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You are not alone. I don’t know your specific situation but my asexuality is like a roller-coaster; some days I’m proud and comfortable and other days I feel ashamed and broken. My family is difficult. Only one person in my family, my cousin, knows I’m asexual. I have a deep fear of ever telling anyone else. I don’t talk much at family gatherings so I hear everything they say, nothing I’ve heard lends me to believe they would be supportive. The three friends I’ve told, had no idea how to react so they didn’t. It makes me feel very lonely. 

Does anyone else know what it’s like to be  an asexual? Does anyone know how frustrating it is? please tell me I’m not alone, please tell me someone understands what I’m going through, my pain.

squeezy-cheez The greatest factor for me has been the consistency of my experience. I spent years deeply confused about what I was feeling. At first I thought I was a late bloomer. Then I thought I was homosexual, because I think a lot of women are beautiful. Then I thought I was straight, because men are gorgeous. But during conversations about sex I was firmly not interested. I've repeated my disinterest over and over again in conversations and journaling through the years. And this was long before I knew and used the term asexual. I was talking with my cousin over coffee one night. We were discussing her new boyfriend and so forth. I confessed that I was a virgin; she was a little shocked and asked why. I told her I wasn't interested. She said that maybe I was asexual, it was something that had come up in her human sexuality course. I remember the next day I sat down and researched asexuality. I cried. No label has ever given me so much relief. This thing I was internally agonizing over for years had a name. I don't really think about sex on my own, the subject typically has to be brought to my attention. When the conversation does get going I feel so abnormal and uncomfortable. I feel broken almost every time. I struggle all the time with who I am. I worried, like you, that I was making it all up in my head. But the history of my experience is there. And most importantly, when I identified as asexual nothing about my experiencs changed, except that nowadays I am on average happier.

In the years before I found asexuality, the thought that repeatedly ran through my head was “I don’t like boys… but I don’t like girls either. Can’t I just be nothing? Just nothing?” And for a year and a half now I’ve had a name for it. I love knowing that there are so many of you out there that feel the same, and that it’s not just me. Thank you tumblr and thank you ace awareness week!

After some weeks of being uncomfortable I finally bit the bullet and had a coworker verbally warned about his sexual misconduct towards me. Standing very close just behind my shoulder, saying I'm beautiful, staring. I've asked him to stop but he and a few others thought I was joking; his comments towards me aren't bad they make me highly uncomfortable. I hate the idea that I should be flattered. Fuck that. I don't like that, I don't want that. I don't care if you don't mean it that you're just joking. It adds stress to an already stressful job. I told you to stop, end of story.

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I hate that I can have an okay day. Come home. And one fucking comment can ruin my attitude. People have asked me why I'm so spiteful...because I could have cured cancer and my family would still nag me about a can of coke I left on MY desk before I went and cured cancer and i hadn't thrown the can away yet

I feel very much the same way. I have a sad feeling that my friends will never know because the thought of non-sexual love will never cross their minds.

I want to be out but I don’t want to have to come out over and over again I don’t want people to question my sexuality when I tell them I’m ace I want the world to already know what asexuality is/what it entails and just have it be a chill, accepted thing I don’t want to be thought of as a freak or made fun of for not wanting sex

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