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let’s talk about pure consciousness // “I AM” state

So i realised i can’t just leave you guys hanging. i can’t just post about how you need to do shit yourselves and dip again. Even tho you guys have all you need on this app i will just be reiterating certain things.

all that’s needed is to relax

everything you do is correct, you can scratch that itch, you can lay any how, sit, even stand, when you set that intention, everything you do is correct, because when you are in that “I AM” state of mind, you are a god.

you don’t need anyone’s help, not any person who has a success story under their belt or any bloggers, including me. you don’t need anyone or anything because you are “I AM”

All that’s need is to relax, deep breathing, but don’t try to hard, this is first nature to you. A lot of you hear that you MUST relax so you force it. Don’t do that. When you hear these success stories it’s like they were so zoned out they didn’t realise they induced for a second. So let those thoughts pass through, accept them, even thoughts about what you ate today.

You CAN focus on the back of your eyelids but don’t force it.

A lot of you can’t and won’t admit that you still feel desperate for the void, you try and act like you don’t care but you do, it’s like that meme: “pretending you don’t care so your screen will load faster”. You still think that it’s your only way out and while trying to act all effortless, you’re begging for it to work on the inside. After acting relaxed you sit up confused as to why it “didn’t work”

you force the relaxation (which means you aren’t actually relaxing) because you still think you need the “I AM” state,

you can’t try to be effortless

you can’t try to zone out

just let it happen

and as for problems, they don’t exist, because the 3D doesn’t exist. The outerman may have woken up in unfavourable circumstances, the innerman has what it wants, what even are circumstances? The outerman keeps falling asleep, the innerman is a void master who gets whatever they want when they want.

The innerman is your true self. You have everything you could ever want, just relax and align.

remember:

deep breathing

relaxation {don’t force relaxation, it’s not going to help anything go “faster”, and that isn’t even needed because time isn’t real, you’re okay, you’re not running out of time no matter what circumstances show you}

affirm “I AM”/ let thoughts pass you by/ sing in your head/count/ replay scenarios whatever

don’t focus on how much time has passed because it doesn’t matter it isn’t real. don’t focus on “if it’s working yet” it has worked, {your innerman experiences your intentions as soon as you make them, you have an intention induce the void state, your innerman is already there, creation of events are already finished, it’s already happened}

immerse yourself in your thoughts and you’ll induce before you know it.

there’s no such thing as you tired and it didn’t work. trail and error does not exist for your innerman the REAL you. you’re not gaslighting yourself or being “delusional” it’s real. It’s done

pure consciousness is as easy as breathing, isn’t it wonderful?

GUYS I JUST FIGURED OUT INTENTION. LIKE ACTUALLY.

Every time I've tried to set intention, it's always been a "failure." It's super annoying, but I was like "what am I doing wrong?

I KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING WRONG.

Every time I've tried to shift, it's always been without actual intention. I was repeating words, but not their meanings.

What is shifting to you?

It doesn't matter why your shifting, but the emotions and thought process does. When you wake up in your DR, what will you feel? Not physically, but emotionally.

THAT IS WHAT GIVES YOUR INTENTION, YOUR WILL TO SHIFT. THAT ALONE CAN, AND WILL SHIFT YOU.

To set intention, you feel the weight of your words. Ask yourself, what do you emotionally feel about shifting? That emotion you feel, right now, in that universe, is enough to shift you. When you lay down, and close your eyes, no matter the method, when you shift, you have to think about the emotional impact you'll have waking up on your DR bed or area. Think about the feeling of your environment. How happy you'll be to feel that one thing there. And once you feel that happiness, that excitement, affirm. "I am shifting." Or, if it pleases you, say "i have already shifted." And you wanna know why that shifts you? Because your emotions are your intentions.

THIS CAN BE SAID ABOUT LITERALLY ANYTHING. TO MY CLUELESS INTENTION SHIFTERS/MANIFESTORS/LOA, KNOW YOUR INTENTION IS JUST YOUR EMOTIONS PUT INTO PRESENT TENSE.

and if I say I just shifted?

I got up out of my bed just to go piss girl and I swear to god— I was in there just thinking “damn I get to shift tonight— wait, no. I get to shift whenever the hell I want. I could shift right now.” and went about my business like normal.

WHEN I TELL YOU I returned to my room and my drink, which I had sitting on top of a book ON MY BED is now sitting on my end table. I DID NOT PUT IT THERE. It’s been sitting on that book ever since I went and got it— WHY IS IT NOW SUDDENLY ON THE TABLE ????

I shifted idc.

