Smiling Giggling Kicking My Feet

i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again i will never open up again.

I have no worth if I don’t have your attention.

Are you flirting with me like “haha this is a fun way to pass time” or “haha I can picture us growing old together?”

Getting too comfortable with dragging the metal across my skin

its okay. Its okay i know you hate me. Im so sorry. I only make things worse and im so sorry, i really did try my best to make everything so nice and perfect for you, but i know im cursed to only make things worse and for you to hate me and to never be loved. Theres nothing that could fix me and i deserve the loneliness i feel. Im so sorry i got so attached. Im so fucking stupid for thinking things can be okay when im involve with it. Im such a dumbass. I deserve to be killed. It would be the greatest mercy anyone could grant me. If i were to kill myself and succeed it would be the one thing in my life i ever did right. You deserve better. Im not good enough for you and im so sorry i made you like me for the idiot that i am. I want nothing more than to bash my brains in with a hammer and wish that the sight could make you smile one last time, because at least then i would still make you happy instead of being angry and disappointed with me.

i can see it in the way you text and write to me. You havent told me things were okay. I didnt mean to make things worse.

Please. Just kill me

I can't do this omg

Vent post

So I have a friend I'm calling A and I always listen to her talk about the boy she dating or the boy she likes and no matter what I stop what I'm doing to listen to her but today I wanted to tell her me and this girl I like had are first phone call cause it made me really happy and as I'm about to say something she opens her book an says give me a second and I got mad at her for it cause why would you do that and ignored her.well a little bit ago she asked if I was still mad at her and I didn't respond she asked me if I heard about her breakup that happened today (which was her fault cause she flirted with another guy) and I mumbled yea and she starts talking about the breakup so I tell her I don't care and she says why so I tell her I'm not gonna listen to your problem that YOU started when you won't listen to one thing I was gonna tell me and then she says I'll play a game with you if you stop being mad a me like no I don't want to play a fucking game with you. And the most annoying part is she told my friend M that she didn't know why I was mad at her when I HAD JUST SAID IT I swear I'm so fucking done

I was telling you about how school is so draining that I dread getting up in the morning but you yelling at me to "clean my room"and"try harder"

What if the next time you see me I'm covered I'm my own blood with pills all around me would you tell me to "clean my room:

I b staring at your pictures when we ain’t talking