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park jihyo & fem!reader
hi can i get an order of sapphics being sapphics and an extra shot of panic?
itâs a saturday today
while any other saturday is just as good to you, this is a very special saturday
all because today you are going to indulge yourself and go to a sapphic event
you were nervous, the bones were rattling, the teeth chattering, your breathing coming in short breaths, and your right leg bouncing up and down.
it was saturday, and you are going to faint at the bare thought of potentially seeing a goddess tonight.
just a week ago you were excited, remembering the happy gasp you had made when you saw the event promotion through instagram. you had barely gotten the last slot, which meant to you it was a sign to finally to venture out more
when the days before started to come by, it starts to hit you bit by bit, well until today. you sitting down on your bed, overthinking what to even wear
it doesnât help that your style is typically like a college student, baggy sweatpants and a hoddie as your style from day to day when clocking off work. your friends barely threw any parties or celebrations too, so the most presentable outfit was a pair of slacks, a button up white long sleeve, paired with your leather shoes.
oh you are so doomed
but today is saturday, and sana is always looking for people to makeover on saturdays for fun
âhmâ sana opens her closet, ruffling through the selection of dresses she wears âwhat do you feel about dresses?â
ânot a fan but also not against it?â you are now sitting on sanaâs bed, only now your leg wonât stay still out of habit âi mean it would be nice if it was long and flowyâ
sana is still ruffling, and is now opening her drawers nearby to look at for more options
âwas there a theme?â
âno not really, they just said like it was like a get together and you can talk and wine and paint?â
âpaint? oooohh arenât you a lover girlâoh what do you feel about dresses that show your backâah no wait, itâs painting and wine, not really the right dressâ
âyeah i mean itâs happening at that that thai restaurant downtown. the one thatâs selling like those really good milkteas that i only knew nowâ
âpsh you are such a loser, i love you but those milkteas have been there since like 5 months ago when i took tzuyu on a dateâ
âdonât you mean when my sister got stood up and you sped your way there?â
âshut upâ sana shushes you, simply throwing you her floral dress, your eyes questioning the the fact that itâs a backless dress. a pretty floral dress that can kill
you look back up at her, already knowing she wonât take no for an answer despite what she said earlier
so yeah itâs saturday, sana is dressing you up. making sure you look the prettiest in that event. her gushing and tzuâs voice over the facetime reassuring a bit of your worries
jihyo on the other hand, totally isnât stressing out. her outfit planned, ironed out on her bed. her new boots, which momo took courtesy of wearing it out with nothing but hands and stairs, already ready by the door.
âarenât you excited for tonightâ momo says over breakfast, observing jihyo across the table âmore excited youâve ever been since your last gigâ
âi know iâm kind of shakingâ jihyo laughs, and if momo notices the shakiness of it, she doesnât comment or acknowledge it âitâs been a whileâ
momo doesnât really continue the topic, knowing how long since jihyo has indulged in this kind of stuff. 5 years of focusing on the band and work made jihyo uninterested in any kind of romantic relationship or even simple dates.
âmhm and sana says she wants to do a girls night, so i wonât be home, probably going to crash at nayeonâs place if she gets too drunkâ momo tells her, already giving away the apartment for the night âif jeongyeon will even let them drinkâ
jihyo barely thinks that someone might come home with her tonight, she doesnât want to bring someone home in the first place. so she only replies with a muffled âokayâ before munching down the rest of her breakfast
so simple saturday for jihyo, a little excited, a little worried, but honestly itâs wine and paint and yummy food. she isnât too worried or anxious
so someone explain to her why when it hits five p.m., when sheâs in front of the restaurant, the organizers are happily ushering her in, her breath gets stuck in her throat as she notices how much other sapphics are there already
sheâs looking around, taking notes at every person she sees, even the ones who stare at her for too long that sheâs sporting a blush on the tip of her ears
itâs early, jihyo knows that, but when you walk in before it hits six p.m., she feels like sheâs being sucker punched over the table sheâs sitting at
youâre barely any better, but god sana was having so much fun with your makeup that it leaves most of the attendees double taking on you. the backless floral dress is a bold choice, but having half of the venue gawking at how you look makes you feel shy
nervous, excited, anxious. those were what both of you were feeling and yetâ
when you see her, your throat goes dry at how she looks. sporting in a simple fit tank top, a leather jacket, dark baggy jeans and killer boots, you contemplate if you want her or to be her
when she sees you, she thinks sheâs been blessed by sappho herself. the dress is stunning yes, but the way you smile, the way your eyes keep her from looking away, your glow under the warm lights
this isnât love at first sight
this is finally finding someone who you might be your soulmate
the organizers wisk you away though, towards the registration booth and jihyo has to blink the stars out of her eyes before nursing her wine again. her nerves finally showing her what it means to get curious, excited and anxious all at the same time
she keeps her eyes on you, the way you smile and chat with the registration team. the way your hair drapes over your shoulders, the way your laugh sounds like an angelâs call, the way your back flexes those subtle muscles that makes everyone know that you work out
she doesnât look away even when you take your stub and claim your free wine, giggling at that tall organizer thatâs too close to you. that pesky ugly (she isnât jihyo is just jealous) one that is trying to charm you away
so jihyo does what future you thinks is adorable and future her thinks is so stupid
âi think you donât need to tell this pretty lady the same pick up line you use and fail for every person you met tonightâ
you turn around and face jihyo, whoâs eyes are glaring at the organizer, whoâs stuttering a response. her hands barely ghosting over your waist, claiming you away from them.
