And It Still Went HARD

i am miserable.

it is a “cry in the shower” kind of day.

A “fill your ears with water and hug your knees close” kind of day.

And i am a miserable creature who had to sit down in the shower today.

This is the kind of day that eats up every ounce of energy you have. It leaves you breathless while you lie on your side, mixing the salt on your face with the salt in the sea.

It is not a nice ocean that greets me this morning.

He tells me there is an end to it somewhere.

All I see is more waves.

I am holding cold water to my chest. Hearing rain pound against my eardrums. Feeling more water batter my already bruised skin.

And I am so tired.

when does this all end.?

i am

so

tired.

i reached out to someone and it didnt go well. Except in reality it really could’ve gone well. I didnt really give myself the space to be rejected- so now here i am back on my own.

It’s like i whispered to someone in a windy tunnel and hoped they heard me.

do you ever realize that you have gone weeks without saying a word to anyone?

after you start talking it’s like everything is suddenly breathing again.

although sometimes i wonder

do i even remember how to speak?

my 4am minecraft binges are not happy about this post

My kind of therapy

has anyone spotted my lost rampant cryptid? He’s freakishly tall, has an unflinchingly beautiful gaze, and sometimes whispers memes to the wind.

I lost him somewhere by the sea and I’m pretty sure it claimed him. Which is OK (we’ve all been there), as long he comes back soon.

If he hasn’t been engulfed in the safe embrace of the ocean- well then THATS when I begin to worry. He is incredibly resilient while most people’s car alarms and windows are NOT.

If you have strange items that look like they could go into a magpie’s hoard DO NOT LOOK AWAY from them.

He will take them

He likes… treasures :3

I just hope he comes back soon. I miss his chaos.

i just gave my cat a little kiss onthe head And now he sounds like a motorcycle <3

wait actually rb this and name as many mutuals off the top of your head as you can in the tags i’m interested

I have officially been waiting here for 635 days.

emotions are so constant

i dont mind em but i would like to just take a break from feeling so much sometime

maybe lie down on a beach somewhere, listen to a guitar, and rest on someone’s chest for a while

one day you’ll find me

strumming my guitar by the sound of the ocean,

warmth of family and friends around me

who knows