freedom which was already taken away from me.

- Not being able to soothe people when they're upset when I'm the definition of love and harmony. It's technically the reason why I was sent to earth; so that makes me feel useless, like I'm betraying myself.

- The sound of my voice. It used to be much more beautiful, and the fact that I'm bad at singing doesn't help. It's only a reminder of the fact that this body simply isn't mine.

𖦹ׂ ₊ 🪽 and that's all! I just wanted to share these to show that species dyslhoria isn't always dramatically tragic - sometimes it's a bunch of mundane, unexpected, subtle things that add up to the feeling of discomfort and sadness. What can feel irrational and "exaggerated" is actually very valid and deserves to be taken seriously when it's really upsetting you.

INTRO .ᐟ

꒰ঌ Aeven ໒꒱

✧ bodily 18 . Neurodivergent (with diagnosed NVLD + autism and quite a few others), chronically ill with fibromyalgia

✧ I feel very comfortable with the agender label, so thats what I use, and I am also bisexual !

✧ For me, I wouldn't say I was an angel in a "past life". I know I was sent to Earth but I can't remember why, but I feel no resentment towards my kind and I know I was loved back there. I can't remember what my purpose here is supposed to be, but I know it happened in this lifetime - though I don't exactly understand the concept of "life", as I am supposed to be no more than an immortal soul. I feel I have lived for thousands of years. That's probably why I have difficulty interacting with non-divine beings, but I love learning about them nonetheless

✧ "atheist" / nonspecific angel; I don't believe in the existence of a main god, nor heaven or hell, but I believe in the existence of other individual divine spirits and creatures like demons or cryptids. I know for sure I've lived among actual deities because I used to serve multiple of those higher beings, but they weren't the classical gods that are worshipped by mankind. I say I'm atheist because it's easier. And if anyone's curious, I look like a mix of those two pictures:

(art cr: kociamieta)

This is a little hard to explain because I know the one on the right is supposed to be a Cherubim, but if you ignore the animal heads, I look like a mix of those two pictures. Basically the one on the left, but with many more wings and an eye on my chest, and no animal characteristics. I also have a few eyes on my wings but they aren't that noticeable as far I recall.

Still, I'm not the kind of angel that humans view as "scary"; I remember being gentle and also pretty "chill", if you will. I respected the divine creatures around me and they respected me. I was just there (and am here right now) to spread love.

✧ I go by Aeven because it sounds so right, though i can not remember my real name

PLEASE DNI

- obviously, people who don't support otherkins of any kind

- basic criteria

- radfems

- transmeds

- zionists

- ableists, and that includes people who stigmatized mental illness

- neopronouns + xenogender antis

TAGS ! ꒱

#aeven talks (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) : just me yapping

#angel rants : self-explanatory; will put TW's for certain things !

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...and, that's basically it ! Idk what else to say, lol. Love yall <3

Contributing to the meme

Taking off my backpack after school (and letting my wings free after a 20 minute walk) feels like taking off my bra and letting my vessel's boobs breathe

Sometimes I forget I have a mortal body because what do you mean I can't heal people anymore? Wdym I can't bless them? Wdym I can't watch over them and protect them and make them feel safe & keep them away from harm? Wdym I can't fly, use chronokinesis, shapeshift, preen my wings, care for those of my kind, actively serve my beloved deities, use my voice to sing and soothe people—