Monsters in the Dark #8
Dark themes, mentions of Billy’s abandonment by his mother, dark fluff, fem!reader.
@idaofinfinity @e-dubbc11 @rosaleenablack
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It was quiet that evening. You both laid on his living room floor, Billy lost in his thoughts, watching you read Shakespeare while he played with your hair.
He shook himself from those thoughts, knowing they were growing dark, thinking of all the ways he was sure you’d eventually leave him.
The ways he’d drag you back. But stopped himself, knowing if you truly wanted to leave, he’d let you go.
Even if it made his chest fucking ache.
“Read to me,” Billy murmured, lips brushing your head.
You shuddered, enjoying Billy’s touch, and began to read;
“These violent delights have violent ends, and in their triumph die like fire and powder, which as they kiss, consume.” You recited, softly. Your fingers played with the edge of the paper.
Billy watched you, admiring you, and kissed the corner of your lips. He was the Devil, but for you? He was Godly vengeance on your enemies.
You loved Billy at his darkest. But you didn’t seek to save him. You knew you could not, instead you stayed in the darkness with him.
Like Persephone had chosen to stay with Hades by eating the pomegranate.
He stroked your cheek, “I’m damning you.” He spoke, startling you.
You shrugged, a smile played on your lips. “It’s my choice, Billy. It’s not on you. A God who is supposedly for free will but punishes you for not choosing Him is maybe a God I don’t wanna choose.” You told him, leaning into his touch.
“You’d choose me over heaven?” Billy asked, thumb brushing your bottom lip.
“I don’t wanna go to a place I can’t follow you.” You said earnestly. “You cut off someone’s fingers for me just because they threatened me. What has God done but watch my father abuse me? My mother had to step in, and He didn’t defend her, either.”
Billy was a selfish bastard. He rarely cared about anyone but Frank and himself, but he fucking ached at the thought of you suffering eternal misery for him.
He grunted as you pushed him back, discarding the play, and climbing on top of him. You laid your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, thighs on either side of his hips.
Silence reigned, but it was comfortable, the clock ticked over the TV, and New York bustled below the penthouse.
He remembered Curtis bringing you over, a fragile woman, scared of so much, shaking the first night at the door to his bedroom, begging to let you sleep with him.
How he’d been hooked the minute you’d crawled in, fingers clutching his shirt. You reminded him of the boy he’d been. How he’d cried at the fire station, wondering why his mom had left him there, and when she was coming back.
He’d marked you as his since then, and swore to protect you, swore that no one would ever hurt you again, after hearing from Curtis the tales of your father’s abuse.
Billy gripped your hips, angry thinking about it. He wanted to drag your father from his grave, and burn the bones. No. No one would ever hurt you again.
If only he knew, you felt the same way about him.
A beating heart of stone.
A Monsters in the Dark Drabble
Sexism/misogyny, blood, canon typical violence, dark themes, your media consumption is your responsibility, protective!Billy, fem!reader.
Monsters in the Dark Masterlist.
516 words, reposted with edits, fleshing out Billy’s feelings a little more.
“You know, Russo. Your girl sure is sweet, the hostess with the mostess,” he said, referring to how you’d served him, and other guests last weekend with a cheerful smile on your face, never once spilling the drinks.
He could see why Russo liked you, kind and soft. “Not very pretty, but it would be a shame if something happened to her, being a woman. I could protect her better. I got more money.” His competitor said, flashing his yellowed teeth in a grin, and drinking a beer in Billy’s kitchen. They had been talking business, or rather he’d been trying to swindle Billy.
“I’ll give you twenty percent for her.” He said, leaning on the counter. Like you were for sale. “A deal for an orphan like you.”
Billy felt a rage that someone would threaten you, diminish you as helpless because you were a woman, sexist fuck, and then try to take you from him. You were his. The only person he cared about besides the Castles. He gnashed his teeth together, fingers tightening on his beer bottle. He looked down as Elias set his fingers down on the counter, a gaudy family ring on his finger.
Before Elias could blink, Billy grabbed a butcher knife out of the wooden dock, and slammed the knife down on his fingers calmly, slicing them off knuckle down, a single minded purpose to send a message.
Elias howled, as he made an awful mess, bleeding everywhere, grabbing his hand looking at what remained in horror.
Billy grabbed a bag and some ice, putting his fingers in it, before handing it to Elias. “Go get your fingers put back on. But next time you threaten my girl? I’ll throw them in the Hudson.” He bared his teeth at Elias.
“You’re fucking crazy! I’ll get you for this, Russo.” Elias shouted, holding his bloody hand, his face twisted in an ugly scowl.
Billy only grinned, dark eyes like pits. He drank his beer, watching Elias walk out, carrying his fingers in the bag, meaning to wait in the building’s lobby for an ambulance.
He cleaned the blood up in his kitchen, the mess itching his brain, something fierce. He wondered if he was capable of loving you with how bitter and bruised his heart was, from people who were supposed to love and care for him.
