Third Entry For Minxs Cintiq Contest. This Time Throne Of Lies, I Tried Looking Into The Game The Best

yenaticosiria answered your post: Hey, yeah, I have bad problems going o...

You should check out the Markiplier fandom friend! We would all welcome you and there are some very kind people who would be willing to signal boost about your situation and hey maybe someone with spare money could help? You never know.

I’ve been wanting to, my husband told me awhile back to draw him as well. (Need to get out of my comfort zone~~~) I’ve heard the community is rather kind, I’ve just always thought it was really big and I’d maybe be lost in everything, haha. Maybe, that is true, I’ll never know unless I try. :o

Tbh everytime i see a post here or on your personal blog, i breath a little sigh of relief. Please take care, and good luck.

Thank you, sorry for not replying sooner. I both haven’t been able to find out how to reply messages/been able to get online/spend the time I do manage to get online replying messages, I feel bad because I feel a lot of these are so old and I had no clue they existed until a lil while back.

My 2 cents on… cheap commissions…! 

SO.....I’m homeless now, well our landlord just kicked us out today, we have no way to pack anything, nowhere to go, three cats, no money I’m super sick right now and can’t even walk around the house without wanting to fall over...

Sorry for all the text filled bad stuff lately, this is just another one of those.

So, I have a huge phobia of being around males in general. (past traumatic events, etc.) My husband has a thing for mocking me continuously in the future with past things I said to him in a serious manner...(like him saying “she was asking for it” when he was trying to do something bad to a friend of mine without either of our permission vocally, and while we were both drunk, no matter how much we’d try to argue his logic, he sticks to what he thinks...this is a different matter so it isn’t important in the context of what I am posting about, but it’s just to give where he was coming at from this.) I tell him that I don’t want people just walking into my private space without MY permission, that he should go out if someone wants him. He tells me I’m being rude and should stop being so...(well I forgot what he actually said but around the same lines of when he calls me mean, evil, etc.) I say “I don’t like being around guys..” husband says “that’s sexist” in a very condescending tone. I vocalize to him SO MUCH that I get a panic attack when there are other guys around, the more...the more panicky, or also depending on the personality could escalate it, sadly this person is a roommate who I though we would be gone from since we are out of a home but nope...but this guy is just like the person who helped put this fear upon me... So I don’t get why he says this when I tell him constantly whenever he would have friends around too that I can’t go in there, I can’t even say “hey i need you for a minute” or anything, that’s how bad it is, but nope....he just tells me to get over it or it’s irrational, etc. it’s worse that this guy talks badly about me (though husband denies it even though I know some of the acronyms the guys used in front of me and heard some of the things passing by his room) he keeps my husband from me, enables his drinking and everything, this guy buys tall cans of beer everyday (like 10 or so of them a day) I preferred our last roomate, he couldn’t pay for a second month but at least I knew the person decently and even if I was still uncomfortable when alone with the guy(like husband at work, so if he had to ask me for something I’d freak out knowing I’d have to communicate by myself) I could still talk and feel okay with their presence. just all this...just is too much.

I have been forgetting to upload this but here it is finally. This took a few months but it is complete c: Creating a lot of bubbled gems is physically painful and mentally exhausting I found out. I added some close ups as well. I needed to draw her, and my first time drawing Blue Pearl as well. (I love blue/pink/purple color schemes so much.)

Sucks having zero friends, "cliques", "squads", etc. To where you consider seeing a person you know for less than a min. Hanging out with someone. Literally having no ability to do anything "normally" enjoyable in life...feeling bad because you know feeling bad makes others feel bad for not being there, which makes endless guilt on all sides possibly. My daily entertainment and feeling of purpose is Litterally me just sitting at my desk all day drawing or art-ing in general. Other than that....youtube and Steven Universe, sleep, avoidance.

more bad things happening 8D oh what a joy it is, my bank card is missing, I never lose it, just checked to see mail from it, see a negative balance...someone has my card....ALL BECAUSE OF THESE EVENTS....I hate it....why....

Guess who I'm making now 8D This is the "sketch" so I know how I want it to look.

:I

Honestly, I don't feel that inspired? I have the motivation to draw things, but not the inspiration or confidence to do so I just feel kinda like, what's the point? I never seem to do what others like, in any situation.