Took You Like A Shot, Thought That I Could Chase

I don't know what to do anymore

I'm crying day and night

Yet still somehow I have the will to wake up on the

Last third of the night

To pray for your health and safety

Please give me a sign

I'm lost please find me

I love him

Everytime I try to forget you, god brings me back to you everytime

I love you

It hurts

It won't stop

I've prayed

Instead, my heart yearns harder than before

I love you

It's you

It's always been you

Only you

Always you

Sometimes I don't know why I'm crying

I say i miss you but I've never met you

I don't know you

And you don't know me

But I can feel it in heart and soul

That one day we’ll meet

That we’re destined to be together before everything was written before the beginning of time

My angel

My love

I can't wait for hello

I can't wait to feel your touch

I can't wait to be in your warm embrace

One day instead of my poems or letter

Being written on here

I'll write to you

I only look for you

Only you

I only yearn for you

Only you

I only wait for you

Only you

I only pray for you

Only you

I only love you

Only you

I can't wait to met you

My Muse

My other half

I love you

I fall in love with the little things, like the sound of your laugh; it makes me feel so warm inside.

I pierce my tongue through the night

Muffling my tears with my palm firm on my lips

Desperate to be kissed

My racing heart beating out of my chest

It’s starting all over again

I try to be quiet

Excuse myself to the bathroom

Not yet alone the walls echo

I’m tired

Staring blankly at the tiled walls

I slumber to the floor in defeat

I’m inpatient

But I believe one day you’ll come to me

And I’ll come to you

But for now I’ll pray for you

My Muse

Crashing parties but all I’m crashing is my soul

I lie to myself and say that I’m doing fine but in reality, I’d kill myself to hold you one more time

Where did all the time go?

Morning to night I'm locked up in my room far from life

I feel so alone out here

I feel so alone out here

Without you

But there’s no way to reach you

So I go back to our home that never was

I still call you home

Cause you were the only one I could tell I hurt

You were the only one that could put me to sleep like a baby

You made me feel so safe

I've never felt such a level of love before

More than I ever got from those I call family

Am I no good?

Do I not deserve your love?

Then why can't you be mine cause I'll be yours till the end of time and thereafter

Can I be yours?

Please tell me I'm yours

I'm tired

Lonely

In love

Drunk in my love

For you, my love.

However many cold winters and hot summers go by, I'll wait for you patiently. However many tears I cry, I'm reminded my love for you will never wither or dry. However many nights I cry myself to sleep, someday you'll replace them with smiles and endless laughter until we fall asleep in each other's arms. However, for now, until forever.

Cries to degradation you were my separation I don’t know were to go from here.

Call out to me

When you’re ready I'll be there

Waiting for you

Till we meet again, my love.

Every night just when i look up at the moon, i wonder if he’s looking at it too; and i don’t know what to do.

Dear Guardian Angel,

My gums are bleeding

I still haven't eaten

Do you pity me?

Please don't

I do this to myself

I self sabotage when things get better and act like it's the end of the world

I dug my own grave

Do you feel anything at all…

You were assigned to me

I'm sorry

My observer

For all the things you've seen

For all my thoughts you hear

For all the words I utter

And still I hope you can see that this is not truly me

I am is whatever I've seen on tv

I'm a chameleon

I put on a new mask and change it when it cracks

I'm lost

Who am I?

I’m gone

Or am I just done

Sitting with my thoughts alone

In this empty home

Father ignores and mothers on the other side of the world

I'm sure you already know

I mean you know me better than me

Stuck in my apocalypse

Hollow, dark, empty, incomplete, disguised, loveless

Distorted with the painful echo of my screams and cries.

Begging for an escape from my capturer

Me.

@rbhvleo // roberto ferri // mothering by ainslie hogarth // rainer maria rilke // ? // planet of love by richard siken // a self portrait in letters by anne sexton // indian summer by ron hicks