Now it’s time to skedaddle to a dr methinks.

the playlist for my band’s discography (hogwarts dr) is almost 6 hours long… I may have gotten carried away 😀

another day, another opportunity to dress like my dr self (inheritance games edition) while I go see Pride & Prejudice in theaters

shifting tonight fr fr

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Shifting Realities:

Guys Shifting is really easy. I know you probably are mad or upset because you hear this all the time and it's been forever and you haven't shifted well. Let me tell you something. Yes, you have. You literally shift all the time. I mean all the time, so I don't want to hear, No, you haven't, and It's just too hard for you. Because it's not the reason you haven't shifted; it's because you have that mindset you have to have a healthy relationship with shifting; it can't be toxic. If you want to shift, then shift. It doesn't take years; it doesn't take months; it doesn't take weeks; it takes a second, and boom, you've shifted. So stop overcomplicating it and just go shift, okay? NOW GO SHIFT!!

FYI, you CAN shift while still hearing your CR/OR surroundings.

I just (mini)shifted (yes I hate that term) and was in my DR bedroom while still hearing my brother talking in my CR.

Senses shift last.

emma. quick. short. sweet. baby (literally) steps. how to have an successful shift. now. (handing the mic to you) !

how to have successful shifts , quick. short. sweet. fine. but first we bury the wellness girlies under the floorboards. we're doing this clean.

you decide , not in the hallmark way. not in the "i believe in myself <3" way. i mean you decide. like a court ruling. you don't wait for the "symptoms." you legislate the outcome. this is not poetry . . but policy. you assume , belief is nice. like good weather. but irrelevant. nobody asks the pilot if he believes in turbulence. it happens anyway. what matters is assuming. and you already do. the way your body knows how to flinch before the slap. the way dogs know when someone's evil. you don't have to "believe to assume" in the shift. you are the shift. ignore the 3d , as in: pretend the world is on mute. your current reality is not real if you think it's not. the 3d is just a reflection of your mindset. a card deck. shuffle. you shift because you said so , that's it. no further verification required. you don't need binaurals or scripts or a bedtime routine you just do it.

listen. everyone thinks this is about technique. it's not. it's about authorship. if your thoughts are the script, your assumptions are the director's cut. if your life is a book, you're the editor with the red pen. if you want, you tear the pages out. you burn them. you start again. that's shifting. that's all it ever was. 　and if you want it in baby steps . . .　

　　　decide , assume , persist , ignore , done

　no magic. no candles. just force of mind. force of will.

we hug now by sydney rose except it’s me who’s been desperate to shift since I first heard of it five years ago— and my friend who I told about it, who then shifted a week later but now doesn’t shift anymore.

Jelloverse - Who Will I Be?

(introducing my drs, kinda)

Alright besties. I’ve never blatantly talked about my drs in detail so consider this a quick little intro to the various drs I intend to spend my time in.

Forgive me for how long this post’s about to be…

I have yet to shift to a dr, but alas the grind never stops. My current main drs include:

Hogwarts Band

Criminal Minds

DC Titans

The Nightmare Before Kissmas (book)

The Inheritance Games (book)

My main main dr is one where I date Spencer Reid but he’s also my uni Professor— I have no explanation for this one okay it heals something in me.

Anyways, let me break these down for ya real simple.

Hogwarts Band

It’s more of a modern day Hogwarts uni type vibe. I’m a fifth year transfer and somehow miraculously start a band with Ginny, George, and Fred. It’s called Mischief Managed. I scripted out the war— just claimed Voldy kicked it when he tried to kill Harry and doesn’t come back because I simply do not want to deal with that. I just want to go to my silly wizard classes and make music with my silly little band.

There is also a two year slow burn with none other than (drum roll please) ✨Theodore Nott✨. Though there was a time it was Fred, but… we learn and we grow, or something.

I have my band’s entire discography sorted from fifth till after seventh year/graduation. Album covers and deluxe editions and all that jazz. I found way too much joy in curating it all specifically. Many of the songs come from the two year slow burn I must endure. I could yap about our discography forever.

Criminal Minds

I am Penelope Garcia’s little sister and am just joining the BAU after spending time undercover— my lore is absolutely horrific. I usually try and avoid unnecessary trauma. However, have you seen the show? I gotta catch up at this point. Anyways, love interest? Spencer Reid, obviously. He consumes my very soul. I have like— four seperate drs for this man, like my own little AUs. I scripted a lot of precautions and made sure we actually do more consulting than field shit because, again, I just wanna vibe.

It’s in the season 4 era, so 2008. My first case will be the Angel Maker case which is episode 2 of season 4, I believe. I can’t watch that episode now without absolutely losing my marbles.

I won’t go into my lore or how it comes to bite me in the ass, but know I made as non-traumatic as possible.

College Romance

Now hear me out, okay? I still have my Creative Writing & Publishing degree, but I go back to school for some goofy little Criminal Behavior certificate thing. It’s just a summer semester, so I’m only there from May to mid August.

And Spencer Reid happens to teach half of my classes.

Why did I do this to myself? Look. We all have issues, okay? And in my Criminal Minds dr it’s like season 4 type vibes— this one is like, season 13. And not FBI related. And in some ways… it’s literally just me, with the same life I have here just now I’m back in uni. And I’ll get to have Spencer Reid love me, as the person I am right here right now. And that… will make me cry, thanks.

