I Absolutely Love This Art Style, And These Silly Little Guys (ok But Why Is Khun Slaying So Hard Like

AYO 👀👀👀

[Halloween] Yuuri woke up one night and had a close encounter with a vampire~

The tgcf reading experience (spoilers):

Book 1: omg it’s so romantic 🥺

Book 2: omg it’s so romantic, also wind master best character

Book 3: my poor baby *gives Xie Lian head pats* —ooh hualian content

Book 4: PAIN AND SUFFERING—oh cool more hualian content

Book 5: *mxtx dumps lore, refuses to elaborate*

Book 6: NO NO YOU DONT UNDERSTAND—YES YES HUALIAN—WTF WTF WTF

Book 7: Wtf is going on

Book 8: my heart has been shattered and stitched back together at least 10 times, but it was worth it

So anyway that’s what I did this summer

Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.

Day 4 of crying over banana fish, when usually making me cry would be like moving mountains. I cried myself to sleep the past 3 nights after finishing the anime, this is seriously a different kind of pain. I don’t think any story will ever hurt me as much as this. It really tugs at every fiber of your being until all you’re left with is an inconsolable ache in your heart. I don’t regret anything though. Ash and Eiji will forever be in my thoughts, and their story will forever exist in my soul.

SO TRUE I only just recently watched Yuri on Ice for the first time and it’s already a comfort show for me xD Before YOI I only had one comfort movie but I now have a comfort series; just—the beauty of the skating and music combined with the themes of love is SO ENDEARING

you know what?? I never really got what people were talking about when they said they had comfort shows/movies/books. but after rewatching Yuri on Ice for the [redacted] time, I think it's finally clicked

Hello??? This is the best thing ever and I want it

3 parts standee i made for Victuuri and Victuri

The red thread heart 🥹 and my god the way they’re looking at each other

Let's go home, Your Highness. @oryunart

Love me some gay skating ⛸️🏳️‍🌈

Just some sketches

This man has no right to be this pretty, the art style is so captivating as well ✨

i miss drawing him

Snowy and Gingersnap ❄️🍪

reblog with your starter chicks’ names mine are lucky and clover and i adore them 🐣☘️