not that you mind anyway her hands stayed there the entire night
she barely lets the organizer have a coherent reply, as she leads you towards her table, her heart racing as you laugh at the organizerâs defeated face. her brain itching to get more of that kick, more of your happiness out loud
âthe pick up line isnât that badâ you tell jihyo, your voice having the power to make jihyo fall on her knees
âno you donât understand itâs been, what 30 minutes of her trying the same pickup line? on over 29 other women? i need her to stop and you donât deserve thatâ jihyo lets you sit down, your breath hitching at how much you catch yourself enjoying much of jihyoâs undivided attention to you
âyeah? wellâ you try to look at her eyes properly, you really do. itâs just when she tilts her head and lets some strands of hair cover her eyes, you fond yourself looking away, knowing that she now resembles a look of a puppy âthank you for saving me thenâ
âanything for a pretty girlâ what is jihyo even saying? momo would point and laugh at her right now if she were here, but she isnât. itâs you whoâs here and itâs you who blushes and ducks her head
so you both finally talk, despite the fact that you both are a mess, on this beautiful saturday evening. the organizers give out painting materials and the items you both want to paint. herâs being an ash tray despite being a non-smoker and yours being a a small womanâs bust, just to add decor in your home.
conversation flows, sharing hobbies, favorite food, travel spots, respective jobs, recommended music genres, best recipes for drinks, niche interests.
even then jihyo notices when the paint gets on your arm, her hands moving before she can think
âhere let meâ she basically focused on only you, barely on the ash tray she chose to paint. her hands already gently wiping the paint on your arm and her body inching closer towards yours
itâs only then you realize that sheâs so close to your face when she looks up, your breaths tangling in the air, your lips only a few inches apart
âmhmâ so close she is so close, but much to your disappointment, one of the organizers comes by to check on your progress, effectively making jihyo pull away a respectable armâs reach before reassuring that everything is going well bb
damn were you expecting a kiss?
you donât know how to even explain it
still you find that her company is nice, her jokes are good and makes you laugh, that sheâs attentive and helps you remember to paint carefully, her smile now finally engraved in your head.
so when the paint dries, you get some food, you canât deny that youâre into her. the way she smiles at every delighted sound as you eat, the way she becomes âangryâ with every bite, the way she wipes away any food or sauce near your lips with her thumb, her eyes lingering a bit too long for you to deny it.
so dinner is also good, amazing even, because wow you just learned that the world is small, and your roommate is apparently childhood friends with her roommate. so the only thing keeping you both from meeting each other any time sooner is because sheâs so busy
jihyo also find this whole experience amazing, because sheâs managed to keep you giggly this entire time, sheâs now a person closer to seeing you again and again, she can take you out for coffee every weekend when she has to drag momo to sana for their weekly hangouts.
oh and yeah the food gets paid by jihyo. even if you protest it goes in vain, and she teases you to simply return the favor next time.
ânext time?â you playfully scoff, walking towards the exit with jihyo, your arms linked together, eyes once more on you in either with happiness or in envy âwhat makes you think of a next timeâ
she opens the door for you, and leads you out of the prying eyes of others, but it doesnât matter. not when you both only have it on each other
âi just know sweet girlâ jihyo is cocky, but sheâll make you love this side of her more and more you see her âi just knowâ
KA-BOOM
the sound of thunder redirects both of you to look up at the sky, the rain pouring down on the city. both of you completely forgetting to check the weather app before leaving
âi forgot my umbrellaâ you look up at the sky, the lightning flashes dancing around, indicating that rain is all night. maybe even until the morning
jihyo also looks up, the first drops of rain splattering down at the side walk in front of them. it doesnât get any of you wet, but she looks at you, and notices your eyes dimming at the thought of rain and no umbrella
âi can drive you homeâ jihyo says without a thought
âoh youâre so sweet but i really donât want to bother you. itâs late and i donât want to overstep anythingâ
ânonsenseâ sheâs already wrapping her jacket around you, youâre breath hitching at how looking up at her is changing your brain âi have to make sure this gorgeous girl gets home safeâ
she runs off to her car across the street before you can even reply, gawking at how bold she is and how much you are enjoying it. one hand holding both of your bags with your art works inside, and the other holding the leather jacket to keep you warm.
you barely have to wait a minute on the entrance of the restaurant, when jihyo returns, the large clear umbrella enough to keep you dry. she helps you stand up, zip up the jacket and pats down your dress.
sheâs already grabbing your things before you can argue, shushing you up and leading both of you towards her car, which she drives you home with all the songs you tell her sounds nice, and her hand holding yours over the gear stick.
âi had fun tonightâ you guys arrive at your apartment building, your fantasy coming to an end âespecially with youâ
jihyo doesnât want this dream to stop
so she does what her heart tells her to.
in the future, she tends to flush red at the remembrance that she leaned too far and has to tilt her head up, just to kiss you. her hands resting gently on your waist and your arms on top of her shoulders, leaving you both star struck
âis that ok?â jihyo is nervous when she pulls away and looks at you, eyes closed and lips parted, tempting her to go for another kiss
âmhmâ she melts when you open your eyes and give her a smile, the one that punches her in the gut âcan i get another one? preferably right now and another one on my couchâ
230616 MAMAMOO Concert âMY CONâ in Seoul | Encore © Sky (do not edit)
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pairing: huh yunjin x fem!reader. genre: angst. warnings: mentions of eating disorders and depression. a/n: the entire story is yunjin's pov (but still third person limited)
the moon hung low, a pale light gently illuminating the cemetary where yunjin stood. her fingers traced over the letters on the gravestone, trying her best to keep herself together and not cry right there.
y/n y/l/n: beloved daughter, older sister, best friend, and soulmate.
the words felt uncanny, as if they belonged in someone's nightmare, and not hers. she knelt by the grave, her knees sinking softly into the freshly cut grass, and her chest tightening with the weight of unshed tears. the air was cold and dry, carrying the faint scent of flowers and the distant murmur of the nearby river.
yunjin placed a single lily of the valley on the grave, its white petals almost glowing in the darkness. her heart ached with the pain that became all too familiar to her since y/n's deathâa pain that gnawed at her insides, leaving her numb.
she hadn't eaten much in days, the thought of food hurting stomach. she sometimes wonders if it's because food was y/n's favorite thing. she'd always be eating with y/n whenever she could, but now she could barely even look at or even eat food without thinking of her.
now her clothes were loose on her, her reflection in the mirror a ghost of the loud and loving person she used to be.