It’s only four months of devastating yearning and then we’ll live happily ever after. This is one of the only drs I can see myself living an entire life in. Like marriage and kids and growing old and all that shit. I’ve literally picked names out for our three potential children.

I have my own little friend group and it’s the summer so we get to do all sorts of fun things. I get to lounge around campus and read under the sun, or do my homework under a tree— I will finally romanticize studying, for real.

It’s one of my more chill drs, which is also a bonus. Sometimes a girl just wants a regular-ish life.

DC Titans

I love Dick Grayson. I love him. I want him. I need him. Anyways, I have elemental powers in this one which is fun and whimsical. Another one where I’ve said fuck the plot I just wanna be silly— picture DC Titans as a sitcom and that’s basically my dr. Just patrolling and the occasional baddie. I can’t wait to train with Grayson you have no idea I’m literally screaming just thinking about it. Also Gar my beloved I miss my bestie. I think I’m in college in this one too? Which is how I meet Gar and join the squad— I age peeps up, obviously. Dick Grayson love interest, in case you missed it.

Oh, and I have a music career. Gar, Jericho (yes he is well), and I start our own little record label (because Bruce Wayne loves me and funds my silly endeavors) and I’ve got like five albums/eps planned out. Including album covers and everything. I love sorting a Discography.

The Nightmare Before Kissmas

Not to be confused with the Nightmare Before Christmas, which is entirely different. This one is my pride and joy, honestly. I am so proud of all the little things in this dr. I read the book in December and immediately made a dr because it just utterly devastated and healed bits of my soul. So, you know, the obvious route.

In this one I’m the sister of Coal and Kris Claus, so I’m the Christmas Princess. But I’m also the youngest, so no one gives a fuck about what I do. In most of my drs I still have my Creative Writing & Publishing degree— this one is no exception.

It takes place a year after the book, and Coal & Hex are getting married. On December 13th, which is a Friday. Friday the 13th, in December— it’s literally the most perfect date ever for their Christmas Halloween asses. I get all giddy just thinking about the date yall. We, being me and my brothers and Iris the Easter Princess and best friend of us Christmas hooligans, travel to Halloween for the wedding. Mostly because I want to see that bitch. We get all Christmas in the book, I wanna see what Hex’s home is all about.

My love interest isn’t canon to the books. I’ve made him childhood friends with Hex who has returned from his studies to attend the wedding. His name is Moon. (and his faceclaim is s1 Spencer Reid/MGG I am just a girl okay?)

I’ve also been having dreams about Moon for over a year, ever since I returned to Christmas to help my brothers with their dismantling of the heirarchy bullshit (basically the end of the first book). Because I want a strange weirdly prophetic dream moment, okay? And Moon’s been having the same shit. So when we meet upon our arrival to Halloween— shit ensues.

It’s actually more enemies to lovers but in the sense that we’re enemies because we feel so very much and it’s all very confusing and after a year of being haunted and tormented by these constant dreams— I don’t know man I just need some angst first.

The Inheritance Games

Another baby of mine. I love shifting to books because I feel like there’s so much more to discover than with a show or movie or something. You have no concrete actor or anything you associate with the characters, and everything is almost up to interpretation. It’s fun.

I replace Avery in this dr, obviously. Why shift to not be the main character? Again, less plot more shenanigans. Everyone is aged up, again. I enjoy being my age in all of my drs.

This one isn’t as planned out as I’d like it to be. But Grayson Hawthorne is the love interest. Enemies to lovers, of course. I’m not quite sure what else to yap about for this one. I focus a lot more on my writing career in this one, since being a random billionaire will definitely help with that. And who am I if not a writer?

So that’s those bad boys…

I have a handful of other drs I could talk about… I’m gonna list them all for your perusal.

Fully Scripted:

Hogwarts Academia

Outer Banks

Twilight

The Flash

Sam & Colby

Small town dr (based off the show Ghost Whisperer)

Twitch Streamer (entirely separate from any existing streamer group don’t go getting any ideas)

Summer Lovin’ (I’m rich and live by the beach it’s pretty great)

Sorta Scripted:

Red White & Royal Blue

Stardew Valley

Death Note

Teen Wolf

MCU

Fame dr (but it’s the novel I’m currently writing here being turned into a movie)

Skyrim x The Witcher (this one is so complicated I fear I may never fully capture all my thoughts & ideas)

Batfam (I know little about canon shit but I’m trying)

Unscripted:

Bridgerton

Mystic Messenger

Love & Deepspace

Sky High

Bratz

So that’s me, as a shifter. Just a girl with a long list of places she intends to cause absolute chaos in. I’m always down to talk about any of my drs. Sometimes I get so into them I start making my own outfit collages because of course my style changes in every dr and I need to capture that. I am so very specific it might be my detriment… but oh well at least it’s fun.

This was long asf. If you took the time to read all that… thank you (I’ll cry about it). Consider this a little forehead smooch just for you 💋

Jello💖