Insidethecrypticbluemind - Blue The Cryptid

this is a dumb idea but here i am finally on here, ready to say some stupid shit lol

i am miserable.

it is a “cry in the shower” kind of day.

A “fill your ears with water and hug your knees close” kind of day.

And i am a miserable creature who had to sit down in the shower today.

This is the kind of day that eats up every ounce of energy you have. It leaves you breathless while you lie on your side, mixing the salt on your face with the salt in the sea.

It is not a nice ocean that greets me this morning.

He tells me there is an end to it somewhere.

All I see is more waves.

I am holding cold water to my chest. Hearing rain pound against my eardrums. Feeling more water batter my already bruised skin.

And I am so tired.

when does this all end.?

i am

so

tired.

gonna do a little harmonica crooning like some old timey introspecitve prospector who escaped the confines of their society to run away to a hill covered in flowers and lay underneath a big ol tree. I now long for my lover while basking in the sunshine and my newfound freedom. You know. It’s just your average bittersweet Tuesday. 

I have officially been waiting here for 635 days.

my head hurts

i hav no motivation

all i wanna do is eat and play minecraft

comedian : “something universally understood ami right?”

100000 people : yes take our money

pube is a good name actually i dont think any other name would be as good.

i feel

the stars are

singed

with the ash of burnt words

the night sky is

scorched

with longing for another

my bed is

burning

with the emptiness of being

without you.

my lover,

come home.

i vow to make things better.

no one will stop me.

today my bones are made of the most fragile flowers. I feel little blue petals brush against my lips. Gently

i think i allow myself

to feel happy

for a tiny moment. One that I expected to last for a breathtake - but now my lungs are still full of air. Where’s all the water gone? I can breath. Where’d all the darkness go? I can feel again.

Who is there

hesitating