"i miss you, so much," yunjin whispered, her voice trembling, "i don'tâ"
a sob escaped her lips.
"i don't know how to do this without you."
memories of y/n flooded her mindây/n's laughter, the way she would scrunch her nose when she didn't like something, the way she would stick her tongue out a little bit when she was doing something, the way her embrace would make yunjin feel so safe, loved, and at home.
all of that was gone now, like a dream that slipped away the moment she opened her eyes.
yunjin stayed at the y/n's grave for what felt like hours, lost in the silence, lost in her memories, before she finally forced herself to stand. the weight of grief pressed down on her, making each step she took heavier and challenging as she made her way out of the cemetery.
she continued to walk aimlessly, her feet moving in the lonely and quiet streets of the outskirts of seoul as if they had a mind of their own. her destination was bound to happen, though; she knew where she was headed even if she didn't want to look or admit it.
then the bridge came into view, its structure arching beautifully over the river that gently streamed beneath. this was their spot, where they had spent countless nights together, talking everything and nothing, the world fading around them until it felt like they were the only ones left. yunjin's breath hitched when she stepped onto the bridge, the familiar sound of dark wood and footsteps echoing in the lifelessness.
she leaned against the old woooden railing, staring down at the water that shimmered under the light of both the moon and stars. the river was a ribbon of silver, winding through the landscape, and yunjin remember how y/n used to say it was like their loveâalways moving, always changing, but never ending.
the memories came crashing down on her like strong ocean waves. the first time y/n had held her hand, the electric feeling that shot right through her. the way y/n kissed her so gently under this very sky, the stars reflecting in her eyes, making her feel like she was floating. the fights they had, the tears that they shed, and the ways they'd always make up right after, because their love was stronger than that had ever tried to tear them apart,
except for this. except for death.
a sob escaped escaped yunjin's lips, and she clutched the railing as if it were the only thing keeping her from falling apart. her tears fell freely now, mixing with the cold night air as she cried for everything they had lost. for the future they had planned, for the dreams they never realize. for the love that consumed her. for the love that was still there, burning inside her, with nowhere to go.
"please," she sobbed, "i just want you back."
she leaned her body forward a little, her abdomen pressing against the dark oak railing.
"i don't know how to live without you," she whispered to the wind, her voice swallowed by the night. "i don't know if i even want to."
her sobs came out faster and louder. her entire body trembled and her heart ached with pain.
she stayed there, sobbing as she let the memories once again wash over her, until she was too exhausted to keep crying. her body felt heavy, her mind numb, and all she wanted was an escape, to find some semblenace in the silence of the night.
eventually, she pushed herself away from the railing and started walking away, her steps flow and unsteady. the streets were deserted, the city asleep, but yunjin coudn't shake the feeling that she was truly the only one alone.
when she finally reached their her apartment, she felt like she was stepping into a different worldâone that was once filled with love and laughter, now cold, empty, and lifeless. yunjin shut the door behind her, leaning against it as she tried to catch her breath. her eyes then fell on a burgundy colored hoodie. it was draped over the back of the couch, the one y/n wore and took off when they had their final movie night. it still smelled like herâthe comforting scent of dark amber and oud, a scent y/n always used because it reminded her of her grandpa.
yunjin walked towards the couch and gently grabbed the hoodie, pulling it over her head, and inhaling deeply. the scent wrapped around her senses, embracing her like a warm embrace, and for a moment she almost pretended y/n was still there next to her, holding her, and telling her that everything was gonna be okay.
but her illusion quickly disintegrated as quickly as it formed, and yunjin was left with nothing but the traumatizing reality of her loss. she stumbled into their her room and fell onto the bed, clutching the stitch stuffed animal that y/n had won for her at a carnival for her twenty-second birthday. it was silly, a reminder of the happier moments, but it was all she had from the girl who loved her unconditionally and had once been her everything.
yunjin curled up under the covers, the feeling of y/n's hoodie and the stuffie in her arms being the only thing to keep her from falling apart once more. she reached for the remote, her fingers shaking as she turned on the tv, navigating to their favorite showâoregairu. the familiar opening theme song played, and yunjin swore she could hear y/n's voice singing along to it.
they had watched this show millions of times. laughing at the characters when they did funny things, quoting their favorite lines, imagining themselves in the world where everything seemed simpler, where love was just another thing in life and not something that could be ripped away in the blink of an eye.
yunjin's body trembled with silent sobs, the sound of the show playing the background, a cruel and constant pain that tore through her entire being. she clutched onto her stitch tigher, as if it could somehow bring y/n back, as if she could control the universe so she could turn back time and give herself one more moment with the girl she loved.
she knew better, though. yunjin knew that life didn't and would never work that way, that some things were truly ephemeral, as fleeting as a breath, as fragile as a dream. and all she could do now was hold onto the memories, even as they threatened to consume her completely.
with the show still playing in the background, yunjin's exhaustion finally caught up to her. she buried her face into her stitch stuffie, y/n's hoodie enveloping her in it's warmth, allowing her exhaustion and the darkness to consume her. in her dreams, she was with y/n again, on the bridge, under the stars, and for a fleeting moment, everything was the way it should be.
but even in her dreams, yunjin knew that nothing lasts forever. that some loves, no matter how strong and beautiful, were destined to fade away, leaving nothing but a trail of memories and an aching void where there had once been light.
and when she woke up the next morning, the sun peaking the the blackout curtains, yunjin was alone, her stitch and hoodie being the only things with her. the weight of the world pressing down on her entirely as she only realied that the only true thing for ephemeral was hope.
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SYNOPSIS. you unintentionally became close to ning yizhuo as trainees. she made it into aespa, you didnât. after you left sm and debuted with le sserafim, the desire to reconnect is heavy, but itâs not as easy as it sounds.
