Why Artists And Writers Reblog Their Work Multiple Times:

W.i.p. this is just a quick look to see how it might look when I finish. I need to add some to his face and alter some things in general. I like how this is turning out but…. I have a question, should I make him in this outfit or his other outfit? I don’t mind either way

My 2 cents on… cheap commissions…! 

Does anyone know where you can upload and link videos directly from phone that are longer than a minute or two....

It bothers me that other random people think you are a failure for choosing not to go to college. Especially when you yourself KNOW you don't need to go. Especially when tons of teachers have told you privately that "college is for those who need to learn or just to get the 'official' title to something, especially when it comes to being an artist" They told me it was a waste of MY time and money.

This may be very long, I'm sorry, It's something I hope gets read.

Random thoughts~ I hate seeing so much negativity everywhere. I'm not going to be specific about anything but I hope I can explain the best I can. First I'd like to say it is impossible for ME to shorten this. My thought process can't fathom how to compress thoughts. It seems people everywhere have a huge lack of empathy, unable to think of how someone elses life may be, as well as how certain things effect them in their life, their reactions. The thing that REALLY bothers me is I see all these people heavily badmouthing, insulting, making jokes at people they used to claim to admire. In reality I've NEVER seen anyone leave a friendship or something similar for a few bad events, I've seen everyone do things much, much worse. (Without even knowing half the story who are immediate friends at times.) The thing as well though is things are circumstantial, theres no way to know whats going on by just observing, its gossip, its horrible. I know certain people from totally different point of views than others, and just from that it honestly disgusts me to see what people say. I might slightly be going in circles here but I see it as the worst type of hypocrisy when this situation kinda arises: -people do a possibly negative thing in response to others being rude, possibly annoying, etc.- Or -people react badly to something or in an unacceptable way- And in response I see people reacting in the same way but sometimes worse than the people they are reacting to. That in itself isn't a big deal but what IS, is when i see people months after something STILL talking badly and insulting anything related in a joking fashion. Thats just spreading negativity and just stirring up things people shouldn't be involved with in the first place. People aren't your personal tv show even when it involves people doing that for a living. It also bothers me seeing people trying to invalidate mental illness and certain disorders. Why? Because I have to live with the same thing through out my life. I CAN'T control how I react to people, I DON'T realize when I'm mean, the feeling passes over me but its like the "one ear out the other" thing, or when you have a gut feeling but ignore it. And its scary when the exact fears kinda come to the surface. Let me just say, this is the only way I can describe anything right now. "You can't explain to a person who has been blind all their life what SEEING actually looks like, just as you can't imagine a new color." What that means is just because you experience life one way doesnt mean someone else feels the same things as you, some have to deal with things that are unimaginable even though some may see it as petty and dumb. No ones in "the right" or "the wrong" things like this happen and it sucks. The thing is, things like these are things that need to be WORKED THROUGH, at that no one should be condemned by things like this either, at that by ones not even involved, even if its just a friend of a friend. I say this because I deal with things like this all my life, as I'm sure plently of others have as well. I have severe anxiety, tourette's, depression, and bpd. (Tourettes in itself is a bundle of disorders and junk.) _________ (I may be getting too personal within my own life here but I feel its the only way I can get my message through.) These right here are the exact reasons why I dont talk to people online or in real life. As certain individuals do, i react harshly, I dont realize it, combined with that the anxiety is a catalyst to being unable to control tics from my tourettes. The problem within that is my second set of tics that come out involve actual outwardly physical things such as: hitting others, Things, Squeezing things, breaking things in half without realizing it, etc. I've been arrested for things I can't physically control, Ive been called evil, a bitch, crazy, a demon, monster, It really hurts. (The charges were able to be dropped luckily, didn't stop all the trauma it caused.) I can guarantee you no one can even imagine what it feels like. Just because two people have the same/similar illness, life, experiences,etc. Doesn't mean they are supposed to be an exact copy on how they react. __________ I try to only post art on here, I am honestly afraid to directly communicate with anyone, I have a hard time even replying to others. I am posting this here because I feel maybe it would be okay to say something for once. (I haven't posted in forever though due to computer problems, and skill honing with art in general. Not satisfied). _______ I'd also like to say it extremelly pisses me off that just because people only see things from their view and word of mouth that they automatically label someone as a monster, spineless, a flat out bad person, etc. Yet just because you see that you try to push the fact theyre a bad person who should be disliked. But what you dont know is those same people/person could have seriously saved a person/peoples lives behind the scenes, that the/those same individual(s) you claim to be monsters could have been the best thing to occur in someone elses life, many even. Why does a few things make someone a bad person? And why do people mock others when they respond with "no ones perfect." Because its true. I've noticed from other sites and things not involving certain topics here that there is a mob mentality to things. I have been trying to become more social by taking part in discussions. The thing ive noticed is on the "normal" parts of, let us say Facebook for instance, most people rule on the opinion part no matter how messed up the opinion is, while people who try to come in with actual discussion or kinder opinions get attacked, everyone says how wrong and dumb they are if you make one slip up. On the other hand... Being on Facebook with a psychology group, those same posts, same topics are seen at rationally without heavy opinions, problem solving without creating conflict. That is what needs to be done here and in life in general. Of coarse I could still say this is all just my opinion, just one I feel needs to be said. I'm pretty sure I cant cover every single little detail here, there will always be a "loophole" people will abuse in someones words or actions. Thank you if anyone read this, though vague I hope it makes sense.