He scrubbed the counter, thinking about how he’d initially wanted to be needed. And your softness made him believe in good things like tenderness. And he’d wanted that for himself, and so he’d encouraged your love, indulging in you. But then with each taste of you, he hungered for more.
And then, he’d gotten what he’d chased all his life, affection. He was wanted for who he was. But sometimes he didn’t know what to do with it, fumbling in the dark to return your feelings.
But he realized as he threw the dirty cloth in the wash, that he'd burn his heart out of himself just to keep you warm, and that was enough.
Attachments be damned, but goddamn he liked you.
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you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life
Monsters in the Dark #21
Nightmares, ptsd, mentions of canon typical violence, dark themes, fem!reader.
@idaofinfinity @e-dubbc11 @rosaleenablack
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You were drowsy that night, curled against Billy while he cleaned his ka-bar. You watched him, eyelids drooping. “How many people has Billy killed with that?” You asked, scooting closer.
“Too many to count.” Billy said, wiping the blade. He looked dangerous holding it, the way the blade gleamed in his hand. The casual way he handled it, and twirled it.
It excited you.
“I’m a monster.” Billy said, though not self deprecating at all. He sounded darkly amused.
“Billy’s my favorite monster.” You said, playing with his sweater, twirling a loose thread around your finger.
“Oh, baby. You’re my favorite angel.” He said, pinching your cheeks.
You giggled, before yawning halfway through your giggle. “Time for bed, sweet pea?” He asked, setting his knife down.
“Wanna be with you a little longer.” You said, yawning again.
Billy’s heart burned for you. You reminded him so much of the boy he was; sweet, trusting, loving. He remembered following his mother everywhere, to her annoyance, clinging to her clothes.
Billy wanted to protect your heart. Even from himself.
He kissed your forehead, watching you.
“Sometimes I dream that I’m in those woods again,” you said, “waiting for my mom. And if I look close enough the trees and the branches look like monsters in the dark.” You continued.
Billy listened quietly. It was the first time you had spoken of your nightmares.
“They pull on me, on my clothes, trying to drag me deeper into the woods, tearing at my skin. I always wait for God, but He never comes. But you know who does?” You asked, looking up at him.
Billy swallowed.
“Billy. Billy comes. And I always take his bloody hand, and we go away, away into the darkness. And then, I’m finally safe in his arms.” You said, softly.
Billy crushed you to him, and tucked you under his chin, and his treacherous heart blazed.
You both sat like that for some time, enjoying each other’s company, feeling full there.
There was never going to be a time that Billy wouldn’t come for you.
Rosa, VTMB.
Every time I sleep the future plays out before me. I know the ending... it will end over and over until I cease to dream.
Stronger Without
A Drabble set in the Monsters in the Dark universe.
@idaofinfinity @e-dubbc11 @rosaleenablack
//angst, mentions of pregnancy, mentions of abandonment, mentions of an attempt on reader’s life by her father, dark themes, fem!reader//
Billy wondered if his mother ever loved him. Or if he’d been a burden from the beginning. Had she wished she had terminated the pregnancy?
What about his father? Had he left when he learned of his mother’s pregnancy?
Had he abandoned Billy, too?
Bitterness filled him at the thought, maybe it would have been better than all this suffering, he thought hitting the punching bag hard, his knuckles aching.
He sweated as he hit the punching bag in quick succession, his muscles aching with the strain. It didn’t relieve the ache in his heart, the fucking pain, that no matter how much he tried to shove it down, still remained.
But then he’d never know you, if he hadn’t been born. And that made him ache deeply. Especially knowing you’d experienced the trauma you had. Your father hated you, and made it known to you every day. Tried to kill you, even.
The thought of you facing that alone, was enough to make him realize that he’d go through it all over again, just to be with you.
Billy clenched his fists.
You were both stronger without your parents.
your billy x bunny mafia au is very cute.
very cozy as well regardless of the dark themes that come with mafia. but I guess it's just your writing that's comforting and cozy.
it makes me want to bundle up in Billy's arms and fall asleep while he's telling abt military tactics and the use of weapons and stuff like that.
truly a treat.
thanks for writing 💖
Thank you so much! You’re right though, I do tend to write cozy things. I was thinking about that the other day. I could probably do well in the cozy mystery genre. 😂
Thank you again for reading, and the follow! I really appreciate it! 💜
Want an easy fix for the energy of your home? Burn a black candle alongside a brown one. The black candle banishes negative energy, while the brown one helps to bring balance.
I tried to play the same thing (as when Billy gives Madani a bath) in the episode where I have Frank tied up and I’m washing his face. It’s kind of similar, you know? He’s washing his face, he’s cleaning him up, he should be sympathizing, but he’s thinking, “I could choke him right now. I have that power.” I think he really gets off on that power, that genuine lust for power.
Ben Barnes talking about Billy Russo.
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