FEATURING. ningning x le sserafim 6th member reader
WARNINGS. none, maybe a little angsty tho idk
AUTHORS NOTE. first fic hello!! inspired by this song
WORD COUNT. 2.4k
you came to sm entertainment with the sole purpose of becoming an idol. itâs all youâve ever wanted since you were eight years old. it wasnât to make friends or build relationships; you wanted to work.
you kept to yourself during your trainee period, never really getting close to anyone. the trainee system was a twisted game and one small mistake could get you sent home. youâve seen it happen with other trainees who were friends. one would be let go and the other left without their other half. you didnât want any of that to get in the way of your goal.
ning yizhuo joined the company a year after you did. she was young, only a year younger than you. you remember the first time you officially met her in the practice room, which was completely by accident by the way.
as you walked through the company halls, going to your reserved practice time, you could faintly hear music playing from the practice room, which you found odd. you decided to slowly crack the door open to peek through and saw the younger girl practicing the choreography to into the new world. you know that she was new, maybe two weeks in? it makes sense that she wouldnât know about your routine. you debated on just leaving and finding a different room, but decide against it.
as soon and you fully entered the practice room she seemed to take notice, jumping in surprise and instantly turning to greet you. you watched as she rushed to turn the music off, it was a little comedic. she hesitantly walked towards you, not really knowing what to say. you could sense the confusion on her face.
âthis is my usual rehearsal time here,â you begin, and before yizhuo can spew out apologies, you continue, âitâs okay, you didnât know.â
âiâm sorry, i can leave,â she managed, looking down at the floor. you feel a little bad, figuring she was probably embarrassed. you sigh, âno, itâs okay,â
âwhat the fuck are you doing?â
âyouâre practicing into the new world, right?â
she nods.
âwe can practice together.â you decide. her face lights up, eyes gleaming, but you instantly regret you words. normally, you prefer practicing alone and being the only person to see the process of fixing your flaws and improving. but going by her reaction she probably wouldnât think to judge you on anything.
âreally?â she asks and you nod, walking towards the speaker to turn the music back on. âcome on.â
you and yizhuo spend the next few hours practicing (more like you spend most of the time practicing while she stands there watching, admiring your movements). you were a dancer long before you joined sm, so you ended up helping her with the choreography after seeing her struggle, giving her tips and pointers to help her improve. you thought it was cute how intensely she took in your every word, mentally taking note of every detail you told her.
since that day she insisted on sticking with you. as much as you internally protested, you didnât do much to keep her away. how could you? she was, what, barely 14? and she was new to the industry. even though you were only a year older than her, you didnât have the heart to leave her on her own.
the two of you grew close unexpectedly fast, practicing together whenever you didnât have individual lessons, spending hours in the practice room sometimes not even doing anything, just sitting against the mirrors and having random conversations that ended with both of you in tears from laughing so hard. as time went on, it became relatively known around the company that the two of you were a duo, not one left without the other.
as much as you like yizhuo, or ningning as she would be called after being introduced as an sm rookie, you always curse yourself thinking back to your previous views on building relationships as a trainee. you still have that opinion, but even as the two of you grew up you canât bring yourself to stay away from her. you donât want to.
after about four years together, the time came for smâs newest girl group to be officially formed. for the last few months the company played with lineup, adding and removing girls almost every few weeks. you and ningning were apart of the group of girls considered for the final lineup, along with yu jimin and kim minjeong.
after what felt like an eternity of uncertainty, the company finally announced who would be in the final lineup. many were sure that you would be included, being an sm rookie who ranked highly at monthly evaluations. you were confident too.
however, while you all were practicing, a staff member brought in another girl and asked you to come out. you recognized her as uchinaga aeri, who only joined the company a few months ago. you looked around skeptically, but followed the staff member out of the room and into the hallway.
honestly, you canât really recall everything that was said to you. all you remember is something along the lines of your removal and the world falling silent. everything stopped in that moment and you wondered if you were dreaming. you didnât want to believe it but the somber look on the staffâs face solidified it for you.
you didnât make it.
that day, you left practice early. yizhuo, along with jimin, minjeong, and aeri had to stay later to practice for their debut. before you left, you stopped to give yizhuo a hug, reassuring and congratulating her. you could tell that she was having mixed emotions. she was happy to debut but she wanted to do it with you. though her face was buried into your shoulder, you heard her mutter a âiâll see you later,â before letting go.
she didnât expect to see your side of the room empty when she came back to the dorms that night. all of your belongings; polaroids on the wall, your comforter that she preferred sleeping on more than her own, everything you had was gone. and you didnât even tell her.
you joined source music about two years later, being added to their debut team almost instantly along with two former iz*one members, sakura and chaewon, and huh yunjin, who you recognized from produce 48 and swore youâve seen around the sm building a few times. kazuha and eunchae joined not too long after you did, and at first you were a bit threatened by their addition. you feared that they were your replacements and that itâd only be a matter of time before youâd be cut from the group.
however, the six of you worked amazingly together, and after getting over the initial doubt, got along great. you all had that balance of being genuine friends and colleagues. you finally felt like things were going your way.
the success of le sserafimâs debut was massive, some mixed reviews about the title track, but the album sold well and you guys got a few music show wins, which you never wouldâve imagined for your debut.
as time went on, your career only went up. you attended award shows, held concerts, had fans. you were living your dream, and although you never expected it to be with these girls, you were happy nonetheless.
you thought about ningning a lot. it was hard not to, now that you were an idol. le sserafim and aespa were always in the same conversation when it came to top 4th generation girl groups. you felt indifferent about it. you wanted to move on from the past, but you were also glad that both of you were able to achieve your dreams, even if it wasnât together.
you donât get many days off being in the prime of your career, which youâve always expected. today though, as comeback promotions for unforgiven came to an end, you hoped to spend today laying in bed and watching netflix, allowing your body to reset from such a hectic schedule.
keyword: hoped.
the sound of your phone ringing makes you dramatically groan. silently hoping it wasnât anyone important you glance at your phone to see an unsaved phone number. normally, youâre told not to answer calls from unknown numbers, the main reason being that itâll most likely be a sasaeng. but you recognize this number, even though it isnât saved in your phone.