second contest entry for Minxs current Cintiq contest. Virtues Last Reward, Minx/Sigma and I tried to put the rest of them in, something to like about each character to some extent which I find rare for me. I found myself to really enjoy the Zero Escape games. —- Once I am able to get on a computer I will edit this with the finished version (I uploaded the one I saved right before I finished, minor details but still glaring to me)

Sans progress.

I NEED help(commissions) so, so badly, please scroll to the bottom for the gist of things if you don't wanna hear a slight back story of why I need help. I am terrible at networking, severely afraid of people, I break down at everything and can't work any sort of job. My dad is a horribly evil person, he breaks agreements and tries to misinterpretes everything to everyone. My husband and I are struggling so badly. We have so much debt and bills.(yay for in the past, family/roomates who steal info and ruin financial accounts) I cant work, I cant get on SSI, others think im lazy because of it, literally all I can do is create art. He is a literal dictator with how he is, he tricked us into giving him more money then we should for things, we called him out on the lies from proof, but again others agreed with him because he knows how to paint everyone else as the "bad guy". Now he told our landlord he isn't gonna pay the originally agreed upon rent, we had a solid agreement of my husband paying half for me and him and half the rent to my dad, instead he is now claiming he is paying my portion, which we even confronted before moving in and it was all okay (wish people would agree to write contracts) My dad is on a fixed income, SSI, my husband works as much as he can as it is, we can barely afford food or anything as it is, we cant get foodstamps or medicaid because he makes too much and even when we almost were able to it would require me looking for a job which i cannot do at all, i can hardly leave my home. We pay bills every week, we are trying to reduce debt so we can find a place to live on our own, every other place we cant move because our credit scores are so bad (mine is literally 9999, due to never working and gaining bills from others using my name and info for accounts while a kid/teen) I also have celiac disease and cant eat most food there is, especially cheaply without making me feel nauseous, i literally starve myself like it is normal, eating a few spoonfuls of peanut butter a day, or water...(healthy food and food emulating "normal" food is very pricy, example: a loaf of bread is nine dollars.) Maybe a meal when I cook for dinner once in awhile. My dad also cheated us on utilities, and out of 200 I'm supposed to get every month as a home health care person for him, he told the landlord we aren't splitting rent anymore and my husband has to pay double for me I guess. We have nowhere to go, nothing we can do. We stand up to him, we get this happening to us. We are strapped more than it is. ----- I desperately, DESPERATELY, need to start taking commissions, I am so scared, I haven't in so long, my skills are a lot better than they were when I used to, but the art world sees art prices differently now of days, as well as I have many styles and qualities to choose from. What I used to price my art when I was younger, people would tell me I underprice myself, now of days I fear i'd be overpricing from others opinions on the matter, and that is with my current works. I want to post examples but it will just be random stuff I have on my phone. I am unsure of pricing, scared to do so but need to so badly, my life is a constant, living, hell..that gets worse and worse constantly...as in police threats for crying or standing up for myself, eyes spat in, chairs thrown at, etc.

I haven't much to post because of tedious painting 8) I got a laptop recently but havent felt like investing time in drawing on it yet.

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