AHAHSHSHSHHSHSGSGSGSGSGSGSHSHSHHSSNJS YOU FOUND THE POST. HI ML.

fym people don't have OCs. Fym they don't daydream about complex stories in their head. Fym they don't doodle little guys they created in their notes for school. Fym they just? Don't write? Like I've been writing since I was four years old and it's just so weird to me how people just... don't. All my friends, all my family, and my s/o are all writers so it just throws me off.

also how do you need to use ai to create a story. daydream to music until it comes together like the rest of us you coward

vent post bc im tired and feel alone in this

TW; dysfunctional families, implied abuse kinda I'm not really being abused

I fucking hate being "perfect." Stupid, I know, I feel like I should be grateful.

Have you heard about golden child and scapegoat dynamics in dysfunctional households? Because me and my brother are living examples of that. I'm the golden child and I loathe it.

I have it so much better then my brother, I know. But being the golden child, I am my mother's trophy, and it's exhausting. I am a doll, not a person. A bragging right. An award. I have to always do what I'm told, be smart, achieve high things, always have to look pretty, have perfect manners, tons of impossible expectations, be the perfect little girl. Or she starts yelling. I hate it so much. I'm tired, I'm really tired. I stress myself out to be enough for her. I'm the definition of a burnt out gifted kid. Yet i feel like i'm supposed to be grateful because the one above made me smart and pretty. I can only be who I really am online, with my s/o, or with my friends. And I loathe it.

And I just feel alone. I see posts about how golden children will become the abuser and it scares me. I don't feel like anyone understands that both the golden child and the scapegoat suffer. I don't want to be my mother, I swore I'd be better. I don't want to be her. I don't know how to break this cycle.

Fuck.

any other neurodivergent (mainly autism and/or adhd) people unable to consume content normally.

like my dad will just?? watch something and be like "yeah that was good" then move on?? And then there's me, who will consume something, stare at a wall for a bit, and then rapidly try to consume any content I can find of it. Fanart, fanfiction, c.ai bots, memes, youtube videos... and if I can't find any I get upset. And I rewatch/reread/etc it over and over again and obsess over it for days. It's not even a hyperfixation rn I am just unable to consume media normally

also why am I the only posts on the raining knives tag since 2020 where is the fandom this comic deserves a fandom wtf it's so good I need content of it pls my little audhd brain cannot /silly

SHES SO BACK

I AM SO BACK

MOCHA WHY NO STOP.

tw spoilers for alien stage

reminder that hyuna's last 7 mintues before she died was her and luka

okay random question do any other people w/ POTS have their legs randomly collapse under them and they fall to the ground, or do I need to get checked out for something else-

Reblog to put one of these in your mutuals’ pocket when they’re not looking

vivimeng drop an ivan ruler of my heart cover and my life is yours

ykw cringe culture is dead. throws some of my fandom OCs at you. in gacha too minus my isat oc because gacha is fun argue with the wall

I probably won't post about my OCs on here much but I was bored sooo

(First image: Aera, she/they, alnst oc

Second image: Akari, she/they/he, bllk oc

Third image: Kioka, she/her, pjsk oc

Fourth image: Rose, she/her, mouthwashing oc

Fifth image: Olive, she/they, sbg oc

Sixth image: Adaya, they/them, isat oc)