âhello?â
âunnie.â
youâve played a thousand different scenarios in your head, thinking of what to say in any situation where you would see yizhuo again. yet when that time finally came, all of your hypotheticals went completely out the window. you didnât think her calling you would be that first interaction in three years.
âhowâd you get my number?â is what you decide to say. you changed your number after leaving sm, but you still remembered hers.
âminjeong unnie gave it to me,â she answered. you internally curse, figuring she got your number from chaewon. itâs not like youâre mad or upset that she called, you just werenât expecting it nor were you prepared for it.
âcan you come over to the dorms? i wanna talk to you.â yizhuo asks.
âweâre talking right now,â you play dumb. again, youâre not prepared for this.
âi mean in person, unnie.â
you think about giving her the excuse of being busy, you should give her that excuse. but you donât know when youâll both be free to talk again. you want to take that opportunity.
âokay,â you decide.
your arrival to aespaâs dorm surprises all of the members. jimin, who answers the door, instantly wraps you in a hug and aeri and minjeong, who were sitting on the couch jump up to do the same the moment they see you.
you tell them that yizhuo invited you over and jimin lets you know that sheâs in their room. you thank her and head over, giving the cracked door two light knocks before fully opening it.
youâve seen her around and on tv this past year so it wasnât like you really havenât seen her in three years, but your breath still hitches when you lay eyes on her. when she sees you, she smiles widely. it reminds you of when you two were trainees.
âyou came!â
you snorted, âdid you think i wasnât?â you gently close the door behind you before crossing your arms and slowly walking towards her bed where she was sitting.
âyou couldâve,â she shrugs. âconsidering you left without telling me, you couldâve not come and not told me.â
you sigh and sit down next to her. âiâm sorry.â
that day, and the many days following, hurt. it hurt you to feel like you spent so much time working hard just to fail. you didnât think it would hurt yizhuo nearly as much. you didnât think about how much she missed you or how long she spent crying after realizing you had left.
the room falls silent, both of you unsure of what else to say to each other. thereâs a million things you two could talk about but neither of you do, afraid of rehashing more bad memories. instead you make yourself comfortable and lie back, resting you hand on your stomach. yizhuo does the same and the silence becomes comfortable, both of you cherishing this moment; being together again.
âi was in love with you, you know.â you decide to casually let out, hiding the nervousness in your voice. youâre scared of how sheâll respond. she could laugh in your face, or just straight up reject you, even though you werenât exactly confessing, and make things awkward again.
but yizhuo does the opposite of what you were expecting.
âyou were?â she suddenly sits up and locks eyes with you. you think she looks like a doll with her eyes wide and her mouth slightly agape. you take a moment to admire her while she takes that moment to fully comprehend what you said. her mouth closes and her eyes furrow at her realization. âwas,â she repeats, tilting her head. âyouâre not anymore?â her voice goes quiet, as if sheâs scared to ask. maybe she was, but why?
ânot really,â you glance at her before looking back towards the ceiling. you donât want to see her reaction, though you can feel her entire body deject into the bed and hear her mumble a small âohâ.
âwhy not?â
âhm?â
âwhy donât you love me anymore?â
âi donât know if you noticed, yizhuo, but iâve been avoiding you since you debuted. kinda hard to keep feelings for someone you donât see anymore.â it seems harsh but you hope your light hearted tone doesnât make it sound that way.
âyou didnât have to avoid me. i would still been your friendââ
âit wasnât about you,â you interrupt, sighing before finally sitting up to fully face her. âi was pissed and jealous and seeing you on tv wouldâve only made me hate you. i donât want to hate you.â
even after you debuted in le sserafim you tried to avoid her, and all of aespa for that matter. it was nothing against the girls but you couldnât help the bitterness that filled you when you thought about the fact that you didnât make the lineup.
you figured sheâd have more to say after you revealed the truth, but nothing came out of her mouth. you could only read the disappointment on her face.
âwhat, were you expecting something different?â you ask after a long period of uncomfortable silence.
âi was hoping youâd say that you still love me,â she reveals, opting to look at her hands placed in her lap rather than at you.
âwhy?â you already know the answer. you just want to hear her say it.
âbecause i loved you,â she pauses, âand i never stopped.â
oh.
you shouldâve known that something like this would happen, and maybe you did. maybe there was a rational part of your brain screaming at you not to go see her and you just didnât listen. maybe deep down you still loved her, but the fear of losing again repressed that love. yizhuo or your career? you donât know. the idol industry is a twisted game where one small mistake could cost you your entire career and if you have to lose one, you figure that losing the chance of loving her is better than losing the career you both worked years for.
âiâm sorry, yizhuo.â you whisper. itâs all you can muster up to say. you tell yourself that itâs better this way. sure, sheâs hurt now but sheâll get over it. just like you did, or at least pretended to.
Synopsis: You go to Twice's concert with your 8 year old daughter, who is crazy about them, as a birthday present you got meet and greet tickets (I know they're not called these, Idk what they're called)
Type of post: Headcanon
Tags: fluff, just pure fluff, love at first sight? chaotic twice, Jihyo is teased by the girls, reader is older than Jihyo, reader is a little shy, reader is 31 years old, reader is a single mother,
A/n: The premise of this fic just came to my head and I had to get it out before I went crazy. Not proofread
Going to Twice's concert hadn't really been apart of your plan, but with your daughter giving you her best puppy dog eyes, you couldn't really say no, so here you are, in the front row of the concert, squished between people and the barricade, semi enjoying yourself, singing your heart out to "cry for me" waving your light stick along with your daughter waving your phone with the flash on.
After the concert you and your daughter were walking back to your car, you making sure that you had everything in your bag, as well as getting out your car keys, when all of a sudden your daughter states that she really needs the toilet, so you two start looking around for a free bathroom that doesn't have a long line, when you end up backstage finding a spare bathroom, running with your daughter to the toilet.
