Chat I Am So Tired.

uni has drained my social battery to the point that my maximum energy is 20% of its original state

finals will kick my ass

Guys. Things happen in three right? I need someone to stop this right now because I’m afraid of anymore. Whatever I’ve gotta do to prevent that please lmk

Dead On Arrival by FOB is one of those songs that has levels of complexity to it. Like for me, the song literally is talking about itself. I ALWAYS skipped DOA because it was different from a lot of the other songs I was listening to by them. And then I gave it a listen and was like oh I forgot the ending bit is more interesting and I started fighting that instinct to skip it. Then I listened to it HIGH. I heard the words and got the meaning and I was like ohhhhh. It’s the irony of how fans react to music YEARS later. Because it has been yeaaaaaars and I’m still the target audience of emo sad hours and I’m being perceived by their music and it’s just so poetic, and then I’m like these are just some dudes and I am just high and this is just a song.

How the fuck do morning people stay awake the whole day???? It’s been 4 hours and I need a nap

Oh god. My daily reminder that I’m depressed.

“I just want to be in love with a boy the way boys like boys and in love with a girl the way girls like girls but instead I’m here. Bitchless.”

-Doom & Gloom by Dance Gavin Dance

I am starting a thread of songs I want people to make edits to. TikTok, YouTube, I don’t care if you send it to me through the mail on a dvd, if it has these songs to two (or more) queer fuckers I’ll watch it. Thank you.

-poltergeist by Blackbear featuring Baywatch

Man, I have gotta step on a soap box here for a minute fellow gardening folk. I’m stuck home with my parents (who know I smoke and also smoke but like we have to hide it from my grandma and they eat to smoke I smoke to eat iykyk) and my mental health be struggling (see earlier posts) so I’m just waiting to garden so I can shut my brain the hell up and just sleep. But I buy only shit that gives me the drive and focus to lock in. So I’m here at 1:00am loving the sweet breeze that is sativa and wishing I could’ve just done this earlier to manage the badness at a REASONABLE HOUR so I could’ve been asleep by now ;-;

“Time is the one currency you can’t get back.”

— Mark Travis Rivera

I’m collecting a list of songs surrounding the age 23 so far I have the following:

1. 23- Chase Atlantic

2. Chateau- Blackbear

3. What’s my age again?- Blink182