You Know What I Need Right Now?

Not a good morning for me, hope yall doing better😭

Look i personally grew out of wattpad 4 years ago and went to ao3 but i have to admit ao3 didn’t hit last night so i went to a place i haven’t thought abt in years and that’s wattpad.

Let me just say there will be rare rare times that wattpad actually has a good books that make u stay up all night. Granted the one i’m reading has a few cringey parts and parts that make u go “oh…” but it’s genuinely good for something written back in 2018.

The only real problem i have with it is that it’s written in first person which is throwing me off a bit since the last time i read a first person book was 4 years ago when i was still in my wattpad phase

And i gotta admit i missed cackling at the comments on every paragraph in a chapter wattpad readers have to be some of the funniest people ever

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Spoilers for episode 1115 of one piece ‼️‼️

I’m currently watching ep 1115 of one piece. All i have to say is fuck Aokiji and Blackbeard. I hate hate hate hate blackbeard sm it’s all his fault ace and whitebeard are dead and everytime i remember that i get teary. And fuck Aokiji for being buddy buddy with them. Because like wtf (keep in mind i haven’t read the manga so there may be a story but as of rn idk) and seeing blackbeard and aokiji happy is making my blood boil i hate him sm i need him to die

Mami soy tu vaquero~

First post! :DD

I googled if deer shed their antlers after making this… They do. Let's just say this happens because of the season, lol.

This was supposed to be a funny/dumb idea.

I just like Luffy putting his hat on sad family members.

Given announces a new movie and suddenly all those damn depressing songs from that show starts trending.

What do people do with these again trending songs from a bl show?

Make stsg edits

Guys i’m telling you earlier i was in the bathroom scrolling on tiktok and i see a stsg edit and i hear “Mada~”

I had to pause the tiktok and actually take a deep breath before continuing on.

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i’ll never be a f1 driver, never be an actress from the 2000s, never be on the set of tvd, gossip girl and pll, never be a victoria secret angel in the 2000s, never be a teenager in the 2000s, never be a singer in the 2010, i’ll never be able to learn the whole history of the world, i’ll never be able to know all the secrets about space, i’ll never be a celebrity, i’ll never be an influencer in LA, i’ll never be a kpop idol, i’ll never be famous, i’ll never be able to know everything about the world, i’ll never know the impact i have in this world, i’ll never be able to experience teenage love, i’ll never be able to know what it’s like to sneak out with a friend group, i’ll never be able to experience life as i’ve fantasied.

i’ll never know anything outside of my corner of the earth, i’ll never be able to escape the never ending cycle that is life in this corner.

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I have to live with fomo from things i’ll never experience

fomo from seeing friends being friends

fomo from seeing people able to be themselves without shame

fomo from people not knowing what it’s like to overthink every movement

fomo from girls who don’t know what it’s like seeing ur skinnier friends being hit on while ur in the background

fomo from seeing just how much girls can do when they’re pretty and skinny

fomo from not being famous

fomo from having to experience life through others since i have none of my own

fear consumes me that i might end up being a mother who lives through her child. who ensures they experience everything I couldn’t while trying to experience it for her.

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i hate this chronic fomo i’m never able to shake off

what if what if what if what if

what if i chose my friends differently

what if i didn’t like this but instead that

what if i lost the weight earlier

what if i changed myself to fit in earlier

what if i just paid more attention

what if i just kept going

what if i end it all

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end the fomo, end the what ifs?

would they care?

would they cry?

would they say i was a kind soul?

would they say i could’ve achieved great things?

would they remember me in a year?

or would i end up like another trend that’s only relevant for a few months and everyone goes back to normal?

would people see my ghost in things that remind them of me?

would people wish they could hear one last joke? see one more smile?

would i relieve the burden of my family or add more?

would i finally be at peace?

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So I found something……… I don’t know who the artist is and I wish I did so I could kiss them