Once Hadley finishes her business and washes her hands, you two get ready to leave again, when you open the bathroom door to step out, you come face to face with none other than Dahyun, the Kim Dahyun that was just a few minutes ago on the stage in front of you singing, flusteredly muttering an apology to Dahyun you quickly grab Hadley's hand about to leave when you feel a soft touch on your shoulder, you turn around to see Dahyun raising her one eyebrow in a questioning way.
She asks something in Korean, but you just look at her confused before she switches to English asking what were you doing in the staff toilet, you quickly explain how Hadley really needed the toilet and that she wouldn't have made it to the bathrooms in the front, Dahyun gives you a small smile, saying that it was okay but that you really shouldn't be back here as security might get the wrong idea and think that you might stalk the girls, shocked you say of course not, shaking your head rapidly.
Dahyun then notices the badge around your necks, asking if they were for the meet and greet, looking down you see the badges, completely forgetting about the meet and greet after the concert, you explain that yeah they are and that you completely forgot about them and were about to leave before your daughter said she needed the toilet, smiling Dahyun grabs your hand and starts leading you to the meet and greet area.
Before approaching the meet and greet area, she notices that not a lot of people were left and tells you to wait right where you were for a few minutes. After a few minutes, Dahyun came back, asking to follow her. She lead you to the girl's dressing room, after opening the door you find yourselves surrounded by the girls, Sana squeals running to greet you, smiling widely at you and your daughter, she then starts gushing about how cute Hadley looks dressed as Dahyun from the "Likey" music video, Hadley even dabs like how Dahyun did in the music video.
Flustered by the sudden attention, you try to back up, but before you could get far you bump in to someone, turning around you see that you bumped into Tzuyu, your eyes go wide you start stuttering out an apology, bowing multiple times, before Tzuyu could stop you.
Noticing the commotion between you and Tzuyu, Jihyo walks up to you two to settle everything, but before she could you turn around bowing at her too, stopping after you start feeling dizzy, you look up to see Jihyo sporting a tiny smirk, but it quickly vanishes leaving you blushing and flustered.
Jihyo lets out a soft laugh, placing her hands on your shoulders, saying it's okay and that there wasn't any harm done, still flustered you stammer out on last sorry, before standing upright avoiding Jihyo's eyes. Jihyo stretches out her phone asking for your phone number, shocked you take her phone and type in your handle before handing it back and noticing the time on the clock that was hanging on the wall you call out to your daughter stating that you really had to be going, your turn back to Jihyo and Tzuyu apologising for the sudden departure, you take your daughter's hand saying goodbye and wishing the girls a goodnight and make your way to your car.
As soon as you left Nayeon started teasing Jihyo and how she was acting around you, asking what was all that about, why was she smirking and what was with the pale pink that spread across her cheeks down her neck, Sana started joining in on the teasing as well, the only ones not teasing Jihyo were Tzuyu, Mina and Chaeyoung.
Once back in her hotel room, Jihyo opens her messaging app, where she asked you to type in your number and starts contemplating what to say, with a small smile spread on her face, she hits the message button and says a simple hi itâs Jihyo, before turning off her phone and getting ready for bed.
A/N: please don't judge the ending, I really didn't know how I was gonna end this and it really didn't have any solid plotline, so deepiest apologies for the lackluster oneshot :( This didn't really come out the way I planned but I'm okay with it for now
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Impressions and Flirtations
Minatozaki Sana x F!Reader
warnings: fluff, author doesnt know how to end
a/n: this kinda bad.. idk..
The cafĂ© buzzed with quiet conversation as you, Sana, and Momo sat together at your usual table. Momo had suggested a casual meet-up to catch up, but you hadnât expected to see Sana there as well. While you were familiar with each other, the two of you rarely interacted directly, and that unfamiliarity had created an awkward tension that neither of you quite knew how to navigate.
You shifted uncomfortably in your seat, glancing over at Momo, who was animatedly chatting about some recent events. Sana sat across from you, her attention occasionally flickering to you between sips of her iced coffee. Though the three of you had mutual friends, these moments with just Sana always felt⊠complicated.
The awkwardness was made even more palpable when Momo suddenly stood up, her eyes darting toward the back of the cafĂ©. âIâll be right back, just need to use the restroom,â she said casually, giving both you and Sana a quick smile before walking away.
You froze.
Momoâs absence left you and Sana sitting alone, an awkward silence settling between you like a thick fog. You kept your gaze fixed on your coffee cup, trying not to make the situation more uncomfortable than it already was.
Sana, on the other hand, seemed determined to break the silence. She shifted in her seat, her eyes landing on you with a curious, somewhat hesitant look.
âSoâŠâ she started, her voice soft but carrying a note of playful awkwardness. âWe donât really get to hang out one-on-one, do we?â
You glanced up, feeling a mix of surprise and nervousness. âYeah, I guess not,â you mumbled, trying to keep your voice steady. âWe mostly see each other through Momoâ
Sana smiled, a bit more confidently now. âMhm, Iâve noticed. Itâs funny because we have so many mutual friends, but we never really talkâ
You nodded, your fingers fidgeting with the edge of your sleeve. âYeah, itâs kind of weird now that you mention itâ
Sana chuckled softly, and for a brief moment, the tension seemed to lift. Her laughter was light, easy, and contagious, and it helped ease some of the awkwardness youâd been feeling.
âIâve always wanted to get to know you better,â Sana said, her tone more sincere now. She looked at you with genuine curiosity, her eyes lingering on yours a bit longer than expected. âYou seem really cool and youâre really pretty tooâ
You blinked, momentarily caught off guard by Sanaâs compliment. Her tone was light, casual even, but there was something in the way her eyes lingered on you that sent a wave of warmth rushing through you. You werenât used to this side of herâsure, Sana was known to be playful and charming with her friends, but this felt different. This felt⊠personal.
âThanks,â you managed to say, trying to sound composed despite the flutter in your chest. You looked down at your coffee, feeling the heat creep up your neck, and added with a nervous laugh, âYouâre not so bad yourselfâ
Sanaâs smile widened at your response, her eyes gleaming with amusement. âNot so bad, huh? Iâll take that,â she teased, her voice dropping into a softer, more intimate tone. She leaned forward just slightly, resting her chin on her hand as if she were studying you.
There was a playful lightness to her movements, but her gaze held a certain intensity. It was as if she could sense your unease and was enjoying every second of making you squirm just a little bit. The tension between you shifted from awkward to charged, the atmosphere crackling with an energy you hadnât expected.
âSo,â she continued, her fingers idly playing with the straw in her drink, âIâve been curious about somethingâ Her eyes never left yours, the corner of her lips quirking into a small, knowing smile. âWhy do you always seem so nervous around me?â
Your heart skipped a beat at her directness, and you struggled to find your words. âNervous? I-Iâm not nervousâ
Sana chuckled, her laughter soft and teasing. âOh really? Because every time weâre in the same room, you can barely look at meâ She tilted her head, her voice becoming more serious, yet still playful. âIs it because I intimidate you? Or maybe... thereâs something else going on?â
You felt a rush of embarrassment, but there was no denying the truth in her words. You had always been a little on edge around Sanaânot because she intimidated you, but because you found her so effortlessly charming, and you didnât quite know how to handle that.
âWellâŠâ you started, searching for the right thing to say, but Sana didnât give you a chance to finish. She leaned in a little closer, her smile now fully flirtatious, the air between you thick with unspoken tension.
âI think I might know what it is,â Sana said, her voice barely above a whisper, her eyes locked onto yours. âYou like me, donât you?â
The directness of her question knocked the wind out of you. Your mind raced, trying to process her words, but all you could do was sit there, wide-eyed, unsure of how to respond. Sana was still watching you intently, clearly enjoying your reaction.
âRelax,â she said with a soft laugh, pulling back slightly but still holding your gaze. âIâm just teasing a littleâ
You swallowed hard, finally managing to regain some composure. âYouâre way too good at thatâ
Sana grinned, her smile warm and teasing. âOnly because itâs fun with youâ
The playfulness in her tone was disarming, but there was something deeper behind it, something you couldnât quite place. Her flirtation wasnât just for showâit felt intentional, directed specifically at you. The realization made your heart race even more.
Before you could dwell too much on the weight of her words, Momo reappeared at the table, oblivious to the shift in atmosphere that had taken place while she was gone.
âMiss anything good?â Momo asked, sliding back into her seat with a bright smile.
Sana leaned back in her chair, her demeanor instantly more casual as she smiled at Momo. âNot much. Just getting to know Y/N a little betterâ
Momo raised an eyebrow, clearly sensing that something had happened while she was gone. âOh really? Well, Iâm glad to hear it. You two never seem to talk muchâ
You forced a smile, your mind still reeling from the conversation with Sana. The rest of the afternoon passed by in a blur of light conversation and laughter, but your thoughts kept drifting back to that momentâthe way Sana had looked at you, the teasing warmth in her voice, and the undeniable spark that had flickered between you.
After a few more rounds of casual conversation, Momo glanced down at her phone, her expression shifting to mild urgency. âI have to head somewhere else,â she announced, standing up from the table. She gave both you and Sana a quick smile, clearly oblivious to the shift in dynamic that had occurred earlier.
Sana, ever composed, flashed Momo a quick grin. âNo worries, Momoring. Weâll catch up soonâ
As Momo waved goodbye and headed out, you found yourself alone with Sana once again. There was a brief, awkward silence before Sana stood up and motioned toward the door, her smile playful. âGuess itâs just us now. Wanna take a walk around the mall for a bit?â
You nodded, still feeling the lingering effects of her earlier flirtation. âSure, sounds goodâ
The two of you wandered through the bustling mall, the bright lights and constant hum of activity providing a backdrop to your quiet conversations. But it wasnât long before Sanaâs playful nature kicked in again. She walked a little closer than usual, her shoulder brushing against yours, her eyes constantly darting toward you with that same mischievous glint.
âY/N,â she began, nudging you lightly with her elbow. âHow come weâve never hung out before, just the two of us? Itâs not like Momo has to be our chaperone all the timeâ
You laughed nervously, trying to shrug off the tension. âI-I donât know. I guess weâve just never really had the chanceâ
Sana smirked, clearly enjoying the way you stumbled over your words. âWell, weâre fixing that now, arenât we?â She leaned in slightly, her voice dropping just a bit. âIâm glad weâre getting to know each other better. Youâre more fun than I thoughtâ
Her words sent a rush of warmth through you, and you found yourself wondering if Sanaâs flirty behavior was just part of her usual charm, or if there was something more behind itâsomething directed specifically at you.
As you continued to walk through the mall, the conversation flowed naturally, dipping between light-hearted topics and shared stories about mutual friends. The easy rhythm of it all surprised youâgiven how awkward things had been earlier, you hadnât expected to feel this comfortable around Sana so soon.
But there was a new element now, something beneath the surface that was making your heart race. Every now and then, Sana would throw in a subtle compliment or a teasing remark, her words carefully chosen to make you flustered.
âYou have a pretty smile, you know,â she said suddenly, her voice casual but with a warmth that made you glance over at her in surprise. âIâve noticed it before. You should smile more oftenâ
You felt your cheeks warm at the compliment and smiled softly. âThank you..â
Sana said with a grin, her eyes sparkling. âSee!! It suits you!! Itâs kinda hard not to stare when you doâ
Her words hit you harder than youâd expected, and your heart fluttered in response. You quickly glanced away, hoping she hadnât noticed how much her comment had affected you. âYouâre just saying thatâ
Sana chuckled softly, nudging you with her elbow as you walked. âWhat? Iâm serious! Youâre cute when youâre shy. It makes me want to tease you even moreâ
You shook your head, trying to hide your smile. âYouâre impossibleâ
Sana leaned in slightly, her shoulder brushing against yours. âImpossible, huh? Iâll take that as a complimentâ
Before you could respond, she brushed her fingers lightly against your arm as she gestured toward a store window, her touch sending a tingle up your skin. âOh, look at that,â she said, her voice a mix of amusement and curiosity. âI could totally see you in something like thatâ
You followed her gaze, noticing a simple but stylish outfit on display in the window. âReally? I donât know⊠I donât think I could pull that offâ
Sana shook her head, her tone playful but sincere. âYou could pull off anything. Trust me. You just donât give yourself enough creditâ
You felt your heart skip a beat again, and you quickly tried to steer the conversation away from yourself. âYouâre one to talk. You always look amazing, and you know itâ
Sana raised an eyebrow, a smirk playing on her lips. âOh? Are you saying youâve been checking me out?â
You opened your mouth to deny it, but the teasing glint in her eyes made you pause. Instead, you stammered, âI-I mean, itâs kind of hard not to notice. You have good fashion senseâ
Sana laughed softly, clearly enjoying your reaction. âIâm flattered. But you donât have to be shy about it. Iâve noticed you tooâ
Your pulse quickened at her words, and you glanced at her in surprise. âYou have?â
Sana nodded, her smile softening slightly. âYeah. Iâve noticed you for a while now. Itâs just we never really got the chance to talk until todayâ
You didnât know what to say to that, so you just nodded, feeling the weight of her gaze on you. The atmosphere between you shifted slightly, the playfulness still there but now tinged with something more serious.
Before you could dwell on it for too long, Sana broke the tension with another teasing remark. âYou know, I kind of like making you blush,â she said, her tone light but carrying a deeper undercurrent. âItâs cuteâ
You let out a nervous laugh, shaking your head in disbelief. âIâm not blushingâ
Sana grinned, clearly enjoying your denial. âOh, yes you are. And itâs adorableâ
You rolled your eyes but couldnât help the smile that tugged at your lips. âYouâre really laying it on thick today, arenât you?â
Sana shrugged, her eyes gleaming with mischief. âWhat can I say? I enjoy keeping you on your toesâ
The two of you continued to walk, the conversation slipping back into more casual territory, but the flirtation between you remained. Sanaâs fingers would occasionally brush against yours, her compliments always just on the edge of playful and sincere, leaving you wondering if there was more behind her words than just teasing.
As the two of you walked toward the exit of the mall, the sky outside was beginning to darken, and the soft glow of streetlights flickered on, casting a golden hue over the pavement. The conversation between you and Sana had begun to settle into a comfortable rhythm, though the air still crackled with the tension of everything unsaid. You both paused near the parking lot entrance, and for a moment, you considered calling it a night and heading home.
But before you could say anything, Sana glanced over at you with that familiar, teasing smile. âY/N,â she began, her voice smooth and casual, âare you heading somewhere else after this? Or are you just heading home?â
You blinked, momentarily caught off guard by her question. âJust heading homeâ
Sana raised an eyebrow, her smile widening just a bit. âWell, where do you live? Maybe I could drop you off. Itâs getting late, and I wouldnât want a pretty girl like you walking home aloneâ
Your heart skipped a beat at the offer, and for a brief moment, you wondered if this was just another instance of Sana being her usual flirty selfâor if there was something more to it. You hesitated for a second, then decided to answer honestly.
âI live in an apartment not too far from here,â you said, trying to keep your voice steady. âActually, itâs near where Momo lives. Around the same neighborhoodâ
Sanaâs smile grew even wider, and her eyes sparkled with a mix of excitement and amusement. âOh, really? Thatâs perfect then. I live close to Momo too. Iâll drop you off. Come onâ
Before you could protest, Sana grabbed your hand softly and had already started walking toward her car. You felt a strange mix of nerves and anticipation bubbling up inside you, wondering what this ride home would entail.
Once you both got into the car, you instinctively reached for your seatbelt but fumbled with the strap, your nerves still a little jittery from the lingering tension of the day. Sana, already buckled in and ready to go, noticed your struggle and shot you a teasing smile.
âNeed some help?â she asked, her tone light but with that familiar playful edge.
You laughed nervously, still trying to get a grip on the seatbelt. âIâm fine, just-â
Before you could finish, Sana removed her belt and leaned over, her hand gently brushing yours aside. âLet me,â she said softly, her voice dipping into a more intimate tone. Without waiting for your response, she reached across you, grabbing the seatbelt and pulling it toward the buckle.
Your breath hitched at how close she suddenly was, her face inches from yours as she leaned in. You could feel the warmth of her body and smell the faint scent of her perfumeâsomething soft and sweet that made your heart race even faster. Sanaâs eyes briefly flickered to yours, her lips curving into a small, knowing smile as she clicked the seatbelt into place. But instead of pulling back right away, she lingered for a moment longer than necessary, her face still so close to yours that you could feel her breath against your skin.
âThere,â she whispered, her voice soft and teasing. âAll setâ
Your heart was practically pounding out of your chest, and for a moment, neither of you moved. The air between you felt thick with anticipation, and you couldnât help but notice the way her gaze dropped to your lips for the briefest of moments before returning to your eyes.
âThanks,â you managed to say, though your voice came out quieter than intended, almost breathless.
Sanaâs smile widened, and her eyes sparkled with a mischievous glint. âYouâre welcome,â she replied.
As she sat back, her eyes met yours, and for a fleeting moment, the air between you felt electric. You could see the desire in her gaze, and your heart raced even faster. The innocent act of buckling a seatbelt had suddenly taken on a whole new meaning.
You couldnât help but return her smile, the heat in your loins growing with each passing second. Sanaâs veiny hand rested on the gear shift, and as she put the car into drive.
The ride had left you with a buzz of excitement and a sense of possibility. Sanaâs flirtatiousness and genuine interest had made the evening unforgettable, and you couldnât help but look forward to what might come next.
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